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When An Xun returned home, the little girl had already eaten dinner obediently as she had told her, and she also took a photo as proof that she had finished eating two meat dishes and one vegetarian meal in the cafeteria.

In the living room, the lamp was reserved for her, and the door of the study room was ajar, revealing a warm yellow light.Gently pushing open the door, I saw the little girl lying on the table, sleeping soundly.

The warmth of the long-lost home and the long-lost care for each other made the bright autumn eyes finally open a little brighter, and the corners of the mouth curved slightly into a beautiful arc.Sure enough, if it wasn't too difficult to meet someone who suits his heart, no one would really enjoy being alone.

An Xun looked at the little figure with tenderness in his eyes.Turning around, she took the blanket on the sofa and went in to cover her, only to find that the little girl did not sit on the original seat, but moved a new stool from the dining room to sit next to her. That position seemed to be reserved for her. Keep.

The table was in a mess, with notebooks, materials and markers of various colors, as if a war had just been fought.An Xun couldn't help laughing when she thought that the girl had written mischievously in her liking diary: "Grandma who helped me with my winter vacation homework".Then sat down on the seat reserved for her, collected and arranged the materials one by one, placed them in front of her, and looked through them one by one.

The screen of the mobile phone placed by the table suddenly lit up, An Xun glanced at it out of the corner of his eye, turned to look at it carefully, and the locked screen of the mobile phone turned out to be a photo of himself.

The movements of his hands stopped suddenly, and he was pleasantly surprised for a moment, but was such a vague candid shot actually regarded as a treasure?

"What a silly girl."

The eyebrows condensed a little, and the eye sockets became moist again.She restrained her emotions a bit, and wondered how she could become so sentimental. When she wanted to love someone, she probably felt distressed all the time.

Jiang Yien's official, indefinite, first day of living in An Xun's house should have been exciting and joyful.But all night, she was working hard, writing hard.

The school will resume classes next month, and she hasn't written an internship report or experience yet. In the past two months, she has had a wonderful life. Not only has she experienced open-chest surgery, had closed drainage, and even They all lay on the thoracic surgery table.If she hadn't gone to the next door to move things this afternoon and saw Ji Xiaoyu struggling with her homework, she would have forgotten that they were still students.

She knew that An Xun had a night shift, and she would not come back until after nine o'clock. After dinner, she continued to deal with the mess on the desk, but before An Xun came home, she was already sleepy, screaming loudly asleep.

It was approaching eleven o'clock, and the nib of the pen was still rustling, occasionally accompanied by the sound of gently turning pages.Jiang Yien opened his eyes in a daze, and looked beside him with sleepy eyes. It turned out that the person in the dream was leaning over his desk and lowering his eyebrows.

The light from the desk lamp stained the forehead and the tip of the nose, outlining the already delicate lines, which stirred the heartstrings even more. That person seemed to have fallen from the mobile phone wallpaper that he had seen thousands of times.

"Sister An, you're back..." Jiang Yien called out in a half-dream and half-awake state, rubbing her eyes, trying to see the person in front of her more clearly.

An Xun hummed lightly, and then said: "I picked some irrelevant things to help you write. Anyway, it's just to deal with the inspection, and writing is a waste of time. But you still have to do the professional things yourself," said, Handed over a stack of documents in front of me: "This is my typical operation record in the past year. You can refer to it. I have marked the key points with a red pen for you."

"Sister An helped me with my homework?!" Jiang Yien lost all sleepiness, and his eyes widened.

"And your favorite." An Xunshen smiled mysteriously, and brought a cup of milk tea from the foot of the table: "I just bought it just before closing, so don't spill it."

"Milk tea!" The little girl was pleasantly surprised, and then said delicately: "Sister An, you will spoil me..."

Jiang Yien has only one emotion at this moment, and that is to cry, her heart is filled to the brim, as if happiness is about to overflow at any time.Leaving her mouth open, the dimples bulged into two small bags. If she didn't know the reason, she would have thought she had suffered some great grievance.

