come close to me hold me

Jiang Yien's heart trembled, the person he was thinking of was right in front of him, how could he forget to hug her at the first moment.When she came in, even the lights in the corridor were not on, and she didn't know how long she had been sitting alone in such a dark place.

And say I'm a fool...

I'm not here, don't you even want the light?

She slowly leaned closer, wrapped her arms around An Xun's slender waist, stroked her thin back, and warmed her cold heart soaked by the river in her arms.Nibbled and slowly pecked at her side face and earlobe, as if blaming her for putting herself in such a mess.Kissing off the bruises on her neck, she seemed to be telling her that no matter how miserable she was, there would always be someone who felt sorry for her.

Kissing, numbness and tingling appeared on An Xun's body. It was the first time that she allowed herself to be so presumptuous outside of home. She raised her head and shook her neck to meet the girl's lingering lips. In the girl's ear, He breathed heavily, tears, rinsed with satisfaction.

She loved her to the bone, and she almost lost her.That kind of pain gnawed at her bone marrow from her bones, plucked out her heart and crushed it in front of her.

Faced with the loss and recovery at this moment, how can she hold back her reserve.

She admits that she is so useless and cowardly, she always spins a web in her mind for little things, wishing to entangle herself to death.Always questioning her ability to love, always hovering on the verge of collapse and giving up, but she can't change anything.She can only act like an ugly and incompetent coward, begging the girl to hold on to herself.

That river took not only the lives of her mother and sister, but also her 15 years of youth, making her self-blocked and buried.Today, she almost took away the only true love of her life.

How could she not think too much, how could she not blame herself, her girl almost died in front of her eyes.

She is as scared as she is in pain.

"Xiao En, hold me tight... you hold me tight..." She was drenched in cold sweat and trembling.

Jiang Yien's heart felt like a knife was being twisted, and the tears she could not stop overflowing.

Without confirming the injury on An Xun's body, Jiang Yien didn't dare to hug her hard, so he could only comfort her back over and over again, whispering in his ear.

"An Xiaoai, I'm sorry..."

"Don't blame yourself, I promise, I won't do dangerous things again, okay? Don't take all responsibility and mistakes on yourself, okay?"

"If I were better, you wouldn't have to work so hard, and grandma wouldn't worry. Give me a little time, please? I'll make grandma believe in me, and I will try my best to give you the best..."

"Don't push me away, okay?"

The warmth in the girl's arms and the lingering words in her ears made An Xun's hesitant heart gradually calm down.She wanted to tell the girl that she never wanted to let her down, she was just afraid, too afraid of losing the one she loved again.

If not, she would not force herself to eat half of the bowl of dumplings.She knows that anyone can deny the girl's irrationality and say that the girl is overwhelmed.

Only her, no.

The severe pain in her body made her unable to express herself, she was sweating profusely, and her consciousness fluctuated from time to time.

"Xiao En, I'm in so much pain...so tired...I think, I want to sleep for a while..."

Before she finished speaking, she lost her strength and fell into the girl's arms.

"Sister An? An Xun!"

In order to avoid further injury, Jiang Yien did not dare to pick up An Xun, and immediately called the emergency room, waiting for the doctor to come.

The impact of the blast and the falling of the stone steps caused blood to ooze from An Xun's internal organs.Fortunately, the bleeding is not serious, as long as it is controlled by drugs, it is not enough to require surgery.

When Jiang Yien heard the diagnosis result, he almost passed out again, crying so hard, his eyes full of anxiety, he pulled Su Wen to choke and confirm again and again:

"Doctor Su, can you ask them to check again? Is there really no problem? Is it really controlled by drugs? She swam, she gave me cardiopulmonary resuscitation, and she ate a lot of dumplings just now. ..."

Su Wen pressed her shoulders to stabilize her: "Don't worry, I personally watched all her inspections, and you also checked, there is nothing serious, don't worry."

Although he knew that the problem was not serious, Su Wen was still struggling in his heart.She couldn't imagine how An Xun dragged Jiang Yien ashore with all her strength, and she couldn't even imagine what kind of excruciating pain she endured to do cardiopulmonary resuscitation.After all, even a doctor with normal physical strength will sweat profusely after doing cardiopulmonary resuscitation for a few minutes.

Jiang Yien wiped away tears, leaned against the hospital bed, looked at the sleepy An Xun, eyes full of heartbreak and pity, took her hand, stroked his side of the face, and kissed her lightly.

