the other side of the cloud

Sun Yawei's words made Ni Yunxiu so shocked that he couldn't make a sound for a moment, he never thought that the real situation was like this.

Sun Yawei had experienced such a thing before, and Ni Yunxiu was very angry at this time, and felt extremely painful.

He didn't know what to say, his brain was almost blank at this moment.He didn't know what he should do at this time, so that he could give Sun Yawei some comfort at this time and make Sun Yawei feel better.

Sun Yawei seemed to understand Ni Yunxiu's thoughts, and after she finished speaking that sentence, she returned to the state of being more mournful than heartbroken.

Sun Yawei said: "Brother, I know how you feel. You may feel sad and blame yourself because of this, so I don't want you to know about it."

Only then did Ni Yunxiu come back to his senses, and said: "Weiwei, don't think so. If I didn't know about such a big matter, I would blame myself even more. This matter has already happened, so we should find a way to solve it. it."

Sun Yawei looked at Ni Yunxiu quietly.

Ni Yunxiu hesitated and stretched out his hand, trying to untie the rope on her wrist.

Sun Yawei didn't avoid him this time, but just watched Ni Yunxiu's movements quietly. Her quietness also made Ni Yunxiu sad.

Boss Gu didn't ask someone to tie Sun Yawei's rope too tightly, and Ni Yunxiu quickly untied it.

Soon, he untied the rope around her ankle again.

When he was about to reach out to rub Sun Yawei's bound ankle and wrist, his outstretched hand stopped before touching Sun Yawei. He looked at Sun Yawei again, not knowing what to do for a moment.

Only then did Ni Yunxiu understand exactly why Sun Yawei hated other people's touch so much.

I remember that when the two went to apply for a marriage certificate, the child in Sun Yawei's stomach was already five or six months old, but because she was tall and thin, her stomach was not obvious when wearing loose dresses, and the surrounding No one knew that Sun Yawei was pregnant.

The two got a marriage certificate, and Ni Yunxiu sent Sun Yawei home. When climbing the steps, Ni Yunxiu was afraid that Sun Yawei would fall, so he reached out to help her.His hand had just touched Sun Yawei's small arm, and Sun Yawei shrank quickly as if he had been burned, and then looked at Ni Yunxiu in surprise.

Her actions at that time surprised Ni Yunxiu, because Sun Yawei's expression at that time was terrified and disgusted, and her expression made Ni Yunxiu even feel ashamed, as if she was sexually harassing Sun Yawei.

Later, he took special care not to have any physical contact with Sun Yawei.After Sun Diandian was born, in the process of taking care of Sun Diandian, the two inevitably had some physical contact. At that time, Sun Yawei was suffering from severe depression. Ni Yunxiu found that every time he accidentally touched Sun Yawei, Sun Yawei would Showing an unbearable look.

Ni Yunxiu could only pay more attention to his movements, so that he would not touch her, or come within one meter of her.

At first, Ni Yunxiu thought that Sun Yawei only cared about himself. Later, he found that Sun Yawei would deliberately avoid any men. Ni Yunxiu guessed whether Sun Yawei had heterosexual contact phobia, because her stress reactions had reached the standard of phobia, not just It's a general dislike.

Although there is such a guess, Ni Yunxiu doesn't know how to talk about this matter with Sun Yawei, so he has not directly asked Sun Yawei the reason for this situation until now. The criminal is a scumbag who once committed a crime against Sun Yawei, which caused great permanent harm to Sun Yawei.

Although Ni Yunxiu can imagine the extent of this kind of harm, he knows that as a man, it is very difficult for him to truly empathize with him.

Just like Sun Yawei had severe depression before, he knew that depression was painful, but he couldn't empathize with it. He just followed the doctor's orders to take care of and comfort Sun Yawei, hoping that she could overcome the illness and get better.

Sun Yawei said seriously: "Brother, you don't have to do this. I don't want this to drag all of us into misfortune. It doesn't have to be like this. Please keep this matter a secret from your mother and Diandian. I don't want my mother to know, let alone I hope to know little by little, I hope they don't know about it for the rest of their lives."

Ni Yunxiu nodded and said, "I know, don't worry."

Sun Yawei found that Ni Yunxiu wanted to rub her wrists and ankles for her, but she silently refused. She moved her body slightly to avoid Ni Yunxiu's hand, and then said: "Brother, if you don't solve this matter, I don't know how to deal with it at the beginning." Who hurt me, did that to me, I can't get over this hurdle in my heart. Every time I see a little bit, I think of the person who raped me back then, I don't even know who he is .Dian Dian is the evidence of his crime. I want to love Dian Dian, but I can't love her; With her. Brother, do you understand how I feel?"

