agree to be each other's stand-in

In Xie Nanyuan's view, Lu Kaiyan's performance has been hovering between honesty and dishonesty.

Call her dishonest, but apart from the decoration problem, she never bothered Xie Nanyuan with other things, and never took the opportunity to do something to "close the relationship".Let's be honest, she always uses the decoration to create various opportunities to meet.Once the materials are ready, Xie Nanyuan should let Xie Nanyuan see with his own eyes whether they are suitable, and if the workers start work, Xie Nanyuan should go over to see if there is any problem.

Although the meeting place was either at the building materials market or at the new house, even Lu Kaiyan would inevitably feel disheartened in many cases, as if he didn't intend to show it on purpose.

Since she was so self-conscious, Xie Nanyuan followed her will and kept a relatively polite distance, only talking about business.

She even introduced the designer to Xie Nanyuan. In this way, many problems can be solved after they discuss it. If they really can't decide, they will ask Xie Nanyuan's opinion.

Even so, we always meet two or three times a week.After all, it is Xie Nanyuan's house, and it is impossible to completely leave it alone if it is to be decorated according to her own ideas.But compared to the original plan, Xie Nanyuan still had a lot of time left.

She has suspended the flying knife operation just to spare time for the decoration here, now most of the things are handed over to Lu Kaiyan, so she is naturally much freer.

If it was in the past, Xie Nanyuan would have spent all this time in the operating room, but now, she wants to try something else.

The roller skates and protective gear she bought have arrived. When Xie Nanyuan is free, she will go out to practice.No one in the hospital knew about this matter. Xie Nanyuan actually didn't care what others thought of him, but as a doctor, he still had to maintain a little image.

The location for the practice was chosen in a nearby park.

Although she said it was just a hobby, Xie Nanyuan, once she did something, she had to try her best to do her best. This had become a habit engraved in her bones, and she couldn't change it for a while.So she obviously just wanted to relax, but she subconsciously searched a lot of strategies and practiced according to the methods recommended on the Internet.

Roller skating was not difficult, and she was willing to spend time and hard work. It didn't take long for her to get out of the predicament of walking back and forth while holding on to the horizontal bar, and she was able to skate decently.

Xie Nanyuan even bought some props and began to practice various tricks.

Although the process is not the same as imagined, it is impossible for her to just play casually, and it is difficult for her to find so many like-minded people and form a team to play together like those young people, but Xie Nanyuan enjoys herself and also gains from it Relax and have fun.

This kind of pleasure is completely different from the feeling during surgery.

In her own field, she is relaxed most of the time, trying to keep everything under her control, and completing one operation after another. This process cannot be said to be unpleasant. The sense of accomplishment of saving lives is what most people feel Careers are hard to come by.

But without any worries, accepting another field from scratch will always encounter accidents, but it is a completely different feeling to be able to solve one by one.

Maybe this is the difference between work and hobbies?

She completed all this step by step, as if it was no different from before, but she didn't know that this change in her body had actually attracted the attention of many people in the hospital.

After all, people who used to go to the operating room whenever they had free time suddenly started to rest, how could people not be curious?

Most people think she is in love again.

This is also a lesson learned from the past. After all, Xie Nanyuan and Lu Kaiyan did not fight so hard when they were together, and put more experience into love and family.

But most people just watch the excitement, and then do whatever they need to do.The loss of Xie Nanyuan in the operating room will not have much impact. After all, there are too many doctors waiting in line for surgery in the hospital. Although Xie Nanyuan's skills are good, they are not unique. She is the only one in a certain operation. Can do.

To put it bluntly, at her current level, she has no access to that kind of life-and-death major surgery, and all she can do is some minor surgery at a low level.Whether it is done better or worse, the impact on the patient is whether the wound is larger or smaller, and the recovery time is longer or shorter.

But there is one person who cannot accept such a statement.

Xiaojing's internship period is about to end.After talking with Xie Nanyuan last time, she has decided to accept the arrangement of her family to take the postgraduate entrance examination, but she really can't let Xie Nanyuan go, so she has been inquiring about her in private, hesitating between confessing and giving up.

As a result, this rumor was heard.

She immediately forgot the hesitation, because she refused to accept this statement, so she chose to follow Xie Nanyuan secretly to investigate where she went after get off work.

Then I followed to the small park and saw Xie Nanyuan fully dressed and practicing roller skating.

This was completely beyond Xiaojing's expectations, and Xie Nanyuan never thought that Xie Nanyuan would come out to play.She seems to be the kind of person who puts all her thoughts on work and surgery, how could she waste her time on such things?

But all this happened in front of her eyes.

Xie Nanyuan is not only playing, but even playing well.Now she can circle around the square in the park and complete a difficult movement from time to time. She looks like a veteran, not just learning.

