Paranoid boyfriend doesn't want to heal

Xin Tang should feel angry. He was deceived, imprisoned, and forced to do things he didn't like, but in fact, from the moment he opened the iron box, he always felt fear, confusion, and a kind of Powerless despair.

Before, even Xin Tang himself couldn't explain why, but last night he dreamed about something from the past, and he seemed to understand something.

That dream started three days ago. On the day the first photo was hung on the wall, Ying Huan picked out the second photo and gave it to Xin Tang.

In that photo, there was only a back view of Xin Tang, and the background of the picture was the villa where he is now imprisoned. At that time, Xin Tang was far less refined than he is now, wearing a cheap T-shirt and trousers, carrying an old suitcase, standing in the tall In front of the iron gate, there was a sense of incompatibility and cramping all over his body.

When handing the photo to Xin Tang, Ying Huan gave him some hints:

"Think about why you moved here."

Perhaps because the picture has no directivity, Xin Tang has been able to only see a very vague picture of him slowly approaching the iron gate.

until last night.

Last night Ying Huan went crazy again, forcing him to put on a collar and kneel on the ground in humiliation. If he couldn't follow Ying Huan's instructions well, cold whips would suddenly fall on him everywhere without warning.

Xin Tang only felt humiliated, and what made him even more embarrassed was that his body would be excited in this situation, and the sense of splitting his body against his soul made him feel so sick that he wanted to vomit.

He didn't remember how long the training/teaching lasted, he only remembered deeply that the moment Ying Huan entered his body, his first reaction was to be relieved.

After that, he fell into a sinking dream.

At the beginning of the dream, he and Ying Hao were sitting on a bench in the park, but it was another more quiet and elegant park, and he was holding a cup of cold fruit tea in his hand.

The fruit tea was obviously bought by Ying Huan, because for Xin Tang, who has undergone great changes in his family, the drinks in the milk tea shop have become an expensive luxury. When he was shopping in the supermarket, he didn’t even dare to glance at the imported snacks those exquisite snacks.

Ying Hao looked down at Xin Tang's lips, which were soft and still stained with grape juice. It must feel good to kiss them.

"Is it delicious?" He asked, his voice a little astringent: "I remember you used to like grape-flavored fruit tea, because the cool taste can best relieve the heat, just now grapes are in season, and it is difficult to buy later arrive."

Xin Tang nodded, and said seriously: "It's delicious."

Neither sweet nor light, with the unique fragrance of grapes, it seems to bring him back to his carefree youth. At that time, his daily cup of grape fruit tea was already regarded as the level of the little rich man in the class.

"Can I taste it?"

Xin Tang froze for a moment, then realized that Ying Huan only bought him a cup, and quickly passed the cup over, "Of course."

The expression between Ying Huan's eyebrows and eyes was faint, so when he leaned over, Xin Tang didn't feel that there was anything wrong.

Unexpectedly, Ying Huan bypassed the straw directly, tilted her head and kissed his lips, and gently swept the tip of her tongue away the juice from his lips and even the crevice of his lips.

"Hmm... just as I imagined." Ying Huan tilted his head and commented indifferently, as if he really just took a sip of juice.

But Xin Tang was not so calm anymore, he froze in place, his face was so red that he could bleed, "You, why are you..."

"So nervous? Haven't I kissed anyone since then?"

"No, no."

"Me neither." Ying Huan pursed her lips, as if she was in a good mood, "You are my boyfriend, so I won't kiss others."

"But we've already..."

"Tangtang, as I said last time, neither of us mentioned breaking up, so we are still a couple now. Right?"

"But I don't think you need to do this now..."

Xin Tang's idea is very simple, now he and Ying Huan can be said to be very different, what kind of person does Ying Huan want?

"No, Tangtang, it is necessary. If there is anyone beside me, it will only be you."

"I don't understand."

Ying Huan didn't explain, but suddenly said something irrelevant: "I'm sick, Tangtang."

"What's wrong?" Xin Tang suddenly became nervous, and didn't dare to touch Ying Huan, so he could only look at him anxiously, "Is it serious? What did the doctor say?"

Ying Hao took Xin Tang's hand and placed it on his chest, "Schizotypal personality disorder has both genetic and environmental causes." After a pause, he continued, "I was diagnosed before the college entrance examination. , almost failed to take the exam."

Every time he said a word, Xin Tang's face turned pale, and when the words finally fell, Xin Tang was almost crying.

Xin Tang's voice trembled a little, "The environment...is it because of me?"

Ying Huan narrowed her eyes and smiled: "Yes, so, Tangtang, you have to go back with me to redeem your sins."

Then the screen changed——

In the narrow and cramped house, two young men with completely different temperaments sat on the old sofa.

