Li Li

When Xiao Yanjin was very young, she was pushed into the water by other children in the palace. It was freezing cold and the water was biting to the bone. Li Li rescued him from the water.Xiao Yanjin's teeth chattered from the cold, so he hugged Xiao Yanjin in his arms, and covered him with all the quilts.

At that time Xiao Yanjin was only four years old, and she was the easiest to bully.The thin and small group was fierce to him.Li Li was amused by his unthreatening face when he was fierce, and when he poked Xiao Yanjin's soft face, he would still stare at himself angrily.

But if it was freezing, Xiao Yanjin would curl up in his arms and be homeless.

Xiao Yanjin held Li Li's wrist and rubbed it in her arms, her bones still ached.It seems like a dream, unable to distinguish between reality and illusion.

He was somewhat lost in the past, and people in the dim lights could not see clearly.

It is no longer possible to overlap with the child who froze in his arms when he was a child.

Li Li asked the unreal person in a half-dream and half-awake state: "Do you want something sweet?"

His voice was hoarse, as if he hadn't spoken for a long time.

Xiao Yanjin heard Li Li's voice and leaned closer: "Do you want something sweet?"

"What's the sweetest?"

When Xiao Yanjin lay frozen in his arms, she wanted to eat something sweet. Li Li didn't know what was the sweetest, but he brought all the sweet things he knew to Xiao Yanjin.

The man's heart softened, Li Li half closed his eyes, and his voice fell softly on his heart.Xiao Yanjin kissed his eyebrows: "You are the sweetest."

Outside/It is raining continuously, and it is raining finely and densely, and there is no tendency to stop.There was charcoal burning in the meditation room, but it still couldn't resist the cold air.

Li Li was awakened from her dream by that kiss, the man was close at hand, the sharp edges and corners were softened by the deep affection in her eyes.

"I never hated you."

Xiao Yanjin froze for a moment.

"I never hated you."

Li Li muttered and repeated.Only then did Xiao Yanjin realize that he was talking to herself.Xiao Yanjin didn't even dare to move or breathe, for fear of disturbing the person in her arms.

Li Li closed her eyes, feeling nostalgic for the childhood in her dream.At that time, you may not understand anything, but you can do what you want, and show all your sincerity to someone, regardless of the consequences.

Li Li withdrew his hand from Xiao Yanjin's arms and put it on his abdomen: "I later figured out a lot of things. I said you betrayed me, but you didn't. You said you betrayed me, but you didn't. You had someone in your heart, but you never said You never asked me to stay by your side if you loved me. From the beginning to the end, I was actually a bitch and rushed to post it. In the name of loving you, I felt that you were sorry for me. In fact, I was just rushing. I won't chase you, I won't hate me, and I won't do these things to me."

"Stop talking, Li Li." Xiao Yanjin always wanted to know his truth, always wanted to know what he was thinking, but never wanted to hear Li Li say these things.Every word was like weeping blood, and it was so heavy that he couldn't even lift his back.

Fishy sweetness welled up in Xiao Yanjin's throat, what he was waiting for was not these.

"Lili, you are tired."

He was really tired, and it was rare for him to have a dream that could make him feel calm and at ease.

"Xiao Yanjin, I had a dream just now... You were frozen, and I held you in my arms. You told me that you wanted the sweetest thing. I asked the nanny, what is the sweetest thing you have ever eaten? The nanny said, you never eat sweets. I want to make you happy..." Li Li's voice was always soft: "At that time, maybe from then on... I was the one who made a fool of myself, I was the one who pretended to be passionate, and I was the one who pretended to be a tiger. .”

Without Xiao Yanjin's favor, there is only his arrogance; without Xiao Yanjin's love, only his self-indulgent affection, only then will he suffer the consequences of his own misfortune, who can he hate?

Not Rong Sheng, nor Xiao Yanjin.

For so many years, what he hated Xiao Yanjin the most was resentment to the marrow.I probably don't understand why I don't want to treat him better

"I'm really afraid of you." Li Li opened his eyes, but there was no anger in his eyes: "Now...it's true."

I'm afraid because I love it, and thinking about it is good, but I take myself too seriously.In the end, that person was just giving him a little affection, which would make his life worse than crippling his hands.

What Li Li was cautious about was just guarding her little bit of self-knowledge.

Xiao Yanjin's heart was broken, and she covered his eyes with the palm of her hand: "Lili, you are tired, be good, go to sleep."

"I'm really afraid of you." Li Li said.

Xiao Yanjin's whole body collapsed, and she hugged her tightly, as if she wanted to rub her into her flesh and blood: "Don't say anything, get a good night's sleep."

Li Li cried: "I'm really afraid of you."

To Xiao Yanjin, his feelings were not like the blood that melted into his body, but like sand that fell into his eyes.Li Li didn't owe Xiao Yanjin anything, but couldn't even feelings be a kind of debt?

Xiao Yanjin coaxed Li Li to sleep, but he was very preoccupied and didn't feel much sleepiness.

The Taoist temple is clean, and there are few people walking around at night.Xiao Yanjin arrived in front of the Taoist hall, where Emperor Wenchang was enshrined in the solemn and solemn Taoist hall.

Xiao Yanjin is very familiar with this god, who is in charge of fame and fortune.Li Li knew his ambition since he was a child, and later he quietly enshrined Emperor Wenchang, saying that he had gone to the temple to consecrate and pray for blessings, and he would sincerely worship the gods for whatever he wanted.

Xiao Yanjin sneered, only those who can't control their fate pray to God and worship Buddha, he has always only believed in himself.Li Li prayed for him and wrote his wish on the sign.The nanny said that he had been thrown in the temple all night before he was thrown to the highest position on the tree, and he would definitely be a prince by then.

Li Li always gave him whatever he wanted, even if Li Li didn't have it, she would do it in other ways.

But now Xiao Yanjin has everything, but also lost it.

"The benefactor has not yet rested." The Taoist priest in the Taoist temple patrolled around, and when he came back, he found the young master who came to knock on the door in the evening to stay in the Taoist hall.

Xiao Yanjin came back to her senses, and took her mind off: "Add some sesame oil money."

He poured all the silver from his purse into the cash box.

The Taoist priest is a sharp-eyed person, Xiao Yanjin lingered here so late, the Taoist priest knew he had something on his mind.

"Add sesame oil money as you like, but you have a lot of worries, and adding sesame oil money will not solve your worries."

Xiao Yanjin was in a daze for a moment, a little dazed: "I don't know what to do either."

He is not a person who is easily confused. Since he was very young, everything he does has a clear purpose, and everything he does is well measured.But now all the confusion is when facing Li Li.

Xiao Yanjin didn't want to say it, and the Taoist priest couldn't help him, so he just said: "There is a sacred tree in the backyard of the Taoist hall, which is very spiritual. People who come to offer incense and pray will write their wishes on the sign and hang red cloth strips. If you are sincere, it may be possible to throw it to the top of the tree. If you have a problem that cannot be solved, why not go there and pray for blessings."

When people have difficulties and cannot solve things, they hope that gods can help them.Xiao Yanjin walked through ups and downs all the way, only believing that everything depends on herself.But today he believed in gods.

If there is no way, put your hope in the gods and pray sincerely, it will surely come true.

This is what Li Li said when he paid homage to Emperor Wenchang.At that time he pulled Xiao Yanjin to worship together, Xiao Yanjin was impatient, and was even reprimanded by the nanny.

But now he is in the backyard, throwing the blessing sign with red cloth strips to the highest position on the tree.