As soon as I got home, I saw Zha Gong pretending to be a white lotus

slept with him.

He forced Shengyi to face up to this feeling.

During the countless times of hurting each other, he was unwilling and exhausted all means.

As a punishment for him, good intentions closed his heart and became his laurel tree, which was unattainable until now.

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Kindly looked at the call interface that had been hung up.

Song Qinyi's tone was obviously different from before, which made him vaguely feel something was wrong.

The restless night lasted until the next day when I got off work.

He smoked two cigarettes downstairs in the community before going upstairs. Recently, even though Song Qinyi stopped yelling at the door of his house, it didn't make him feel at ease outside the door.

When he saw Ou Baiqing standing at the door, he was a little surprised.

On the one hand, he was puzzled at first, Song Qinyi didn't know that Song Lan had come to look for him, how did Song Lan know where he lived, now he has the answer, most likely it was Ou Baiqing who revealed it.

On the other hand, the uneasiness came to an end, and there was no need to make extra assumptions. Something really happened to Song Qinyi.

Sheng Yidun didn't move, he knew that Ou Baiqing had something to say.

But Ou Baiqing didn't speak for a long time, and threw a pile of cigarette butts at his feet, his face that was always in high spirits looked haggard, as if he was burdened with a heavy heart.

Good intentions bypassed him, and was about to open the door to go in, when Ou Baiqing suddenly stopped him: "Good intentions."

He paused, took back the door key, and glanced back at him, "Say."

Ou Baiqing looked away, and spoke in a tired voice: "I want to know, you have been refusing to accept favors. Apart from the fact that he was an asshole in those three years, is there another reason for Beibei?"

There was no response for a long time.

Ou Baiqing looked at this person's almost tacit attitude, and then said with a little helplessness: "I stayed in the hospital all night yesterday, and I couldn't figure out some things, so I went to the medical records room, and looked at those files, and put the things I didn't have before. I've sorted out the things that I understand."

"Actually, as early as when you were hospitalized with a head injury, the doctor had already communicated with Song Qinyi that you had mental problems. It was true that Qinyi did something that time, but you bumped into the foot of the bed on purpose. You wanted to avoid him. , self-harm tendencies have emerged, but you are not aware of it.

After leaving the hospital, Song Qinyi began to urge you to take your medicine. Even so, you still felt noisy and always wanted to be alone for a while. Do you know why?

Because when you are unconscious, there is not a moment when you are not noisy.You probably feel that your most extreme behavior may be smashing things in the room..."

Ou Baiqing shook his head lightly, and smiled wryly, "You did a lot of things when you lost your mind, but you have no memory of them afterwards."

"Not long after, you quarreled with Qinyi, and you thought it was because Beibei heard the quarrel, which caused her to refuse to seek medical treatment and died of illness, but the truth is, kindly, on the day you sent Beibei to the hospital, you clearly heard that the operation was successful. The odds are low, and even with surgery, it won't do anything for her condition. You pass out afterwards, wake up and forget all about the conversation in the doctor's office."

"Because you can't accept the fact, out of self-protection, your memory is consciously forgotten, and you even imagine that Beibei didn't have an accident, and everything can be remedied, so in order to make up for your mistake, you called Huo tingshen after you woke up..."

Ou Baiqing sighed, he didn't know until a long time later that Song Qinyi took away this person's cell phone because of this.

"Afterwards, the guards became tighter, and you felt that the government wanted to lock you up, and refused to tell you anything, and then you started to harm yourself.

But do you remember what else you did besides slitting your wrists?

I was also in the hotel that day, and I was guarding you in the room until Qin Yi arrived, but after that you didn't even remember that I was there. "

"When you were accompanying you in the hospital, the doctor selectively told you about Beibei's condition in order to prevent you from getting too emotional, so you had the illusion that Beibei had a chance to be cured..."

Ou Baiqing sighed again, "It's not your fault that she left. If because of Beibei's death, you have to hate Qin Yi for the rest of your life, is that fair to him? More than anyone else, he hopes that Beibei can live well."

"He is sincere to you. Even in his most difficult time, he never thought of giving up on you. First, Aunt Song died of illness. Chin Yi's personality disorder was squeezed out by the Song family. No one was willing to accept him. Later, Huo tingshen took him The video of you being beaten threatened him. He moved out of the old house of the Song family and Huo Ting, who kept a low profile and waited for the opportunity. He couldn't contact you, let alone tell you how difficult his situation was. Even so, he was controlling himself Swallowed by the dark side, because he still wants to get back together with you one day, he said that your integrity will never accept an evil soul by your side, so he restrains the evil thoughts in his heart and wants to be bright like you."

"You like his innocence and ignorance when he was young...Xinyi, have you ever thought about it, if he hadn't kept this part all the time, how could Luo Yizhou appear?"

