bad derailment

I never doubted Chen Feng's determination.

But it was such an absurd sentence that pierced my heart straight to the bottom of my heart. There was a feeling of suffocation for a moment, and embers remained after a long time.

I can't say anything about Chen Feng, and I can't talk about myself, so I use silence to carry out the answer to the end.He probably understood that he couldn't continue to persecute him, so he lowered his eyes and didn't say anything more. After I didn't know how many times I mentioned it, he finally left the house in a muffled voice.

From then on, I could see Chen Feng sitting in the corridor almost every day when I came back.

My casual remark was taken seriously by him, Chen Feng really used the most stupid way.It's like the first youthful pursuit five years ago, from throwing the ball at my feet over and over again, and now showing up with perseverance every day.

He may have changed a lot, but in fact he has never changed.At least at the moment when he faced me, his heart was always dull and frank, depressing and passionate.I couldn't help but want to retreat, but felt that there was no way to retreat behind me.

Most of the time, Chen Feng would stand at the door and be stopped by me.He suppressed his emotions and watched me close the door, and kept wandering in the corridor. Sometimes he would go downstairs, light a cigarette, and stand alone under the street lamp, looking like he had nowhere to go.

He never smoked before. I remember one time when I came home accidentally smelled of cigarettes from somewhere else, Chen Feng frowned sensitively and questioned me for half an hour.It wasn't until I was annoyed by the question and turned cold and ignored him that he calmed down and said in a low voice, 'I just don't like the smell of cigarettes'.

No matter how hated things were at that time, they would not be hated for a lifetime after all, and if they were liked for so many years, would they become a pool of stagnant water in the constant wear and tear?

I don't understand, or dare not think deeply.After closing the door, he looked at the cat's eyes, and when Chen Feng went downstairs, he stood by the window again, and turned off the light like stealing the bell, not daring to let the shadowy figure be discovered by Chen Feng.

This kind of behavior is naive and ridiculous. I used to say that Chen Feng was naive, but I am also the same.The difference is that he won't hide it, but I'm used to putting my calm on my face.

I have always cared so much that I could hardly bear it, but I couldn't show this care in front of Chen Feng.

If the first time you make a mistake and you can lie to yourself that you are just delusional, then the second time, and the third time, the same excuse will only become a joke.

I don't want to make mistakes again and again, and I can't cruelly give him too much hope until now.

I did not mention this matter with Jiang Qiushi.It's not necessary, and I can't speak.He went back to high school again, and his work was not as busy as before, and he would go out with me when he was free on weekends.

The news reported a few days ago that there would be a meteor shower on the night of September [-]th.Zhao Quan whispered in his ear about the date plan with his girlfriend all day, and I couldn't help but chat with Jiang Qiushi after I went back.After listening quietly, he lowered his eyes and seemed to be thinking about something, and then left a sentence lightly.

"Want to take a look?"

I asked him in a daze, "What are you looking at?"

"Meteor shower," Jiang Qiushi pursed his lips and smiled, "Do you want to see it? It should be spectacular."

I just mentioned it casually, without really thinking about practical actions.But in Jiang Qiushi's soft eyes and words, there was an inexplicable desire to move.The itinerary was set in a hurry, but it did not reduce the expectation of that night.Jiang Qiushi drove to the middle of the mountain. He should have done his homework in advance, and within a few minutes he found a good location that could almost overlook the entire city of Yan.

At nine o'clock in the evening, everything is silent.

From time to time, there was a bird call in the woods, which was a little bit empty under the night sky.I leaned against the car, my heartbeat gradually calmed down, and I merged with the passing wind. I couldn't help relaxing my tired body and mind, and immersed myself in the rare tranquility away from the city center.

Jiang Qiushi was very close, and the temperature passed along the elbows he touched.He looked at the brightly lit and bustling night scene not far away, and those misty lights projected on the lens frame by frame, and suddenly said in a flat voice, "Today is my birthday."

I was stunned for a few seconds, maybe half a minute, then turned my head and looked at Jiang Qiushi's side face hidden in the light and shadow, "What?"

He unobtrusively moved the corners of his lips, still maintaining the original movement, as if stating the most common fact: "Actually, today is my birthday."

"Why didn't you tell me in advance?" I straightened up, my mind was a little confused, I didn't know why this surprise suddenly hit me, "I didn't even prepare a gift for you."

Jiang Qiushi smiled faintly at me, "Isn't this just a gift?"

"Now......"

I couldn't help but laugh, just as I was about to say something, Jiang Qiu raised his index finger lightly and made a 'shh' gesture.

A cluster of light suddenly cut through the oppressive night sky, opening up the way like a sharp sword.Following that, more and more beams of cold light flew across the sky, illuminating half of the night sky, shining like day in an instant.

With such a short distance, it seems as if you can touch the sky just by raising your hand.

I looked at the spectacular shooting star, and only after I lost my mind did I remember that I could make a wish.But when I closed my eyes, it was blank, and I couldn't think of any vision that could be expected.

From the first star to the curtain ending, in just 10 minutes, I couldn't help sighing: "It's so beautiful."

"It's very beautiful." Jiang Qiushi looked at me and smiled silently.

My heart skipped a beat, and it took me a while to think, "Did you make a wish just now? Today is your birthday, and the wish will definitely come true."

Jiang Qiushi said: "Yes, but this wish may not be fulfilled."

"It can't be some very unrealistic wish, right?" I couldn't help laughing, "For example, I went out and picked up a lottery ticket, and won 500 million after checking it."

