On the Necessary and Sufficient Conditions for Harvesting a Male God

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Yang Lin thought that there would never be a more desperate time in his life than when he was a child—in the past, he would replay those horror clips when he encountered things that he felt unable to bear, and reminded himself over and over again, "Can it be as difficult as six-year-old despair? "

And then go through it again and again.

However, this time, I couldn’t get past it no matter how I played it back. I couldn’t get past the details that had been forcibly sealed up and looked through it over and over again—the most painful thing I thought seemed to be even more painful.

This is a new kind of falling and emptiness that can’t be reached: after thinking that I have a home, a back, safety and warmth, I am kicked out of the door, and there is still an abyss outside the door The kind of falling emptiness.

Despair reached a new level.

After sitting on the ground for an unknown amount of time, the phone rang suddenly when he was starting to feel confused. Is it Fan Min's video call?

Yang Lin stood up in a panic, but fell back to the ground suddenly because of the pain in his chest from sitting for too long.Completely awake from the pain, he stood up slowly while leaning on the wall, first turned on the light, and then went to the bathroom to look at himself.

Defeated, embarrassed, a lost dog.

"Look at that man, he looks like a dog."

He quickly washed his face and raked his hair with his hands. At this time, the mobile phone was disconnected. He looked at the glasses for the last time, and then sent a video call.

It was connected immediately, and then I heard the cry of the little friend, and the cry of "Yang Yang, I want Yang Yang".

Yang Lin's eyes turned hot, and he was frozen in the air just like that.

He thought, it's worth it, everything is worth it, it's worth it.

Fan Min's voice sounded, "Xiao Yang, why don't you come here today? Xiao Fei hasn't seen you all day and now he can't sleep and wants to find you."

"Ah, I" went there early in the morning.

"Come here quickly." Fan Min said anxiously, Zhang Yuan's voice came from beside him, "Don't hang up, let Xiao Yang and the child say a few words first, look at this crying."

Yang Lin hurriedly said, "Fei Bao, Fei Bao? Don't cry, baby, Yang Yang will come right away, and you will be here in ten or ten Yang Yang, okay?"

The little friend in the video saw Yang Lin and stretched out his fat arms, "Yang Yang, woo, I want to mess with Yang Yang~"

The voice was soft and glutinous, full of infinite grievances, Yang Lin almost couldn't hold back, he moved the phone away, wiped his eyes carelessly, and then said, "Good boy, Xiao Fei is the best, Yang Yang loves Xiao Fei the most, Xiao Fei Wait a minute, Yang Yang will come right away, okay?"

He didn't hang up the phone, he was talking, and with the other hand he took a wet rag and dusted it on his body.

Although they had already taken care of themselves, Zhang Yuan and Fan Min still showed surprise expressions when they entered the door. Yang Lin looked down at himself—it was obviously dirty.

But the little friend rushed towards him without any distaste. Yang Lin half-kneeled and took the child carefully, then held his breath and hugged him vigorously, "Why is the baby still not sleeping? How many ten Yangyangs are here?"

The child just wrapped his arms around his neck and didn't speak.

Yang Lin was very distressed, "Today Yang Yang cleaned Xiao Fei's house to provoke him, and he didn't come to see Guai Bao. Xiao Fei forgive Yang Yang, and we will go home in two days, okay? Let's wait for uncle to come back together later." , When Xiao Fei comes home, he will help Yang Yang decorate the room together, we will make a small bed for Bald Qiang..."

Yang Lin hugged the child in circles on the ground, talking in his mouth, the child's arms gradually relaxed, and his breathing became steady.

Zhang Yuan came over to pick up the child, and whispered, "It's asleep, I'll carry it."

Yang Lin gently handed the child over, "I'm too dirty, Brother Zhang, please pat the child again."

"I woke up again, it's okay."

Fan Min followed Zhang Yuan into the bedroom, Yang Lin left as soon as he was in trouble, and sat on the wooden dining chair.Zhang Yuan's sofa is made of fabric.

The couple came out after a while, and Yang Lin stood up, "I'm sorry Brother Zhang, sister-in-law."

Zhang Yuan first asked, "Have you gone to clean up the house?"

"Well, the house is dirty, it's been cleaned for a day, and it's not finished yet."

Fan Min gave him a white look, "Didn't I tell you not to delay the exam? Why are you so anxious, A Yuan and I are so unworthy of your trust? You can't even care about your own injury, so you gave up the exam?"

Zhang Yuan interrupted her helplessly, "Amin, you scared Xiao Yang."

Yang Lin scratched his head with his hands, and when he put down his hands, he saw his black nails. He clenched his hands into fists to hide his nails, and smiled embarrassingly, "Thank you sister-in-law, thank you Brother Zhang, me."

Seeing Fan Min give him a blank look again, Yang Lin suppressed his smile and said seriously, "I didn't give up on the exam, I read every book three times, and did two sets of exercises. If I pass it without any problem, I should be able to pass it with a high score. I’m nervous because I’m used to it, as long as I don’t take the exam, I have to keep studying the class and the questions, because I’m afraid I’ll miss something, and I’m not confident in being a human being.”

The room was very quiet, Yang Lin said softly, "Brother Zhang, sister-in-law, I was too hasty to speak this morning, I'm sorry. It's not that I don't believe you, but I'm really anxious to take Xiao Fei back."

Zhang Yuan and Fan Min looked at him, but didn't make a sound.