Wearing a loose T-shirt with a wide neckline, his body was so thin that he could fall down when the wind blows. His slender eyebrows and eyes were slightly raised, carrying a charming wind and dust atmosphere.

And the other one, wearing an expensive suit that is incompatible with the dilapidated environment, also has slender eyebrows, but the sharp and cold temperament he exudes will only make people dare not look closely and cannot be profane.

Obviously, these two people are people from two different worlds, but when they sit together, they form an aura of rivalry that cannot be ignored.

At this moment, the young Xin Tang came out of the kitchen with two glasses of water. Obviously this was his home, but he seemed more cramped than those two.

"I didn't expect you to come here suddenly today. What can I do for you?"

Xin Tang handed the two glasses of water to the two people, and gave them the only sofa to sit on. He could only move a small stool to sit on, which was inexplicably shorter than the two of them.

A thin young man——Tang Jiuri picked up the water glass, swallowed two sips of warm water, and when he raised his lips, he revealed a small dimple on his left cheek, looking very cute:

"I have nothing to do, bro. I just want to come and see you. Isn't I always like this? But you, a rich friend, don't seem to be from the same world as us. Why did you come here?"

Tang Jiuri's unintentional two words were killing people without blood. Xin Tang's face suddenly turned pale. He and Ying Huan were not from the same world, anyone could tell.

Ying Huan also picked up the water and took a sip, and said, "It'll be there soon, I'm here to pick you up today, come with me, you're not from here either."

One word is equivalent to belittling Tang Jiuri alone.

Tang Jiuri squeezed the cup tightly, and before Xin Tang could speak, he put on a puzzled look and asked, "So you're here to find a little lover. My brother doesn't do this. If there is a need for this, I will I can introduce a few to you."

Inexplicably, Xin Tang was connoted again, but after thinking about it, Tang Jiuri was right. Doesn't his relationship with Ying Huan look like a bondage?

Naturally, Ying Huan would not be irritated by such a trick, and responded quietly: "Don't belittle your brother like this, Tangtang and I are in a relationship, and I'm here to pick up my boyfriend home, not to find a lover."

After that, he glanced at Tang Jiuri, "Looking for a lover, I think it's dirty."

This is not like talking about finding a lover dirty, but talking about Tang Jiuri dirty.

Xin Tang looked at Tang Jiuri nervously. He knew what Tang Jiuri did and was afraid that he would be angry.

Tang Jiuri's smile did froze a bit. He looked at Xin Tang aggrievedly, and murmured in a low voice as if complaining: "A man's mouth is a deceiving ghost. He said he was a couple, and he tricked people into his own territory. Isn't that true? a lover."

But that volume is enough for everyone in this room to hear clearly.

Ying Huan raised the corners of her lips, "It's not a lie, it's because Tangtang shouldn't live here any longer. He feels embarrassed seeing you, and I don't feel at ease either."

Xin Tang, who was still out of state, suddenly raised his head when he heard this, stared at Ying Huan, and wanted him to stop talking.

But Ying Huan didn't care so much, and said to Tang Jiuri word by word: "Tangtang saw you masturbating by calling his name, and I don't want to live here anymore, understand?"

Xin Tang: "..."

If possible, he would like to fly away from the earth now. He really didn't expect that Ying Huan could say such a thing lightly.

Tang Jiuri's eyes became dark and vicious in an instant, and he could barely conceal his emotions by staring down at the water in his hand, and continued to ask Xin Tang in a pitiful tone: "Brother, is it really what he said? You It’s because you don’t want to see mine that you want to leave.”

"Otherwise?" Ying Huan said in an extremely gentle tone, stabbing Tang Jiuri's heart with a knife.

Tang Jiuri's nose was slightly red, and he was about to cry, "Brother, don't go, I did something wrong, I should be the one who should go, don't go just for me..."

He left half of what he said, giving people unlimited room for reverie, as if he had decided that Xin Tang was going to sell|sell himself as a lover.

Xin Tang was extremely embarrassed. He also ran into Tang Jiuri by accident, so he was a little uneasy after returning. He didn't expect Ying Huan to call. Just by hearing his voice, he knew that something must have happened.

There was no other way, Xin Tang could only tell Ying Huan the matter,

In fact, this has nothing to do with the fact that he wants to move, the move is purely because of the conversation with Ying Huan before...

He never expected that Ying Huan would tell the story lightly, and it was still used to deceive Tang Jiuri.

Ying Huan leaned back, leaned on the sofa, and said with a sneer, "I knew you would come out to disrupt the situation, and kept pretending that I didn't understand that Tangtang and I were lovers. Apart from that, you have no other means." ?"

It was probably the first time Tang Jiuri encountered someone who played cards out of routine. When he was surprised, he almost forgot that he was still crying sadly.

