come close to me hold me

"How about wearing this?" Jiang Yien rummaged through the closet before finally finding a decent coat. After comparing it with An Xun, he felt that it was far worse.

Jiang Yien has her own ideas, and wants to match An Xun's outfits as much as possible.

In fact, An Xun's clothes are not complicated. The classic khaki coat is tied up at the waist, which is graceful.The long hair is still in a low bundle, but because of a little care with a curling iron, it looks more charming than usual in the hospital.

"It doesn't have to be a coat, let me see." An Xun rummaged through the clothes in the closet and carefully selected them.In the past, she would definitely feel that it was impolite to flip through other people's wardrobes hastily, but at this moment, everything seemed to be natural and a matter of course.

"This one." After a moment, he took out an apricot sweater and a white dress as the base: "Put on some socks, it shouldn't be cold."

Seeing that An Xun picked out clothes of the same color as her outfit, Jiang Yien cheered in her heart: "Okay! I'll try it!" After speaking, she ran into the bathroom in the bedroom with the clothes in her arms.

An Xun stayed alone in the little girl's bedroom, and couldn't help but look around.There is a three-piece bed set in pale pink, there are still unfinished Lego on the floor-to-ceiling window sill, and there are many exquisite and cute little dolls on the bookcase.

There is a neat stack of Morandi-colored notebooks on the table, and there are many colored pens and various tapes in the transparent acrylic drawer next to it.An Xun remembered that the little girl had mentioned to her during the meal that she liked to make pocketbooks, so these were probably pocketbook tools.For a moment, she wanted to open it and take a look, but unfortunately, her indelible upbringing stopped her.

In my heart, I was surprised, surprised by the long-lost curiosity.She has already started, curious about everything about this girl.

The originally cool-toned decoration in the bedroom was warmed by the arrangement of the little girl.An Xun couldn't help letting go, and the corners of his mouth raised a slight arc, as if the coldness in his heart was also tinged with warmth.

She's really, really cute.

"It's ready! Does it look good?"

Just as she was in a trance, the little girl suddenly jumped out of the bathroom, spread her hands and turned around towards her, like a lotus that just bloomed, her hair rose and then fell, as if it fell on her heart.

At this point, she believes that being careful is futile, that even ordinary clothes will not be inferior to a little girl, and makeup is just an embellishment. "Clear water comes out of hibiscus, and it is natural to carve." As long as she is in good spirits, she is amazing enough .

"Well, it's beautiful."

"Sister An is so perfunctory..." Jiang Yin pouted, lowering her head and shaking her skirt.

"I..." An Xun looked nervous, pursed his lips, wanted to speak, but was ashamed to express.She didn't know, wouldn't it be inappropriate to open her mouth to reveal that she coveted the little girl's beauty?

"I'm teasing you! Hehe, I know I look good! After all, it was Sister An who dressed me up!" The little girl chuckled, her mouth full of sweetness.

An Xun squinted his eyes, knowing that he was being teased again, but he was not angry, he nodded his playful little nose full of affection, and sighed: "It's good that you know, don't make fun of me."

In fact, she wanted to say:

To describe your beauty, tens of thousands of poems are not enough, and it is more than just a few words.

A person who was originally calm and indifferent, actually became nervous because of this girl's frowns and smiles. He actually cared whether he was too serious and serious. He also started to care about other people's eyes and whether he was not so cute.

She has become, unlike herself.

But she knew that if she didn't blame that girl, it was her own fault.

"Okay, it's getting late, let's go."

"Ok!"

Jiang Yien jumped forward to hold An Xun, although she tried her best to be natural every time she made contact, she was still nervous in her heart, after all, she couldn't be as relaxed with An Xun as she was with Ji Xiaoyu.She also couldn't tell for the time being whether the tension stemmed from a special love, or from the relationship between them. In fact, they were not that familiar yet.

Needless to say, An Xun, Jiang Yien was the only person who could hold her hand in the past ten years.Every time I approached, my heart trembled. Right now, I froze for a second before taking a step.

"Wait!" Jiang Yin paused and turned to look at An Xun.

"what happened?"

"Did Sister An forget something?" Jiang Yien tilted her head and asked, seeing that An Xun didn't know why, she pouted.

