bad derailment

Heavy curtains blocked the light from outside, and the room was dark.Time seemed to stop flowing, and it was hard to tell whether it was early morning or noon.

The mobile phone on the bedside table was persistently turned on, I heard the ringing in a daze, and wanted to reach out to pick it up, but was blocked by Gu Mingsheng's sudden movement.

He took the phone one step ahead of me. He didn't know what he was doing on it, and the sound stopped abruptly after a few seconds.

"...Who is calling?" I asked unconsciously.

"Don't worry about him, just sleep for a while."

Gu Mingsheng put his phone aside, lowered his head and kissed my forehead, then got up to wash up.He had to catch the high-speed train at noon, so he had to prepare early. I was still surrounded by drowsiness, and I said yes dully, and then went on to sleep deeply.

Waking up again was because of a sudden scent. Gu Mingsheng was already fully dressed and walked in with breakfast.There was more time than I imagined. After I washed up, I sat down with Gu Mingsheng and had breakfast.

During the period, the agent called and chatted with Gu Mingsheng about the itinerary.I didn't make a sound at the side, and suddenly remembered the phone call that was hung up in the morning, so I took the phone and clicked on the address book.

The strange thing is that it didn't show any missed calls. If I didn't clearly remember Gu Mingsheng's voice and movements, I almost thought it was another realistic dream.

Gu Mingsheng was still talking to his manager, so he had to stop for now if he wanted to ask him what he thought.I got up and changed my clothes. Fortunately, in order to prevent emergencies before coming, I brought an extra set on the basis of the original one, but I never thought that such an 'emergency' would happen.

"The start time is delayed, something happened to the lead actor, and the crew is still busy, so I can go there later."

After hanging up the phone, Gu Mingsheng came over and posted me.An actor in the same group had an accident, but his voice was full of joy. Before I could say anything, he pushed me back on the bed.

I found that every time I did it, Gu Mingsheng would become extremely clingy for a period of time, and the tender period seemed endlessly long.For example, at this moment, while he was talking, he began to move his hands restlessly, but it was not a suggestive movement, as if he just wanted to touch me like this, skin to skin, feeling the beating frequency between heart and heart.

"Why are you so energetic?" I looked helplessly at his face close at hand, "Since you can go there later, then you can rest for a while."

"No, I want to accompany you."

He smiled at me, his lips curled up and his eyes curled up with gentle ripples.Maybe it's because I've seen it too much, such a close-up beauty is not enough to make me palpitate like before, but I still feel a little dazed, I can't believe that after so many years, this person named Gu Mingsheng really belongs to me.

Although this is a short, illusory dream that will disappear without knowing when, I still feel a little bit of unspeakable joy.People always make mistakes, because they can't resist the honey in the trap, and because they are temporarily obsessed with ghosts, they know that it is a mistake, but they can't help but step into it.

Gu Mingsheng looked at me, the deep meaning in his eyes seemed to suggest something to me.Fortunately, when doing this kind of thing, he doesn't use words to spoil the atmosphere. He seems to prefer to get closer, first tentatively, entangled with his nose and eyes, and then slowly kisses my lips.

This kiss does not contain desire elements, and it is gentle and entangled step by step.At this moment, he doesn't have that annoying Du Yuchen by his side, and I don't have those relationships that are constantly being cut and messed up. He completely belongs to me, and I completely belong to him. We are like a real couple, with a relationship that can be put on Relationships under the sun.

This is an impossible wish. After a short period of bewilderment, I became sober in a trance. Accompanied by a sudden knock on the door, the temperature on my lips separated instantly.

"It's so early, is it the waiter of the hotel?" I recovered and pushed him away, "Go over and have a look."

Gu Mingsheng frowned, and stood up reluctantly, "I clearly put up the Do Not Disturb sign, it should be your little follower who came to look for you."

"What little follower, do you mean Zhao Quan?"

I suddenly felt a little amused, "Don't let him hear you say that, he also has a temper."

"understood."

Gu Mingsheng smiled, got up and walked to the entrance, a moment later there was the sound of unlocking, and there was no other movement for a long time, and a strange silence spread.

I thought there would be Zhao Quan's energetic voice, but after waiting for a while, it was still as quiet as ever, and I got out of bed a little puzzled, and asked as I walked, "It's Zhao Quan..."

I stopped, stopped abruptly.

Many times, I have imagined similar scenes in my mind, waiting for the day when there is no way out, what kind of situation will it be.

But that should have been in the far future, not unsuspecting offline.I looked at Chen Feng standing outside the door, all my fantasies and calmness suddenly collapsed at this moment, my ears were buzzing.

