Li Li

In the blink of an eye, time flies, time flies.

Li Jiu is no longer the kid who followed Li Li to watch people's faces in the Qinghuan Pavilion. He can also hold great power and give advice to the country;

He still can't let go of Xiao Yanjin, even if he understands the truth now, he still can't forgive this person for Li Li.

Xiao Yanjin wanted to give Li Jiu the throne back then, and asked him to change his surname to suit him. Li Jiu always disagreed, and even now, he still despises Xiao Yanjin's position.

Li Jiu has his own mansion, and he will move there after repairing it.It's just that he has one thing in mind all the time, and he can't let it go.

Li Li would visit him in Nuan Pavilion every night and ask him about his daily affairs.Li Jiu explained everything in detail, then paused at the end, and said: "Li Li, I will move to a new residence tomorrow."

"Yeah." Li Li was a little bit reluctant.

Li Jiu said it two months ago, but the day came in a blink of an eye.

Li Li remembered that Li Jiu took him to see the mansion, there was a mansion two streets away, the gate was grand, and there were two stone lions squatting at the door.

The sallow and emaciated child who was with him in the Qinghuan Pavilion back then can now be alone.

Li Jiu looked at Li Li through the candlelight: "I want to take you out of here."

"I won't go." Li Li's almond eyes were dead silent, without much ups and downs and brilliance, but her tone was firm.

Li Jiu is worried about Li Li, he has not trusted Xiao Yanjin for so many years, now that he is leaving here, how can he trust Li Li to Xiao Yanjin.

"Lili, I have this ability, we don't need to be afraid of him."

Li Li shook her head: "Ajiu, you still don't understand."

In front of Li Li, Li Jiu's temper is restrained, which is very similar to Xiao Yanjin.When Li Li said this, no matter how dissatisfied he was with Xiao Yanjin, he would never say it in front of Li Li, just like when he was against Xiao Yanjin in court, he returned to the mansion calmly and peacefully.

In the city of scheming, he didn't learn [-]% from Xiao Yanjin, but he also learned [-]% to [-]%.

But Li Jiu didn't understand, the older he got, the more he couldn't understand Li Li's thoughts.He opened his mouth to persuade, and he also knew Li Li's temperament, he was a person who went all the way to the dark, it was difficult to make him turn back.

Li Jiu loves Li Li dearly. Over the years, Li Li sleeps better at night and will no longer have nightmares.But my wrist still hurts when the wind and rain are blowing, and I can't hold things steadily.

"I don't understand, but I want to ask, Lili, did you forgive him?"

Li Li reached out and stroked Li Jiu's head, as usual.

The night was so dark that Li Jiu couldn't sleep for half the night, so he got up.

The trees in the yard sprouted and grew very well, and stone tables and chairs were placed under the trees.When he was young, Li Jiu always studied here, with Li Li by his side.But Li Li is very stupid, always can't understand what he is reading, and occasionally ask a sentence or two, what does it mean?Also do not understand.

In fact, it was Xiao Yanjin who kept spot-checking his homework, and Xiao Yanjin taught all his knowledge.

Li Jiu was walking towards the stone table, when he kicked something suddenly, the thing rolled forward.Li Jiu went to pick it up, it was a Cuju he played with when he was a child, but it disappeared later, and someone found it again.

At this time there was a movement behind him, Li Jiu turned around and looked at Xiao Yanjin.

This man has not been worn down by the years, he is full of vigor, his eyes are extremely sharp, just like what he saw at the beginning.

Li Jiu used to watch Xiao Yanjin from behind the door in the Qinghuan Hall, but now he can share the same status with him and sit on an equal footing.

Xiao Yanjin glanced over the Cuju in his hand, and said first, "I'm leaving the palace tomorrow."

Li Jiu frowned: "You are happy, Lili doesn't want to leave with me."

Xiao Yanjin is not as aggressive as Li Jiu: "You are leaving tomorrow, and Lili is worried about you tonight. He just fell asleep when I came over. After you leave, he will always miss you in his heart."

Li Li was silent when he went back, and Xiao Yanjin talked to him for half a night to let him relax, Fang Cheng was always by Li Jiu's side.

He was afraid that Li Li would be worried in the future, so he came to talk to Li Jiu.

Li Jiu was not willing to go alone: ​​"I don't want to keep him."

Xiao Yanjin said: "Lili wants to be with me for the rest of my life." After a pause, he added: "It's just that you hated me for ten years."

Xiao Yanjin understood that Li Jiu hated him from the very beginning, no matter if he was doing right in the court or fighting for Li Li in the house.

One day ten years ago, Li Jiu started to hate him.

"I've thought about this for so many years, only the matter of Li Li can make you hate me so much" This is a knot in Xiao Yanjin's heart, but he cares about anything about Li Li.

Tonight, the moon is bright and the stars are thin, Li Jiu looked at Xiao Yanjin who was standing under the moon, and turned the Cuju in his hands.He was smart and smart since he was a child, and he knew that everything Xiao Yanjin did was to please Li Li, but it was always difficult for him to deeply understand and let go of him.

Ji Xiang always said that he could see the shadows of Li Li and Xiao Yanjin from him.In fact, sometimes Li Jiu has to admit that those who are close to Zhu are red and those who are close to ink are black, whether they love Li Li or hate Xiao Yanjin, they are extremely influenced by the two.

Li Jiu asked without answering, "How are you treating Li Li?"

"Ten years of staying together can't make up for 15 years of indifference, and it has never been better."

"Yes!" But Lili's heart was soft.

Li Li once said to him, "One day you will understand that there is always someone in your heart that trumps everything." At that time, Li Li said a lot, but he didn't understand.For so many years, Li Jiu was also at a loss as to whether Li Li loves Xiao Yanjin or not. In fact, it takes too many waves to precipitate all of a person's feelings, and it can't stir up too many ripples and sparks, but it exists , enough unforgettable.

Ten years of staying together can't offset 15 years of indifference.In fact, Li Li knew it all, that's why when he asked 'but I forgive him', he rubbed his head and said: "It will probably take a lifetime."

Where does it take a lifetime, it's just that some feelings don't know how to export it!

But Li Jiu replied to Xiao Yanjin: "Then you spend your whole life."

He would not tell Xiao Yanjin why he hated him, nor would he say that Li Li was still thinking about this person at a certain moment.He wanted this to become an inextricable knot in Xiao Yanjin's heart, and he was thinking about it every day. He would never know about one thing that happened to Li Li, one thing that was enough to make a person remember him for many years.

Or maybe one day in the future, Li Jiu will show mercy and tell him.

When Xiao Yanjin reached the master bedroom, her footsteps were lightened, Li Li slept lightly, and he dared not move too hard.But when the quilt was lifted, Li Li still woke up and shrank back into the bed.

Xiao Yanjin went over and hugged him into her arms: "Woke you up?"

Li Li curled up in his arms and let out a muffled 'hmm'.

Xiao Yanjin put her arms around his waist and patted Li Li's back lightly: "Li Li."

"Um"

"I love you."

Lili lowered her eyes, but did not make a sound.

In a small space, only two people breathe evenly.Xiao Yanjin waited for a while, then looked down, Li Li fell asleep again at some point.But he still couldn't wait for the three words he wanted.

The biggest punishment for a person is that he won't say the three words you expect in this life.But among the thousands of vows in this world, only companionship is the longest confession of love.

And forgive—maybe one day when he leaves Li Li one step ahead, or maybe when they are old and Li Li is dying, he may say the word 'forgive' to him at that time.