After the scum was scum, he wore it back again

Is he still alive?

Or, even if he goes to hell, he can't get rid of Fu Zhou.

Shen Liangchuan shrunk in subconsciously, he didn't even bother to think about why he was here, he just felt that the noise around him was very loud,? He didn't want to live in the shadow of Fu Zhou who would live after his death.

"Liangchuan, look at me, please,? Look at me."

Fu Zhou seemed to be haunted by something? The slender eyelashes fluttered under the black eye sockets, and a dense layer of cold sweat appeared on his forehead. It was cold and dark, but almost half of his body was pressed against Shen Liangchuan's body.

Shen Liangchuan's indifference caused the panic in his heart to continue to expand, and he could only keep calling, hoping to see his lover look a little bit angry in the world.

It turned out that he was still alive.

Shen Liangchuan looked at Fu Zhou's thin lips indifferently.

His life is really tough.

This time in the car, where will it be next time?Next time, as long as he is unhappy, he can be humiliated anytime and anywhere.

Isn't it already late?

Why is it still not dead.

Shen Liangchuan felt extremely exhausted and desperate, and closed his eyes again.

"Liangchuan!"

Fu Zhou's heart was trembling, he didn't know what he was doing, as if a sharp knife had been stirred in his mind, which severely stimulated his nerves.

"Master!"

What Liang Ping came up to see was the scene of Fu Zhou clinging to Shen Liangchuan. Shen Liangchuan was pale, couldn't even sit still, and looked like he was going to die at any moment.

Liang Ping suddenly "thumped" in his heart. He didn't care about anything, and hurriedly ran over to hold Fu Zhou, "Master,? You forgot to take your medicine."

"Master, this is Master Shen, you will regret it!"

Fu Zhou has been seeing a psychiatrist. He hasn't been to a psychiatrist since the serious illness Shen Liangchuan suffered.

Before Liang Ping broke Fu Zhou's hand away, the eyes that were originally on Shen Liangchuan's body suddenly turned around and looked straight at him, with no trace of light visible at the bottom of the eyes, bloody and terrifying.

"Master!"

Liang Ping was startled, and immediately realized that Fu Zhou was still shaking, and hurriedly pulled his hand hanging by his side to wake him up.

"Wake up, master"

"Master Shen is fine, he is here well, you wake up soon."

Fu Zhou's breath became more and more cold and gloomy.

He watched helplessly as Shen Liangchuan was surrounded by a group of gangsters at the door of the bar.

They stomped Liang Chuan's head under their feet.

They fed Liangchuan strong love medicine.

Pairs of dirty hands tore off Liang Chuan's clothes, and looked obscenely at him.

"Get off - get off! Who gave you the guts to touch him! Who gave you the guts to touch him!"

Fu Zhou's mind exploded with a "buzz", and he rushed up like crazy, his Liangchuan, that's his Liangchuan!

He kept tearing, but the gangsters seemed to be endless, he just pulled this hand away, and the other stuck to it.

His Liang Chuan was lying on the ground looking at him, so sad, so desperate.

"It's okay, I will protect you, I will protect you."

Fu Zhou said incoherently with heartache, "Don't be sad."

"Please, Liangchuan, don't leave me behind."

"It's you, Fu Zhou."

The voice next to his ear was filtered out in an instant, Fu Zhou's heart trembled, and he subconsciously searched for the source of the voice.

The baby in his arms stood up at some point, and he saw blood standing coldly in the corner, with the blood winding all over the ground behind him, looking down at him.

"Obviously you sent me to those people."

"Why do you look like you're going to die instead?"

"I don't... Liangchuan, I don't..."

Fu Zhou fell on the ground in fear. He wanted to stand up to see where Shen Liangchuan was injured, but his whole body was as stiff as if frozen.

"How could I send you away—!"

It's too late for me to love you myself, how could I give you to someone else!

"You killed my father."

"You used my sister to force me to submit to you."

"You were the one who killed me. Where are the people you mentioned?"

Shen Liangchuan opened his mouth and smiled lightly, black blood kept gushing down from his bright red thin lips.

"It's okay, I'll let you kill me."

Shen Liangchuan chuckled, and handed the dagger into Fu Zhou's hand. The dagger was so cold that Fu Zhou wanted to shake it off the moment he touched it, but Shen Liangchuan grabbed his palm and approached him bit by bit. heart.

