Strange disease

It's getting colder.

I began to enjoy lying in the warm sun more and more.

I moved the rocking chair to the balcony, set up a small table, and stayed there for almost half of the day, writing in a diary with the wind blowing.

Although it didn’t take long for me to write, my back would hurt. It may be that my current physical condition can no longer allow me to maintain the same posture for a long time. I have rarely been able to persist in one thing since I was a child. Only this time I don't want to give up casually.

Gradually, the entire diary was written out.

I closed the lock of the book, held the heavy book in my hand, and suddenly felt a rare sense of accomplishment in my heart.

I put the key away, but I was having trouble thinking of the safest place to hide it.

In the end, I decided to put it in a vacant ring box.

I also spend more and more time sleeping. Except for writing, I spend most of the rest of the time in bed groggy. My mind is getting more and more tired, and my body temperature seems to be getting lower and lower. The bed and quilt will not shiver from the cold.

Xi Rong was always by my side when I was sleeping, as if he didn't want to miss a single minute. I asked him why he didn't go to rest, and he answered that he was not tired.

Having said that, I also saw that he secretly researched a lot of information and read countless medical books on difficult and miscellaneous diseases, day and night.

But we all understand that I am a deceased person, and all the surviving documents and materials cannot heal me.

Any medical technique is used to treat the living, and I am not in that system at all.

In fact, maybe it was because I had made sufficient psychological preparations before, I knew that I might not be here someday, and I was not too surprised. I was more worried about Xi Rong than worrying about this exhausted body. Some.

So in the past few days, I have frequently done ideological work for him, and reiterated to him countless times, please look at my face, don't let me die and worry about him all day long, please let me live and enjoy His wonderful life.

Xi Rong didn't answer, just looked at me quietly.

I got anxious and said, just promise me, you can let me rest assured, okay?

Xi Rong's deep eyes reflected the endless clear sky, and he bent down to cover the dazzling sunlight falling on my face.

His vision became dark, and a sigh-like word fell gently between his lips like a cold snowflake.

"it is good."

Does this promise make sense?

I think there is, because what he promised me will always be done, and every word he uttered will be realized.

The last leaf of the big tree in front of the house has also withered.

That afternoon, the sun was shining brightly, and Xi Rong Xianting and I walked to the shopping mall near our home. I was wrapped up like a bear, a little bit reluctantly, like a small animal forced to slip out of its den by him.

I don't like to go out anymore, maybe it's because I'm awkward, worried that the same thing as last time will happen again, and it will make Xi Rong unhappy. I avoid strangers, for fear that if I am not careful, others will see my flaw abnormal.

Besides, it's too cold now, and I don't want to leave the heated room and the comfortable and warm quilt at all.

Xi Rong said that I have stayed at home for too long, so take me out to relax, otherwise mushrooms will grow.

I retorted that I can't grow mushrooms, I have a good sun every day, and there is absolutely no mold.

I put my hands in my pockets, put on the scarf and woolen hat, and was fully armed. I wanted to wrap up all my skin that was exposed to the air, except for my two eyes.

Xi Rong held me with his hand in his pocket, and with his other hand he was carrying large and small bags, making it look like a shopping battle that only happens during the Chinese New Year.

I also didn't figure it out, it was obviously just going out to let the wind go, but in the end it turned into shopping with him.

It’s not like shopping with him. To be precise, all the things he bought are for my use, even though I have repeatedly stated that I really don’t need so much.

Winter coats, sweaters, boots, that’s all. He even bought me a large box of more than a dozen pairs of colorful wool socks, seat cushions and softer and more comfortable cushions, new electric toothbrushes, polar fleece Thick pajamas and pajamas that feel good to the touch, and various warm blankets that allow me to wrap around and move around the house.

I can't stop it.

I said that I have enough clothes at home, and I kept all the down jackets from previous years, why buy so many, it’s a waste of money.

When he walked by a video game store and seriously asked me if I wanted a new computer and a new controller, I finally realized that he might really have too much money to spend.

I seriously rejected him, trying to dissuade——

It's not necessary, it's really not necessary, the ones at home are not broken, all right, why do you suddenly have to buy new ones?Did you win the lottery recently?

Xi Rongdao, it is said that the performance of the new model is better, and the experience of playing games is good, don't you want to try it?

I hesitated for a moment, but shook my head firmly.

Seeing that I was determined, Xi Rong had no choice but to give up.

But even so, as we were walking, Xi Rong still carried a lot of things in his hands. The size of his whole body was almost the same as that of a guy with a three-layer coat, and he continued to increase at a considerable rate.