Xiao Jing looked at her, feeling a little confused.

She just watched it like this for nearly an hour, and Xie Nanyuan's practice was over, but she still didn't sort out her thoughts, and just stood there in a daze.

An adult stood there, it was so obvious that Xie Nanyuan couldn't fail to notice it.

But she ignored it, until the practice was over, she took off the protective gear and shoes and put them away, then she walked up to Xiaojing with her bag, as if she hadn't found anything, she greeted calmly, "What a coincidence."

"...What a coincidence." Xiaojing responded slowly, her gaze kept on her backpack, "You..."

"what happened?"

"It's okay." Xiaojing quickly looked away, thought for a while, and still couldn't help asking, "Dr. Xie, you don't seem to go to the operating room very much recently."

"I want to take a break." Xie Nanyuan said.

Xiaojing's gaze returned to the backpack. Is this her way of resting?

I don’t know if I always hear other doctors joke, saying that for Dr. Xie, surgery means relaxation. Xiaojing also thinks that Xie Nanyuan should be such a person. Now that she chooses such a "normal" way of relaxation, it feels very uncomfortable. Difficult to accept.

Xie Nanyuan was keenly aware of this.

She doesn't care much about the unexpected world most of the time, but it doesn't mean she has lost her ability to perceive the emotions of the people around her, it's just that she doesn't care.Among all the interns, Xiaojing came to her most frequently, far exceeding the normal data, so Xie Nanyuan also sensed a little bit of her thoughts.

She didn't think it was so-called love, but more like worship and admiration for her predecessors.To put it simply, just because I think she is an excellent person who can be learned from, and I even want to be like her in the future, so I pay attention to her unconsciously and have a good impression of her.

Most of these feelings will have no results, and will naturally fade over time, and finally die without a problem.

So Xie Nanyuan pretended not to notice anything, and treated her as usual.

Anyway, after the internship is over and they leave the hospital, there will be very few opportunities for the two to meet each other.It is not a bad thing in the growth process to have a direction to work towards before determining your own goals.

But at this moment, amid Xiaojing's hesitant expression, Xie Nanyuan realized that maybe his performance at this moment was completely different from what the other party imagined.

The love born of worship, besides fading with the passage of time, has another way of disappearing, that is, the object of worship, "Beng Renxu", is no longer what she likes.

What Xiaojing liked was never herself, but the perfect Dr. Xie that she imagined.

Once she is "no longer perfect", the other party's filter of seeing her will be shattered, and they will eventually find that she is just an ordinary person.That hazy favor and admiration will naturally disappear.

So Xie Nanyuan reacted almost immediately, and said with a smile, "I haven't had much rest since I went to medical school. To compete with so many equally outstanding students, to stay in the ideal unit, to have A stable working environment and living conditions can’t be achieved without hard work. But it’s almost the same as the main treatment, and the next step can’t be achieved by hard work.”

She almost looked at Xiaojing with some emotion, and for a moment she didn't even know if she was telling the truth, "So sometimes I envy you, everything is arranged at home, as long as you walk step by step, the road will be smooth." Much smoother."

Xiao Jing blushed and looked at her, as if he wanted to refute, but his lips moved for a moment, but he didn't say anything in the end.

Probably Xie Nanyuan's words completely overturned the impression she had built up for the other party in her heart.

She didn't speak, and Xie Nanyuan didn't say any more, he waved to her, and left with his bag on his back.

Xiaojing stood behind and watched her off, feeling a strange feeling in his heart.For some reason, she recalled what Xie Nanyuan said to persuade her last time. She said, "You should be more determined to take the postgraduate entrance examination when you see me."

Although her words were straightforward, there was no envy, jealousy or hatred in them, it was just an objective statement: with her family background, this road was indeed much smoother than that of Xie Nanyuan, and everything she could get easily However, the other party has to work ten times and a hundred times harder.

These words were so sober that Xiaojing felt uncomfortable, but it was a reality that he had to admit.

Xie Nanyuan had already seen clearly the problem she was only trying to understand now.So she strives for what she can meet, but she will stop before the goal she can't reach.

She is completely different from what I imagined, but in Xiaojing's heart, Xie Nanyuan did not "collapse", but just became another kind of person that she would never be able to become.

They are completely two-way people.

The worship and admiration in her heart did not decrease, but Xiao Jing finally realized that Xie Nanyuan could not accept her.So those who were hesitant to confess their confession seemed to be needless to say.

Although this is the case, I don't know why, and it's not particularly sad.

The emotion at this moment... Xiao Jing thought about it for a long time, and thought that maybe it should be called: growing up.

The author has something to say: Dr. Xie: The way I refuse is to prevent the other party from confessing.

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