Good brother, your design is broken

Chi Yang's expression darkened completely, and he squeezed out three words from his throat: "Qi, Xiao, Xi."

Qi Xiaoxi shuddered suddenly, turned his head, and stammered: "Why, what's the matter, Brother Chi?"

Chi Yang hooked Qi Xiaoxi: "Come here."

Qi Xiaoxi was frightened by Chi Yang's displeasure, and immediately ran over, and was taken aside by Chi Yang with a gloomy expression.

Just when he was thinking about whether he would be beaten, Chi Yang lowered his voice and whispered in his ear: "It's almost done, save me some face in front of my wife."

Qi Xiaoxi: "...?"

The two talked for a while under the tree, and Ling Lang just sat there and drank water leisurely, and occasionally glanced at someone not far away who was frowning and staring, thinking that it was enough for him to lose face. Humanitarian spirit let him go.

At the end, Chi Yang patted Qi Xiaoxi on the shoulder in a friendly manner, glanced in the direction of the school gate, and signaled that he could leave.

Qi Xiaoxi laughed twice, turned his head and waved his hands at Ling Lang, and said loudly, "Bro, I suddenly remembered that I have something to do, let's talk about it next time", and then trotted away like a rabbit towards the school gate. It was as if there was a wolf staring at him behind him, and he didn't know what threatened him.

The annoying spirit finally disappeared, Chi Yang let go of his vigilance, put his hands in his pockets, and walked towards Ling Lang with a relaxed expression.

Not far away is a young man with his arms folded, his eyes half closed, leaning against a brown double chair, his angular chin is half covered by a dark green sweater collar, and his fair skin is also illuminated by the sunlight. , the whole person fell into the golden autumn without knowing it, it was so warm that people wanted to pounce on it vigorously and hugged it tightly.

The irritability in Chi Yang's eyes was submerged by gentleness, and a warm smile appeared on his lips again, instantly matching the autumn colors.

He stood still beside the public seat, lowered his head and stretched out his hand to Ling Lang, and said softly, "Xiao Lang, it's almost time for dinner, let's go directly to the cafeteria."

Ling Lang opened his eyes, looked at the big hand with sharp joints in front of him for a while, raised his head, and said with a half-smile: "Should I call you Dad from now on?"

When Chi Yang heard these words, his breathing became stagnant, and the autumnal romance in his heart instantly dissipated, and he almost knelt down.

Ling Lang stood up, walked towards the cafeteria, and said calmly, "You don't have to be so nervous, Qi Xiaoxi just told the truth that we all know."

Chi Yang followed closely: "Actually, that's not the real reason why I want to go back to China."

"Oh?" Ling Lang looked at Chi Yang with great interest, raised his eyebrows and said, "Aside from 'observing and domesticating wolf cubs', do you have other things to do when you return home?"

Chi Yang was choked hard, and the little wolf cub who said that words are like gold is seriously sarcastic, it's really embarrassing, but he is still powerless to refute.

The two walked shoulder to shoulder for a short distance in silence, stepping on the dead leaves that creaked under their feet.

Chi Yang brushed a fallen leaf off Ling Lang's shoulder, cleared his throat, "I decided to go back to China because I finally made up my mind to chase you."

Ling Lang froze with an expression of indifference, opened his eyes slightly, and turned to look at him, his eyes were obviously confirming.

Chi Yang nodded.

In the few days when he was about to return to China, he was more nervous than ever, and his heart was also very chaotic. He felt that he had no chance of winning at all, so he didn't want Qi Xiaoxi to ask him questions at this juncture, so he casually used Ling Rongjiang's request Qi Xiaoxi was dismissed.

He smiled wryly, and said, "It took me four years to make this decision."

This was the first time Ling Lang heard Chi Yang mention those four years, but it was in a way he had never thought of.

As if some kind of forbidden switch buried between the two was suddenly turned on, Ling Lang's mind went blank for a moment, and his ears were instantly filled with the thunderous heartbeat.

"Tell me, four years..." Ling Lang opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say. Chi Yang spoke straightforwardly, but he was not clear at all.

Looking at the tremor in Ling Lang's eyes, Chi Yang said, "Xiao Lang, you have always wanted to ask me questions, right?"

Ling Lang lowered his gaze, his slender eyelashes covered up the impulsiveness in his eyes, pretending not to understand, he asked inwardly, "What do you mean?"

Chi Yang: "You want to ask me why I went to country A suddenly and didn't come back. I didn't even say hello."

Being opened up by him again in front of Chi Yang, Ling Lang let out a sigh of relief and said, "If you don't want to tell, I won't bother, it doesn't matter if you don't know."

Chi Yang's tone sank a little: "I went to country A because someone said they had found the remains of my parents. As soon as I got the news, I flew to country A, but they made a mistake. The two bones were not my parents. , At that moment, I couldn't tell whether it was disappointment or happiness."

Having said this, Chi Yang paused, his Adam's apple trembled for a moment.

Ling Lang knew that after the death of Chi Yang's parents, the remains were never found. In Chi Yang's subconscious mind, perhaps he still dreamed that his parents were actually alive somewhere in the world.

Walking on the path with few pedestrians, Ling Lang stretched out half of his finger from the cuff of his sweater, pinched Chi Yang's palm as if to comfort him, and Chi Yang held it back again.Afraid of being discovered, Ling Lang shrank subconsciously, but in the end he let Chi Yang lead him.

