As soon as I got home, I saw Zha Gong pretending to be a white lotus

I should make a statement now, so as not to cause further misunderstanding in the future, Song Qinyi, I am not playing hard to get.

In fact, every time I meet you, I have to spend a long time on mental construction. I have basically stopped taking the medicine after a year, but I picked it up again not long ago. For example, tonight, this call you made is just The thing about raising my hand, but to me, it means that the night will be another sleepless night. "

"Every time I wake up from a nightmare, the first thing I do is to look at my phone, not to study how many hours I have to sleep to replenish my sleep. It's ridiculous to say it. I just want to make sure that time has not returned. After waking up, I dare not Go back to sleep, I am afraid that you will continue to torture me in my dream."

"I don't dare to argue with you anymore, I'm afraid to quarrel with you again, every time I think of a topic that may have a dispute with you, I feel anxious that I wish I could die.

Whenever I lose control of my emotions, I always regret, what is the purpose of living so lingeringly.Why not kill yourself two years ago. "

"Every time you come, you remind me that Beibei left this world because of me, and she will never come back.

But no matter how I express my refusal, you will still appear in front of me despite my expressive words and firm attitude. "

The moonlight climbed up coldly.

Standing on the balcony full of moonlight, Shengyi raised her hand to cover her eyes, and finished what she wanted to say before her emotions were on the verge of collapse: "Lu Xiaoxi is not little Keke, and Keke never came back. Losing is losing, I don't I need you to give me more psychological comfort, in the past two years, I have heard too many words of comfort, and I am tired of it."

After speaking for a long time, there was no sound from that side.

Song Qinyi didn't interrupt what he said just now.

Kindly hung up the call.

Qin Yi remembered that before raising Little Ke Ke, Sheng Yi raised a dog that looked very similar to Little Ke Ke, named Ke Ke.

Ke Ke got lost, and Xie Yi sat downstairs in the community with a dog food bowl after school, feeling very sad every day.

He asked Aunt Fang for another pastoral dog and sent it to Shengyi to make him happy. At first, Shengyi was happy for a while, so they named the dog Little Keke.

Later, when he got close to Xiao Keke, he would always show a lonely expression.

Although he didn't say good intentions, in fact, he should be more hopeful that Ke might come back.

Until Aunt Liang was about to send Little Keke away, Sheng Yi sat in the room and cried secretly. He watched it silently for a while, and what came to his mind was not how to comfort him, but how could Sheng Yi be so strong about other things emotions.

He went to the door of the house where Little Coco was taken away, and called out Little Coco. She trusted him and easily threw herself into his arms.

The dog's wet eyes reflected his appearance, and there was a faint nostalgia in those eyes.

He always goes to see it afterwards.

Little Coco's intimacy with him has not diminished.

As he was busy with his studies, he usually had less and less time to spend with Shengyi. He usually stood under the sweet-scented osmanthus tree and waited for Shengyi to come out during his self-study at night.

In this way, he can see the kindness earlier, even if it is only a minute or two earlier.

Even during their cold war, he kindly proposed that they go to and from school separately, and he agreed, but since then, he has been following behind him since he left school.

For a while, he found that Shengyi was following him.

He pretended not to know about this, and started to go to and from school normally, repeatedly speculating on the reason for Shengyi's stalking.

On Sunday morning, he deliberately brought his kindness to the end of the deserted construction site, so that he could see the scene of the grove.

Kindly said that it is enough for them to be crazy, so the kindness restrained.

This reaction was within his expectations.

After a long cold war, they finally reconciled and treated him kindly, like a lost and found cocoa.

During this process, although he received the meticulous care of this person, he also realized that his heart was so dark that he felt disgusted and terrible.

Shengyi never asked him why he treated Little Keke like this.

The person's emotional projection of him made him feel even more filthy.

He has always suppressed the evil thoughts of his nature and dare not approach him. Even if it is just a touch, he will be afraid of tarnishing his good intentions.

At least at that time, he could still suppress it.

From the day he tore up the letter that Shengyi forged, Shengyi began to pay attention to the boundary with him.

No matter how thirsty he is, he will never share a water glass with him again, nor will he eat the same piece of tiramisu when going out to play.

He saw the kind alienation in his eyes.

He returned the same distance, lest he kindly discover his dark and strange side.

He didn't want much at first, as long as he could see him from a distance, occasionally lean over, smell his breath, and hold his hand.

After many years, he realized that he was far less noble than he thought.

When he learned that he couldn't have it, he would rather destroy it than let it go, and this was the case for Xiao Ke.