He was wearing ordinary clothes, carrying a gift bag, looking past Gu Mingsheng, and staring straight at me.This is the first time I saw Chen Feng showing such an expression, it wasn't anger, questioning, nor sadness and disappointment, he completely lost sight of joy and anger, and his pair of pitch-black pupils reflected the palpitations of indifference.

I wanted to explain something and tell him that things were not what he saw, but my body froze in place, unable to move or make a sound.

He just looked at me like he was giving me a death sentence.

"Did I come at the wrong time?"

It took a long time before Chen Feng's voice sounded in the room.My palm was cold, and I squeezed out a distorted sound from my throat: "No."

"Lin Yao," he paused after speaking, "I can't remember how many times this is."

I would rather Chen Feng scold me and accuse me in disappointment than to watch him calmly narrate in this exhausted voice.He seemed to have lost something important, something that I could never get back, which made me flustered like never before.

"List……"

"I'm here to apologize. About the last quarrel, you won't be surprised. Who made it end like this every time?" He interrupted me, seeming to twitch the corners of his mouth in self-deprecating, "No matter what I do, you will You can stand on the sidelines, but you just step back a little, and I can't help but come here to beg your forgiveness."

"But Lin Yao, I'm really tired."

Chen Feng seemed to be unable to see the existence of Gu Mingsheng, and only me was left in his eyes.I want to finish all the words that have been buried deep in the past five years at this moment, like a wire that burst out suddenly after reaching the end, igniting at the tip of my heart.

I don't want to listen to him anymore, he never said a word that I love to hear, in every moment before, and at this moment.

"You don't need to explain anything. I always knew that you didn't have me in your heart. I only agreed to my request at that time out of guilt. You may think you hid it well, but Lin Yao, I'm not stupid."

He laughed in a low voice, not knowing whether he was laughing at me or him, "I'm only too blind to forgive everything you have done. I thought that sooner or later you would be moved, but I was wrong."

"......sorry."

I opened my mouth with difficulty, every word was extremely pale.I think he already knows everything and doesn't want to hear my hypocritical lies.

"Lin Yao, this is the first time I've said these words to you, and it should also be the last time."

Chen Feng seemed to have made some kind of determination, and his gentle voice was like a solemn declaration, nailing it to my heart one by one.

"I never saved you for you, but for myself. This is the choice I made, not you forced me to do it, I just want you to see my determination, because apart from this, I I can’t come up with anything better to keep you. I was stupid at that time and made a lot of wrong and unreasonable decisions. I was really happy when I saw you make up for my debts, but this is not what I want at all. the result of."

"I have never moved myself to feel that you owe me anything. I pay because of love, and you pay because of guilt. We are not equal from the beginning. Maybe I shouldn't use that reason to force you to make a decision. Who made you No matter what I do, I can’t compare to someone’s sweet words.”

The pronunciation of the words fell down one after another, and everyone knew what Chen Feng meant.Gu Mingsheng looked at him deeply, with countless emotions surging in his eyes, and finally calmed down silently.

I wanted to refute, but my throat seemed to be choked and I couldn't breathe.Chen Feng had never uttered so many words at one time, until finally his voice became hoarse.

He whispered, "Lin Yao, can you come here?"

My legs didn't work and I walked towards him, and I stood in front of Chen Feng in a daze.He lowered his eyes and handed me the bag in his hand. He didn't look at me the whole time, and didn't say a word, maybe he didn't think it was necessary.

"I don't want to come in, and I don't want to know what you guys did last night. I thought you might have bought a cake nearby before you had breakfast so early, but I think you may not be able to eat it now."

Chen Feng took a step back, the first time he chose the backward direction in front of me.In one step, a gap was opened, and a sharp [-]th line was carved on the wooden square table with a knife.

This time, he didn't choose to hug me.

"Lin Yao, let's break up."

This sentence is very light, very calm, without any ups and downs.It wasn't until much later that I realized that this wasn't a normal question, but a breakup.

He clearly said that he disagreed hysterically, so he told me not to bring up that topic with red eyes.He showed deep affection that could tolerate all my mistakes, but until now, it was easily offset by the sentence 'we broke up'.

"Okay," I nodded stiffly and heard myself say, "Let's break up."

A dark light that I couldn't understand flashed across Chen Feng's eyes for a moment. Something was breaking apart one by one until it could no longer be put together again.

He didn't look at me again, he turned around and walked towards the direction he came from, and together with something unforgettable, he took it away from my heart.