wind says rain

After the school holiday, Qi Mu stayed at the place of residence most of the time except for going to Chengxi No. [-]. The continuous rain made people feel depressed. This afternoon he opened the box that was placed in the drawer before. The wooden material was put away for a long time. The outside was polished smooth, he gently opened it, and there were some small items inside, he looked at it for a while and took out a silver bracelet wrapped with a red string, and there was a ring around it at the junction of the red string. Lock pendant.

After a long time, some memories have become blurred, but he will not and dare not forget this silver bracelet. This small object is a symbol of the end of his childhood and the beginning of growth.

Touching the lock with fingers, my thoughts went back to the day when I was a child:

The day in my memory was also a rainy evening. He carried his schoolbag home as usual. Because he didn’t bring an umbrella, he took off his coat and covered the schoolbag inside to avoid getting wet. When he returned home, he took off his coat and shook it off. Seeing the rain stains on it, the shoelaces loosened at some point, and dragged on the ground, soaked in rainwater with mud, stained in other colors.He bent down to pick up the knot, took out a wet tissue from his pocket, and rubbed it. In the end, not only the wet tissue in his hand was dirty, but the shoelaces were also completely stained with mud.When he got up, he heard the conversation inside: "Mom, I have difficulties, you have to understand me!"

"Difficulties, if you have difficulties, should you let your child bear them? He is still young, so you leave him like this?" Li Bianlan asked in the room looking at her daughter in front of her.

There was a packed suitcase at Li Wanqin's feet, she stood there and watched her back straight from behind, as if her heart would not be soft in this way.

When Qi Mu heard that he was standing outside, he didn't dare to make a sound, and even controlled his breathing to be very small. He stared at the mud stains on his shoes and listened to the conversation inside without moving.

"If I had known earlier, I shouldn't have given birth to him, and I should have let him disappear like his irresponsible father." Li Wanqin's clenched fists trembled slightly after saying these words.

"Hmm!" Li Wanqin snorted.

Li Bianlan, who was sitting on the stool, was holding a wooden stick that she didn’t know when to get it. Hearing what she said, she stood up angrily and waved the stick hard on her back. Because of the pain in her chest, she supported her back He pointed the stick at the person in front of him and said: "I told you before, if you decide to keep him, don't say anything bad, and don't regret it. No matter how many difficulties you have for a child who comes to this world, you can't say that about him. After all, you were the one who decided to bring him to this world, and he has no right to refuse. Wanqin...you have to know that you have given him His life is not good, but Amu has never shown anything in front of you. He is more sensible than other children since he was a child. He knows that you have to earn money and have no time to work. Such a young child goes to and from school by himself every day. Look at the children around him, which one is not picked up regularly?"

Li Wanqin turned her face away and lowered her head in silence. She knew all this, but she didn't dare to think about it. The pictures she saw before quickly passed her mind...

Taking a deep breath, Li Wanqin raised her head, with a expressionless face showing the reluctance that only she knew, she calmed down her emotions and said, "Mom, I'll go out and try first, if it's all right, I'll come back to pick him up Yes, I'm still so young and can't stay here just because he has been here." He said the cruel words and never took them back.Outside the door, Qi Mu hugged his schoolbag in his arms and leaned against the wall, smashing his few beautiful childhood fantasies to pieces with one sentence.

"Get out! Li Wanqin, you will live well after you leave this house today, and don't come back! I will bring up the child myself, so you can live your own life. "

Later, Qi Mu, who was standing at the door, remembered the scene that was etched in his heart: under the gray rain, a woman was carrying a big red suitcase, she didn't open an umbrella, let the raindrops hit her body, and strode out without looking back. this home.

Later, he didn't ask why his grandma and mother disappeared, but he was more silent. Sometimes looking at his grandma who was secretly wiping away tears, he questioned whether his existence was really correct, as if they were unhappy because of his existence.This doubt grew with him.

Hearing the sound of rain coming from outside the window, Qi Mu put down the silver bracelet in his hand, went to the window, raised his hand and opened the curtains, looking at the traces of raindrops falling under the light in the distance.

At night, he suffered from insomnia again, lying on the bed and closing his eyes, his grandma's kind face was all there.The old man, who was supposed to enjoy his old age in peace, left because of his exhaustion all his life. Gu Weihe and the others said that the accident was an accident, and He Mo was also a victim. He shouldn't blame the victim on the same person. .At that time, he wanted to refute them: "What do you know? I didn't blame any victims. I blamed myself from the beginning to the end. If it wasn't for my birthday, how could grandma go back to buy cakes? If I didn't buy cakes, how could there be later Things? Look! I am a man who is doomed to have no home!"