It turns out that the same is true for Shengyi.

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The conversation that night helped.

On the following Friday, Song Qinyi no longer appeared.

Leaving without saying goodbye is this guy's specialty, and he's used to it.

It's just that he hasn't been able to get rid of the habit of lingering home every Friday.

He wandered around the small garden downstairs for a while, and it took him a while to remember that the person hadn't come these few times.

So Shengyi walked briskly to the door of the house. Unexpectedly, the one waiting outside the door this time was not Song Qinyi, but Song Lan.

Song Qinyi has always treated his grandmother with respect.

Changing places, even though he and Song Qin didn't want to deal with each other, the necessary courtesy to each other's elders is still indispensable.

He walked towards Song Lan and said cautiously, "Mr. Song, hello."

Song Lan looked a little tired. Compared with the last time we met, he seemed to be much older. His eyes fell on Shengyi, and he said for a long time, "Shengyi, we haven't chatted much in the old house last time. What do you have in hand?" If you have nothing to do, how about chatting with me, an old man?"

When they walked into the tea room, the door of the box on the second floor was closed, and the noisy voices in the corridor were also blocked from the door.

Song Lan raised her hand to make tea, filled the teacup to [-]% full, and pushed it in front of Shengyi.

He said, "Xingyi, I just found out recently that your relationship with Qinyi is not going well."

"Sorry, Mr. Song, if this is what you want to talk about, I don't think we need to talk about it in detail."

His kind eyes fell on the teacup, and he didn't intend to pick it up for a long time, "Song Qinyi and I have broken up for two years, and we don't have any plans to reconcile in the future."

60. Chapter 60

The tea is fragrant.

Song Lan seemed to have expected his unkind words, so he didn't show much surprise.

The old man, who was in his twilight years, said with some helplessness in his tone, "Although I don't know what's wrong with you, it's common for young people to quarrel. You've been together for so long, if you calm down..."

Sheng Yi spoke softly: "This is my decision after careful consideration."

Song Lan hesitated for a moment, "I went to the hospital to see Qin Yi today, and his condition is very bad."

Kindly looked up and then moved back.

No wonder he didn't see Song Qinyi come back during this period of time, it turned out he was ill.

Song Lan sighed, "I came to see you this time to ask you to give Qin Yi another chance."

Sheng Yi shook his head peacefully, and it took him a long time to respond: "Old Song, I'm sorry..."

"Back then, Song Qinyi and I walked aside not because we were in love with each other. To be precise, I didn't do it voluntarily. I don't want to bring up these things again. It's because I have been with him for three years. Suffered a lot of torture, and the pain he endured was no less than what Song Qinyi was showing now.

At that time, someone gave me a chance to get rid of him. Out of compassion for this person, I did not retaliate. However, what was waiting for me was Song Qinyi’s violence. I, Song Qinyi, don't do anything intentionally, but I know very well that this is the nature of this person. If something doesn't go his way, he will lose control. As long as I can't kill him, I will force me to death, even if he No matter how regretful or sad he was, the harm he had done to me had already been done, and his pain and sorrow were of no use to me. Instead, some people would sympathize with him and persuade me to be obedient, obedient, and not to resist.

I didn't do anything wrong after all, I'm not a heinous villain, in a way, I was kind to him, why should I end up sad because of his pain, to give him a chance to keep pestering me?Sorry, Mr. Song, I can't do it. "

Song Lan remained silent for a long time after he finished speaking.

In the silence, he looked at the kindness, with a vague look of surprise.

When he spoke again, the old man's back seemed to be even more hunched, "I would like to apologize to you on my behalf."

The tone was languid with good intentions: "I brought up the past not to distinguish who is right and who is wrong, but just to explain one thing to you. Instead of persuading me to forgive and let go, it is better to persuade Song Qinyi to give up... I have something to do, so I will leave first."

On the way back, he was thinking how sick Song Qinyi was, and Song Lan needed to intervene.

He didn't hear any news beforehand.

The calmer the weather, the more it means that once the news gets out, the blow to the Song family will be huge.

He closed his eyes, but there was no joy in his heart.

During this period of time, he confessed his feelings one after another, and his emotions continued to output, which was close to a blank state.

He didn't want to think about it any further.

Normal work and rest for half a month.

The rhythm of his life disrupted by Song Qinyi is gradually being adjusted.

In order to divert attention, he went on a business trip.

Coincidentally, during the week of his business trip, he passed by the neighborhood where he lived when he was a child