"no no--"

Fu Zhou's Adam's apple twitched desperately, his eyes were terrified, and even his teeth were chattering horribly.

"Do not……"

"No—! Liangchuan!"

Fu Zhou watched helplessly as the dagger in his hand sank into Shen Liangchuan's heart.

A big hole was opened in Shen Liangchuan's body, and blood poured out from that hole.

But he smiled as if relieved: "I can finally leave you."

"Fu Zhou, I can finally be with Ziqing forever."

"Do not--"

Fu Zhou's eyes were completely bloodshot in an instant, and the arms around Shen Liangchuan tightened even more.

The wound behind Shen Liangchuan rubbed against the bed, the pain caused him to groan immediately.

"Master! You hurt Master Shen!"

"What you see is hallucination, young master, drink the medicine quickly."

A trace of anxiety flashed between Liang Ping's eyebrows, and he put a white pill into Fu Zhou's mouth without hesitation.

What happened to Shen Liangchuan was indeed beyond his scope of responsibility.

But he clearly knew that if Fu Zhou found out that he had hurt Shen Liangchuan after waking up, his life would be worse than death!

Who?

Who is crying for pain?

Who did he hurt...?

Fu Zhou's scarlet eyeballs moved mechanically, and vaguely saw a familiar face.

The weird smile on the corner of the mouth in the hallucination overlapped with this face for an instant, and white light instantly penetrated Fu Zhou's brain.

"Don't...don't, don't hurt yourself—"

"please"

"don't want--"

Fu Zhou's fingers holding Shen Liangchuan tightened suddenly, and the blood mist in his eyes dispersed bit by bit.

"cold--"

Just as Fu Zhou was about to speak, he stopped suddenly after he said a word, and the light in his eyes became flickering.

"Master, are you awake?"

Liang Ping wiped the cold sweat off his head, and looked at Fu Zhou worriedly. Fu Zhou seemed to still have the aftertaste of fear, and his whole body was trembling.

The two of them were deadlocked for nearly a minute. Just when Liang Ping had given up calling for a doctor, the knuckles that had been holding Shen Liangchuan's wrist suddenly loosened.

Shen Liangchuan was so painful that a layer of cold sweat broke out on his forehead, but he seemed to be numb, and he didn't even raise his eyes when the shackles disappeared.

"I……"

Fu Zhou's voice was hoarse, and the rapid breathing in his tone hadn't calmed down yet, and there was a trace of dodging fear in his eyes that were originally covered in blood mist.

"I didn't... mean to hurt you."

After saying a word, his eyes turned red.

He tortured people until they had a fever, and he made blood everywhere.

Even now, it was he who pulled his wounds.

Fu Zhou didn't even dare to look at Shen Liangchuan's face, and ran out staggeringly.

Anxiously, Liang Ping supported Shen Liangchuan to lie down, and hurriedly chased him out.Before leaving, she didn't care whether Shen Liangchuan heard it or not, she just told him: "The young master has some mental problems, he doesn't really want to hurt you."

Shen Liangchuan was cold and indifferent, until Liang Ping had left, he opened his eyes tremblingly, and after a long time, he actually laughed out loud.

are you crazy?

He turned out to be crazy.

Ha ha ha.

[Gu Ran: "I said that their Fu family has an ancestral mental illness, but you still don't believe it."]

【478: "Fu Zhou is a paranoid personality disorder. It wasn't so serious in the first place, but it made you so excited →_→, you have the nerve to say it?"]

[Gu Ran laughed angrily: "I stimulated him? What did I stimulate him for? Did I use a wine bottle to scare him or an electric toothbrush to brush him? Does he still have a face to be stimulated?"]

【478: "Do you still remember that you told me that Fu Zhou is a person with supreme spirituality?"】

【478 paused slightly: "He received electrotherapy because he hurt you, this time he almost died on the electrotherapy bed."】

【Gu Ran: "! Electrotherapy?"】

【Gu Ran: "Really! Is it the electrotherapy that #%$&*#^$ after electrification?"】

【478: "...is the host."】

Good guy.

There was a hint of admiration in Gu Ran's eyes, as expected of a member of the Fu family.