In the morning, he propped up his heavy body and finished washing, then walked out with an umbrella.Looking up at the sky, the sky was pure and clear after a night of rain, and a gust of wind blew through the hair on the forehead, which was longer than before and was almost reaching the chin.Except for the class time, he mostly scattered casually, thinking about the person he was going to meet today, he squinted at the slightly longer hair, pulled the hood of the hooded sweater inside the coat to cover his head, and stopped After passing a car, I told the master the address that Gu Weihe told him.

When the journey of more than an hour was approaching the destination, the driver master glanced at Qi Mu who was sitting behind through the rearview mirror and said: "There are no cars on the road this early in the morning, otherwise it would be difficult to arrive so quickly. This road is usually the most congested..." He also said other things that Qi Mu didn't catch clearly, so he just smiled politely.When he arrived at the hospital, he paid the money and got out of the car, looking at the gate and the buildings inside.

The walls of the buildings inside the white main entrance are all uniform pure white and brick red arc tops.This place should not be called a hospital, it should be called a "retirement home".

Qi Mu walked in and asked about He Mo's ward, the medical staff looked at his face carefully and said, "Are you Qi Mu?"

Qi Mu: "You know me?"

Paramedic: "Not sure, can you take the hat off?"

With a somewhat abrupt request, Qi Mu was stunned for a moment, then tore off the hat on his head with one hand, and part of his hair curled up in the direction where the hat was put down. With the face completely exposed, the medical staff said embarrassedly: "It's abrupt, because everyone who comes to visit has to verify it. Your information has been sent before. You couldn't see clearly just now with the hat on. Thank you for your cooperation!"

When leading him to the door of the ward, the medical staff said: "Can you not tell the Gu family about the situation just now? In fact, they said that if someone called Qi Mu came to visit, they could let him go directly, but the Gu family Before the particularity, too many reporters pretended to be staff members and other people trying to get in, I had to verify it rigorously, and I am really sorry for being so abrupt.”

Qi Mu said: "It's okay, you don't have to worry that I am not familiar with the members of the Gu family. As for your behavior just now, I don't think the Gu family will blame you even if they know about it. On the contrary, they will be more at ease and don't have to worry."

"Thank you"

"You don't have to thank me, I didn't do anything." After speaking, he pushed the door of the ward lightly and walked in.

In the bright and bright ward, the light from outside comes in through the windows, and the perspective inside is clear. The simple and warm accessories can be seen to be specially matched by someone.

Finally, my eyes fell on the person on the bed. How should I describe her? The reason why she was lying on the hospital bed for a long time was very thin and white, and the blood vessels on the back of her hands could be seen from a distance. From the current appearance, one can see the three-point appearance before, and the gentle jade is the first impression that Qi Mu saw when she saw her.

Qi Mu didn't sit on the stool by the bed, but chose to sit on the reception sofa by the window, and he didn't look at her again, with his arms propped on his legs, his head slightly lowered, and his hair let down to cover his expression.

As if he was thinking that he was sitting there unable to speak for a long time, time passed slowly, and after a while, I heard Qi Mu say: "Hello, He Mo, I am Qi Mu, you should have seen my name , I think it should be a nightmare in your consciousness. I'm sorry I only came to see you now. I came today to tell you that you don't have to blame yourself anymore. That incident was not your fault. If you really want to say whose fault it is It's me, you see, I am living a good life with all my sins, you still have so many people who love you, how can you hide here and escape because it is not your fault, if you can hear what I say, I hope you can Let yourself go."

Qi Mu stayed in the ward for nearly two hours, and no one knew what he said that day except He Mo. After he left, there was no scene like that in novels or TV dramas: the misunderstanding was resolved, and the wronged person woke up.He Mo was still lying motionless on the hospital bed, as quiet as usual.

Qi Mu, who walked out of the hospital, didn't notice the black Land Rover parked on the side of the road outside. Putting on his hat again, he walked slowly on the sidewalk, and when he encountered an intersection, he chose a fork according to his mood. After seeing He Mo, he felt heavy again. It turned out that there was another person who was atoning for the accident three years ago in that way.

If you are also walking on this road today, it is not difficult to see such a scene. There is a car on the side of the road that has been following people walking on the sidewalk at an appropriate speed. There seems to be an inexplicable connection between the two, which is contradictory. And harmonious.The eyes of the people in the car were gentle, while the people on the sidewalk were filled with strange desolation.

Some people say that the bitterness in childhood will turn into sugar when you grow up, and Qi Mu knows that "sugar" is the embodiment of bitterness after growing up.It has always been just different because of the shift in your mind.

Qi Mu walked on the street like a homeless child silently waiting for a stop!