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It was originally a simple and pure beautiful love affair of teenagers, but now it stands there glaringly, but it has become a crime-like existence.

Qin Zigui knew whose handwriting it was just by looking at it.

The reason is nothing more than jealousy, resentment, and wanting Sheng Yan to lose his mentality, lose his state, and even abandon the game because of the forced breakup, family pressure, and comments from people around him before the game.

But he won't let that happen.

He failed to protect his little prince once, and made him suffer so many grievances, there will never be a second time.

Qin Zigui stepped forward, straightened Sheng Yan's hat, and said in a low voice, "Don't be afraid."

Sheng Yan's eyes were a little red: "My mother wants me to go abroad."

Qin Zigui gently wiped the end of his eyes with his fingertips: "She loves you very much, don't make her sad, we will be together no matter what."

Before Sheng Yan realized what Qin Zigui meant, Qin Zigui took his hand, entered the room, looked at Xu Qingrong and said calmly, "Aunt Xu, let me go abroad, Sheng Yan is about to compete , As long as he gets the top three, he can go to the University of Zhongshan, he really wants to go, and he shouldn't give up at this time."

Sheng Yan felt that what he was talking about was all nonsense, just as he was about to refute, Qin Zigui held his hand harder and said, "But we won't break up."

Both Xu Qingrong and Sheng Yan paused slightly.

Only Qin Zigui still held Sheng Yan's hand, and made a decision like a real adult: "I know that it may be a wrong thing for you to like A Yan, but I don't think so ,I like Ah Yan, and Ah Yan also likes me, so I will not break up with him. If the school wants to investigate, I can withdraw myself, and foreign schools can apply for full scholarships, and I can also take care of myself, but Ah Yan is more Delicate, and he has his own dreams, I hope he can finish the game well and do what he wants to do, so if he must go alone, I can go, but we will not break up, and I will be independent as soon as possible, come back Find Ayan."

Qin Zigui spoke so calmly and so firmly, as if he had thought about it thousands of times in his heart.

So much so that Xu Qingrong couldn't say the phrase "you may just be young and impulsive".

Only then did she truly realize that the eldest child in her memory who had been taking care of Sheng Yan had grown up, and those friendships that grew up together became more complicated and heavier with age.

She didn't think they did anything wrong, and she didn't think it was a good move for one of them to go abroad. She just didn't want Sheng Yan to be criticized, and she wasn't sure that Sheng Yan was really ready to embark on an unknown path.

So after thinking about it for a long time, she finally said: "Zigui, Aunt Xu didn't think you were wrong, but just thought that you might be too young and might misunderstand some feelings, so I think you two will be separated for a while, and then do it again when you are more mature. It would be better to make a decision. What do you think?"

It was only then that Sheng Yan discovered that besides his daily jealousy, bickering and sweetness, Qin Zigui had long thought about how to shoulder his responsibilities.

Qin Zigui knew that he loved Ms. Xu, so he told himself not to make Ms. Xu sad. Qin Zigui knew that he was squeamish, so he was ready for him to leave. Qin Zigui knew that he liked him, so he promised to come back to find him as soon as possible.

Qin Zigui knew everything, thought of it, and even thought of applying for the full scholarship, not spending a penny from his aunt's house, but he didn't think about it. He is such an excellent person, he should have his own bright future and dreams .

Sheng Yan suddenly felt extremely wronged for Qin Zigui. He didn't want Qin Zigui to leave his hometown alone, nor did he want to be separated from Qin Zigui for even a year or two, and he didn't want Qin Zigui to sacrifice his original life for him.

A convulsive cramping pain rose in his stomach, making it difficult to stand up straight.

But when Ms. Xu said those words, he still stood in front of Qin Zigui, endured the pain and said, "I don't feel good."

Xu Qingrong said helplessly: "A Yan."

Sheng Yan is very persistent: "Mom, Qin Zigui won't go abroad, and I won't go abroad, and we haven't misunderstood our relationship. I just like Qin Zigui, and I just want to be with him, for the rest of my life. Together, I don't want to be separated from him, as I said, the place where I am will be his home in the future, it is impossible for me to ignore my words, if you are afraid of being held accountable by the school, at worst we will drop out of school together."