【478: "Every time he hurts you, you ask the psychiatrist to give him electrotherapy and self-harm. This time, it's because you've been in a coma for too long, and he didn't care about it. So host, be yourself."】

[Gu Ran suddenly turned around: "What are you talking about, he is not injured or disabled, what do you mean I am a person, 478 whose system are you in the end!"]

478: QAQ

In the next few days, Shen Liangchuan never saw Fu Zhou again.

It seemed that Fu Zhou's gaffe that day was just an illusion when he was dying. Even if he died here, Fu Zhou would only dislike him for soiling his bed sheets.

Shen Liangchuan became more and more unaware of the time, as if there was only endless exhaustion and discomfort all day long.

He didn't go on a hunger strike, and put the food that was delivered every day into his mouth carefully, and after swallowing it, he spit it out again intact, and the blood and dirt all over the floor were quickly cleaned up.

The next day, new porridge samples were brought up again, and the cycle repeated.

Gradually, he began to hate the weakness when he picked up the spoon.

He knew that he was living in Fu Zhou's villa, and he even knew that Fu Zhou might be watching him quietly through some hidden camera.

But he didn't have the slightest thought of resisting, as if he was extremely tired even when he opened his eyes.

It's just that when he occasionally thinks of Liangyu, he will burst into tears as if he woke up, and then he will vomit even more painfully.

Until the evening of this day, he suddenly began to vomit blood without warning.

[Gu Ran: "Oh my god! I vomited blood so timely!"]

He just found out that Fu Yushu had come to this villa, and now he vomited out this mouthful of blood.

【478: "Host, there are still 60 blackening points, come on~"】

Fu Zhou didn't show up for three days in a row, and he didn't even attend the shareholders' meeting. The villa was in panic all day long. Only Liang Ping ordered the kitchen to take care of Shen Liangchuan every day. On this day, the Fu family finally couldn't sit still.

After all, he didn't dare to ask Fu Zhou what he was doing, so he sent the only person in Fu Zhou who could give him a good face to test it out.

Fu Yushu was also terrified. He didn't complete the task Fu Zhou gave him last time, and his heart was already hanging in the air. He was not strong enough to dare to sway in front of Fu Zhou again in such a short time.

But Mr. Fu issued a death order, saying that his brother couldn't be found, and he didn't have to stay in Fu's house anymore. His mother cried and begged him, but he really had no choice, so he came here humming.

Unexpectedly, after arriving at the villa, he didn't see Fu Zhou, but met an unexpected person.

Everyone in the Fu family knows that Fu Zhou has a strong sense of territory. Not to mention letting outsiders live in the villa, even if a car that is not his own approaches Fenglinzhou Road, he will be checked. There are no pants left, but now, he actually let that day The youth I met stayed here!

Shen Liangchuan walked very slowly. The wound behind him had only been medicated once, and when he raised his leg a little, he felt a tearing pain like a needle prick, but he still endured the pain of blood streaking across his buttocks, bit by bit. Leaning on the wall, he walked out of the corridor.

He didn't want to see Fu Zhou at all.

However, he desperately wanted to talk to him.

All injuries become so insignificant in the face of life and death.

After vomiting blood, he suddenly became afraid.

He was afraid that before he had time to say goodbye to the person who occupied nearly half of his life, he would be forced to draw a full stop.

Shen Liangchuan's whole body was so thin that only his bones remained. It was the first time that he was so eager to see someone.

The one who hurt him, humiliated him, and threw him into the eternal hell.

But the moment he reached the spiral escalator, he suddenly froze.

Under the villa stood an extremely beautiful boy.

That was - when he was still living in Lin Yan's house, the boy who once claimed that he was a acupuncture professional and was about to take an exam.

Shen Liangchuan's fingers holding the stairs were clenched in an instant, and the sharp corners pierced into his palms, causing him a bit of a trance from the pain.

"Where's Fu... Zhou?"

Fu Yushu was taken aback by the slump on Shen Liangchuan's face. After Shen Liangchuan talked for a long time, he finally came to his senses, and hurriedly replied:

"Are you asking brother?"

"Brother, he went out, there should be something urgent."

Shen Liangchuan shook slightly, his blood-colored lips turned completely pale in an instant.

Already, close to... this level?

During the few days he slept, did they just...be together all the time.

What is he looking forward to?

