come close to me hold me

It was the fear mixed with the smell of medicine, and the medical equipment let out a sharp cry, and the vitality of a 17-year-old girl seemed to be exhausted in that cry.

Before she had time to collapse, the girl was taken to a certain room where she could not see the sunlight. On the cold table stood a corpse that was so swollen that she couldn't see the facial features clearly, but she was forced to identify that it was her mother.

She didn't dare to take over the relic.

She knew that as soon as she took it, she would not have a mother.

A man rushed over, slapped her hard without saying a word, and under the control of the police doctors, pointed at her nose and yelled a word at her hysterically.

For a moment, tinnitus.

Like a steam train rumbling by, like a broken gramophone rattling, the high-pitched wail repeated, and the death knell sounded, and she couldn't hear it, and probably didn't want to hear it.

But at this moment, this man was sitting in front of her, and she didn't dare to look directly at him, and she didn't dare to take a second look at the white-stained sideburns.In the ears, it seemed that the death knell was ringing again.

As if, it was ringing for her.

"Uncle, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were..." Jiang Yien hurriedly explained: "And I... I'm not Dr. An's girlfriend, I thought you were plotting something wrong... I just said that in a hurry..." As he spoke, he became more and more confused Emboldened.

In Xi Xian's slightly aged eyes, there was no sadness, joy, or surprise, and he just nodded peacefully.

Jiang Yien was at a loss, turned her head in a hurry and glanced at An Xun beside her, and saw that her face was pale, her lips were tightly closed, and there was no emotion in her downcast eyes, only emptiness and numbness.There was a twinge in my heart, but there was nothing I could do.

"Sister An..."

Although she didn't know what happened between them, it was obvious that An Xun was very reluctant to see her father.Jiang Yien wanted to protect An Xun, but he couldn't be disrespectful to An Xun's father, all he could do was secretly hold the helpless clenched hand beside him.

An Xun trembled slightly, and his whole body was withdrawn from the memory, as if he had finally grasped the life-saving straw, secretly heaved a sigh of relief, let go of his fists, turned his palms over, and held each other tightly.

"Small……"

Xi Xian was about to speak, but An Xun hurriedly stopped him and said, "Just call me An Xun." With a cold face, it seemed like he was talking to a stranger he just met.

The air was still for a long time, looking at the father and daughter who looked at each other silently, Jiang Yien became more and more restless, and took the initiative to start a topic: "How long has it been since uncle returned to China, why don't you come home to live? You don't have to worry about us, we The house can be vacated for you."

An Xun looked up, and there was actually a little expectation in his eyes.

Xi Xian hesitated for a moment, rubbed his palms back and forth on his knees, and then looked at An Xun and slowly explained: "Don't worry, I have some things to do when I return to China this time, so I haven't had time to talk to you connect."

"I know, you've been busy all the time." An Xun felt that his anticipation was extremely ridiculous. He took a sip of Coke, as if he had drunk arsenic, and couldn't help frowning.

Seeing Xi Xian touching his beard, Jiang Yien looked anxious.In my heart, I also feel that he is quite pitiful. At this age, in front of his daughter, he even has to think twice before speaking.

"Xiao Xun, actually I... plan to remarry. The other party is a professor at the Conservatory of Music."

"What?" An Xun paused for a moment, his heart skipped a beat, and his expression couldn't be calmer. When he raised his eyes, he was puzzled: "You... fell in love with another woman?"

Xi Xian smiled bitterly: "At our age, we can't talk about love or not. We just want to find a companion to live with. However, Xiao Yang is indeed an attractive woman, cheerful and enthusiastic, lively and generous... and your mother, totally different."

An Xun was stunned for a moment.

"What does it mean to be completely different from your mother? Didn't your mother ever be cheerful and enthusiastic before she married you?! Who terminated her contract in the orchestra privately, forced her to marry her husband and raise her children every day, and who made her suffer from depression?! Now...do you blame her for being unhappy?!"

During the speech, he stood up emotionally, and the table and plates made a sound, causing the people around him to look sideways.

It was the first time Jiang Yien saw An Xun lose his composure, and was somewhat at a loss.She also seemed to understand a little bit about the conflict between the father and daughter.

"Sister An..." He took her hand, it seemed like it was wrong to help anyone at a time like this: "You...don't get so angry..."

An Xun tried his best to calm down his anger, and after sitting down, he sighed deeply, realizing that he was too aggressive, and said softly, "I'm sorry."

Xi Xian sighed, these years, the process from persistence to giving up to transfer, is like drinking water, knowing whether it is warm or not.He didn't expect his daughter to understand, so he concealed it.

Reluctantly said: "Xiao Xun, you, Aunt Yang, have been with me for the past few years. People's hearts are full of flesh. Even if it is a rock, it should be transferred."

An Xun felt like a thorn in her throat, of course she understood what her father said, she knew that most people in this world would find new lovers after losing their spouses.But, she thought her father would be different.

For so many years, her father's love for her mother is something she is proud of, and it is also the only comfort left in her original family.

Therefore, she believes in love.

Just because she was sure that her father would die alone, she dared not pursue happiness alone.Only then did he feel extremely guilty and owed at the moment when he made up his mind to be with Jiang Yien.

But, she loves her so much.

I love so much that I overcome that guilt, I love so much that even if I struggle with pain, I can't let go.

Now that he, the "murderer", has decided to start a new life, how can he have the right to criticize his father for his infidelity.Besides, my father finally gave up his obsession with his mother, which can be regarded as reducing his sins, so he should be relieved.

"I see."

Even though the rationality comforted him, the phrase "I bless you" could not be said in the end.