Xu Qingrong knew how stubborn his son was when he was stubborn, and also knew that he was stubborn, so he was afraid that he could not tell whether he depended on Qin Zigui or liked him, so he would go all the way to the dark side.

Hearing what he said, I could only continue to explain patiently: "Ayan, it's not that mother has not allowed you to be together all the time, it's just that you are still young and don't understand at all...Ayan!"

However, before she finished speaking, Sheng Yan covered his stomach and bent down, his face turned pale at that moment, and there were even big drops of cold sweat oozing from his forehead.

Ms. Xu had never seen Sheng Yan like this before, she panicked and wanted to go up to help him, but Sheng Yan was already held in Qin Zigui's arms.

Sheng Yan's forehead touched his shoulder, and his whole body leaned against him. The pain was so painful that even his breathing rhythm was disordered, but he could still forcefully squeeze out a few words: "Qin Zigui, you are not allowed to go."

"Okay, I won't leave if you don't let me go, A Yan, be obedient and relax." Seeing Sheng Yan like this, Qin Zigui couldn't care about other things for a while, coaxing Sheng Yan, stroking his abdomen, While turning around, he said, "Grandma, Ah Yan may have stomach cramps again, is the brown sugar ginger tea ready?"

The old man who had been waiting in the kitchen for Xu Qingrong and the two children to finish talking, immediately ran out with brown sugar ginger tea when he heard this, and seeing Sheng Yan like this, he immediately became anxious: "Xu Qingrong, I want you to follow up with me carefully." The two children said, is that how you talk so well!"

Xu Qingrong was also very helpless: "Mom, I just said let them separate for a while..."

"Separate what separate! Why do you let them temporarily separate! Come on, Yanyan, drink some brown sugar water, and your stomach won't hurt after drinking it." Grandma looked at Sheng Yan's face that was so pale that there was no blood, and his hands were still tight. The way he clutched the corner of Qin Zigui's clothes made his heart ache.

And Sheng Yan's stomach cramps this time seemed to be more urgent and serious than before, and he didn't want Qin Zigui and grandma to worry, but after taking a sip of brown sugar ginger tea, he couldn't hold back, turned sideways, and said "wow" , Spit all on Qin Zigui.

Qin Zigui loves cleanliness too much since he was a child, and would immediately change his shirt if it got a mud spot on it, but at this moment, it's as if nothing happened, and he doesn't feel that the things Sheng Yan spit out are dirty or disgusting at all. , neither dodging nor dodging, just hugged Sheng Yan horizontally.

Then he said to Xu Qingrong: "Aunt Xu, go and drive the car and take it to the emergency department. Grandma, the medical records are in the second drawer of the bedside table. Grandpa, help me fill a hot water bottle."

After speaking, he hugged Sheng Yan and hurried out the door.

It seems that he has encountered the same situation countless times, and he has done the same thing countless times.

Xu Qingrong didn't care about other things for a while, so she just picked up her bag and hurriedly followed.

She had never seen Sheng Yan like this before, and she didn't know what to do.

When she was sent to the hospital, looking at the huge hospital hall, she had no clue at all. She could only watch Qin Zigui call up the emergency department familiarly, and told the doctor about Sheng Yan's past medical history, medication history, and allergy history. , Listed them out one by one, then coaxed Sheng Yan to hang up the water, settled down on the hospital bed, and did not forget to ask the nurse to adjust the infusion speed to Sheng Yan's most suitable speed.

Xu Qingrong could only stand by, watching all this, and truly realized that she didn't know anything about Sheng Yan.

Her son is gone, but she is still an unfamiliar and immature mother.

It took two months to go away like this, which was not uncommon in the past years. She thought that she was doing her best to love Sheng Yan, and Sheng Yan never complained about the lack of her company, so she felt that she was doing a good job.

But the truth is, the days she was absent were filled by another child Sheng Yan called Zigui's brother.

