Paranoid boyfriend doesn't want to heal

Xin Tang read a few words about the manifestations of the symptoms countless times, and then searched the Internet for information about schizophrenic personality disorder, trying to find a point to refute, but unexpectedly, the more she searched, the more frightened she became.

Schizoid personality disorder can be simply summarized as extreme indifference, but some patients are good at disguising, they look gentle and considerate, but in fact these are not from their emotional activities, but just to appear gregarious and disguised.

As for sexual | activities, patients can produce physiological reactions, but they cannot get pleasure from them. The biggest difference between them and ordinary people is that even if they engage in sexual | activities, they will show a calmness far beyond ordinary people.

Xin Tang thought of that high school video, and his heart turned cold.

Ying Huan in the video is really too calm, playing with him completely unilaterally, without any signs of losing control.

There is also the photo at the end of the corridor on the second floor. Xin Tang can clearly recall the details in that photo. Even though Ying Huan was doing that kind of thing for him, there was still no emotion in his eyes, but he raised his eyes to pay attention. His every move.

——Obviously in the lower position, obviously trying to curry favor with Xin Tang, but actually still in the position of the controller.

Even if you don't talk about the distance, but about the nearness, Ying Huan woke up twice that night, as if nothing happened, and waited for it to disappear naturally.

Can a normal person really be so calm?

Apart from the fact that he couldn't get pleasure from it, Xin Tang couldn't find any excuse to justify Ying Huan's indifference.

Thinking of the fact that his eyes were red from holding back that morning, and that the people around him might just calmly pretend to be enjoying the pleasure, Xin Tang felt goosebumps all over his body.

Xin Tang anxiously searched whether it was possible for schizoid personality disorder to have feelings.

Most of the answers are: impossible.

Don't believe any emotion they show.

But there are also very few answers that: everything has exceptions.

From a medical point of view, schizoid personality disorder is just indifference, not completely emotionless. Under certain special circumstances, such as early intervention in the disease, it is possible to have real feelings for other objects.

Xin Tang read this answer several times as if grasping for a life-saving straw. According to Ying Huan, they have known each other since they were very young, so he must have been by Ying Huan's side in the early stages of Ying Huan's illness.

So, is it possible he could be that special case?

No matter what, he must find a way to verify it.

Xin Tang read the relevant information over and over again, and found that there is only one situation that cannot be completely imitated by the schizophrenic personality disorder patients who are good at disguising—the loss of control during physiological release.

They are indifferent, extremely calm, unable to obtain pleasure, and can perfectly control time, which is exactly contrary to human relations. As long as you observe carefully, you can find the subtle difference between the two. (Note 1)

It was already four o'clock when Xin Tang put everything back in place. If he wanted to get an answer tonight, he had to find a way to verify it within an hour.

He sat in the living room with a blank mind for a while, glanced at the TV cabinet inadvertently, and finally made up his mind.

If he doesn't get an answer tonight, Ying Huan will definitely find out that something is wrong.

He had to find the answer before Ying Huan found out.

Xin Tang randomly picked out a disc from the CD under the TV cabinet and read it, intending to learn some experience. Unexpectedly, his luck was astonishingly "good", and the CD he picked up turned out to be a video in a car.

Subconsciously, he wanted to turn off the video, but he endured the emergency and secretly cheered himself up. He wanted to get past the excessive video so that he could test whether Ying Huan would lose control.

In the next half an hour, Xin Tang's worldview went through countless cycles of fragmentation and reconstruction. Strictly speaking, Xin Tang, who is still a beginner, could hardly digest such an intense plot.

He almost got goosebumps while writing down Ying Huan's orientation on the draft paper:

"No patience"

"has a tendency to s"

"Somewhat perverted."

Shocked, Xin Tang absent-mindedly cleaned up the living room, then looked up, it was more than ten minutes past five o'clock, and Ying Huan was about to come back.

He paced back and forth at the door, muttering to himself over and over again: "Try? Or not?"

Don't try it, I really feel uneasy.

If you want to try it...

Xin Tang touched his neck, and couldn't help showing a frightened expression on his face.

No!

Xin Tang plopped and sat back on the sofa, feeling a little heat in his back, which made him restless.

After a while, he stood up anxiously again.

No, when he thought that Ying Huan and him were just pretending to fit in with the group, he couldn't help but feel chills.

And even if he refrained from trying it today, Ying Huan is so smart, he must be able to see something wrong with him at a glance, and then Ying Huan will force him to ask the answer. With mental preparation, he will try whatever he wants in the future no more.

Furthermore, Xin Tang coughed twice, and found that there was no discomfort in his throat, and his voice was equally clear and powerful, which meant that the damage was not as great as he imagined. (Note 2)

Sure enough, you still have to try!

It's too late to change, and if you think about it, you will probably regret it, so Xin Tang rushed into the garage in one go.

It was terribly cold in the garage, but fortunately Ying Huan's car drove in after a while.

Xin Tang was waiting, Ying Huan's car stopped, and just pushed the door open, before he could stretch out his legs, he pushed Ying Huan back to the seat, squeezed into the gap between the seat and the steering wheel, and closed the door.

The car has been turned off, the lights in the car are not on, and the garage itself is not very bright, so the space inside the car looks extraordinarily dark and cramped.

Xin Tang barely saw Ying Huan tearing off his tie, but didn't see it. Ying Huan licked his lips, showing such a terrifying look, like a wild beast seeing its prey.

He took an academically rigorous attitude, recalling the steps in the video, step by step.

He originally thought it would be difficult, but at that moment, he suddenly felt that it was nothing more than that, all he could think of was Ying Huan's beautiful face that dazzled him.

All the pictures about Ying Huan were intricately intertwined in his mind, squeezing inward like a vortex, trying to break his skull, destroy his sanity, and occupy his everything.

bang——

The nearly collapsed brain suddenly exploded, like fireworks in the dark night, igniting Xin Tang's blank eyes.

One second before he lost consciousness, he saw Ying Huan's scarlet eyes, and his sanity was stripped away, leaving only the original wildness.

His heart suddenly settled down, and he no longer felt any doubts.

There are exceptions to everything, and everyone wants to be an exception.

In particular, Ying Huan was born with a good skin, and would look on coldly at everyone, who wouldn't want to be an exception to him?Since a long time ago, I don't know how many men and women have tried to ignite the cold alienation in his eyes.

But in the end only Xin Tang succeeded, monopolizing Ying Huan's little remaining tenderness and love.

The young Xin Tang once deliberately made an excuse to feed the cat to encounter Ying Huan, and squatted behind the wall early; he also endured shame, dressed in women's clothing, and completely opened himself to Ying Huan.

When Ying Huan carried her to the bathroom to wash, Xin Tang's consciousness gradually came back, and he half-consciously thought, is this how he moved Ying Huan?