"I haven't introduced you yet, Jiang Yi'en, a graduate student of Renzhuo Medical University, my fiancée."

An Xun couldn't tell whether it was relief after a heavy burden, or anger and revenge, and what remained in his heart were mixed feelings.

Jiang Yien raised his eyebrows suddenly, and looked at An Xun in surprise.

Her face and neck turned hot red in an instant. She thought that her recklessness in a hurry would bring unnecessary trouble to An Xun, so she hurriedly explained the misunderstanding, but unexpectedly, An Xun would introduce her to An Xun in such a capacity. own father.

Jiang Yien, who stayed out of the matter, faced An Xun's affirmation, his heart was bursting with surprise, he clenched his hands tightly, straightened his waist, and greeted again obediently and calmly.

"Uncle, I will definitely take good care of Sister An."

Xi Xian has already seen the clues, and now, apart from being surprised by her daughter's confession, she is not too confused.In fact, he also believed that he was not qualified to worry about his daughter's lifelong affairs.

So no matter who is around An Xun today, he can only nod his head and say: "Okay, everything is fine. Xiao Xun can untangle his heart, I... I am very happy."

An Xun replied mercilessly: "Happy? Is that right... I deserve your happiness too? I thought you would never be happy again after Mom and Yi'er left."

Then, there was another dead silence.

"It's getting late, so I won't disturb you for lunch." Xi Xian got up and planned to leave before the dishes were served, but An Xun didn't hold back.

In the end, Xi Xian did not dare to face An Xun. A father's debt to his daughter was always resolved by evasion.But the more you avoid, the more you owe, until you are speechless and strangers, and you don't know whether it is hateful or pathetic.

It was not until he turned his back to his daughter that he spoke the truth that had been buried for more than ten years with tears in his eyes.

"What happened back then was not your fault."

"As a husband and father, it was my fault for not being able to protect you well. It was my willful will that bound your mother and caused a catastrophe..."

"Xiao Ai, Dad really doesn't know how to face you. I lost my wife and little daughter, and almost lost you too..."

"When you heard the bad news back then, you didn't know how glad I was that you were still alive. It would be nice to keep one...but I said that to you..."

"Forgive me for being an incompetent father."

"sorry."

席贤离开了，安寻始终没有再看一眼他的背影。

Little love, she almost forgot that she still has this baby name, and she almost forgot that her parents said that she was the condensation of their love.

It seemed that the sharp screams of medical instruments came from her ears again, and the palm prints on her cheeks that had been left for 15 years began to be hot and painful again. She finally dared to hear the hysterical words of the man in her memory.

"Why didn't you die!"

She had narrowly escaped death, but at that moment, she died completely.

Xi Xian spent countless nights remorse and heartache for that momentary slip of the tongue. Looking at his daughter who was neither human nor ghost, he was powerless to face it. He could only choose to disappear in An Xun's home with all his luggage when he became an adult. In life.

As everyone knows, that is murder.

Jiang Yien looked at the shattered picture in front of him, the joy of being recognized had long since disappeared, all that was left was heartache, wanting to say something, all words seemed powerless, wanting to do something, but afraid of a little Accident is worse.

A sense of powerlessness nearly overwhelmed her.

"Xiao En, do you have candy?"

安寻出人意料的先开了口，是一声克制，低哑又苍凉，而后还是勉强地扬了扬嘴角，垂着头，满眼凄楚。

"The coffee is too bitter, I want something sweet."

The hand that Jiang Yien held tightly trembled for an unknown amount of time. She could feel that An Xun's whole body was so cold that it was numb, and felt that she was desperately crushing and collapsed, so she managed to utter a complete sentence.

This fool...

He even forgot that he was drinking Coke.

This was the first time An Xun asked her for candy, and she knew that she didn't eat any of the ones that were given to her before.

She was asking for sugar, she was asking for help.

Jiang Yien remained silent, and hugged An Xun tightly, but did not receive any response. The man just sat stiffly and trembled, and did not turn around at all for the hug.

Helpless, I could only hold back my tears and took out a milk candy from the bag, handed it to An Xun's palm, watched her immediately tore off the candy wrapper and stuffed it into her mouth.

In my heart, there is only a thousand pains.

"Didn't you say that eating sugar won't be bitter? Why...why is it still so bitter..."

The milk sugar lay numbly in his mouth, unable to melt even a single drop, and couldn't dispel any drop. An Xun suppressed his panting, trembling uncontrollably, and finally collapsed uncontrollably, unable to hold back the tears.

I haven't been exposed to the sweet taste for a long time, and I just feel nauseous when I put it in my mouth. After a while of nausea, I suddenly bend down and spit it into the trash can, causing retching.

Almost fainted from the pain again.

"Sister An..."

Jiang Yien didn't know how to describe the pain in his heart anymore, a thousand sharp knives were enough to gouge out the heart, seeing the one he loved was in pain, what could he do but give a useless candy?

No, absolutely not.

"Xun'er, I'll teach you how to eat candy."

Jiang Yien stretched out his hand to close the curtain of the booth, put a toffee in the mouth, leaned over to hug her, and gave her a sweet kiss.

"Xiao En, don't..."

The tip of the tongue twitched repeatedly in the sweet taste of milk, and for a moment, it entered the lips that were still struggling to escape.

An Xun was powerless to resist, with his hands still in his arms pushing, but his red lips instinctively sucked the sweetness sent by the girl, his body was numb, and tears kept pouring down.

Finally, the struggle was given up.

She couldn't help separating her lips and teeth slightly, and with a soft sigh, her girl also took advantage of the gap, swirled the toffee and swam back and forth, melting into a honey that made people fall.

So sweet, so sweet...

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