She looked at Sheng Yan on the hospital bed, like a kitten seeking a safe haven, tightly clutching the corner of Qin Zigui's clothes, and Qin Zigui let him drag him, maintaining a very tired and stiff Putting a hot water bottle on him while coaxing him in a low voice, she suddenly felt that she was really a very bad mother.

She walked out of the ward, sat on the bench, looked down at the smiles of the two teenagers in the photo, and didn't know what to do.

She is not rigid and stubborn, she is just afraid that her children will be hurt, attacked, unhappy and regretful.

Even if they are a little older, they can take responsibility for their own lives, and she doesn't have to be the bad guy.

She just thought about it, and she didn't know how long it took until Qin Zigui came out and called "Aunt Xu" in a low voice before she raised her head.

Then I found out how the child had grown so tall and had broad shoulders, making him look like an adult.

But after all, he is only in his teens, the most ridiculous time, can he really be responsible for the next few decades?

Xu Qingrong sighed softly, straightened the hem of the sweater that had been messed up by Sheng Yan for him, and the ginger juice vomited left deep marks on the clothes.

She said: "Zigui, go home and change your clothes first, your aunt is still waiting for you at home, Aunt Xu also wants to have a good chat with Ah Yan again."

Qin Zigui did not refuse: "Well, good. But Ayan is not only suffering from stomach cramps, but also has acute gastritis. He is prone to fever when he has inflammation. Remember to watch it in the middle of the night."

"Don't worry, his grandparents are here too."

Qin Zigui knew that he and Sheng Yan had to go through such a hurdle after all, he didn't want to embarrass anyone Sheng Yan cared about, and after lightly agreeing, he walked into the rainy night in Nanwu alone with an umbrella.

Xu Qingrong also stood outside the ward and thought for a long time, before finally returning to the ward, Sheng Yan was already asleep.

During the day, the young man who is always lively and loves to laugh and make trouble, when curled up quietly on the hospital bed, tightly clutching the quilt in his hands, as if he was afraid of losing something.

She touched Sheng Yan's pale cheeks and asked, "Mom, does Ah Yan always behave like this when he gets sick?"

Grandma Sheng Yan sighed: "This is not the most serious thing. It's not like you don't know what happened when Ah Sheng was born. He was a seven-month-old premature baby, and he had no father. Before he turned one year old, you started to grow up." The world is flying around, he can grow up so healthy and healthy, thanks to Xiao Zigui."

It's been a long time since they've grown up and no one has called Qin Zigui Xiao Zigui.

But at that time, Qin Zigui was actually just a child.

Grandma Sheng Yan seemed to be thinking of many past events, her eyes were a little red: "Qingrong, for some things, you may think that I dote on the two children, but when you reach my age, you will know that we don't want anything. , as long as the children can live a happy life, I know what you are worried about, worried that they are young, worried that they are just absurd, but you think I, an old woman, have not seen anything for so long?"

Xu Qingrong looked at her when she heard the words, with a look of surprise and confusion.

The old man reached out and touched the bullet necklace on Sheng Yan's chest: "Do you know that A Yan once lost this necklace?"

Xu Qingrong didn't speak.

The old man said to himself: "It was the hottest time of summer this year. Ayanpi lost it. Zigui itself can't bask in the sun, but I searched for three hours along the street to find heatstroke, and then returned I was kicked out by the old lady of the Jiang family without taking a break. You said that if it was you, and your father came to pick you up at this time, would you leave? It was me, I would definitely? But Zigui didn't, because he To accompany Ayan."

"Maybe you don't understand, you are so grown up, you have friends everywhere, you can contact everywhere, why do you have to accompany them? It's because you don't know how these two children came here when they were young."

"Yes, you are all very good to them, never lacking in food and clothing, but you were too busy at that time, Zigui had no parents, and he was dependent on others, so he couldn't say anything about his hardships. As for Ayan, he never saw each other when he was born." My father and mother are away from home all year round, but they are only so old, how can they not miss their parents.

"I often wake up at night and see that Xiao Shengyan is holding Xiao Zigui and crying there, saying that he misses his mother and father. Xiao Zigui is only a little older, and he wants to, but he can't say it, so he hugs him." Holding Ayan, trying not to cry, two children, holding each other for a whole night."