"Because of this incident, I was in a daze for a while, locked myself in the room, and didn't want to see anyone. My grandfather also hired a psychiatrist to help me diagnose and treat me. By the time I was finally able to face the sun, three months had passed. month. At that time, my most urgent thought was to talk to you, but during the days when I was behind closed doors, I thought a lot about you and everything related to you, including my love for you. How did it come about, and should it exist?"

Like this kind of thing, it is impossible for two people who have been together for a long time to happen clearly and clearly in an instant, as if a long stream of water has reached a certain fork, trickling into a bright and gentle ditch, everything is so Naturally, it makes people unconscious.

Therefore, he didn't know when he started to think differently about Ling Lang, and when he realized it, something was wrong with him—he became more and more cherishing the time alone with Ling Lang; Seeing Ling Lang's youthful and soft cheeks, he would want to lean up and touch them with his lips; when a female classmate confessed to Ling Lang, he would feel irritable and couldn't even listen to the class; he even secretly hid a photo of Ling Lang in his wallet .

He gradually couldn't distinguish the boundaries between brothers, but he still didn't know why due to gender.

Until later, when he grew up, he finally understood what kind of relationship it was. He began to panic and had difficulty facing Ling Lang. After all, it was a relationship that was not tolerated by the world.

He didn't want his thoughts to bring trouble and criticism to Ling Lang, and he didn't want such a lively and lovely boy to be imprisoned in the exploration or even maliciousness of the people around him. At the same time, he was also afraid that Ling Lang would feel disgusted and completely hate him. .

In this entanglement, he went to country A by chance, and was isolated from the world for another three months, so he thought, since he is gone, let's go completely, if that love will eventually swell to an unstoppable level, It's better to use the distance of time and space to completely put this thought into a cage.Even on the day he returned to China to attend Ling Jin's funeral, he resisted the urge to take a look at Ling Lang.

At the age of fifteen or sixteen, he didn't know how naive and naive he was, and he thought he had strong willpower.

"So, my first phone call to China was to Ling Jin, the person closest to you." Chi Yang said.

After hearing Chi Yang's words, Ling Lang was completely dumbfounded. In fact, he had already learned about Chi Yang's thoughts from his cousin Chi Yang, and he was also shocked by it.However, the words of others will inevitably be biased, and now hearing Chi Yang's own words, that kind of impact is the most real.

Seeing Ling Lang dumbfounded, Chi Yang continued: "When you were young, you always called me 'brother-in-law', so I guessed that you might want me to be with Ling Jin. I don't want you to be disappointed in me, and I don't want you to be disappointed. I was afraid that you would hate me if you knew that I had such shocking thoughts about you. So I took advantage of that return to country A and unilaterally cut off contact with you, intending to digest this feeling alone, but not only did it not be worn away by time, on the contrary It got worse and worse, and eventually it got out of control.”

"But then I figured it out. I had to tell this feeling. Even if you hated me because of it, I admitted it. I didn't confess this to you because I was too indecisive and helpless during that period. Planted, even I look down on myself, how can you like it?"

When Chi Yang said these things, his tone was always flat, as if he was telling someone else's story as a bystander—the story of the teenage boy Chi Yang who was in entanglement, hesitation, and panic all day long.

Ling Lang had thousands of words in his stomach, but in the end he just raised his head and sighed with a sudden sore nose: "You think too much, Chi Yang."

Chi Yang was silent for a while, then said "En", without any rebuttal at all.

Ling Lang was right.

He seems to be a free and easy person, and no one pays attention to him, but only when facing matters related to Ling Lang, he will become hesitant.

It was because he thought too much that he was so worried about gains and losses, and it took four years before he dared to face his own heart.

It was nothing more than four years of suffering by himself, and he missed the opportunity to accompany Ling Lang through that most painful time. For this, he regretted no less than a thousand times.

At the end of the alley is a pedestrian-strewn avenue, Chi Yang let go of Ling Lang's hand, and put his arm around his shoulder instead: "I'm done talking, this is all my answer."

"Yeah." Ling Lang involuntarily leaned into Chi Yang's arms, "I know all about it."

Chi Yang: "Then will you forgive me?"

Ling Lang: "Forgive me?"

Chi Yang: "Forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye."

Ling Lang: "I'm also responsible for this kind of thing. I didn't realize your intentions earlier, and kept making fun of you and my sister. In fact, I..."

He didn't finish his sentence.

He originally wanted to say that he might have liked Chi Yang since he was very young, but he couldn't be sure, that kind of liking is the same as now, but the result is the same, so there is no need to go back and explore.

Life should move forward.This is the truth that Chi Yang spent a year teaching him after returning to China.

Chi Yang didn't pay attention to Ling Lang's hesitancy to speak, he had mixed feelings in his heart, he just wanted to kiss the boy under his arms on the spot.

His little wolf cub was so good, fortunately he was still there after he went around and didn't lose it.

When he was about to reach the cafeteria, Chi Yang suddenly remembered something, and said in a deep voice, "Now it's time for me to ask you a question."

Ling Lang: "Ask."

Chi Yang said quietly: "You didn't really want to go out with Qi Xiaoxi to have a room just now, did you?"

Ling Lang: "Don't dare."

Chi Yang was stunned. He didn't know why Ling Lang used the word "dare". Could it be that he was too possessive and made Ling Lang feel scared?

Ling Lang continued: "You are so fierce in country A, killing people everywhere every day, and even singled out three muscular European and American men. I'm afraid that Qi Xiaoxi's life will be in danger by then."

Chi Yang: "..."

Ling Lang turned his face away, and bent his mouth hastily in a direction that Chi Yang couldn't see.