come close to me hold me

"What nonsense are you talking about? You're not drunk anymore, you're not drunk, good boy."

An Xun tried to brainwash Jiang Yien, struggled to get out of his arms, took the pajamas and towels prepared by Chen Nianci, and took Jiang Yien into the bathroom.

"Sister An, why don't you stand inside and wait for me~ Look at the door of this bathroom, but you can't see the inside..." Jiang Yien lay on the door of the shower room, put his hands on his eyes and peeped in.

An Xun hesitated for a while, the little girl took a bath in this state, and it was really not safe for her not to guard her.Besides, the shower room of Chen Nianci's house has a frosted door and is surrounded by white tiles. It is true to say that it cannot be seen.

"Okay, you go in and wash, I'll wait for you here."

"Don't go out!" Jiang Yien put his hands on An Xun's shoulders, jumped slightly, and shook his shoulders.

"Well, not going out."

After the little girl entered the shower room obediently, she handed out her changed clothes one by one.Sweaters, base skirts, socks...and then, underwear...

An Xun paused, avoiding his eyes, quickly took it and hid it in his coat, and put it into the clothes basket.I was so nervous that my throat choked up several times, and my earlobes were so red that they were about to bleed.

I don't seem to be so awake.

Jiang Yien only shared a glass, and Chen Nianci basically meant it, and she was the only one who drank one cup after another, besides talking and laughing.

An Xun's capacity for alcohol is not bad, she's only slightly tipsy after drinking so much, but if it wasn't for that little bit of drunkenness, how could she dare to allow Chen Nianci to stay in the same room with this drunken little girl .

Anxiously, she found a small stool and sat down. When she heard the sound of water, she couldn't help but look at the small shower room. In order for the little girl to breathe, she just opened the door. It was made of frosted material. not see.

At least, she can vaguely describe every time the girl bends down, raises her head, shakes her long hair, and even her slender waist.

She lowered her head and closed her eyes, but the picture repeatedly appeared in her mind, unable to stop.The body, like fine water scrubbing sand, like the wind blowing up fallen leaves, unconsciously stiffens again and again, sour and stiff again, as if surging with the sea level, rising and falling, falling and rising again.

Every second is like suffering.

"Sister An, I'm done washing!"

An Xun stood up suddenly, as if he had done something wrong, his mind was in chaos, his face was full of shame, and it took him a long time to say hello.She rummaged through her pajamas and knocked on the door of the shower room.

A hand stretched out, it was a delicate jade muscle full of dew, her eyes were startled, and her reserve was disturbed, she stared scorchingly at the little bit of beauty that she had finally glimpsed clearly, fell into it, fell down to the point where a drop of tear slipped down, she was completely at a loss I don't know.

The little girl didn't get the clothes for a long time, she grasped them twice with her five fingers, and then An Xun reacted and stuffed the clothes into her hands: "Come out after changing, I'll wait for you in the bedroom."

She almost ran away, sat on the edge of the bed, closed her eyes and took a few deep breaths. It was a long night, and she hadn't gotten anywhere, but her endurance seemed to have reached its limit.

Not long after, the little girl came out unsteadily. Before taking a bath, An Xun specially tied up her hair in a bun. Right now, she was slightly wet, the broken hair on her neck was still dripping with water, and her small face was covered with heat. It was transpiring white and red, and there was still a bit of drunkenness in the eyes.

Fortunately, Chen Nianci's pajamas are very conservative, the light blue cotton fabric is loose and loose, and can't outline any body curves, so it's not enough to defeat An Xun's last line of defense.

"Sister An, help me wipe my back~" Jiang Yien sat down next to An Xun, her chin resting on An Xun's shoulder, blinking her big eyes like a baby.Holding the box of body lotion in his hand, Chen Nianci found it temporarily from a complete set of skin care products given by relatives and friends.

"Wipe... back?" An Xun was confused, and blushed a little when he said these three words.

Jiang Yien got up and nodded, and offered the box of body lotion in his hands: "I can't wipe it off, can you help me?"

An Xun's brows and eyes were startled, it didn't seem like it was an excessive request, but it seemed to be excessive to the extreme.She knew that the girl's drunkenness could hardly support her to complete this matter, she couldn't bear to refuse her, but it was heinous to agree to her.

