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While opening the curtains, he said in a low voice: "Yesterday I wanted to tell him that I might not live long, but I couldn't open my mouth. I was afraid that he would fall into it like me, and I would die without any worries. He's different."

"So why do you still go on like this? For ten years of guilt? Still thinking about him?"

"I don't know, that feeling can't be put into words. I don't refute your words. My guilt towards Zhuo Yu is indeed greater than my love, but no matter what I do to him, I will never change towards you.

I won't fall in love with you, at least in this life, I don't have the blessing to be compatible with anyone until I grow old.

I don't refute your feelings for me, but I can't bear such feelings, I can't be your light, and I can't be the person who will accompany you all your life.

Qi Ge, you are still young, there is still a long time to meet someone who is better than me, you shouldn't waste time on me. "

"I don't think it's a waste of time."

Jiang Tong sighed again, he turned around and looked at Qi Ge, feeling inexplicable, in short, entangled, he said: "We should be regarded as sympathetic, especially after knowing that you are an illegitimate child, I can probably think that your childhood was How did you get here, and how did you get to where you are today.

Maybe it's because of this empathy that I can't hate you.For you, I don't know what to say, I don't hate the calmness most of the time, and the sudden childishness.Of course, I can't treat you as the other half. "

"I know, you don't have to say these words."

"But I don't know what to say. After all, I have said many times that there is no possibility between us."

Qi Ge was silent, just like Jiang Tong said, he felt the same way, he knew how important Zhuo Yu was to Jiang Tong, and Jiang Tong couldn't give up no matter what.

But he still can't help but get stuck in it, unable to break free from this love, he wants to look at Jiang Tong and stay by his side, it seems that only in this way can he feel that he is still alive, not for power and money, but for himself.

He stepped forward to hug Jiang Tong who was standing there, and hugged him tightly, "I don't need you to respond to me, I just need to stand where I can see you, but for this, I ask you not to refuse me."

"not worth it."

"It's worth it to me."

Jiang Tong didn't speak anymore, he didn't know how to face Qi Ge's paranoid love, whether to refuse it with a strong attitude, or to ignore it as if he didn't know anything.

After a long time, Jiang Tong gently pushed the person away, went back to the room silently and took out all the hidden medicines, counted the doses carefully and swallowed them into his mouth under Qi Ge's watchful eyes, just sat on the sofa like this.

He doesn't like to go out. He used to go to the store, but these days he just went to the gate of the community to buy groceries, and the rest of the time he just slept in a daze, muddled.

Qi Ge pushed a small leather stool over and sat down opposite him, with his hands on his lap, "Why don't you go for a walk?"

"Too lazy to move." Jiang Tong returned lazily, raised his legs and stepped on the sofa to hug his knees, and looked at Qi Ge with strange eyes, ""Supreme" has no performance? "

Qi Ge thought it was funny, and asked him back, "Where did you come up with such an idea."

"It just depends on how free you are all day long?" Jiang Tong tilted his head, and continued, "I remember that the previous one was always spinning, and it was still on the phone in the middle of the night."

"At that time, there were more street businesses than serious businesses. Now it's different. We can only do regular business. Those bars and nightclubs have also become serious entertainment venues. There are very few people taking drugs and gatherings. Naturally, there is no trouble. Come up with something."

Jiang Tong nodded symbolically, because he has been derailed for too long, and he has no idea how far this era has developed. He just heard some bits and pieces from Yi Tianxiang, and this kind of thing has not happened for two or three years. .He asked, "Since this is the case, why did you and Yuen Biao fight?"

"Do you want to hear something simple, or something complex and detailed?"

"It's up to you to see what you want."

Qi Ge laughed, "To put it simply, the current development of "Supreme" has created a conflict of interest with Yuen Biao, and he doesn't like me.To put it more complicated, I squeezed Jun Moqing away, and he was not reconciled, so he formed an alliance with Yuen Biao and a few other local snakes to kill me and take back "Supreme".

To put it more complicated, the dead old man surnamed Jun acquiesced in the battle between Jun Moqing and me, and whoever wins will be the boss of "Supreme" and will also be his heir. "

"You do not want?"

"Why do I think?" Qi Ge said disdainfully, "Before that, I had my own small piece of world, and I could respond to everyone without mentioning the power. The result? In three days, he ruined my business for five years. Years of painstaking efforts, three years of forbearance, two years of planning, I ruined it all without saying a word! What is he, what is he?!"

Jiang Tong looked at him with an extremely calm tone, suppressing all the unwillingness and anger in the dark eyes, ready to go, this is not the first time he has seen this kind of eyes.