Ou Baiqing smiled bitterly: "Fortunately, you don't have to hate for a long time, Qin Yi will leave soon."

Sheng Yi asked in a trance: "What do you mean?"

"I know Mr. Song came to look for you a few days ago..." Ou Baiqing took out the cigarette case, his fingertips trembling slightly, "That's right, I disclosed your address. Before Mr. Song came, it was the first time that Qin Yi cut his wrists. .”

"He explained after waking up, just wanted to know what it felt like." He paused, lit his cigarette, and said softly, "Just last night, he tried again, soaking in the bathtub, He was completely unconscious when he was discovered, and he was not rescued until late at night."

It took a long time for Chengyi to respond: "With the doctor here, he will be fine."

Ou Baiqing shook his head, "Doctors can't save him, there is only one person in this world who can save him, and that person is you, don't you understand?"

He handed a piece of paper to Kindness's hand, "This is the address of the hospital. He should want you to give him a ride. If you are really embarrassed, don't force it."

When the kindness came, Song Qinyi was still not sober.

He sat by the bed, looked down at the man's wrist wrapped in white gauze, and suddenly guessed what the red wine glass meant.

Song Qinyi said that he deliberately broke the red wine glass when they reunited.

The wine glass is broken, and he stabs himself in order to regain care and compassion.

Now this person is repeating the same trick, but this time the red wine glass used as a bargaining chip is extraordinarily valuable.

It's ironic that when this guy is dying, he really can't be cruel.

He also resented Yuan Xi's betrayal. When he saw Yuan Xi lying in a pool of blood, Qingqing with her big belly begging for death, he was not unmoved.

Afterwards, when he learned that Yuan Xi was trying to test him and pretended to be dead so that he could be expelled from the nursing home, he even felt relieved for a moment.

Because he knew that Yuan Xi was so hateful that he hadn't reached the point of apologizing with death.

His thoughts were empty, the light of dusk hit his palm, and the door key reflected the luster of metal.

If what Song Qinyi is willing to sacrifice his life for is an opportunity, he can give this opportunity, and it is better to bear the guilt brought by the passing of another life in the second half of his life.

His eyes stayed briefly on this man's extremely haggard face, then he put the key on the bedside and left the ward.

In the next two months, no one came to him to have a heart-to-heart talk.

On Friday night, the departmental dinner was over, and he went home drowsy.

His face was scorching hot, and it burned endlessly.

Shengyi took out the key to open the door. He remembered that the door was locked before going out. Now, with a flick of the key, the door opened.

He didn't care so much, staggered into the room, threw himself on the bed and closed his eyes to hold the dead body.

The sound of deliberately lowered footsteps came from far and near, and they stopped by the bed, and then a slightly hot wet towel came over and wiped his face, ironing out the surging drunkenness.

Is it a dream...

How could the towel automatically come over?

Cheng Yi struggled a bit, was held by the wrist, and the towel rubbed against his palm, followed by his fingers.

It took him a long time to realize who it was, but his eyelids were heavy and he couldn't open them.

His nerves paralyzed by alcohol were trying to wake up, but his body, which had been taken care of by this man, was sinking without authorization.

From the moment the key was given, this meant that these could happen in the future.

After his breathing gradually calmed down, Song Qinyi took off his coat, and then his socks.

Then he walked out the door slowly.

The next day, he didn't go to work, so he kindly watched TV in the living room, and looked at Song Qinyi who was drying and washing the sheets on the balcony.

Seemingly noticing his gaze, Song Qinyi suddenly turned his head. From morning to now, Shuli's eyebrows and eyes were always a little happy, and she smiled at him gently and slowly, "What's the matter, Ah Yan."

It was as if nothing happened in the hospital.

The man never explained what the red wine glass meant.

In other words, he was deliberately not talking about it, and the phone call that night was deliberately so unclear, inducing him to feel that it was because of his constant indifference that made him desperate enough to want to commit suicide.

This proud and invincible guy, when he harvested his sympathy, he didn't even have a little bit of self-esteem and was merciless.

Really, he couldn't help but look sideways in surprise.

64. Chapter 64

The twilight is gradually coming up, after all, it is Saturday, so it is not necessary to be bored at home all day.

Cheng Yi got up to change her shoes, went out to throw out the trash, and stopped by the supermarket for a stroll to replenish daily necessities.

Not long after the button was pressed, before the elevator closed, he heard the sound of the door opening and closing.

Song Qinyi, who was standing outside the elevator door, was wearing home clothes. When he looked at him, he had a smile on his lips: "I'll go down too."

He looked up and said nothing.

All the way silent.

The supermarket was built underground, and he pushed the shopping cart while walking and stopping.

Song Qinyi