Yang Lin sighed, "Xiao Fei has no sense of security. He doesn't understand Nie Chuan. He always thinks that the child is still young and he will forget it after a long time, but it is not."

Yang Lin organized his words and said slowly, "Eight months after Xiao Fei was born, Brother Nie Dong passed away. During this time, he was taken by his mother and grandmother, and then his grandmother took him. But Aunt Wu, no He loves children, and is also very emotional. If he feels unhappy, he will take his anger out on the children."

Speaking of this, he sighed again, "I saw her standing in the shade of a tree, and Xiao Fei was hugged by her to bask in the shade outside. She woke up the child by talking loudly, and even scolded and beat the child. Maybe she I just feel that it is useless to take two shots, but it is different, it is really different, and the children know it."

Fan Min looked at Zhang Yuan, both of them frowned.

"When I found Xiao Fei in the chess and card room, the room was full of smoke, he was sitting in a toddler car with a dirty body, wearing a diaper, a one-year-old and three-month-old child... I heard that he curled up in that car all afternoon. No one cares about me, I just stand at the mahjong table and play alone, eat my fingers, and sleep on the legs of the table..."

Fan Min's tears flowed down.

Yang Lin forced a smile, "Only Xiao Fei doesn't cry, but keeps saying "Cai Cai Cai", that's the first word I taught him, Xiao Fei actually just wants to interact with his grandma, let this Grandma pay attention to him."

Fan Min took out another piece of paper and pressed his eyes, and Zhang Yuan put his arms around his wife's shoulders.

"At that moment, I thought, this child can't be like this anymore. I told Brother Chuan, and he drove Aunt Wu away and sent the child to Aunt Wang's house. Aunt Wang is very kind, and Uncle Hu of their family also loves the child. But in less than four months, Uncle Hu fell and injured, and Xiaofei was sent back again, which means he just changed places after adapting to a new environment."

Yang Lin sighed, "Later, I hired two nannies, but I couldn't do it. I had no choice but to resign."

Speaking of this, he hesitated for a moment, and then said, "Actually, Brother Chuan was in a new environment for Xiaofei at the beginning, he talked too little, and because of Aunt Wu, he didn't spend much time at home, and he was also a stranger to Xiaofei. "

Yang Lin sighed again, "According to Xiao Fei, he is less than two years old since he was born. Except for those who only take him for a few days, he has been led by five or six people. He has no sense of security in his heart."

Yang Lin looked at the two of them, "I haven't studied child psychology, so I can't explain why, but I am an orphan myself, and I have a very early memory. Nie Chuan doesn't understand, I understand."

Zhang Yuan nodded, "I understand what you mean."

Yang Lin lowered his eyes, "I know you don't believe it, neither do Liu Hong, and no one believes it—Nie Chuan and I are both so young, how dare we say it forever? Impossible!"

He chuckled, "But I'm an orphan, and I'm not qualified to learn from others since I was a child. Take one step at a time and watch where you go." I have to think about the path I choose, and I have to bear the consequences when I make decisions. So I don't care what others think, unless Nie Chuan lets go of my hand first."

Speaking of which, thinking that Nie Chuan had indeed let go of his hand, Yang Lin couldn't help but choked up, and then gritted his teeth and said, "Even if Nie Chuan let go of my hand first, I have to ask him face to face and beat him up first." Again, disagree."

He felt that the words were too serious, and he added, "If he has someone else, I will admit defeat and never let him go. But what if he is in danger and has difficulties? I do not."

Yang Lin repeated with a heavy tone, "I can't let him come back one day and find that there is nothing left."

After taking a few deep breaths to calm down, he said softly, "This society is too self-interested. If you suffer a little loss, you must stop the loss in time. If you give more, you are the Holy Mother, and you are a bitch. But shouldn't you give in your relationship? Is the other party planning? I don't care what others think,"

Speaking of this, Yang Lin raised his eyes, "I'll take Xiaofei and wait for him here."

When he comes back, he must give him a good meal, no, let's talk about it twice.

This kind of confession is simply terrible, and every sentence makes him very embarrassed.He has done so many intimate things with Nie Chuan, but now he has to make a stand if he wants to win over the child.

Fan Min wiped his eyes and laughed, "Got it. It's his luck that Xiao Nie met you. Well, we'll take you with you for two more days. We'll pick you up after you finish the exam, and don't bring it here in the future. gone."

Yang Lin also laughed, "That can't be done, if I have something to do, I have to send it back and forth."

Fan Min gave him a white look, "You are beautiful, are you still reasonable?"

Yang Lin sneered, "I don't care, hehe, Xiao Fei has a reason. Sister-in-law, if you and Brother Zhang don't like it, let Xiao Fei recognize you as godparents when Nie Chuan comes back."

"Then you won't recognize Xiao Nie if he doesn't come back?"

"Recognize it, why don't you admit it, from now on you will be Amin's mother, and my brother Zhang will be Ayuan's father, how wonderful, Xiaofei has parents again."

Zhang Yuan looked at Yang Lin like this, dirty and dusty but with a bright smile and firm eyes, suddenly felt that maybe these two people could really go on forever.

Before that, he only believed that their present was real, but he was not optimistic about their long-term future—two people who combined to be just 40 years old, dare to say it for a lifetime?No one will believe you if you tell them.

However, they believed in each other and did not doubt each other.

Nie Chuan's last words last night were, "Don't tell him, he's stubborn, and he won't leave if he finds out."