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The classmates who were in love with each other heard that others avoided Mu Chen and talked about the fact that someone found Duan Xuwen's office before, so they knew what happened at Mu Chen's house.

In short, his camouflage was well done, the previous pain and helplessness were gone, and the blank look that could not see any color was well covered up.

So good that some people even scolded him behind his back for being heartless, and his parents didn't even shed a tear when they died.

Mu Chen heard some of it, and didn't pay much attention to it, but the day after these words spread, the rumors were strangely put to rest, and no more relevant words came out.

He didn't know that it was the result of Jiang Hao coercing and luring those with dirty mouths after school.

He didn't hurt anyone, but broke a baseball bat with a thick arm with his bare hands, claiming that no matter how dare he say that Mu Chen would end up like this.This move scared those people away, and also hurt his own hand. The children's threats of violence are so childish that even he himself dislikes them. However, in school, it is no different than in society. Such methods often work the most.

Sure enough, such rumors never came out again, replaced by accusations about him using threats of violence on the post bar and another carnival by Jiang Chen cp fans upon hearing the news.

For the first time, he felt that these girls were really cute.

Under their imagination, the encounter and acquaintance between him and Mu Chen were so smooth and happy, without all the twists and turns in the middle, and there was no hidden worry of birth, old age, illness and death.

A few days ago, after Mu Chen's parents' affairs were settled, Jiang Hao took him to see Shen Xi. Shen Xi asked Jiang Hao to avoid him for a while, saying that he wanted to talk to Mu Chen alone. Jiang Hao understood the confidentiality principle of psychiatrist treatment. They cooperated and went out.

After fidgeting and waiting for a long time, Mu Chen came out of the room and said that Shen Xi wanted to talk to him alone.

Walking into the consulting room, Shen Xi calmly and politely motioned him to sit down opposite him, raised his hand to straighten his glasses, and said, "I'm probably sure about Mu Chen's situation, you don't have to worry too much, just help him get out of the shadows." It's fine. But last time I heard you say that he was originally an art student, in this case, it may be difficult to recover before the provincial entrance examination."

"I know. It's just that he... I'm afraid he will still regret it."

"Regret is certain. After preparing for such a long time, it suddenly came to naught. But in the face of regret, we can only think of other ways, right? Self-pity is always useless."

"Yeah." Jiang Hao lowered his eyelashes.

"Let me share my opinion. The situations of Mu Chen and Xiaoji are actually somewhat similar. Both are stress reactions to a huge blow, but Xiaoji's reaction is self-enclosed, while Mu Chen's My reaction is a physical loss of color vision. Of course, Mu Chen’s condition is milder than Xiaoji’s depression, and according to my conversation with him, he is very strong.”

"The next thing you have to do is to let him get out of this stress reaction, gradually help him psychologically to weaken the impact of the triggering event on him, and first restore his psychology to a healthy level. This method seems empty, But according to my opinion, since no pathological cause can be found, this method can be regarded as a breakthrough, do you think it is worth a try?"

"Doctor Shen, I trust your judgment."

"Thank you for your trust. But I still have to ask, you and Mu Chen are not ordinary friends, are you?"

"To be honest, he and I are in a relationship, but we are not children's jokes. Please help us keep it secret."

"Well, don't worry about confidentiality. I still abide by the professional ethics of a psychiatrist and never disclose the patient's information. I just want to remind you that as a boyfriend, I will always protect him. These days, I never You have seen your protection for him here, which is not a bad thing for the patient, but you need to pay attention to the fact that the protection cannot be overdone. Birth, old age, sickness and death are inevitable, and losing loved ones is the only way for everyone to grow up. I can't deny that Mu Chen suffered earlier than many people, but this is also an indispensable part of his growth, if you block them all for him, he may never be able to survive this disaster by himself."

"This may sound cold-blooded, but I hope you can adopt some. Care for him and give him warmth, but never let him treat you as a life-saving straw. What you have to do is to let him stand up on his own, not to let him stand up for the rest of his life. Help him to move forward. With Mu Chen's personality, I believe he can stand up by himself, I hope you can always believe in this, and don't treat him like a flower in a greenhouse."

Jiang Hao engraved these words in his heart.

In addition, Shen Xi also suggested that Mu Chen should resume his studies at school so that his life could return to the right track as soon as possible, so that he could better get out of what happened in the past.

It turns out that it works.