An Xun looked sideways at her, and was made soft by the little girl's appearance, frowned slightly, and touched her little face: "Silly girl, don't be afraid, spoil me."

Then he explained: "But it's almost winter, I bought you room temperature ones. Girls, you should be more restrained when drinking ice, you know?"

Jiang Yien nodded, twitched her slightly red nose, hugged An Xun's arm, and said coquettishly, "Sister An, why are you so nice to me all of a sudden~"

The little girl clung to her arm softly, and exhaled warm breath in her ear. An Xun smelled the sweet and sweet fragrance of milk on her body, and couldn't help but feel a ripple in her heart.

But when she heard that sentence, she didn't know whether to laugh or cry, pinched her cheeks, and asked a little proudly and dotingly: "How bad did I treat you before?"

Jiang Yien hid with a smile, but leaned closer to An Xun's shoulder: "It was fine before, but... you wouldn't take the initiative to send me messages, let alone take photos for me. Sister An, I think When you came out of Grandma Chen's house, it seemed like a different person..."

An Xun's heart trembled, and he paused.

Change should not have happened overnight. If the little girl hadn't accumulated over time, how could she have broken her defense in an instant.But this silly girl doesn't even know it's her own credit.

It is also fate, 15 years ago, the child saw the light of the moon, determined to make a change, no longer willing to be depraved, and flourished to become a good child praised by everyone.Who would have thought that 15 years later, the child would let her moon give up the coldness, eager to pursue love and happiness.

An Xun smiled gently, staring at her little girl, her eyes sparkled: "Xiao En, I actually envy you."

"Envy... me?" Jiang Yien was stunned for a second.

"Yeah, I envy your gentleness and enthusiasm. It seems that where you are, there must be light." She nodded slightly, her voice became softer: "I want to live like you too."

"That day, after listening to Professor Chen's words, I was deeply moved. Perhaps, I was too obsessed with certain things. I should look forward..." An Xun continued, with a few rippling waves in his words. Very sad and helpless.

The tip of Jiang Yien's nose was inexplicably sour, and she saw that there were still so many uncertainties in those smiling eyes.Listening to these words, in my heart, I am not happy or gratified, but more distressed.

She knows how hard it is for a person to make a change, and she knows how hard it takes to fight a habit.Fighting against the shadows is a long road. It is not about taking a step to stand in the light, or taking off the coat of darkness to reveal the light.

Instead, break the solid self and find new pieces to reassemble.

See those guys doing rehab in rehab?Which one is not grim, sweating profusely.Flying wings is just the beginning, the road is long, muddy and bumpy, scrambling... But even if you are climbing, you have to climb until you see the dawn.

Didn't she grit her teeth and persevere in this way to barely become the look that An Xun would envy today?

It suddenly occurred to Su Wen that the smiley emoji that Su Wen sent this afternoon was accompanied by an endless sentence: "Don't worry, An Xun is fine."

Now, she also seemed to understand why Su Wen suddenly said "it's all right".If she hadn't experienced it personally, she would probably feel relieved, and she would probably be like everyone else, thinking that as long as An Xun put down the cold shell, she would be able to return to her former painless appearance.

But no, it's like black paint on an oil painting. The solution is not to scrape it off, but to cover it with a new color after it dries.She also knew that it would take a thousand times more effort than before to fill it without any flaws.

Black will always be there, but the new variegation will turn its existence into nothingness. If possible, she really wants to be the new variegation in An Xun Life's oil painting, which is enough to cover up the dark variegation.

"Sister An..." Jiang Yien called out softly, hugged An Xun in her arms, closed her eyes, and took a deep breath: "I will cherish you well."

She knew that her sister An must have gone through thousands of heart-piercing struggles to have today's sentence "should look forward", how could she be so relieved, how could she just take it for granted that she was fine, She will only cherish and love it more because of it.

Where is it so light.