"Ah, lipstick." An Xun suddenly came to his senses, took out his own lipstick from his bag, and handed it to the little girl.The girl's lips were originally red without pointing, and she didn't look pale at all. If she hadn't been reminded, she wouldn't have felt that there was something missing.

Jiang Yien frowned, pushed back a little, and said softly, "I don't know how! Sister An help me~"

An Xun had no choice but to do it herself, opened the lid of the lipstick, and saw that there were traces of moistening between her lips on the surface of the lipstick. wipe."

"No need! I don't dislike Sister An! Lipstick is so expensive, what a waste to wipe it on paper?" Jiang Yien held An Xun's hand holding a tissue and stopped her.

An Xun pursed his lips, but had no choice but to take the lipstick that had been applied to his own lips, and put it on the girl's lips.

Thinly outline, gently smudge, from lip peak to lip corner.

She tried her best not to tremble, tried her best to avoid looking into that girl's clear eyes, and tried her best to ignore the teasing brought by the warmth between her lips and teeth.

However, the heartbeat speeded up mercilessly, and the breath was uncontrollably stalemate. These were her lips that had been kissed but never opened lightly!Tracing that bit of hazy memory, she seemed to feel the soft fit again, like a dream.

The lipstick, bit by bit, spread to a deeper place, from dry to wet, sliding more lightly on the thin and bright water marks, almost touching the teeth.

Can she still, go deeper?

No, no!

As if waking up from a dream, she hastily finished and hurriedly avoided her sight, but tried her best to suppress the panic, and said calmly, "It's done."

Jiang Yien didn't dare to purse his lips for a long time, but the lips and teeth seemed to be too moist, so he had no choice but to suck.She was a little apprehensive, and suddenly looked at An Xun, with no emotion in her calm eyes.

You shouldn't dislike me, right?

"Sister An, does this count as an indirect kiss? But it doesn't matter, anyway, you've already kissed me."

An Xun shuddered, and in an instant, the lipstick fell to the ground, the red pillar broke in two on the one that touched the ground, and the violin in his heart, which had been broken for a long time, was finally shattered into barrenness.In my mind, I don't know why that inappropriate word appeared: Li collapses and joy breaks!Ceremony breaks and music breaks!

She still owes her, an explanation.

It's fine if the little girl doesn't ask, who can save her now.

"Xiao En, there are some things, can I explain to you later?" She concealed the despair in her heart and said it lightly, as if an adult with no waves in his heart was coaxing an ignorant child.

Jiang Yien was silent for a moment, then smiled and said, "It's okay, it's not a big deal for a kid to be kissed! Besides, it's just a light touch, it's not considered a first kiss!"

An Xun's heart trembled, and he blamed himself more and more, so much that he wanted to kill himself.How could she be worthy of this child's parents, how could she be worthy of the people she was going to meet? If Professor Chen had a slight displeasure in his eyes after knowing her thoughts, would she be able to die and apologize?

She probably can only apologize with death.

She knew that she couldn't escape. One day, she had to confess that her heart for this girl had never been pure, that she had let down that girl's love and trust, that she had nothing to confess, Irresponsible took away her first kiss.

But what would that girl think of her?Shameless, disgusting, vulgar, dangerous, shameless... How many words would hit her like rotten eggs and rotten cabbage.

When she reveals her unbearable true face, will that girl alienate her, or even hate her?She didn't know, and she didn't want to know now.

So, just wait a little longer, when the internship period is over, when we no longer have to spend time together day and night, when you no longer depend on me and admire me, when I can never deceive you...

Perhaps, I will tell you frankly that I like you.

Perhaps, there is no need to tell you anymore.

Someone will love you eventually, and someone will put you on top of their hearts and love you.When you have the sea and the sky, you will forget the oasis I gave you, and I will bury my concern, as if, I have never been moved.

"Let's go, Sister An, it's too late." Jiang Yien didn't know when he had cleaned up the remnants of evil on the ground.

Fortunately, with the iceberg devil's many years of cultivation, An Xun could barely maintain her superficial composure. She nodded with a smile on her face, and gave a soft "hmm".