He actually...would feel...that Lu Zhou couldn't help himself.

Shen Liangchuan bent down suddenly, tears welling from the corners of his smiling eyes.

He is not a fool, he just needs to think a little more, and the disobedience he felt at the top of Lin Yan's stairs that day was instantly explained.

No wonder someone came to help him up just as he fell on the stairs.

No wonder that person is as dazzling as the rising sun but is willing to stay in a cramped place.

No wonder he was so determined to use all kinds of things on him.

No wonder he was dying and he didn't even look at it.

It turned out to be in love with someone else.

The person he protected with his life fell in love with someone else.

"well."

Fu Yushu heard the man's hoarse voice like a firewood bursting in winter.

He was smiling, but the smile was sunken in the sunken eyes, and there was a trace of relieved irony, as if, in this world, there was nothing to be nostalgic about.

Fu Yushu was suddenly a little scared, and chased after him in three steps and two steps.

"Brother, he should be dealing with urgent matters."

"Don't be sad—!"

Before Fu Yushu touched the corner of the man's clothes, the solid wood carved door cut him off with a "bang".

[478: "Host, why do you look like you've been cheated on? You clearly know that Fu Yushu is Fu Zhou's younger brother... and he's a straight man..."】

【Gu Ran: "I know, but Shen Liangchuan doesn't know."】

Anyone who sees the object of their inferiority suddenly appearing in the home of the ambiguous party will think about it.

What's more, it took Shen Liangchuan the last ounce of courage to make up his mind to go out to find Fu Zhou, it's normal to see it wrong!

[Gu Ran: "I just feel sorry for Fu Yushu, 478, please take care of her. If Fu Zhou goes crazy, protect Fu Yushu."]

【478:...】

What are these things?

"I didn't mean to lie to you."

"It was an emergency that day. Brother was afraid that you would see him angry, so he called me."

"Excuse me, can you open the door first?"

Uncharacteristically, Fu Yushu began to knock on Shen Liangchuan's door. He was so flustered that his intuition told him that if he allowed that person to stay inside, something would happen to him.

No matter what the relationship with brother is, he can't just watch him like this!

"Fourth young master, what's wrong!"

Liang Ping caught up with the movement, his brows could not hide his anxiety.

The young master should be able to come back tonight, he has suppressed the news of Shen Liangchuan for three days, so no accident can happen at this juncture, and the young master cannot be irritated anymore!

"The man who lives here, he just came out and said he was looking for brother."

Fu Yushu was so anxious that he was about to cry: "I don't know he lives here. He might have misunderstood something and locked himself inside."

Anti-lock?

Liang Ping's heart beat violently.

He rushed to Shen Liangchuan's door with one stride.

Even though his eyebrows were already burning, Liang Ping restrained himself and knocked twice, "Master Shen, please open the door."

No one answered.

Liang Ping continued to knock: "Master Shen, open the door if you have something to say."

"The young master will be right back."

"Master Shen, can you please respond to what you hear?"

"Yes, if you don't want to see me, I'll leave right away."

Fu Yushu panicked, only thought that Shen Liangchuan stumbled in after seeing him, and blamed himself extremely for a moment.

But in the room, there was still silence.

Liang Ping's eyebrows were pressed down fiercely.

"What should I do..." Fu Yushu's beautiful eyes squeezed together, tears streaming down his face.

"He should be injured, he couldn't walk easily just now."

The deformed joints of his subordinates appeared in Fu Yushu's mind again that day, and he became more and more afraid.

"Smash the door."

Liang Ping took a deep breath.

Before the young master returns, the door must be opened.

It only takes a moment for the rainstorm to hit, and in an instant, the heavy rain poured heavily, slapping the huge French windows of the villa fiercely, and flowing down the window edge miserably, winding and piercingly cold.

Shen Liangchuan pushed open the window, and the wind blew in with rain and stars, the curtains were rolled up, and the wooden door creaked unbearably.

His scorching forehead since the afternoon suddenly turned cold, and the air in the airtight room almost made him suffocate.

He kept trying to wake himself up, but he fell into a drowsy pain more and more.

Until, he saw the tile that he hid the first day.

Almost without hesitation, he grabbed the porcelain piece in his hands.

[Gu Ran: "Hey, 478, look, before Fu Zhou comes back, don't let Liang Ping and Fu Yushu smash it open."]