Ni Yunxiu can only rely on imagination to understand Sun Yawei's feelings. Although he thinks he understands it, he also knows that the pain he feels may not even be one ten thousandth of Sun Yawei's.

He remembered that when Sun Yawei was in the worst condition, Sun Yawei was almost unable to sleep at all, and the one or two hours he slept every day was only a light sleep, because a little sound would wake him up.She often stayed up all night, sitting on the windowsill, looking down, at the ground in the dark.The family members were frightened by her behavior, fearing that she would open the window and jump out.In addition to being unable to sleep, she was like a walking dead, wandering around the house, no matter who called her, she either refused to answer, or looked over with dark eyes, which made people feel panicked.At that time, both Ni Yunxiu and Qiao's mother were frightened by her.

Ni Yunxiu could understand that Sun Yawei was ill, but he couldn't empathize with how painful this illness was, nor could he empathize with how painful she was going through.

At this moment, Ni Yunxiu felt pain and shame.

He said: "You are not wrong, there is nothing wrong with you not liking Diandian, you want to know who is the genetic father of Diandian, this is the most legitimate request. I will help you, let's find it together, we must let this person pay The price, let him be punished by law."

Sun Yawei pulled the corner of his lips and showed a little smile, but the smile was very weird.

Ni Yunxiu said, "Does Boss Gu know who that person is?"

Based on the fact that Sun Yawei insisted on fighting with Boss Gu, Ni Yunxiu thought it must be the case.

Sun Yawei said: "At that time, I just wanted to have a part-time job. That night, we finished the etiquette work. Besides me, there were a few other girls. We stayed later. Gu Yunhong said, you can invite us Have some supper, and when she returned to the city, she drove us back by the way. The hotel where the event was held was relatively remote, and there was no bus for me to go back to school, and taxis were very expensive. Others were in the same situation as me, so everyone I just hope that I can take Gu Yunhong’s car back to the city. At that time, Gu Yunhong has always been very generous and considerate to us, so we like her very much and treat her as a bosom sister. We didn’t think much about it. So I agreed to have supper.

"We were taken by her to a club that I don't know what it's called, because it was night, I couldn't see everything clearly, and I didn't know where that place was. It was a deep house compound, the yard was huge, and there were wisteria flowers. There is a barbecue in the yard. We participated in this barbecue meeting. At that time, there were several other strangers besides us. Because I was tired and alert at the time, I didn’t like to play with strangers, so I sat in the yard I dozed off on the sofa. When I woke up, the girls who were with me were gone. Gu Yunhong said that they went to sing in the house with some other friends, and asked me if I wanted to go. I At that time, I felt that the situation was not right, so I didn't agree. I wanted to go home, but Gu Yunhong said that the place we were in was relatively remote, and she had to bring everyone together to go back, otherwise there would be no car to send me alone. There was no other way, so I had to stay in the There, because of the barbecue, I was really thirsty later, so I drank a glass of juice, and I have no memory of what happened afterwards.

"By the time I woke up and had a memory, it was the next morning. I was in a hotel. I had absolutely no memory of the previous night. I knew something had happened to me, but I had no memory. I also went to the hotel to inquire about the specific situation. According to the hotel description, I should have been sent to the room by Gu Yunhong alone. The monitoring also showed that she sent me to the hotel. No one else entered my room afterwards, so if something happened to me , It should be before I was sent to the hotel. Later, I called Gu Yunhong to inquire about it. She said it was because I fell asleep there, and there was no bed for me to sleep in, so she drove me to the hotel Sleeping. I thought she was lying, because if I just fell asleep, just wake me up, there is no need to send me to the hotel, although I know she is lying, but I have no clear proof. I am very scared and I was very confused, and I also went to the police/station to inquire about how to deal with my situation, but the police/police at the police/station said that they could not confirm what happened to me from my description, and they did not file a case for me. I had no choice but to I buried this matter in my heart and didn't dare to tell others. After that, I never responded to other job introductions from Gu Yunhong. Until later, in the third month, I still hadn't menstruated. I guessed, I went to the hospital for an examination, and the doctor told me that I was pregnant. I knew that something must have happened that night, I was raped, but I couldn't remember anything.

"I called Gu Yunhong and asked who it was that day. Gu Yunhong said she didn't know my situation, she didn't know anything. She kept evading and lying. I fell into despair at that time and didn't know what to do. What happened next , brother, you know. I was very mentally ill at the time, I didn’t even know if I was alive, I was full of hatred, I hated myself, I hated Gu Yunhong for setting up a scheme to harm me, I hated the man who hurt me, even, Maybe not just one man, I hate all men, hate the world.

