Chasing bamboo horses with games

For a long period of time, Lu Junqi spent his days fanatical about the good life and intense self-loathing.The disease deprived him of all his ability to think, he was pushed and shoved by unknown forces, he switched repeatedly between mania and depression, and he almost won the conclusion that "may develop into schizophrenia" for himself.

But it was only a little bit close, he was one step faster than the doctor.

The complete loss of survival instinct made his mental state seem to have improved. He deceived everyone and got a chance to be alone, allowing the fishy smell to permeate unscrupulously. The excitement overshadowed the pain. After waking up again, he was smashed into pieces.

Being successfully rescued was undoubtedly a huge blow to him.There was a huge beast roaring in his body, asking why he was saved, but his frail body made it difficult for him to even open his eyes.

Life in a hospital bed isn't easy, but it's not all bad.

The continuous weakness made him fall into an unprecedented dead silence, and even the instigating voices in his ears lurked all the time, only occasionally urging him to do some dangerous things.Fortunately, he was powerless at that time, so he could only listen to it.

Barely ushering in the long-lost peace, he was finally able to listen, see, and think normally.

The colors of the world are still unsightly, but the care and exhaustion of the people around us cannot be ignored.In the end, shame became the support point of "to live", which is both a shackle and a motivation.

Adjustments again and again, countless breakdowns and endurance...the hard work paid off in the end.To this day, although he is still unable to face the pain calmly, the long-term repetition has allowed him to adapt to the life mode with pain.

Taking it for granted is the easiest way to cause negligence. He forgets everything that has become a daily routine for him. It is so unacceptable for Wen Shaoyou who suddenly appeared.

Xiaoyou was so angry, he must have been frightened.Lu Junqi was lying on the bed, touching the bandage on his left wrist, not knowing how to tell him about it.

According to the past, once there is a situation where he unconsciously injures himself during an attack, just in case, he needs to be supervised by Ms. Wu's side.

But if he told Wen Shaoyou directly, his professional storyteller, Fa Xiaozhi, might come up with some ideas. After thinking about it, it would be better to distract him for a while.

The difficulty was how to dismiss him calmly, and then Lu Junqi began to doubt life.

In the past, he thought that the most obvious feature of his recovery was that he had solved the problem of communication barriers. Seeing how smooth he is, how could it be a communication barrier?Not liking to talk to strangers is brought out of the mother's womb and cannot be counted into it.

Confidently thinking about a few opening remarks, when Wen Shaoyou returned to his room, he opened his mouth and said, "Xiaoyou, why don't you go back to your place and live for a while."

Wen Shaoyou's face instantly looked as if someone had splashed ink on it, and he was so angry that he couldn't even speak.

Lu Junqi knew at a glance that he was doing something wrong, and hurriedly explained: "Um, no, what, Xiaoyou, I didn't mean that."

"Then explain." Wen Shaoyou tried to keep himself calm.

"What I mean is, look, my place is quite small. Why don't you go back and live there for two days, wait for me to clean up all the things I can clean up, and make it more spacious, so you can live more comfortably when you come back."

"We've already talked about this issue, or do you suddenly think I'm in the way and occupy your place?"

"Ah? Have you talked about this issue? Haha." Lu Junqi laughed awkwardly, and changed his words bluntly, "Actually, it's mainly because I think it's inconvenient for you to live here and commute to work. You see, every morning In a hurry. I know you are worried about me, but I don't want you to be in such a hurry every day because of me."

Wen Shaoyou didn't like him at all, and stood there without saying a word, just looking at him so directly.

Lu Junqi's eyes wandered, and he secretly scolded himself for being worthless, why is he guilty of not doing anything bad?

"Xiaoyou, why don't you speak?"

"I wonder if you can come up with a reason I haven't heard."

"... Impossible, have you already said this?"

"Yes." Wen Shaoyou looked at Lu Junqi's shocked face that didn't look fake, he was angry and wanted to laugh, and said helplessly, "Before I get angry, tell me the truth."

"Is this still called not getting angry?"

"What are you mumbling about?"

"No." Lu Junqi said two excuses that he mentioned before, and he was a little uncertain. If the third one was still an old topic, Xiao You would really blow up his hair, so let's think again.Thinking of this, he lay down again.

Wen Shaoyou sighed in his heart, and lifted his quilt: "Get up and take a bath."

"I don't want to wash it, it's so cold, it doesn't matter if I don't wash it for a day."

"No, I've been lying down all afternoon with a cold, and I must be sweating. Go and wash."

When Lu Junqi heard this, his back straightened up in an instant: "You know why I'm still so fierce when I'm sick?"

"Okay, I see, I'll wash it for you."

Don't listen to people at all.Lu Junqi felt that he vaguely saw Faxiao's unknown ghost side, but he was weak and weak now, and he was not an opponent at all, so he had to get out of bed slowly to get clothes to take a bath.

Wen Shaoyou spread out the quilt, followed to the door of the bathroom, and muttered: "Be careful of your wrists, don't touch the water."

"Oh."

Lu Junqi's response did not reassure Wen Shaoyou at all.

"Do you want me to wash it for you?"

"No." Lu Junqi refused mercilessly.Just kidding, I let you in, how can I concentrate on thinking of excuses, no, reasons.

If you don't concentrate on taking a shower, promises pass like the wind.By the time Lu Junqi felt the tingling pain belatedly, the bandage was completely soaked.He covered his face and sighed, thinking that he might just sleep in the bathroom tonight.