With his current body, posing was difficult enough.

Once those two got into trouble, maybe this world really couldn't complete the task. If he did it again, he might not want Fu Zhou to die here.

【478: ... I've never been so speechless in my life. 】

"Liangchuan!"

Whether the door was smashed or not, the door of Fu's house was of such good quality that it was not until Fu Zhou came back and got a spare key that he finally opened the door.

The cold wind passed through the hall, and the three of them looked into the room at the same time.

The bed was dry and quiet, only the curtains fluttered slightly by the wind.

"Liangchuan"

Fu Zhou's heart was suddenly hammered, and his eye sockets suddenly turned red, and he rushed in regardless of his nerves that were still throbbing after electrotherapy.

Shen Liangchuan was sitting on the balcony of the floor-to-ceiling windows, with his slender ankles hanging down, holding a porcelain piece in his hand. The porcelain piece was terribly sharp, but within a short while, scarlet blood had accumulated under Shen Liangchuan's feet.

The moment Fu Zhou saw Shen Liangchuan dripping with blood, his heart jumped into his throat. Before he could make a sound, he saw the man standing up unsteadily.

"Liangchuan!"

"Liangchuan... Be good, don't stand up!"

There was extreme fear in Fu Zhou's voice, the floor-to-ceiling windows were wide open, if Shen Liangchuan took another step back, he would fall into the Xingyuan Lake on the first floor.

He just recovered from a serious illness!

How can I bear it!

I don't know if he deliberately opposed Fu Zhou, but when Fu Zhou was in a hurry to get close to him, Shen Liangchuan actually took another step back.

His heels hit the edge of the window, and even because of his unstable center of gravity, his upper body swayed out once.

Fu Zhou was so frightened that his eyes were tearing apart, he didn't dare to take a step forward, and begged in embarrassment, "First... come in... okay? If you have anything to say, come in and say it."

Fu Zhou's double image kept swaying in front of his eyes.

Shen Liangchuan felt dizzy again. He didn't intend to commit suicide. He just wanted to finish talking with Lu Zhou clearly. The room was too stuffy, so he could only sit on the window sill, clutching the broken porcelain , all just to keep awake.

Seeing Shen Liangchuan's confused eyes, Fu Zhou quickly rushed up and hugged Shen Liangchuan from behind.

He rushed so fast that both of them fell on the carpet. Fu Zhou protected Shen Liangchuan very well and made him lie on his body.

Fu Zhou's eyes were bloodshot red, he didn't even have the strength to break Shen Liangchuan's fingers, and only one sentence was buzzing in his mind:

"He's going to kill himself."

"His Liangchuan wants to commit suicide."

He forced his lover to commit suicide!

Doesn't even broken china work?

Shen Liangchuan didn't realize that he was stopped from the window sill at all, and clenched his fingers bluntly.

Did it work this time? He finally found his own voice with difficulty, like a broken bellows, decayed and dilapidated:

"Lu... Continent"

Fu Zhou trembled inconceivably, his hands were still tightly wrapped around Shen Liangchuan's waist, but it seemed that the person standing on the cliff was suddenly pulled, and tears slid down without warning.

Shen Liangchuan didn't struggle to get up, but slowly and weakly said to him:

"I didn't expect... to be in such a mess."

"But when I woke up, I heard Liang Ping say that you are in a bad state of mind and always see hallucinations."

"I suddenly felt that I should tell you these words."

Shen Liangchuan's voice was very light, as if it disappeared as soon as he uttered it. He had no focus, couldn't see Fu Zhou, and could only listen to the beating of the heart beneath him by feeling.

"I really like you."

"I have liked you since you were a child... when you stood in front of me and protected me."

Fu Zhou's brain was filled with blood with a "boom", and there were still tears in his eyes, and he looked at his lover in disbelief for a moment.

Shen Liangchuan seemed to have thought of something, the corners of his lips slightly raised, "Whether you believe it or not, the years before junior high school graduation were the happiest years in my life."

At that time, my father had no accident, and Liang Yu was not diagnosed with uremia. The four of them seemed to be the happiest people in the world.

"I just didn't expect ... something like that would happen."

A trace of bitterness appeared on Shen Liangchuan's face, and he felt the person hugging him suddenly breathe harder.