"Among so many people in the Jun family, you are the one who resembles the old man the most, with your eyes and temperament."

After Jiang Tong finished speaking, he was immediately refuted by Qi Ge, "I'm different from him!"

"It's different." Jiang Tong rested his chin, he didn't have any impression of the woman who had met once before, but judging from the appearance, there was indeed nothing similar to the old man in Qige.He raised his cheeks and asked, "How did your mother and the old man get along?"

Qi Ge didn't seem to want to answer this question, but he still opened his mouth and said in a very calm tone: "I told you, my mother was a beauty when she was young, not to say that she is beautiful, but she is definitely a beauty. Pick one. But she is stupid, still in love with brains, slept with a man when she was a teenager, was kidnapped to this city, and lived in an old slum to pick up customers and earn money to support that man.

Not long after, that man offended the surname Jun, so he sent my mother to the surname Jun to save his life.

The one surnamed Jun thought my mother was pretty, slept for a few nights, then got tired of it, threw it back to that place, and left my mother to fend for herself.

The man ran away fearing the revenge of the surname Jun, and my mother was completely disappointed in the man and lived a life of indulgence.

It didn't take long for her to find out that she was pregnant, but she didn't know whose offspring it was, and she gave birth without caring, until the surname Jun came to her door two years ago.

My mother recognized him at first sight, and she didn't think that I was really his son, she just wanted to make him feel more scruples, but I didn't expect it to be. "

Qi Ge said, his eyelashes flickering and drooping, "When I was young, I really wanted to know who I was, but when I grew up, after that age, I didn't need to know, and I didn't want to know. It just popped up, Brother Jiang, you said...is it ridiculous?"

"How old were you then?"

"Two months to twenty." Qi Ge looked at Jiang Tong, "How old was Brother Jiang?"

Jiang Tong thought for a while and asked him, "Are you asking me when I knew I was not my own, or when I knew my father was a lunatic?"

"Both."

"Jiang Chen was five years younger than me, about seven or eight years old, and found out that he was not his own. As for the biological father who had never met before high school, fifteen? Or sixteen? I don't remember clearly. , more than ten years."

Qi Ge moved closer and almost kissed Jiang Tong. He asked, "Have you seen him?"

"I've seen it once." Jiang Tong turned his face to avoid Qi Ge's approach, and vaguely remembered that person running and screaming in the crowd, who was stupid and crazy, completely lost self-awareness, and was physically ill due to long-term drug use. Become very bad, lose attack power, maybe one day he will become like that, even crazier and stupid than that person.

"Would you feel scared?"

Jiang Tong shook his head, "I'm more afraid of being like my mother than being crazy, lying on the hospital bed every day, taking medicine, chemotherapy, and injections, and her hair falls down in handfuls. It's only been a few months, like an old man. At the age of 30, lying in a hospital bed and unable to do anything, and then trying to persist for such a long time, it will be gone if it is gone.”

"That was only ten years ago. Now that medicine is very advanced, it may not be incurable."

Jiang Tong didn't think so. He asked Qi Ge, "Do you know what the probability of genetic cancer is? It's not more than one in [-] in the world, and most of the time it's hidden in genes, so it won't become cancerous, but once it becomes cancerous It is irreversible, no matter how good the medicine, no matter how advanced the medical treatment is, it will be futile, so what if I survived by chance, I have no value in living, since I was born, I have been a mistake, a mistake that should not exist!"

"You are wrong? Then what am I?" Qi Ge looked at him sincerely, "A means to save my life? Forcibly killing me, she might die, so she gave birth to me? Let me do it for 20 years bastard?"

37. Kitten

Jiang Tong felt that this topic should not be started, let alone continue. He avoided Qi Ge's gaze and looked aside, and asked softly, "Is there anything you really want to do?"

"Fuck you, or get fucked by you."

Jiang Tong pursed his lips, he just wanted to change the subject, there is no need to answer so seriously, "You... change it."

Qi Ge stared at him for a while and said, "Kissing you, the kind where you stick out your tongue."

"Uh..." Jiang Tong shut up resolutely, took a pillow and put it on the back of his head and fell down, let this kid do whatever he wants, he can't communicate anymore.

Seeing Jiang Tong silently resisting Qi Ge and laughing, he reached out to touch his arm and asked, "Brother Jiang, are you inviting me?"

"Whatever you think, don't make too much noise when you leave." Jiang Tong answered lazily, he was used to being alone, either sitting and looking out the window or laying down thinking about the true meaning of life, even if there was someone beside him, he wouldn't care, just Worried about being woken up when I was sleeping soundly.

"Brother Jiang, sleep peacefully. If I don't leave, I'll just stay here." Qi Ge said