"I'm in a daze, I don't know what to do, but I can't tell my mother what happened to me. When I want to die, I suddenly want to find you. I want to see you again before I die Brother, at that time, I really liked you, but because of what happened, I hated myself. When I hated myself, I found that I couldn't like you like before.

"This awareness made me even more painful. You saw that something was wrong with me and asked me what was wrong. You should remember. I broke down and cried in front of you, talking nonsense, saying that I was pregnant. In fact, after I told you, I regretted it. I shouldn't have told you. You asked me about other situations, who the child belonged to, and what my plans were. I didn't know. I can only say that I don't know. You asked me , Does my mother know? I said she didn’t know. I said I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to live anymore. You suggested me to kill the child. When you said kill the child, I Only then did I realize the role of the child. I can't kill the child, because this child is the only way I can find the murderer. I tell you, I don't want to kill the child, I want to give birth to it.

"You kept asking me whose child I was, and I told you not to ask me. Later, you stayed with me all night, and you asked me, if I want to give birth to the child and don't marry the child's father, then I must Find someone else to marry, otherwise, if I get pregnant and have a child out of wedlock, I may be expelled from school, and my mother will know about my situation. After you told me these things, I became even more desperate.

"You said at the time that you are willing to argue with me about the marriage certificate, and get this matter out of the way first. Later, when you don't need it, you can get a divorce again. I didn't think too much about it at the time. I thought it was a solution, so I agreed up.

"Brother, I really thank you very much. You helped me, you made me come out of the despair at that time. Although I have been suffering from severe depression, I can't see the hope of life, I hate myself ,hate everyone in this world, but even this is so much better than when I started. You help me, you treat me so well, but I don't know why, I used to like you so much, I started to hate you later, I hate myself like this.

"I hate all men, I don't just hate, I even hate them, why do they do that to me. Brother, I want to separate you from other men, I want to love you, but I can't control myself, I hate myself for being like this. I want to love you, I want to get back the love I used to have for you, I want to have a baby with you, have another baby so maybe I get out of it, but it's so hard, I always I can’t do it. I think, I have to find out the murderer at that time, who killed me, maybe I will be fine, I can love you and have a baby with you.”

Sun Yawei looked at Ni Yunxiu, but her eyes were out of focus, and she whispered what was in her heart.

Her appearance made Ni Yunxiu's heart ache like a knife. Ni Yunxiu said painfully: "Weiwei, you are a victim. There is nothing wrong with you. You shouldn't hate yourself. We will definitely find the murderer. Gu Yunhong is clear about this matter, we are sure There must be a way to find clues from her."

Sun Yawei said: "When I approached her before, she evaded everything and didn't tell the truth, but I knew that she had been in this business and must have many problems, so I found some evidence that she harmed other girls. I used these evidences He threatened her and asked her to tell the real situation at that time. She confessed to Chen Qinian, and she said it should be Chen Qinian. I approached this person, got his toothbrush and a bit of a paternity test, and the results showed that, He is not a biological father. Therefore, Gu Yunhong has never told the truth to this day. She has been lying. However, no matter what she says, I will not give up. As long as she does not tell the truth, I will not give up. I will fight her to the death. Even if everyone dies together, I will not let her go."

Ni Yunxiu looked at Sun Yawei seriously, and said: "Weiwei, you are not alone, we will stand by your side. I will do this with you. Gu Yunhong is not worth it for you to hurt yourself like this. We will have a way of."

Sun Yawei stared blankly at Ni Yunxiu, and said, "Brother, I don't want to drag you into such pain."

Ni Yunxiu said solemnly: "Weiwei, this is my duty, my responsibility, and what I must do. I should protect you."

Sun Yawei smiled bitterly and said: "Brother, you have no such obligation. I am very grateful to you for your willingness to marry me and raise a little with me. I hope that after this matter is resolved, I can pursue you calmly, love You, I can have another child with you, and we can have a beautiful life in the future."

Ni Yunxiu didn't know what to say for a while, because before he came to see Sun Yawei, he had always promised Yu Jia that he would divorce Sun Yawei and spend the rest of his life with Yu Jia.

At this time, Ni Yunxiu didn't want to hurt Sun Yawei, didn't want to break her dream, and couldn't say anything about his divorce from Sun Yawei.

Ni Yunxiu could only say: "We must have a way to find the murderer."