bad derailment

No one can resist the tenderness of letting go of all defenses, I was still as disappointed as before, and hurriedly looked away under Gu Mingsheng's gaze.

When he looks at a person, he is always very affectionate, without deliberate interpretation, it flows naturally from his bones.I think this has become a habit of his. Even if he is not in that mood, Gu Mingsheng will unconsciously send a wrong signal to outsiders.

I was the earliest victim, and my heart was abducted by him ignorantly when I didn't understand anything.Fortunately, I woke up early and had enough concentration to barely maintain this unusual friendship.

If it continues like this, I will never step over the threshold, let alone be shaken by Gu Mingsheng's gentleness again in all kinds of intimate contacts.

He lured me to taste the forbidden fruit, using sweetness as bait, even though I told myself over and over again that fickleness is his nature, I still couldn't help but at a certain moment, had the illusion that he liked me too.

This kind of thought that shouldn't appear affects my mind, and I even think a little divergently that in a certain sense, I and Gu Mingsheng are also considered compatible.

He was aware of Chen Feng's existence but still approached a little bit, and I knew it was a mistake, but I still didn't resist the deviance.

It is more moral for a bad guy to stay with a bad guy than to frame another good guy.

Just like Jiang Qiushi.

I have long since woken up from 'accidents' and realized that Jiang Qiushi was not as spotless as I imagined.There is a kind of unconscious sobriety in him, and this kind of cruelty is brought to the extreme when facing others.

Driven by the last trace of luck, I am still more willing to believe that Jiang Qiushi is not so bad.Compared to Gu Mingsheng, he at least still knows how to refuse, and maintains his calmness in his bones.

I put the flowers sent by Gu Mingsheng into the vase, and suddenly remembered the bouquet I gave to Jiang Qiushi.After a long time, I can't remember what kind of packaging and varieties I chose. I only remember the excited and nervous mood when I knocked on the door of Jiang Qiushi's house, and it will flash across my heart at a certain moment.

Leaving aside those complicated factors and the chaotic past, I still feel uncontrollable heart palpitations when I see Jiang Qiushi.He seems to be born with a fatal attraction to me. Even though I know that he is not perfect and has shortcomings that ordinary people have, but whenever I think about it, all I can think of are his good things.

Memory will automatically weaken his impulses and mistakes. In just a short moment, all I can remember are his captivating eyes and the lonely figure in the rearview mirror.

I can't help but feel pity for him, can't help being soft-hearted, and will only return to my senses after they have dispersed.Those factors and the past can never be discarded, it is part of Jiang Qiushi, and it is also an impenetrable wall standing between us.

Every branch of flowers is quietly lying in the vase. I can’t tell their species. They are very similar to bellflowers, and some are like roses.

Jiang Qiushi sent a long string of text in the middle of the night, more like a letter, with a beginning and a signature.I can almost imagine his calm expression when he typed every word, scanning down ten lines at a glance, his eyes were a little sore.

He said a lot of things since we met, and apologized impulsively for tonight.The text is very bland, as if all personal feelings have been stripped away, and the narrative is as rigid as possible.

"Lin Yao, I haven't forgotten what I said when we met last time. I'm sorry that I didn't control my emotions and made you feel embarrassed. '

At this time, Jiang Qiushi still calmly classified these as 'uncontrollable'.

I don't intend to expose him. Some words often lose the meaning buried in my heart.

'This is the last time I will appear in front of you. As we agreed before, I will not disturb your life again, and I will take good care of your share. '

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'Say sorry to Lin Nuo for me, I originally wanted to say it in person, but she blocked my WeChat. '

Seeing the last sentence, I couldn't help laughing, and I felt the corners of my mouth stiff and painful when I smiled.I put down the phone and covered my eyes with my arms. After a long time, the feeling of heavy pressure on my chest was relieved.

This is very good, the ending of the story doesn't have to be spectacular, causing both sides to suffer, learning from the negative teaching materials of Chen Feng and me.