"Xiao En, I don't think this is very good."

"Why not? Ji Xiaoyu would wipe it for me before!"

Jiang Yien said this on purpose, just to make his purpose more simple.

Ji Xiaoyu had a girlfriend in her freshman year, but they broke up badly. Although Jiang Yien had never been in a relationship, she was vaguely aware of her orientation.Under such circumstances, how could she ask Ji Xiaoyu to apply body lotion for her.

"It's different."

An Xun lowered his head, not daring to look at the girl, one step further is the abyss, one step back is still the abyss.Her originally hard ice prison has been cracked everywhere, and no one is complete.

"What's the difference?"

Jiang Yien knew that she was drunk, if she hadn't been drunk, she probably wouldn't be able to use this trick Su Wen taught her in her whole life.But she is also more sober than ever, at least, she clearly knows what she wants.

Not to replace your sister, not just to be a pampered little friend.

An Xun, I want you.

It means what you think, I want you, do you understand?

But no matter how presumptuous she was, she dared not say what was in her heart.

"You'll know later." An Xun took the body lotion, took her hand, and led her to the door like a child: "Let's go, I'll ask Professor Chen to help you."

"I don't want it!" Jiang Yien shook off An Xun's hand, angrily returned to the bed and lay down, cursing: "You just don't want to help me, and you still make excuses! Then I just don't wipe it! Cheapskate!"

An Xun only felt that she had been punched hard in the heart, angry and helpless, that girl seemed to really not understand her last resort at all, she didn't understand at all, she endured the hard work.

"Jiang Yien, why are you so disobedient today? Can you be so rude after drinking a little wine? I am your elder, can I speak like this to elders?"

She seems to have found it, and the word "elder" is her reassurance.As long as she always positions herself as a senior, she will never do the impulsive thing she did last time.

As long as she is no longer impulsive, Jiang Yien will be safe.

"Which elder are you from me?" Jiang Yien sat up, glared at An Xun and asked, "Is there a gap between us? Have I ever called you auntie?"

"You..." An Xun was dumbfounded, she didn't understand why a well-behaved and sensible child suddenly became like this.Does alcohol really change human nature?Or, that girl was originally such a rebellious person.She took a deep breath and said in a low voice: "Okay, do whatever you like, I don't care about you."

Turning around and about to go out, Jiang Yien scrambled up and ran up, hugging her: "Don't go!"

An Xun was hit all over her arms, her heart trembled suddenly, her back was pressed against the arms separated by the thin fabric, she could almost feel the warmth of every inch of her skin, her body couldn't help but soften again.

"Let go."

Jiang Yien still hugged him desperately, as if all the happiness would disappear if he let go.If An Xun didn't want her anymore, who would teach her the principles of practicing medicine and being a human being? Who would scold her with tears in her eyes and feel sorry for her? Stock up on her favorite snacks at home, who will bring her a cup of iced milk tea on the way home from work every day.

I have never had the milk tea you brought.

"Liar..." As soon as the words came out, tears rolled down like broken pearls: "You said before eating that I don't need to curry favor with you, I've just been self-willed, and you're going to leave me..."

An Xun's eyes were shocked, and there was a sudden sharp pain in his heart. He turned around and looked at her, unable to speak for a long time.I lamented in my heart: Why, you can always make me feel bad, why can you always make me surrender...Xiao En, I really owe you in my previous life.

"If you don't want me, why do you treat me so well? I'm not a stray cat or a stray dog, how can you turn around and leave after feeding!"

"Xiao En..."

"It's okay if I'm wrong, I'm good, I'm obedient, don't want me... I won't make trouble anymore, and I won't drink anymore if you don't let me drink, and I won't drink like crazy anymore, Ann Sister, I will listen to you from now on, don't ignore me, okay?"

"Xiao En, I..."

An Xun's tears burst into tears, and the pain was so painful that he was the one who harbored evil intentions, and he was the one who couldn't be calm. What does it have to do with this little girl?Why let her down, why make her afraid, why, make her hurt.

She has been used to it for so many years. She has to trust you and rely on you so much that she will be willful with you this time. How can you scold her?How could you slander her with words?How could you even bully her...