"I'm really useless, and I asked you to save me in turn."

"Sister An, what should I do to truly protect you..."

A wave of unrest, a wave of up again.

Li Min broke into the door in a panic: "Jiang Yien! Go to your heart, your grandma..."

Jiang Yien gently put down An Xun's hand, looked back at Li Min in a daze, his heart was shocked.

Li Min looked solemn, and said bluntly: "You go and have a look first, you can't afford to delay."

Jiang Yien realized something, instinctively got up and rushed forward two steps, suddenly stopped, looked back at An Xun, then looked at Su Wen helplessly.

"Don't worry, leave it to me." Su Wen comforted her.

From Li Min's flustered look, she also understood that the old man's situation was not optimistic.So he met Li Min and asked her to take care of Jiang Yien.

Jiang Yien followed Li Min all the way to the ward, and when he saw his grandmother, he couldn't hold back his tears for an instant.

She didn't want to use any words related to dying to describe her grandma's appearance at this time.She just saw the life of grandma, like dry petals slowly sinking into the mud, like a puff of smoke gradually disappearing in the wind, she knew that she couldn't stop birth, old age, sickness and death, and she couldn't stop fallen leaves from returning to their roots.

How could it suddenly become like this, she was obviously fine when she was in her ward.She couldn't believe it, and took two steps forward slowly.

"Grandma...Grandma, I was wrong, I won't make you angry...you hit me, you scold me...don't scare me, okay? I was fine just now...you were still talking to me just now... It was all my fault...it was me..."

When Jiang Xueer was dying, she just tremblingly put her clenched fist in the girl's palm, and after she let go, a string of agate bracelets slipped off. She slightly opened and closed her dry and wrinkled lips, and tried her best to send out a few words in a breathy voice. .

A happy marriage for a hundred years.

She regretted that she couldn't wait until the day when she saw her granddaughter put on her wedding dress. She was shrewd and tough all her life, forcing her daughter to miss her life. She didn't want to break up another good relationship because of her harsh words.

Jiang Xueer wore this string of agates for most of his life.When Jiang Yien was very young, she always liked to play with it. At that time, her grandmother joked to her:

"When we, Xiao En, get married in the future, grandma will give you this as a dowry!"

Grandma has remembered it all her life, and she has never broken her promise.

"Grandma..." Jiang Yien held her hand tightly, crying uncontrollably: "Don't worry, I will be happy. I will become a good doctor like you, and I will save many people in the future... I will also I will protect myself, I will listen to your words, and strive to become someone worthy of her..."

"Grandma, thank you...thank you for raising me, thank you for not being troublesome to me...Xiaoen will always be my favorite grandma..."

If you can't keep it, let her go at ease.

On the clock on the wall, the pointer is approaching 12 a little bit, the New Year's bell is ringing, and the fireworks are gorgeous outside the window.

There was a person who was not celebrating his birthday.

From now on, one more person will not celebrate the New Year.

Gentle heartbroken grief is no match for a pretentious wail.Just as Jiang Yien saw off her grandma, her uncles and aunts rushed forward with their sons, squeezing her away.

Later, she was simply kicked out by her uncle pushing and scolding her.

"Get lost! The Jiang family doesn't have a white-eyed wolf like you! You still have the face to cry here?! Your grandma is mad at you!"

Jiang Yien was powerless to refute, and could only plead aloud: "Uncle... don't drive me away, okay, let me stay with grandma again... I beg you, uncle..."

"Still getting out?!" The man raised his arms, and saw that another slap was about to fall.

"stop."

Behind him, there was a weak but powerful stop.

Jiang Yien slowly opened her eyes, and saw that her uncle's thick arm was tightly grasped and controlled by a soft white slender hand, she turned her head, and sure enough, it was An Xun.

The man was still bloodless, his forehead was still sweating, and he was even panting lightly from exhaustion, but he gave her an extremely solid sense of support.

The pain of losing a loved one just now was still overwhelming her, seeing this gentle face, she couldn't help crying bitterly.

"Sister An...Grandma...Grandma..."

"I know, silly boy, I don't blame you." An Xun looked at her girl tenderly with lowered eyebrows, then threw a cowhide bag to the ground, and asked the couple in front of him: "Who is the white-eyed wolf? Don't you know that you are not clear when you are angry?"