She didn't know, what she got in return was Jiang Yien's broken heart, which was broken even more thoroughly.

She didn't know that that kiss was the little girl's day and night thoughts.

Of course Jiang Yien can force a smile, she is the best at forcing a smile, she is the best at pretending it doesn't matter, but she can't stop herself from looking forward to it.

She couldn't figure out An Xun's seemingly absent love.If you love, why is it always calm, if you don't love, why do you often indulge in that irresistible tenderness.

Perhaps, being gentle with others is just her habit, a habit that is hidden under the cold appearance and goes deep into the bone marrow.

Don't blame Sister An, it's what I want to look forward to, and I'm the one who rejoices after tasting a little bit of sweetness. It's me who rushes to find excuses for her.Jiang Yien, you have to be good, don't force her, don't make things difficult for her, so that you won't be hated or abandoned.

When they left the door, they acted as usual, as if they had erased the episode just now from their memory.

"Aunt Doctor!"

While shopping in the supermarket, a little boy suddenly ran up and hugged An Xun. Jiang Yien watched for a long time before realizing that it was the peanut-eating kid he met in the emergency room last time.

She also gave him a pack of chocolates.

"Oh, Director An! You are..." The grandma who followed the child greeted her with a completely different smile from last time.

"We are neighbors, let's go to the supermarket together!" Jiang Yien replied quickly, she didn't know what she was guilty of, even if it was ordinary colleagues who went to the supermarket together.

"Oh... I remembered, are you the little doctor from last time? Oh, I'm sorry about what happened last time, thank you very much, it's true that the peanuts are stuck, and it's a good thing they were discovered early!"

"You're welcome, old man, are you all well now?" An Xun lowered his eyebrows and nodded, stroking the little boy's head.

"Well! I've been ready a long time ago! But, Auntie, you still promised to buy me chocolates. I haven't waited for a long time..." The little boy curled his lips.

"Chocolate? Didn't I let..." An Xun was puzzled for a while, then turned to look at Jiang Yien beside him, hesitant to speak.

Jiang Yien instantly petrified, as if three black threads fell from his head, or a crow flew over, is there a crack in the ground? !Is there a crack in the ground to drill into!

"This, this matter...it's a bit complicated..." She didn't know how to explain the greed at that moment, and she felt more and more ashamed.

"Don't be ashamed or impatient!" The child's grandma spoke first, if she hadn't yelled at the little boy's head, Jiang Yien would have thought she was scolding her.

"How can you ask the doctor and auntie for candies! I'm sorry, Director An, this child is naughty. We are rushing home to cook, so we won't bother you." An Xun nodded, and the child's grandma quickly took the child away. The boy was still nagging him a few words in his mouth.

An Xun turned his head and looked at Jiang Yien with half-closed eyes, with a half-smile.

Jiang Yien wanted to quibble, but under the focus of his eyes that see through everything, he had no choice but to tell the whole story: "I was just greedy for a while... so I didn't know it... besides that time! I didn't know that Sister An would buy me such a What a delicious..."

"You!" An Xun poked Jiang Yien's forehead, and chuckled, "Why is the child snatching the candy?"

Jiang Yien lowered his head slightly, and whispered: "It's okay if you're ignorant once."

An Xun seemed a little lonely in his eyes, and his smile sank a little.

"Grandma asked my aunt to hand over all the delicious and fun things to me, but my aunt gave them to my younger brother. I'll just be ignorant this time, so it's okay." Jiang Yien didn't know whether he was speaking to An Xun or comforting himself conscience.

An Xun's brows were startled. She had no way of knowing how much the child had been wronged since she was a child, but her eyes were full of distress.She smiled slightly, touched the little girl's face, and said affirmatively, "Well, it's okay."

Then he said: "There is no need to do this in the future. You are the only child in our family. The snacks I bought are all yours, and I won't give anyone a chance to take them away."

Jiang Yien's brows brightened instantly, the light under her eyelashes flickered, revealing her dimples again, and she nodded cautiously: "En!"

How far is the distance from the cloud to the bottom of the valley?It was actually between An Xun's few words.She admitted that if An Xun would never give her any more explanations, then what she said just now would be an explanation.

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