"Sister An, I feel so bad..." Before he could speak clearly, Jiang Yien couldn't hold it anymore, his stomach was overwhelmed, he turned and ran to the bathroom with his mouth covered, holding the toilet and vomited into darkness.

She doesn't like onions, ginger and garlic. When she was a child at home, even if she ordered takeaway occasionally, her parents would help her to make a note not to want these things.Later, she lived in her husband's house and was the chef of her aunt, who forced her to eat fatty meat, large pieces of raw garlic, and noodles mixed with scallion oil.

Not only did she not get used to it, but her sense of rejection became more and more serious. When she was able to take the initiative to eat in college, she never touched it again. Occasionally, the chef forgot her remarks, and when she accidentally ate a bite of garlic, she would immediately vomit it out. .

But today, in order to make Grandma Chen happy, she ate all of it, just like she used to do at her aunt's house, eating deliciously and happily.Only An Xun could tell that she was enduring, pandering, and trying to be strong.

An Xun looked at her with a stabbing heart, she knew that she didn't drink and vomit, but she had to bite the bullet and eat the dishes she didn't like, which made her nausea so far.She clearly knows Jiang Yien's habits, because none of her mother's recipes are seasoned with onion, ginger, and garlic.

When cooking, An Xun wanted to stop it, but the little girl didn't mention it herself, and she wasn't sure if her speculation was foolproof.If she didn't know that Professor Chen knew her habits clearly, she would probably say that she doesn't like onions, ginger and garlic, just in case.

She blamed herself, no matter what, she should stop it, and she should be firm in her guess.Why is the image of a good child so important, and why would Professor Chen mind that the little girl is a little bit picky about eating.

"You can't eat onions, ginger, and garlic, right? Why don't you say it? It's fine to pick and choose, you know Professor Chen won't blame you." An Xun hugged the little girl, letting her chest rest on his arms He rubbed her back with one hand, his eyes full of distress.

"Sister An, you go out, it's so dirty." Jiang Yien propped himself up to wash away his vomit, stumbled and moved to the side, and there was another burst of turmoil, until the three bowls of rice that had been holding on were almost left Not much.

An Xun followed a little bit forward, and held her tightly again, but the little girl pushed her away a little bit by supporting herself again.

"Stop moving, do you still want to vomit? Come on, I'll carry you to the bed and lie down. If you still feel uncomfortable, I'll go buy you some medicine."

"Don't touch me, it's so dirty..." Jiang Yien vomited in a mess, how could she accept her embarrassment, and was seen by An Xun naked like this, she cried and broke down, and pushed her away desperately.

Every time An Xun was pushed away, her heart broke in pain, and finally she couldn't bear it any longer, and angrily yelled at her, "Don't make trouble anymore, okay?"

Don't push me away again, okay?

Really... It turns out that being pushed away is such a feeling, how many times have I pushed her away like this.

The heartache had overflowed unreservedly from the tears, no matter how much the girl resisted, she scrubbed her clean, carried her back to the bed in the bedroom, sat on the edge of the bed, no matter how much she cried and struggled, she always hugged her in arms.

Finally, Jiang Yien stopped struggling. She was hugged so tightly and so hard that she couldn't push, and even couldn't breathe: "Sister An, you hug me too tightly, I can hardly breathe... "

An Xun loosened her arms, but still hugged her tenderly, with her palms running along the little girl's back, her heart was already broken, and her tears were like rain.

"Xiao En, does it hurt? Sorry, I won't hurt you again in the future."

An Xun didn't want to make unwarranted promises, but when he opened his mouth, he was making promises.She didn't want anyone to bully her child again, she didn't want her child to suffer any grievances.

"Xiaoen, promise me, don't force yourself to smile anymore, don't please anyone anymore, you have to do what you like to do, be the person you want to be, and live the life you want to live. Never, ever, don't look at other people's face, do you understand?"

"From now on, my home will be your home. You can come whenever you want, and you can stay as long as you want."

"In our home, there will always be ice watermelon cut into small pieces. I will prepare your favorite snacks and ice milk tea for you in the refrigerator, and cook meals that taste like your mother. You don't need to wrong yourself anymore, understand? "

"I know you're making me happy, I know you're trying to make Professor Chen happy, I know..."