Su Wen took a few steps forward and forced the man back: "You guys are really good, the old lady wants to fight for the inheritance before she leaves, and she wants to throw the blame on a little girl?"

After An Xun woke up, when he heard the bad news, he immediately blamed himself, thinking that it was the little girl who slipped out to see her, which caused the old lady to suddenly suffer from heart failure.

Su Wen originally advised her not to come, fearing that the Jiang family would be unkind to her, and besides her physical condition, she really shouldn't get out of bed.But how can An Xun feel at ease to let the girl face the death alone, so she still wants to see it.

Unexpectedly, on the way here, I heard a few nurses say that the old lady had quarreled with someone before the onset of illness, and Su Wen and Su Wen realized something was wrong and adjusted the monitoring. Although they couldn't hear the sound, they could indeed see the three of them. After the quarrel, the old lady fell down clutching her chest.

An Xun noticed the cowhide bag Sun Meifeng had received, followed the monitoring clues, and finally found the "will" in Jiang Yien's ward.

Jiang Yien couldn't believe it and picked up the cowhide bag on the ground, and took out a document from it, with those dazzling words written on it impressively.The clauses inside are also clearly written in black and white, all the assets and money under the grandmother's name will all belong to the son and daughter-in-law.

"You... how could..." She was trembling with anger, she never thought that the uncle and aunt she had been with since childhood were so greedy.

An Xun took the girl into his arms, unwilling to let her stay here any longer, so he took her to the ward: "Xiao En, let's go first to accompany grandma."

Then, meeting Su Wen's eyes, he took the girl back to their place next to grandma.

"This is our family matter, what does it have to do with you?" Sun Meifeng said with a guilty conscience.

Su Wen sneered: "Whoever you two love will go, but Jiang Yien's matter is all of us's matter. We won't snatch what should be yours, but we will never give up what should belong to this girl! If you want to bully Jiang Yien, Try it out!"

Behind Su Wen, a group of medical staff gradually came to support the little girl.Over the years, they have never forgotten what the old doctors said.

"After they leave, their family members should be the family members of our Ren Zhuo Quan Medical Care."

Respect their parents as parents, love their children as children.

Therefore, martyrs, no orphans.

The author has something to say: answer the little cute question.

First of all, why An Xun should blame himself.Apparently it was because Jiang Yien worked so hard for her two adventures.The job of a doctor is to practice medicine and treat diseases, not to make unnecessary sacrifices desperately.Self-blame shouldn't have brought Jiang Yien to the hot pot restaurant, it was just a collateral effect, as mentioned before, her selfishness.

If he simply took Jiang Yien to the hotpot restaurant to rescue the wounded and then returned safely, An Xun would naturally not feel guilty.This should be easy to understand.

Secondly, it is about entanglement and shaking.As an ice doll who has blocked her for more than ten years, An Xun has been entangled in this relationship since the beginning.Her entanglement is not to weigh the pros and cons for herself, but to always weigh the pros and cons for Jiang Yien.

I think emotions are complicated. My lover almost died in front of my eyes in order to save myself. With the past experience, I don't think it can be easy to put on anyone.And as an author, I can only write this entanglement, and the rest, probably only An Xun digested silently.

Stories are just stories, and how many people can come out of reality.

I am very happy to see the little cutie saying "you should protect your lover", because you are as pure and sincere as my ideal Xiaoen.But just as I mentioned several times in my article that "it has nothing to do with me", An Xun, as a protected object, cannot and should not take the girl's desperation for granted.

So her attitude is: I don't deny what you have done in the past, but she will never support that you will continue to do so in the future.

Intellectually speaking, this kind of love is "deformed", and it is also from the perspective of An Xun's maturity.Intellectually, she always insists that children should first learn to love themselves before loving others.But the article also mentioned that emotionally, she couldn't stop herself from loving girls more than herself.

(Here, my concept is the same as that of An Xun, cherish every softness and enthusiasm, but I still advocate that children should learn to cherish and love themselves first.)

Happiness without suffering is fragile. I believe that after stepping on shards of glass, both of them will let go of their caution and care in love.While loving each other, you can also easily let go of your emotions.

Finally, I would like to thank the cuties for their true feelings. I decided on the pseudonym "Wancheng" at first, in the hope that no matter where I go, I can hold a sincerity in my heart, and I hope my story can live up to this intention.

Love you guys.