At this moment, he suddenly found sadly that even in today's situation, he still couldn't bear to bind him with the kindness of saving his life.

Their feelings should not be mixed with sympathy and debt, which will confuse the boundaries of love.

"Since then, you have changed."

"You killed my father and threatened me with my sister"

"I'm ashamed to pity you"

Shen Liangchuan trembled as he said that, he didn't know how he would face his father after his death.

He didn't take good care of Liang Yu.

After doing such an outrageous thing, he was clearly determined to take revenge on Fu Zhou, but he just eagerly told him the love words that he had never been able to say in his entire life.

"It's not your fault, it's my fault, Liangchuan, it's my fault."

The sourness in Fu Zhou's heart surged up wave after wave. He had never wanted to go back to the past and kill that cruel self like this moment, but even the words of comfort were pale and powerless.

Shen Liangchuan had already reached the limit, with the overwhelming pain in his stomach, he whispered calmly in Fu Zhou's ear with only one breath:

"Lu... Zhou, you don't know how much I envy that boy"

"It was raining heavily that day, I have never felt so bright, and the scar on my leg is so ugly and unsightly."

"He is so young, so delicate, as if he deserves all the love in the world"

"Such a person, rubbing the smelly safflower oil on his hands, is giving me a massage."

When Shen Liangchuan spoke, his whole body kept shaking.

Fu Zhou's heart was pinched, and his eyes widened as if he was suffocated.He desperately wanted to make a sound, but his throat seemed to have been poured with a layer of lime, and even the function of swallowing was completely lost.

However, Shen Liangchuan continued to talk, with blood dripping from the corner of his mouth, as if he had started counting down his life, and it was dripping on the carpet bit by bit.

"Until I saw him at the villa."

"I suddenly woke up. I met him that day not because of my luck, but because you don't want me anymore."

I only have one breath left and you don't feel bad anymore.

From now on, you will be with that shining boy for a long time.

You will completely forget about Shen Liangchuan, and no one will remember Shen Liangchuan anymore.

The warm liquid slipped from Fu Zhou's neck, and the sudden shattering pain in his heart made him almost lose his ability to perceive the outside world, only his throat was whimpering fiercely like a trapped animal.

He wants to talk.

He wanted to tell Shen Liangchuan that he was the one he loved!

He wanted to tell him how he wouldn't want him!

But his lover stopped talking, and his lover leaned his head on his shoulder and cried as if tired.

Fu Zhou pinched himself to force himself to speak.

The next second, he heard an exclamation that made him fall into hell instantly.

"Blood—! Brother! He vomited a lot of blood—!"

"Brother! Send him to the hospital!"

Fu Yushu staggered and ran forward with tears in his eyes, and Liang Ping was so frightened for the first time that his hands were trembling.

Fu Zhou was puzzled, and slowly turned his head away.

For a moment, all voices were silent.

Before the world collapsed, there was only the last sliver of camouflage, indifference and cruelty.

Fu Zhou didn't know how he got to the hospital. He numbly watched Shen Liangchuan being carried into the ward, and watched the crowd coming and going.

As if in a dream.

After waking up from the dream, Shen Liangchuan would be able to return to his side properly.

He finally knows that he loves him.

He was finally ready to stop torturing him.

The heavens have treated him so favorably, even such a thing as rebirth can fall on him.

It was impossible to cruelly take his Liangchuan away.

Until Hershaw came.

He said the pathology results were printed out yesterday.

The consultation revealed that Shen Liangchuan had advanced gastric cancer, which had diffusely spread throughout his body.

The author has something to say: The truth will be known~ After all, I found it more interesting than the protagonist's dictation?

Liang Chuan won't die now (with a system cheat), after all, it's cool to be alive (cover face)~

Good guy, this chapter is so long, it will be updated tomorrow, and not the day after tomorrow~ (The day after tomorrow is just because I am too tired, I don’t want to update it, it doesn’t mean that I am going to end this world, how can it be possible to end this cruel attack~)

Little red envelope~

感谢在2021-04-25?21:17:18~2021-04-26?22:48:52期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw mines: Gravel sauce? 1 piece;

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：蜜桃糖?20瓶；max?10瓶；敬李景然先生?5瓶；冥?2瓶；41321048?1瓶；

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!