"You always say that Zigui is too used to Ah Yan, but what can he do if he is not used to it? Ah Yan was so delicate when he was a child, he was in poor health, picky eaters, and loved to get sick, and there was often no adult at home, you know What does it look like for a six-year-old to carry a five-year-old to the doctor?"

"At that time, he didn't dare to ask Qin Ru for pocket money. He secretly saved one or two yuan and bought candy to coax A Yan to take medicine. He was sleepy at an age, and he had to wake up at night to cover A Yan with a quilt. The eggs and carrots that I don’t eat are all coaxed by Zigui to eat, and it’s because of this coaxing that Ayan is coaxed into such a big place.”

"It's been like this for more than ten years. These two children came here because of each other. None of you understand, but now, you insist on separating them. Why do you separate them?"

The old man's eyes were very red, looking at the young man lying on the bed, his eyes were full of distress.

The corners of Xu Qingrong's eyes were also a little sore, she reached out to pull the quilt out of Sheng Yan's hands, so that Sheng Yan could sleep more comfortably.

However, just after touching it, Sheng Yan hugged her back like a baby, and said in a hoarse voice, "Mom, don't let brother Zigui go away, okay?"

Xu Qingrong's hands froze in mid-air.

Sheng Yan seemed to have had some kind of nightmare, he felt very uncomfortable, and seemed to be in a daze between half asleep and half awake, even his voice was a little choked: "Mom, don't let brother Zigui go."

Even Sheng Yan himself couldn't tell whether it was a dream or reality, he just felt that someone wanted him to separate from Qin Zigui, and then he saw Qin Zigui standing alone far away, where there was no sun, no roses , no cicadas chirping.

No matter how he called Qin Zigui, Qin Zigui didn't agree, but when he turned around, he found that everything he had was gone.

Without Qin Zigui, no one would hold him, pamper him, pamper him.

He is no longer a little prince with a little fox, and he can no longer play willful.

He no longer has Qin Zigui, and Qin Zigui has no family.

The repeated fear in his subconscious made him feel a throbbing pain in his heart until he curled up and couldn't stand up anymore.

He could only rely on his last instinct to hold on to the last hope he could hold, and then begged proudly, "Mom, don't let brother Zigui go away, okay?"

When the humble begging fell, Sheng Yan closed his eyes tightly, and a drop of liquid rolled from the end of his red eyes.

Xu Qingrong couldn't remember the last time she saw Sheng Yan crying, she suddenly felt so sore, she reached out to wipe away the tears from the corners of Sheng Yan's eyes.

Then, enduring the unspeakable guilt and self-blame in his heart, he stood up, walked out the door, and wanted to take out the phone to call someone, but he saw a boy in a black sweater standing under the eaves.

The young man didn't know how long he waited there, and he didn't even have time to remove the stains on his body, but when she came out, he turned his head and asked, "Aunt Xu, did Ayan find me?"

It seemed that he was afraid that when Sheng Yan needed him, he wouldn't be able to show up immediately.

It also seems that as long as you get closer, you can fulfill your promise to Sheng Yan.

Xu Qingrong thought of Qin Zigui's words to Sheng Yan, "If you don't let me, I won't leave". She thought it was perfunctory, but she didn't expect that it was Qin Zigui's oath.

Just as she thought she was young and absurd, in fact, the foreshadowing was laid overnight.

She suddenly didn't know why she had to separate them.

If the relationship between them may not be pure love, then there must be something more important than love, such as the childhood sweethearts from childhood to teenagers, they depend on each other, such as the long years they are closely related to each other, and the unique and irreplaceable, Another example is the real selves they attach to each other.

She is also just a selfish mother. If there is a person in this world, even Ai Shengyan, who is almost more than herself, why doesn't she let him stay.

It's not that she didn't love someone when she was young, and this love has never been forgotten for so many years, so she has nothing else to do, she just hopes that her child can spend a peaceful life with his lover live the rest of my life.

And the boy in front of him is the best boy.

She stretched out her hands to straighten the boy's forehead hair which was slightly soaked by the rain: "Zigui, you have worked so hard for so many years, from now on, I will take care of you."