Jiang Qiushi apologized decently and explained everything clearly, just like every time we got along with each other before, he couldn't find a single mistake.

This feeling was not like the dull pain of being torn apart from Chen Feng, but more like being pressed into airtight muddy water, giving him chills.

I touched my wet cheeks, and after thinking about it for a long time, I couldn't come up with a definite answer.

Lin Nuo's bad moods always come and go quickly, and by the time I came to apologize with Gu Mingsheng's gift, she was too awkward to be angry anymore.

I dutifully coaxed a few words, and swore on the spot that I would never hide it from her. Only then did Lin Nuo smile.Dafa mercifully said: "Then I will reluctantly forgive you."

She didn't explain the reason for blackmailing Jiang Qiushi, and I didn't mention it either.Before leaving, she said something that moved me very much, looked into my eyes, and said every word very seriously.

"Brother, no matter what, you are my elder brother. I will stand by your side unconditionally. Even if you do something bad, I will definitely help my relatives."

It is rare for Lin Nuo to talk to me in such a serious manner, and he seems to be a different person suddenly after putting away the jump.I looked into her firm eyes, and realized more deeply and directly than last time——Lin Nuo has really grown up.

"Don't say such things too early. If something really happens to me, you should help me or not." I reached out and rubbed her head, and smiled after a pause, "But I heard you say that, I Very happy."

Lin Nuo didn't say anything more, she raised a big smile and hugged me hard.

This incident ended briefly, and I knew she would forgive me and keep this secret for me in the end.

In order to catch up with the summer schedule, the TV series that Gu Mingsheng participated in were sent for review in advance. After everything was ready, four episodes were broadcast on Lime Channel every week.

During the lunch break, I can often hear heated discussions among female colleagues. The content of the chat is either admiration for the beauty and love of the hero and heroine, or surprise for the villain played by Gu Mingsheng.

This is the first time I heard his name from someone else in this way, and the feeling is particularly subtle.

The more complicated mood is that when I see Gu Mingsheng's familiar face on TV, even if he is wearing a costume and seriously reading the lines of the characters in the play, it still gives me a strong sense of weirdness.

After all, it is a face that has been watched for ten years, and it is impossible to completely remove the emotion because of a drama.Fortunately, Gu Mingsheng's acting skills are not bad. After watching four episodes, I finally let go of that strange feeling and gradually got better.

Over the years, domestic dramas have been going downhill. I watch less, and I can't tell whether this drama is good or bad now.Most of the comments on the Internet are positive, and the popularity remains high. I secretly glanced at Gu Mingsheng's Weibo a few times, and the number of fans has already approached 1000 million.

Xiao Nan said that according to his modesty, he was considered a little popular this time.But from her point of view, Gu Mingsheng was born to eat the rice in the entertainment industry, and sooner or later he would become popular.

I agree in my heart, but apart from the joy, there is also a trace of anxiety.Gu Mingsheng's popularity continued to rise, and the most intuitive feeling was that he became busier.In the past, I was able to contact people anyway, but now I often have to wait until midnight or the next day to see his reply. Even the first meeting is sneaky, and I have to hide from the paparazzi in full gear.

It wasn't something shameful at first, but being teased by him like this made me feel a little guilty.

"Xiao Yao, the new drama I told you about last time will start soon, and the director said it will be next week."

Gu Mingsheng hugged me and charged the battery for a while, then suddenly raised his head, leaning against my side, emitting heat indistinctly.

It is rare for him to be free for half a day today. He originally planned to rest at home, but he ran over on his own initiative without giving me any preparation.

"My role this time is relatively heavy, and I may not see each other for a long time."

I came back to my senses and paused half of the drama on my phone, which wasn't much of a surprise.Gu Mingsheng told me about this new drama that has already been discussed. I heard that the male and female protagonists are popular traffic, and it is not easy for him to get the second male lead.

"It's okay, I'll visit you when I have time, just like last time."

Gu Mingsheng was quiet for a while, and when I subconsciously turned my head to look over, he already showed a smile naturally, as if the hesitation just now was an illusion.