The person at the top of her heart will still be hurting for a while.

Although An Xun was a little confused, he was still touched by it, and slowly reached out to hug her.The girl's embrace is obviously soft, but it makes people feel extremely reliable, and there is a long-lost relaxation in my heart.

"Got it, thank you."

After embracing each other in silence for a moment, An Xun suddenly thought of something, and said again: "Xiao En, I have another question."

"Well, let's ask." Jiang Yien showed an old-fashioned look again, and even patted An Xun's back kindly. She thought that she was an absolute senior in fighting against the shadows.

Unexpectedly, the painting style suddenly changed, An Xun pulled away from her arms, and asked solemnly, "Are my selfies so ugly?"

"what?"

Jiang Yien was dumbfounded for a moment, unexpectedly, there were 1 question marks in his heart, and his smile gradually froze to the point of embarrassment: "It's so... pretty..."

"Then why do you still use it as your wallpaper?" An Xun lifted Jiang Yien's phone on the table and turned on the phone screen.It was facing the girl's face, almost a public execution.

"Ah! Sister An~" Jiang Yien rushed forward and snatched the phone, hid it behind her, blushing with shame: "I... I didn't mean to take a sneak shot..."

"I know, it was Su Wen who sent it to you. Are her photos better than mine?" An Xun asked confidently and calmly, as if he didn't realize how strange his focus was.

Seeing An Xun like this, Jiang Yien couldn't help laughing out loud, he is a stubborn and proud person after all, even though they are all his own photos, he still wants to compete between the ones he took and the ones taken by others.

Sister An, she's so cute that it's a foul!

"What are you laughing at? Am I not good at taking pictures?" An Xun didn't know it at all, and asked.

"How could it be! It's very well shot! It's beautiful! Very, very, very beautiful! But I just want to see it alone... put it on the wallpaper, what if someone else sees it, what should I do?"

What Jiang Yien said is absolutely true. The selfie sent by An Xun is full of tenderness on the screen. The person in the picture is holding his head with one hand, looking at the camera slightly, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, and his eyes are staring at the camera. People are mesmerized.

When Jiang Yien clicked on the photo, he stared at it for a full 10 minutes, and like a lunatic, he hugged his phone and kissed it.From the forehead, to the eyes, to the tip of the nose, to the cheeks, and finally, to the red lips for a long time.

How dare she be known by An Xun.

How could she be willing to be seen by others.

An Xun hesitated for a moment, and then resigned: "Okay," turned around, and said softly, "Send me your photo too, the kind that others can see."

"What? Sister An wants to use me as a wallpaper?!" She reacted quickly, tilted her head and looked at An Xun with an uncontrollable, bursting joy on her face, her eyebrows raised high, and her eyes sparkled with elves like light.

An Xun lowered his head slightly, with a trace of shyness dodging in his eyes: "If you are in trouble, forget it."

"No embarrassment! I have so many photos! I'll send them to you right now!"

After a few beeps, An Xun turned on the phone and saw more than a hundred photos, he was stunned, and couldn't help but laugh, this girl really doesn't know how to be reserved.

Looking carefully, there are almost pictures of scissorhands in various places. Every picture has a sunny and lovely smile, fresh and natural.Zhang Zhang is good, it is difficult to choose, she seems to understand the mentality of the little girl, she is not willing to give up any one, to be looked at by others.

"Forget it, come here."

An Xun turned on the camera, switched it to selfie mode, held it high, put his arm around the little girl's shoulder, and leaned against his head lightly.Jiang Yien didn't realize what An Xun was going to do at all, but with a face full of shame, he leaned into An Xun's arms with his lips pursed.

An Xun was amused by the appearance of the little girl in the camera and unconsciously smiled, and when the shutter was pressed, the first group photo of them was recorded.

"Let's just use this one, don't you think?"

Jiang Yien was stunned for at least ten seconds before nodding his head in a serious manner. Before the blush on his face faded, he quickly changed the wallpaper.