Xin Tang, who had been secretly paying attention to Tang Jiuri's reaction because of embarrassment, naturally saw such an obvious action.

Before Tang Jiuri could say anything else, Ying Huan stood up and put the card he had prepared earlier into Xin Tang's hand, "This is my salary card, and the company's dividends will be credited to this card. The password is An The anniversary of Xiaofei's death, come with me Tangtang."

"I love you, Tangtang, I love you."

Xin Tang was a little dazed, and his eyes turned red involuntarily.

Ying Huan handed over all the money to him for safekeeping, not to ask him to go back to atone for his sins, but to find an excuse to take him out of here.

"Okay, let's go."

Xin Tang's tone was firmer than ever, and Tang Jiuri was so angry that he almost crushed the cup in his hand.

The scene after that was very familiar to Xin Tang. He slowly walked into the cage with high iron gates, unaware that Ying Huan took such a photo behind him and saved it.

That photo was placed on the bedside table so that Xin Tang could look at it and think about it anytime.

Xin Tang sat up slowly, looking at the photo in a daze, unknowingly, tears splattered on the photo, more and more, making the already unclear back even more blurred.

It was he who made a mistake, and he was the one who was sorry for Ying Huan.

He came to atone for his sins, and he had to bear part of the reason for Ying Huan's illness, so he could be afraid and despair, but he knew subconsciously that he was the only one who had no right to be angry with Ying Huan.

Thinking back to Ying Huan's words now, he can basically understand the meaning:

"You broke your promise, I just corrected your mistake" - the promise refers to the atonement he promised, and it may even be that he told Ying Huan that he would heal him, and the mistake may refer to the fact that he wanted to to leave.

The chain reaction caused by this behavior is that Xin Tang was imprisoned, and Ying Huan chose to stop the drug.

Xin Tang beat his head, trying to force himself to think about why he broke the contract, and what he did to make Ying Huan sick, but he just couldn't remember, the sporadic images flashing through his mind were not enough for him to find any key information, instead It made his head ache like it was about to burst.

what to do?what to do?What should he do?

He wants to escape from all this, but does he have the qualifications?

Is he wrong, is he doing wrong?

How did he and Ying Huan meet?What did he do that would have something to do with Ying Huan's illness?

He couldn't remember... he couldn't remember at all!

Xin Tang collapsed and swept all the things at hand to the ground, covering his face and crying in despair.

Before today, he thought that everything was Ying Huan's fault, and while dealing with Ying Huan in humiliation, he racked his brains to think of any way to get out of here.

But what about the future?What should he do?Can he only passively bear Ying Huan's madness like this?

no, no,

Xin Tang suddenly thought of something, bit his finger, he can't just wait, he can't run away, he wants Ying Huan to get better.

As long as Ying Huan recovers from her illness, everything will be fine.

He remembered that these pills were almost all accumulated before he lost his memory—there was a high probability that Ying Huan stopped taking the pills when he was imprisoned last time. If it was the same this time, it would prove that all of this was because of Joy is sick.

As if grabbing some life-saving straw, Xin Tang stumbled to the kitchen downstairs and found the iron box.

Ying Huan took the photo album inside, but all the pills were taken back.

I don't know if it was influenced by his subconscious mind, but Xin Tang always felt that there were more pills.

Xin Tang poured the pills on the cooking table and counted them twice. There are 1155 pills in total. If the number continues to increase tomorrow, it means that Ying Huan really stopped taking the pills again.

"Sir, what's the matter with you?"

Aunt Huang's voice suddenly appeared, pulling Xin Tang back from her thoughts.

The Spring Festival holiday is over, today is Ying Huan's first day back to work, and of course it is also the first time Aunt Huang has come here.

After spending a year at home, Aunt Huang did not look relaxed at all, especially when she saw Xin Tang's appearance, her unattractive face instantly turned as pale as paper.

She had known for a long time that this day would come sooner or later... Sooner or later, Xin Tang's injuries had already explained everything.

——Xin Tang ran in a hurry, wearing only a set of dark green house clothes, no shoes or socks at all, the low temperature of winter turned his skin into a frightening bluish white.

The most frightening thing is that on his exposed skin - neck, wrists, and even ankles, there are scars of varying degrees, especially at the Adam's apple, where there is a very deep tooth mark, claws and claws, like a mark of an evil spirit. Ownership of game.

A lot of chaotic images suddenly flashed in her mind, some of Xin Tang was angry and smashed things, some of Xin Tang broke down and cursed, some of Xin Tang hugged his knees and cried bitterly, and finally, all of them were fixed as Xin Tang sitting by the window , with empty eyes, no sadness or joy.

Contrary to Aunt Huang's panic, Xin Tang suddenly calmed down. He put the pills on the cooking table into the iron box like a normal person, and said hoarsely: "It's nothing, come down and find something."

