Li Li

There was no doctor in the village, so the steward hurried down the mountain to invite a doctor back.

Xiao Yanjin lay unconscious on the bed, and Li Li stayed by the bed.He was frightened by Xiao Yanjin, thinking that he was injured somewhere.

Xiao Yanjin was not injured, but his face was pale without any blood, and his hands were very cold.Li Li covered his hand to keep it warm, and sat on the side with her lips pursed in a daze for a long time.

The doctor came soon, checked the pulse, pondered for a long time before saying: "The lung qi is depressed, the qi movement is not smooth, and the meridians are blocked, so you vomit blood and pass out."

Abnormalities of the seven emotions and six desires will damage the viscera and cause disease.Excessive worry or sorrow injures the lungs, and excessive thinking injures the mind and causes disease.

Xiao Yanjin was ill.Li Li was in a daze for a moment: "Is he sick?"

"Excessive sadness hurts the lungs." The doctor explained: "There must be something worrying and depressed that can't be solved. I will enlighten him more on weekdays, and I will prescribe some prescriptions to recuperate."

The doctor went down to prescribe a prescription.Li Li tucked in the quilt for Xiao Yanjin.This man is moody, sometimes Li Li can't grasp Xiao Yanjin's emotions, but he never thought that one day he would be too sad to vomit blood and faint.

A lamp on the table is like a bean, which is clearly on and off.Xiao Yanjin's complexion was very pale, and there was no sign of waking up.

Li Li took off the prayer beads on his wrist and put them on for him.

It was raining lightly outside, and the wind and rain were precarious.Li Li got up and closed the window, and lit another charcoal fire.Fearing that Xiao Yanjin would wake up hungry, she went to the kitchen to get something to eat.

The smoke from the stove made his eyes ache, and Li Li's eye sockets were a little red.

In fact, he didn't have to do these things, he felt resentful towards Xiao Yanjin, but after all he had spoiled Xiao Yanjin for so many years, as long as this person was a little weaker, Li Li would raise his heart.Maybe it's because I'm used to it, or maybe I can't let it go.

He warmed the cooked porridge before going back to see Xiao Yanjin.Push open the door and enter, the lights are bright, but there is no one on the bed.

Xiao Yanjin was not in the room.

Li Li panicked, Xiao Yanjin was gone, and he was still sick.

Li Li immediately went to the housekeeper and called the servants in the village to find someone.

Some pattering drizzle was a bit heavy at this time, and the lanterns under the eaves were fluttering and would be blown off at any time.

Li Li searched in Zhuangzi with an umbrella, her body was very cold.He has countless bad thoughts, and he is always afraid that one of them will happen.

After a while, the steward came to report: "I have searched everywhere in Zhuangzi, but I can't find the prince, so it must be out of Zhuangzi."

Li Li clenched the paper umbrella tightly, he probably knew where Xiao Yanjin was, it was the place he least wanted to go.

At this moment, Li Li flinched and didn't want to look for him. The butler was worried about Xiao Yanjin, and became anxious: "It's raining so hard, and the prince is still sick. My son, if I can't find anyone, this old servant will report to the officials."

"I'll look for it." Li Li rushed into the pouring rain.

The butler couldn't stop him, so he called a servant to follow up, and then sent another servant to search again in the village.

The night is so thick that ink can be squeezed out, and the raindrops are as big as beans.

The road under his feet was muddy, Li Lishen walked along the road in his memory with one foot shallow and the other shallow.His wrist hurts badly, and he can't even use much strength to hold the umbrella.

The closer the distance, the more frightened Li Li felt in his heart, and his footsteps unconsciously slowed down.

It's not that he didn't want to come here once, but three kneeling and nine kowtows couldn't atone for his sin.Li Li knew that his face would be dirty even if his face was torn off, he didn't want to make the second elder angry again, and he didn't want to dirty the second elder's cycle of reincarnation.

At the end of the mountain road is the grave of parents, in a green forest.

Li Li held a lantern in his hand, illuminating the road ahead in the rainy night.As he got closer, he vaguely saw a figure in the rain.

It was Xiao Yanjin kneeling there.

Li Li paused, not daring to go any further after a distance of five feet.He couldn't tell what it was like in his heart, some rushed over to show his sharp fangs to let Xiao Yanjin leave here, and some were tired and uncomfortable all over and didn't want to move any more.

Xiao Yanjin was not as hoarse as he imagined, he knelt there, his whole back bent down, as if he was crushed alive.

When Xiao Yanjin was in a coma, she had a lot of dreams. He was just watching the lights, his father hated him, his nanny loved him, his siblings looked down on him, Li Li doted on him, and Li's father and mother begged him to let Li Li go.In the dream, in the end, these people died and left, leaving him sitting alone in the resplendent and resplendent room with no one around him.

Xiao Yanjin was lonely and confused, he couldn't see the future.He left that position to look for Li Li, but Li Li pushed him away, and Li's father and mother said they would not forgive him.

Xiao Yanjin woke up from fright, got up and stumbled here.

"Give him to me." Xiao Yanjin looked at the tombstone through the rain curtain, her heart was hit hard with a hammer, dripping with blood.

He has never believed in ghosts and gods, and he is not afraid of retribution.But after so many years, when Xiao Yanjin also believed, it was a day of fear.

In fact, Li Li should kneel here more than Xiao Yanjin.Xiao Yanjin didn't dare to let Li Li come over again. Li Li's mistake also meant that all past affection was erased.Then Li Li regretted it and didn't want to be with him anymore.

"It's me who is selfish, don't blame him, don't be angry with him. Lili can't bow his head and admit his mistake, he said it wasn't my fault, but everything happened because of me."

"It was me who was wrong and failed him."

"I'm still selfish, life and death reincarnate, Lili must also stay by my side."

Xiao Yanjin's voice has always been very low, but it is sonorous and forceful. It is not heart-piercing and hoarse, but every word is crying blood.

He didn't kill Li Li's parents, but I didn't kill Boren, Boren died because of me.

Xiao Yanjin still understood: "If you hate, then hate me. In a dream at night, it is enough to tell him not to get angry with him again."

Li Li's wrist was convulsed and twitched, and the umbrella in his hand seemed to be so heavy that he couldn't hold it steadily.Li Li's throat was so dry that she was suffocating in her heart.For so many years, all he wanted was one sentence, dreaming back at midnight, the second elder told him 'I won't be angry with you again'.

I don't know when the rain will be light, and I don't know when it will stop.

Xiao Yanjin knelt all night, Li Li stood all night.In the cool night, he watched Xiao Yanjin knelt there and begged his parents not to blame him over and over again, those words lingered in his heart over and over again, lingering.

When dawn broke in the sky, Xiao Yanjin stood up, her body was drenched.He turned around and saw Li Li five feet away, with a paper umbrella at his feet.

"Li Li." Xiao Yanjin didn't care about herself, and hurried over to wipe off the dew on Li Li's body, feeling so distressed.

"I'm here to find you." Li Li thought of many things.

Xiao Yanjin was afraid that he would freeze: "Why don't you make my hands feel cold."

"I stood all night." Li Li said: "Xiao Yanjin, we have probably been like this in our whole life. I will not let myself go, and I will not let you go."

His stomach has always been small, and the hurdle in his heart is very difficult to get over, and it may take a lifetime to fulfill and forgive.

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