Strange disease

When Xi Rong went upstairs, there was still a chilly dewy breath around her body, and the leaves and soil stains on her coat hadn't been cleaned up yet, so she looked a little embarrassed.

I ran to the stairs, bumped into him just in time, and was embraced by him.

Panting, I leaned over him and took his hand.

His hands were cold, but the ring in his palm was warm.

I was about to take the ring away from him, but he clenched his fingers, clenched his fist behind his back, raised his eyebrows and said: "What I picked up is mine, you still want to take it back?"

I caught a blank, quite speechless.

I just wanted to put him on...

Is this person naive?

Unexpectedly, because of this action, I intended to snatch the ring from his hand, but accidentally put my hands around his waist because of the forward momentum, and threw myself on him. It's as if I want to force my bow on King Xirong.

At this moment, an old man came out of the elevator at the entrance of the corridor unsteadily, and happened to pass by where we were.

"..."

The old man stopped in his tracks very obviously, and admired the ambiguous posture of the two of us hugging each other several times with a rather strange look, with an expression of "the young people nowadays really know how to play", he clicked twice : "If you want to do it, go home and do it."

Then he walked away slowly with his plastic slippers on, and I was the only one left holding Xi Rong, standing where I was, air-drying into two conjoined sculptures.

Damn, in a moment of excitement, how did I forget that this is in the corridor outside the room, someone may pass by at any time...

Why the hell didn't Xi Rong remind me? ?

My face was flushed, and I quickly dragged Xi Rong in so as not to embarrass myself outside.

"Xi Rong." I took out another ring from my pocket and said coaxingly, "Give me your ring, and I'll exchange it with you, okay?"

Xi Rong looked at the little thing in my palm, and suddenly said: "Is my name engraved there?"

I was stunned for a moment, thinking he had already found out.

The dark pattern inside the platinum ring is delicate and hidden, and you have to look carefully to see that it is the initials of our two names.

But he stepped forward and grabbed my hand, and put the ring on the ring finger of my left hand.

"I want yours." He stared at me with deep eyes and said, "Your name should be worn on me, that's right."

Spreading out his hand again, his bony pale ring finger already had a pair of rings exactly like mine.

The moment the ring was inserted into the root of my finger, I felt infinite emotion, as if the shortcomings of the past, those unfulfilled, were finally fulfilled again at this moment.

I was in a trance for a while, maybe because the joyful mood was too full and overloaded, but I was at a loss.

He held my hand, lowered his head, and kissed my ring finger softly.

I could see his crow-feather-like eyelashes when he lowered his eyes, and his lips pressed against his face, his appearance was really sensational.

I became excited almost instantly, held his face and bit him.

After a long time, I finally escaped breathlessly from his irresistible predation. My whole body seemed to be running a marathon. My chest was up and down violently, and it took a long time for me to calm down.

Xi Rong still refused to let me go, and pulled me to ask, "When did you buy it?"

He was still stroking the ring on my hand, looking like he couldn't put it down, I wondered why he insisted on touching mine, obviously he had it himself.

He naturally asked me when I bought this pair of rings.

He probably didn't expect that after I passed away for so long, something he had never found would suddenly appear out of thin air at home.

I may have been a groundhog in my previous life, and I was quite good at digging and hiding things.

Hehe, there are many things he doesn't know.

I thought proudly, no, I’ve been dead for more than a year with the 300-plus yuan of private money in the bottom of the box in the kitchen pantry, and he probably didn’t find it. dropped.

I hesitated for a moment, but decided to tell the truth.

I said: "On the first anniversary, I wanted to propose to you, but I didn't expect to find out at that time..."

The period of my later illness and death is still the most unrevealed scar in my heart.

To this day, I still can't bear to continue the last few words, but I obviously know from his expression that he has understood everything from my words.

A momentary blank expression appeared on his face, and he laughed lightly, his voice full of bitterness: "...So that's how it is."

Thinking about it now, we were really... only one step away.

I really never expected that Xi Rong would propose to me. Maybe he had a sudden whim, maybe the person who was passionately in love didn't have a clear mind, maybe it was something else, no matter what the reason was, in that situation Next, I can't, and I dare not promise him.

I took back the ring I had prepared earlier, strangled all my redundant emotions, forced myself, and shook my head firmly and hard.

I still remember that at that time, he was also like this at this moment, his expression was stunned for a moment, just like me a few hours ago, no matter what, he would never have thought that one day Xi Rong would kneel down on one knee and propose to me, And I would choose to refuse.

We had a very difficult time.

I couldn't explain the reason for the refusal to Xi Rong, I stopped being clingy to him, and even started to avoid him all the time, frequently going to and from unfamiliar hospitals, afraid to reveal my whereabouts to him.

Our relationship just hit freezing point.

I went to check up several times later. After the biopsy, I was so painful and uncomfortable that I felt like vomiting. I didn’t dare to tell him without telling him. I just sat blankly in the corridor of the hospital for a whole day with the test report.

In the days of despair, I secretly prayed countless times for a miracle to happen. I dare not even think about such a good thing as a misdiagnosis, even in the early stage.

It's a pity that God didn't listen to my begging, and the miracle didn't happen to me.

My condition deteriorated very quickly, and the treatment effect was not good. After all, I couldn't hide such a big thing. Later, Xi Rong found out, but it was already a few months later, and I might not have much time left. Just like my mother's discovery, diagnosis, and death, it took only half a year, and the process was so fast that it even made people feel like the sky was falling apart suddenly.

I kept avoiding him because I was really scared.

Xi Rong is an expert in this field, but he still saw countless life and death, and even sent away my mother who was seriously ill and died, and in fact, he still felt guilty about it many years later, although he never explicitly mentioned it to me. his thoughts...

I really dare not think what will happen to him after he knows that I am also sick, and wants him to watch my life withering day by day, struggling and suffering but powerless... If one day he wants to witness my death...

However, the world is full of twists and turns, and in the end everything inevitably develops in the worst direction.

Because there is no targeted drug, even the effect of radiotherapy and chemotherapy is negligible, and the treatment in the future is just a kind of psychological comfort.

In the last days of my life, I didn't want to live in the ward anymore, but chose to go home and resign myself to fate.

At least I don't want to die in a cold hospital.

Because my body is too weak, I have very little waking time, and most of the time I don't remember much of it except the pain. In my impression, only Xi Rong is sitting by my bed, against the shadow of the sun.

He always sat quietly by my bed.

Perhaps Xi Rong also knew that I was going to die soon, and he spent more and more time with me, never closing his eyes almost all day and all night, and never leaving. Sometimes I lost consciousness and barely woke up after an unknown period of time , What I saw was that he was still maintaining the same posture, motionless, as if he was frozen.

One day, when I was in good spirits and didn't feel much pain, he suddenly said to me, "Ruan Li, don't go, don't go, okay? I beg you."

His voice sounded calm, but the sadness in the bloodshot eyes behind the glasses was almost overflowing.

I stared at him with wide eyes, just trying to imprint his appearance deeply in my memory.

I tightly controlled the sound of my sobs, out of breath, and said intermittently: "If there is an afterlife...if we still have the chance..."

——Even if it is difficult and dangerous, I will be with you.

With the most sincere heart and the greatest strength in my heart, I silently swear.

If a person is reincarnated, I am willing to sacrifice everything in exchange for being with him for a while.

But until the end, I also swallowed the second half of the sentence.

Because I know it's all wishful thinking.

Close your eyes, swallow your breath, and there is nothing, nothing.

I died when I was 23 years old.