"How did you get hurt? Did something happen with Mister?"

"Something happened, but it's okay."

Xin Tang didn't lie, after experiencing the initial confusion, he set up a new goal, which made him feel less collapsed.

Since he came to make amends, he will make amends. He wants Ying Huan to get better, and then they can calmly discuss their future.

But his appearance will only make Aunt Huang think of those terrible images even more. She rubbed the hem of her clothes anxiously, wrinkling all the thick winter clothes, "Why is it okay? Your neck... …you were seriously injured…”

Seeing that Aunt Huang's mental state was not very good, even though Xin Tang didn't like her very much, she still tried her best to calm her down and comforted her: "It's really okay, I don't feel any pain."

【I don't feel pain... I don't seem to feel pain anymore, Aunt Huang...】

Two voices intertwined in Aunt Huang's mind, and Aunt Huang shook her head in confusion, "No, don't be angry, how can it not hurt? If you feel uncomfortable, you can cry out, don't hold it in your heart... Aunt Huang knows You feel uncomfortable, but you can't make fun of your body..."

Xin Tang had to raise his voice, trying to wake up Aunt Huang: "Aunt Huang, what are you talking about? I'm not kidding about my body, I really don't hurt."

Aunt Huang suddenly woke up from the hallucination.

She looked at Xin Tang in astonishment, and involuntarily took two steps back. Immediately, she covered her face in a bit of a breakdown, and explained incoherently: "I'm sorry, Mr. Xiao, I'm sorry... something happened to my family recently. Not in a good spirit."

"What happened? Do you want to take a break?"

"You don't need to rest, this work is not tiring... You, by the way, you should put on your shoes first, the ground is cold."

Xin Tang nodded and went outside to put on his shoes.

He didn't care, and he didn't look back at everything, and he didn't know how Aunt Huang bit her wrist after he left, biting her wrist until it was dripping with blood, and barely suppressed her crying.

Aunt Huang is not good at lying, so she often looks awkward when facing Xin Tang, but some of her words are true. For example, she has been here for several years and has witnessed all the stories of Xin Tang and Ying Huan.

She knew that Xin Tang was originally a young man who had gone through many things but still maintained a pure heart towards the world, and also knew how Xin Tang became more and more silent later on. She couldn't bear the condemnation of her conscience and helped Xin Tang escape go out.

After a period of time, Xin Tang didn't show up again, and Ying Huan didn't pursue her responsibility, she thought it should be the end.

But one day, Ying Huan told her that Xin Tang was coming back, but he had lost his memory, so don't mention the past. He made up a warm past and asked her to remember it.

Aunt Huang originally wanted to refuse the job, she couldn't bear to be Ying Huan's accomplice, but Ying Huan refused her, and her cold eyes made her feel like she was going to hell: "This is the punishment you should accept, or, would you like to be a mother's debtor?" pay."

She finally understood that Ying Huan knew everything she did.

From now on, she will spend every day under the condemnation of her conscience, and every minute and every second facing Xin Tang is a painful punishment for her.

Aunt Huang's spirit was getting worse and worse. Finally, today, when she saw the injuries on Xin Tang's body and realized that everything was about to repeat the same mistakes, she collapsed instantly.

Ying Huan's crimes are serious, and so is she.

Aunt Huang came quietly, and she also left quietly. After the meal was ready, she opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something, but she didn't say anything. With her back bent and her head lowered, she walked into the cold In the winter wind.

Xin Tang just ate something for lunch, and then nestled on the sofa looking for news about the cure for schizoid personality disorder.

One is that he must need this news if he wants Ying Huan to get better.

Second, Xin Tang guessed that he must have searched like this last time, maybe when he saw the familiar words, he could think of something.

First of all, the result of the search was a bit unexpected for Xin Tang, but after thinking about it carefully, I felt that if this was the case, then everything made sense—personality disorder is incurable, but it can be improved.

Personality disorder is a long-term psychological deviation, which requires not only drug treatment, but also family, doctor and other aspects to control the patient's behavior, so as to adjust the patient's emotions and slowly adjust his psychological deviation. (Note)

This will be a slow and painful process, and if the treatment is discontinued, the patient may experience even greater psychological deviations.

The familiar words made Xin Tang feel a little dazed. He rubbed his sore forehead, and after a moment of distraction, he saw the tablet screen in his hand shrink suddenly, turning into a palm-sized mobile phone——

"Can't be cured...but can get better..."

He repeated key words and copied and pasted information he found useful into a notepad.

There is a lot of information, and in the blink of an eye, there are several pages of information in the notepad.

He blanked out a few lines and typed at the end:

Dos and Don'ts: Fill in the patient's lack of security, build an intimate relationship of trust, and everything will be fine.

Xin Tang who wrote this sentence failed, everything did not get better...