I had to stop and said to Xi Rong, you really can't buy it, otherwise I won't go shopping with you, let's go home now.

Xi Rong finally stopped swiping his card.

It's just that I still have a slight doubt in my heart.

I seldom inquired about Xi Rong's salary before, and I didn't care about it at first, after all, I even handed over the money in my own pocket to him. From this, it can be seen that I am completely responsible for our family's finances. His eyes were darkened, and he didn't know what to ask.

He has probably been promoted in recent years, and his salary has probably increased a bit, but how much did he earn?Is it worth spending so much?

Both of us are usually very frugal, because we have to pay off the mortgage and rarely waste on useless things.In addition, both of us are men, so there is definitely not much to spend on. The classic clothes can be worn for many years, so why change them.

Later, when I got sick, basically all the money I earned was contributed to the KPI of the hospital.

So the last time Xi Rong and I went shopping, I don't even remember when it was.

The living will save, because they have to think about the future, only the dead don't need to save money.

This is really abnormal.

While walking around, a familiar song suddenly sounded in my ears.

"Ifidie young"

The melodious melody and the somewhat sad and clear singing echoed in the air filled with the faint fragrance of flowers, which magically fit the situation very well.

At that moment, I seemed to realize that I might have to leave soon.

I've had just enough time...

I've lived enough time.

The sharp knife of a short life. I've has just enough time.

Time is like an arrow, fleeting, and my life is enough.

I have made up for all the unfinished regrets. The stories that once belonged to us are over. I have seen the most beautiful joy and the most heart-wrenching pain in the world.

The various fragments of life are intertwined, there are moments of boundless scenery and moments of despair, bitter or sweet, all of which are in the past.

I am complete enough.

And then, eventually, I had to leave anyway.

Time flows on and on, and everything will eventually pass.

Before the sun went down, we came out of the mall and walked slowly home.

The afterglow of the setting sun turned the road ahead into blood red, just like the scene when I walked the avenue in front of the campus with him in the past.

At that time, I was full of joy, and in retrospect, it should be regarded as the most splendid and happiest day in my life.

We are walking side by side on the road to an infinite future. The red earth is like oil paint splashed on the mortal world, which is too beautiful to be true.

Today's sunset is still the same, I still feel infinitely beautiful, and I can't bear to look at it twice.

"call--"

Originally we were still walking on the road, suddenly, the wind suddenly became louder in our ears.

As if suddenly, a cold sword struck us from behind.

Out of the corner of my eye, I only had time to catch a glimpse of a sharp and terrifying huge black figure, Xi Rong was walking on the outside of the road, as if his figure would be swallowed by the complete darkness in an instant.

My gaze froze.

Lingling's back was instantly soaked in cold sweat.

Do not--

At that moment, there was no time for me to think at all. I relied on instinct completely, and I don't know where the strength came from. in front of him.

The picture of the truck rushing straight towards me was played in front of my eyes like a slow motion.

Like the huge mouth of a wild beast, with its big sharp teeth, it rushed towards me.

Two huge headlights almost blinded my eyes.

Then, I seemed to hear the sound of flesh and blood tearing open from the deepest part of the body, crisp and raw, with a swish.

The bones broke, the fragile flesh fell apart, and there was only endless darkness left in the sight for a moment.

I didn't feel much pain, and before I even felt anything, it was all over.

It was as if the final bell "ticked" and then fell to an endless void and peace.

For a brief moment, the vision lights up again, and I find myself floating in the air.

It was as if there was an irresistible force above my head that was constantly sucking me up. I watched those shopping bags that hadn’t been unpacked fall to the ground, and the appearance of Xi Rong gradually blurred in front of me.

It's okay, it's okay, he's fine.

I yelled at the top of my lungs and kept waving my hands, trying to get Xi Rong to see me.

Xi Rong...!Xi Rong! !

But he didn't see me, he just stared blankly at my scattered, blood-stained, and even damaged body that was completely unrecognizable, as if the whole person had become a completely frozen glacier.

When things came, I thought I could accept it calmly, I thought I could calmly accept this doomed parting knowing that I might leave at any time...

But, but...

Oh my god.

Just give me a little more time...

I haven't grown old with him yet, and I haven't taken good care of him for the rest of my life...

I collapsed and screamed in the air farther and farther from the ground, tears streaming down my face, but no one under the ground could notice me or hear my voice.

...I haven't had time to say goodbye to him properly.

The author says:

It's not over yet! ! (crawling away with a strong desire to survive