"Yes, just like last time." He said softly.

After Gu Mingsheng joined the crew, he quickly sent him the address. Because there were many morning and evening dramas, the crew specially reserved a room for each leading actor.

The script this time is very different from the last one. It spans directly from the ancient times to the campus. I have seen his makeup photos a long time ago, and I feel a rare surprise through the screen.

Surprisingly, he is more suitable for a clean and bright boy than a scheming villain. He doesn't need any modification on his face, just put on a school uniform that fits him, a look and a smile are enough to bring people back to the campus in his memory. Pure and beautiful.

Or maybe just for me, this kind of Gu Mingsheng has a more special meaning, which comes from the secret that only belongs to the two of us in the distant memory.

After Xiao Nan sent the makeup photos, she asked non-stop: How are you doing?Doesn't this look particularly suit Brother Gu?

I saved the photo and typed back: very suitable.

At the end, I added another sentence: very good.

Xiao Nan: Brother Gu will definitely be happy when he sees it [shy].By the way, Brother Lin Yao, are you coming to visit the class later?Brother Gu didn't play a lot of roles today, and work was over early.

She has changed from a hint at the beginning to a blatant invitation. This idea was not very deep at first, but I was still a little moved, and I went back to say "yes" after a while.

Maybe it's because everything that happened recently is inseparable from Gu Mingsheng, I can't help but think of him gradually, and I start to spend more time sorting out this chaotic relationship.

In the past, I might still be able to classify him as a so-called "lover", but now after Chen Feng left, what should Gu Mingsheng and I be counted as?

This question wraps me around.

Gu Mingsheng has always had a good temper, especially when facing me.But it is this kindness that often makes me feel overwhelmed.

I remember very well that he brought his girlfriend out to meet him a few years ago.At the dinner table, the other party coquettishly asked Gu Mingsheng to peel her shrimp, but Gu Mingsheng gently refused.The girl pursed her mouth a little unhappy, I chatted with her in order to ease the atmosphere, the chat was very happy at first, but she suddenly stopped talking later, I found out and followed her gaze, only to realize that Gu Mingsheng didn't know what It's time to put the shelled shrimp in my bowl.

He did it very naturally at the time, and after a smile, he said why he didn't continue the chat.I thought he was jealous of me, so I stopped chatting with that girl, and after a few weeks, I heard the news of their breakup.

Asked why, Gu Mingsheng still left three words as usual: not suitable.

He can always easily make a relationship ambiguous. Over the years, I have been very clear about his methods, but when all these considerations and tenderness are applied to me, I still can't help shaking my mind.

But what did he think?

Did he do these outrageous things just as a friend, a lover, or worse, a comforting bed partner?

My mood gradually sank. When it comes to Gu Mingsheng's question, I always fall into a vicious circle that I can't get out of.It seems that the only way to get out of this predicament is to keep testing his sincerity, but will the result really be the one I expected?

Maybe, maybe not, these things always need an answer, and we can't be confused forever.

Halfway, Xiao Nan suddenly called a phone call, and after I answered it, there was a noisy background sound.Her voice was a little vague, with obvious nervousness: "Brother Lin Yao, where are you now?"

I looked at the destination not far away through the car window and said to her, "I'll be there soon."

"Well, if you're still on the way, can you go and buy something for me first?" Xiao Nan was very embarrassed, "Brother Lin Yao, I'm sorry to trouble you, I can't leave the set now."

"Okay," I was a little surprised, but still agreed, "You tell me what to buy."

Xiao Nan reported a few items, all of which were not urgently needed, and hung up the phone in a hurry after speaking.I suppressed the weirdness in my heart and asked the driver to turn around and go to the supermarket, and the other party responded readily.

The car turned around smoothly, and I looked through the rear mirror to the farther and farther studio in my field of vision.There were some staff around outside, and the atmosphere was very busy. Several cars were parked on the opposite street. Before they could take a closer look, the taxi turned into another street, blocking the picture in the rearview mirror.

That car seemed familiar, but I couldn't remember where I saw it.