An Xun's tone was very gentle, but every word seemed to have a mark on his heart.For the first time, Jiang Yien didn't answer An Xun's words throughout the whole process, only big tears fell on the man's shoulder one by one.

"At least in front of me, I don't need you to be an adult. Just be my child, okay? In the future, as long as An Xun is around, we Xiaoen can really be a child, a real child, do you understand?"

"Really, child?" Jiang Yien withdrew her arms, trying to see An Xun's face clearly, but her tears blurred everything, and she could only vaguely feel that An Xun was also crying.

"You are always afraid of causing trouble to others, and you always try your best to make others happy. Living like this is tiring, isn't it?"

"If it's because of the habit formed in the previous home, now that you have a new home, I'll be with you, shall we gradually get rid of this habit? From now on, you only need to think about how to make yourself happy, OK?"

Jiang Yien was stunned for a moment, staring at the face that he couldn't see clearly, and also staring at the feeling of happiness that he couldn't see clearly in front of him, his grievances poured out.

"I have a new home?"

"Yes, you have."

"Can I do anything at home?"

"Of course, you can do anything."

"Is it okay to lie on the sofa all over the place?"

"Yes, yes. If you are embarrassed, I will lie with you too."

"Is it okay to be picky? Is it okay if you don't eat clean?"

"It's okay, we can save the unfinished meals until tomorrow, and we will have a lot of tomorrow."

"Is it okay to go to bed without taking a shower? Is it okay to bring Xiaoju home..."

Jiang Yien broke down in tears, and what he said was the presumptuousness that he never fought for in childhood.

"Okay, if you like kittens, we will adopt stray cats together, and it doesn't matter if we bring all the stray cats around the community home."

An Xun remembered the little orange that was recorded in the favorite book.Jiang Yien mentioned that it was a stray cat. She fed it for a long time when she was a child, and used the New Year's money to heal its scars, but because her aunt didn't like cats, she couldn't bring it home.

"Really? Don't you lie?"

"I'm not lying, as long as Xiaoen is happy, I can do anything,"

Jiang Yien's vision became even more blurred, and he even whimpered uncontrollably, she was in so much pain, she hadn't been in such pain for a long time.

In the past, she felt that the best way to protect the injured was not to ask, as long as they let it go, they could live a good life, escaping from reality, just escaping from reality.

But only at this moment did she know that those untouched hidden wounds would erode her, make her not like herself, and make her tired without knowing it.

If someone hadn't happened to catch her, if someone hadn't happened to tear off that layer of gorgeous protective film, she would have been curled up in that glass cover for the rest of her life, playing around in the spotlight all her life, being a nutcracker and a clown.

"Xiao En, don't forget that your sister An is omnipotent. In the future, if you are wronged outside, remember to go home. My sister will always be waiting for you at home, understand?"

"Sister An, how good are you... If you're like this, I won't be able to leave you..." Jiang Yien lay on An Xun's shoulder, and finally burst into tears.

An Xun felt a dull pain in his heart, bit his lip, endured the pain, and raised the corner of his mouth helplessly, but a line of tears fell down.

She planned to be celibate. Like Professor Chen, she had no lover or children in her life. When she was young, she rushed to the front line. When she was old, she went to teach at a medical university.

But she never thought that she would meet a girl who disrupted all her rhythms and made her love so deeply and love so painfully.

So, even if she couldn't become the girl's intimate lover, she still wanted to give her the most perfect love.Do what the world can't do, love what ordinary people don't know, protect her comprehensively, and guard her for life.

If, you are married...

I am your natal family.

Jiang Yien no longer knew where he was, maybe it was heaven, did he vomit to death just now?Maybe it was in a dream, it is also possible to get drunk and faint.But, it was so real, her tears and lingering words were so real, even her heartbeat could be heard clearly.

Is it true, I am really, I am hugged tightly by you.

However, Sister An...

Will you be the same as I treat Xiaoju, let me rely on you, let me love you to the bone, let me regard you as my life, and then, you can't take me home.

Will you, after all the love is poured out, go away quietly.

An Xun, in what name should I accept your love.

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-07-0707:32:18~2021-07-0804:07:47期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mines: a concise one;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 1 bottle of Fusheng_Luomo;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!