"Okay, it's getting late, let's take a bath first. Milk tea..."

When An Xun bought it, she didn't expect that the little girl would sleep on the table until almost eleven o'clock, thinking that it would be unhealthy to drink milk tea so late, so she suggested to keep it until tomorrow, Jiang Yien also nodded and agreed.

"Then, I'll take a shower first..." Jiang Yien muttered in a low voice, and immediately pursed his lips when he finished speaking, and walked out of the study room.

In an instant, I heard a burst of jumping steps outside the door, and the little girl's suppressed cheers for a long time.

"Great!"

An Xun couldn't help laughing, chuckled a few times and shook her head, it's really hard for her to have fun until she can't see her.

For a moment, she couldn't help sighing again, she was ecstatic over a little thing, she was willing to risk her life for a little thing, such a silly girl, how careful must be to protect her from getting hurt.

Be sure to protect her.

Cleaning up the mess left by the little girl on the table, my heart is full of sweetness and tenderness.Before returning to the bedroom, he wanted to see if there was anything missing in the little girl's room that needed to be filled. He knocked on the door twice and went in. He asked in the bathroom, "Xiaoen, have you cleaned everything up?"

"It's all over!" Jiang Yien hummed a song and took off her jacket, her joy could be heard from the voice that responded.

An Xun took a general look. The little girl spread the quilt neatly, arranged the books and computers on the table, and brought her Lego to the bay window. It seemed that everything had been sorted out. .

Just as he was about to go out, he found that the suitcase was placed at the door. It looked as if he was about to leave at any time, so he couldn't help but pause, feeling uncomfortable no matter what.After thinking about it, I still planned to put it on the wardrobe for her. When I lifted it up, I heard a slight shaking sound inside.

"Is there anything else in your suitcase? Do you need me to get it out for you?"

"I'll clean it up myself later, don't bother Sister An."

"It's okay, no trouble. I'll take it out for you first, put the box away, and you can clear the things yourself, is that okay?" An Xun discussed with the people inside gently.

In fact, she was selfish, she really wanted to hide that box immediately, preferably in a place where Jiang Yien would never find it.

In this way, that girl, won't she leave?

I sighed wryly in my heart, childish.

"That's good! Thank you, Sister An!"

Jiang Yien was probably also dazzled by joy, not only forgot to put away the table just now, but also agreed without thinking at the moment, just as he took off his clothes and was about to run to the shower, he suddenly realized that there was nothing in his box No.

"Oops! Fingertips!" secretly exclaimed, his expression changed suddenly, he slammed on the brakes and turned around, his footsteps slipped on the ground, and he fell hard on his buttocks, tears glistening in pain.

"Oh!"

An Xun was startled by the movement inside. Panasonic opened the box with his hand, a few steps closer to the door of the bathroom and asked nervously, "What's wrong? Did you fall down? Is it okay?"

"It's...it's okay..." Jiang Yien struggled to get up, and in a hurry, he passed a bath towel and opened the door: "I...I suddenly remembered that I didn't take a bath ball..."

An Xun gasped in shock, lowered his brows sideways to avoid his eyes, the pink carved jade carvings, fragrant shoulders and collarbones that he saw at that glance could not calm down in his heart for a long time.

His heartbeat accelerated unconsciously, and his mind went blank. He turned around very quickly, and walked towards the suitcase that he hadn't opened in time in a panic.

"I'll get it for you. Is it in the box?"

"No! No!" Jiang Yien was so frightened that he panicked, his limbs became uncoordinated, he scrambled for two long strides, his center of gravity became unsteady, and he jumped on the dog to eat shit.

It's too late, it's over.

The box, opened.

The author has something to say: Jiang Yien: Ji Xiaoyu!I hate you!

感谢在2021-07-1201:50:31~2021-07-1301:42:16期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: after much deliberation, it is better to change the name to 30 bottles; Eros 5 bottles; Fusheng_Luomo 1 bottle;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!