After Mu Chen returned to school, with his encouragement, he regained his goal of going to the same school as him. Jiang Hao gave him the detailed notes he carefully prepared during the training camp, and gave them to him at any time after class every day. He explained.Although this period of time is a review class, the amount of work required to make up for the previous few months is quite a lot, not to mention that the deadline for the college entrance examination is approaching, and the two of them are learning new lessons while working hard to catch up. Fortunately, the two of them are together when they go home at night, and they can stay up late together to learn more before going to bed.

Since his parents left, Mu Chen rarely went back to his home except for regular cleaning.One is because there are no relatives in the family, it is no longer a home, and the other is that seeing the traces of the parents' life will touch the scene and cause insomnia all night.So Jiang Hao changed a double bed in his bedroom, and asked him to go to his own residence every day, accompany him to finish his homework and make up lessons, and sleep on the same bed.In Jiang Hao's warm arms, Mu Chen can get rid of insomnia and nightmares every day.

It seems that life has gradually returned to its original calm appearance, and everything is slowly getting better.

But Mu Chen's color vision still showed no signs of recovery.

On the New Year's Eve of this year, Mu Chen and Jiang Hao went to the graves of their families one by one to lay flowers. In a sense, they had met each other's parents and had a reunion in a certain sense.

The afterglow in the sky is gradually being swallowed up by the night, the lights of thousands of houses, the lights are just on, and the Chang Gung star is shining in the west, just like the day Mu Chen was born, the twilight is faint, and the stars are just appearing, but he can no longer see this interlaced color picture , what falls into the eyes is only the endless black and white light and shadow, like a faded old photo.

"Mu Chen, go back."

In the cold winter night, the figures of the two teenagers were dimly shadowed in the moonlight, and gradually faded away, leaving bunches of flowers clinging to each other with the tombstone.

During the Spring Festival, it is rare to have fireworks in the urban area. Many people seized the opportunity to light clusters of sparkling bouquets on New Year's Eve, sharing the momentary beauty with the whole city.

When Mu Chen heard the explosion of fireworks, he couldn't help looking up, and saw a beam of white light rushing into the pure black sky, and a pale flower bloomed. The petals were scattered and scattered, like falling white paper money, with a pale death glow. gas.

There is a colorless world in front of you, and your deceased relatives behind you.

No matter how forbearing and strong Ren is, his eyes are red at this moment.

The pale bouquet in the sky suddenly became extremely glaring, the eyes became hotter and moister, but she still insisted not to let the tears fall, the eye sockets pressed by the tears were sore and painful, but she stubbornly refused to close her eyes to escape.

It wasn't until a pair of warm hands covered his eyes that the tears fell into the man's palm as if they had found a place to return.

"Stop looking, go home."

Home……

His home is only him.

They have already become each other's only home.

On New Year's Eve of this year, Mu Chen got his wish and spent time with Jiang Hao. The vow that he had made secretly in his heart like a pity, actually came true. It's just that besides what he expected, there were also unexpected things. lose.

The sound insulation in the ten-year-old unit building is not very good. Sometimes you can faintly hear the laughter of reunions upstairs and downstairs, the sound of fireworks colliding with spatulas, and the sound of singing and dancing from the TV.

How many people have been looking forward to the reunion on this day for a year, and how many people have already lost the meaning of this day.

Jiang Hao originally wanted to cook the New Year's Eve dinner by himself, but Mu Chen, who insisted on entering the kitchen, had to follow behind him to prevent him from taking the wrong ingredients and adding more seasonings, or putting white vinegar in the same bottle. Confused with soy sauce, an hour after the Spring Festival Gala started, the two teenagers finally prepared a table of meals that two people couldn't finish in a hurry.

There were only two people sitting at the dining table, but there were seven sets of bowls and chopsticks. Mu Zhiyuan Yingjiang Xin Jiang's grandfather Li Zhengxin had all of them, and no one was left behind. After the meal, the unused bowls were all put in Adding a few chopsticks dishes, it looks like relatives are really enjoying the New Year’s Eve dinner together and watching the Spring Festival Gala. It seems that no one has left, and no one needs to be sad. His expressions were perfect and there was hardly a trace of flaw.

Except for the beer cans piled up on the corner of the table and Mu Chen who was blushing and drunk.

Mu Chen barely moved his chopsticks tonight, except for picking up vegetables in those bowls, but he opened cans of beer one after another.

Jiang Hao didn't stop him, Mu Chen was usually too depressed, it might be a good thing to take this opportunity to let him vent.

All he can do is to accompany Mu Chen to get drunk and go crazy together, and to bury those sad memories that are eager to abandon and unforgettable in the drunkenness, so as to win a night of worry-free while drunk.

It's like the time when a child was innocent and didn't know what parting was.

The bell rang at zero o'clock, and the popular song came out of the TV