Of course, Wen Shaoyou couldn't make him happy, so he started urging after waiting for half an hour when no one came out.Lu Junqi had no choice but to wipe himself clean and return to the room. He saw the medicine box on the table at a glance, and scratched his nose uncomfortably.Does this guy have clairvoyance?This can all be guessed.

After the wound was soaked in water, it looked much more ferocious. Wen Shaoyou lowered his head and applied the medicine, unable to tell what it was like in his heart.Angry that Lu Junqi could be cruel to him, but also distressed that he had to suffer this kind of suffering, and even more angry that he didn't find out what was wrong earlier.

Lu Junqi sat obediently and was manipulated by him. Looking at his expression, he finally realized that the resolution of the communication barrier was completely an illusion, and that being jealous and communicating were two different things.

"It doesn't look like it's healed yet."

"what?"

"It's nothing." Lu Junqi looked at his re-bandaged wrist and asked, "Xiao You, why are you so angry? It's just a small wound, not serious."

"I know." Wen Shaoyou paused for a moment with his packing hands, and then sped up his movements.

"Then what are you angry about?"

Wen Shaoyou didn't speak, he put the things back together, then hugged Lu Junqi and said, "I wish I was by your side."

Inexplicably, Lu Junqi felt that she understood what he said.

"Yeah, if you were here back then, you would never have allowed me to make myself like this." Lu Junqi felt that his embrace tightened, and said with a smile, "But, Xiaoyou, there is no such thing. I'm already like this. Whether I couldn't bear to die at the beginning or live like this is my own choice. Although I have nothing to be proud of, I have survived to this day anyway. In this sentence, if Isn't it too cunning to deny my efforts and alleviate my guilt?"

Wen Shaoyou's face turned red all of a sudden, he hadn't thought about it, but when Lu Junqi said this, he couldn't seem to refute it reasonably.He just frowned, held his shoulders and pushed them away a little, stared into his eyes, and said, "That's not what I meant."

Lu Junqi raised his right hand, pressed Wen Shaoyou's furrowed eyebrows, and said while rubbing, "I know, I did it on purpose. Rather than saying that you are alleviating your own guilt, it is better to say that you are taking responsibility for yourself." .I don't understand why you feel guilty. I was the one who left first, didn't I? You gave up your studies for me and did something you were not good at, and now because of me disrupting the pace of your life, I'm the one who should really be ashamed That's right. I actually know it all, you just said it lightly, and I don't want you to be so tired because of me. "

"I'm not tired." Wen Shaoyou choked up and said, "I'm not leaving either. Don't think I'll move out if you say that. Give up."

Lu Junqi was dumbfounded, he really didn't consider this when he said these things.However, which sentence poked tears in the end?

"Hey, hurry up and wipe yourself, Ben San's man, don't be ashamed."

"Shut up, don't talk, it's really annoying." Wen Shaoyou fiercely pushed Lu Junqi onto the bed, followed him up, and immediately hugged Lu Junqi like an octopus.

Lu Junqi struggled, but didn't break free, he couldn't laugh or cry: "Relax, I feel so uncomfortable."

Wen Shaoyou loosened his arms, and when Lu Junqi adjusted his posture, he hugged him again.

"What's the matter with you? Don't cry, I thought I was hypocritical enough." Lu Junqi pulled out his hand, took out paper from the paper box on the bedside, and wiped Wen Shaoyou's face indiscriminately.

Wen Shaoyou sniffed: "Who said you are hypocritical? You are obviously very powerful."

"Well, then you can be hypocritical by yourself."

"Why are you so annoying today?"

"It's annoying that you are still holding it, so let me go quickly."

"Not loose. Lu Junqi, let me tell you, you are great, do you know that?"

Lu Junqi could no longer pretend to be calm, his eyes became hot, and his nasal voice became heavier: "That's great, go to sleep."

Wen Shaoyou said reluctantly: "I'm serious. I watched you bite yourself and bleed, but you didn't respond to how you called. I was really scared. I didn't dare to think about what you were enduring before, but Can't help but think about it. Xiao Qi, Xiao Qi..."

Wen Shaoyou seemed to be looking for comfort, calling Lu Junqi's name over and over again, hugging him tightly every time he called.Lu Junqi felt his fear, and responded over and over again until he got impatient.

"Relax, are you trying to strangle me?"

Wen Shaoyou reluctantly let go, complaining in his heart that Lu Junqi loves to spoil the scenery, and also a little embarrassed about his gaffe, and wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but when he thought about it, he thought of Lu Junqi tonight Qi chased him away over and over again, and his face darkened again.

"Why have you been chasing me away tonight?"

"Why do you change your face faster than the sky?" Lu Junqi was dizzy right now, and he didn't have the energy to mess around with him anymore.Most importantly, it seems that there is no need to continue to hide.Tell him the truth about your situation, and it is better for him to be mentally prepared than to let him think about it in a daze, "I will be with Ms. Wu from tomorrow."

"Why? Because of what happened today?"

"Well. There are always a few times in a year. When I can't control myself, let Ms. Wu look at me to avoid accidents."

"But don't you dislike hospitals?"

"No way, the only place that can ensure that I don't touch any dangerous objects is by Ms. Wu's side."

Wen Shaoyou was taken aback for a moment: "Dangerous goods?"

"Don't think about it, it's just in case. It's been a long time since I rummaged through things when I was ill."

"Yeah." Wen Shaoyou was silent for a while, shook his arms, and asked, "Xiao Qi, do you want to go to the company with me tomorrow?"