Jiang Qiu couldn't help laughing, but he also restrained himself when he laughed.She bent her lips, with a restrained smile rippling at the end of her eyes, she shook her head and said, "It's even more unrealistic than this."

I raised my eyebrows in surprise. In my impression, Jiang Qiushi always seemed to be indifferent to the world.I didn't expect that when I made a wish, I would have childish daydreams like ordinary people.

"It will definitely come true," I thought about it, but I still said, "Today is your birthday, and you are the oldest. I didn't even eat cake with you. Do you want to buy one on the way back? But are the cake shops closed? "

While I was talking, I took out my mobile phone to check, when Jiang Qiushi, who had been quiet all this time, suddenly called out my name: "Lin Yao."

His voice is always flat and just right, flowing into his heart like autumn water.I raised my head, Jiang Qiushi lowered his eyes, pressed my lips lightly, and exchanged a kiss mixed with the evening breeze.

"No cake, this is the best gift."

He looked at me, the light in his eyes flickered brighter than the meteor just now for a moment, absorbing my whole mind.

"I'm not used to celebrating birthdays, it's enough to have you by my side this time."

He never intentionally prepared surprises or said love words, but I think this kind of Jiang Qiushi is more exciting than any well-prepared gift.For a while, I couldn't tell whether I was celebrating his birthday with him or me.

On the way back, the 24-hour convenience store was still open.At my suggestion, Jiang Qiushi and I went in and bought two strawberry cakes.

In the eyes of the clerk, this should be a very strange picture: at ten o'clock in the evening, two big men ran to the convenience store to buy cakes, and sat together to eat and chat.

In fact, I am not attached to the sense of birthday ritual, but I suddenly feel that it is not bad to come here once in a while.

"what about the taste?"

Back in the car, when I turned to ask Jiang Qiu, his hand holding the steering wheel seemed to pause, "Can I tell the truth?"

I suppressed a smile and nodded, "Yes."

"The taste is a bit greasy."

"Actually, I also feel a little tired," I recalled the taste in my mouth, and came to the same conclusion, "But it's only once a year, so I can bear with it, and I'll spend it with you again next year."

The backs of Jiang Qiushi's hands were slightly tensed, and the veins were particularly conspicuous under his fair complexion.He was silent for a few seconds, and then raised the corners of his lips, echoing my words softly: "Well, let's have a good time next year."

The car drove in the direction of my house, halfway through, Chen Feng's face suddenly flashed across my mind, thinking of him appearing irregularly during this period of time, my originally slack heart suddenly lifted.I took out my phone, hesitated for a few seconds and sent him a message.

:Where are you now?

In my heart, I hope the answer is not my family, otherwise Jiang Qiushi will not even be able to find a decent reason to turn around at this time.While waiting for Chen Feng's reply, the speed of the car gradually slowed down until it stopped at the side of the road.I thought Jiang Qiushi had something to do, so I turned my head and asked, "What's the matter..."

The picture that caught my eyes made all my words cut off in half.

Jiang Qiushi was clasping the steering wheel with both hands, the back of his hands and his face turned pale at the same time.There wasn't much emotion on his face, but his tightly pressed lips revealed that he was in an absolutely uncomfortable state.

I froze for a few seconds, and quickly unfastened my and Jiang Qiushi's seat belts, "Are you okay? Are you feeling unwell?"

"Well," he squeezed out a slightly hoarse voice from his nasal cavity, and said in a trembling voice, "my stomach hurts a bit."

"Is that the cake just now?" I thought of this at the first moment, feeling a little annoyed, "I'm sorry, I wouldn't have let you eat it if I knew it earlier, it may have been frozen for a while and stimulated my stomach. I'll go out and buy it for you Medicine, the pharmacy should still be open now.”

Jiang Qiushi took my hand, which was about to open the door, very hard, and almost cut a mark on my arm for the first time, "No need to buy, there is medicine in the car, in the front drawer, can you help me get it?" for a while?"

Until this moment, he never forgot his feeble question. I opened the drawer according to his words, and there was only a magazine and a medicine bottle in it, "Is this it?"

"Well, two pills are enough."

I gave Jiang Qiushi two pills. Fortunately, there was always mineral water in the car, which came in handy at this time.After taking the medicine, Jiang Qiushi still hadn't recovered his blood color. He leaned silently on the steering wheel, half-downcasting his eyes so that he couldn't see clearly the restrained fluctuations, as if he was enduring some kind of strong discomfort.

Such a man inexplicably gave me a sense of fragility, like a piece of porcelain that is about to shatter if touched lightly, and I couldn't help but lower my voice: "How are you doing now?"

"It's better." I don't know if it's to comfort me or it's really better, Jiang Qiushi smiled and said to me.

"You park your car here, and I'll take a taxi to accompany you back."

"No, I'll be fine if I take it easy."

Jiang Qiushi pulled me back and controlled his strength this time, probably because the medicine took effect and relieved the pain.He moved closer, his long curled eyelashes trembled slightly, his lips were slightly pale, but there was also a kind of fragile and fragile beauty. He bowed his head and kissed me while I was in a daze, and kissed again after we parted.

A quiet, dependent kiss without any emotion.

"It's much better," he leaned his head on my shoulder, his voice trembling slightly, "Thank you, Lin Yao."

I don't understand why he wants to thank you, since the root cause of all this is the cake I suggested to buy.After hesitating for a few seconds, I put my hand around Jiang Qiushi's back, and the shape of his shoulder blades can be traced through a layer of clothing, protruding in the palm of my hand.A thought suddenly popped up in a trance, was he also so thin before?

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