It's my first time being a cat

Gu Jingyao's steady and powerful heartbeat was like a drumbeat, echoing in Zhu Xiaoming's ears, pulling back his wandering thoughts.

Zhu Xiaoming calmed down slowly.

The heat from Gu Jingyao's body was warm and real, inch by inch, passing through the wet coat to Zhu Xiaoming's skin, causing a little numbness, and he realized that their bodies were tightly pressed together.

Zhu Xiaoming stood up as if he had been scalded, bowed his head and apologized embarrassingly: "I don't know what happened just now... I was confused and forgot to get out the water, I'm sorry."

Gu Jingyao was drenched all over, and water drops slid down his jawline, but this embarrassment did not hinder his charm, on the contrary, it made him look a bit handsome, and Zhu Xiaoming couldn't help it all the time. peep at him.

I don't know if it was because of the thrilling experience just now, his chest was beating very fast, and he was extremely hot.

Gu Jingyao didn't get angry at Zhu Xiaoming's big mistake, but frowned, and said with a calm face: "It's okay, I'm the director, if I can't even protect the male lead, it's my negligence."

Hearing these words, Zhu Xiaoming's beating heart suddenly calmed down. He curled his lips, not knowing why there was such a momentary loss, his chest was sore, like a bottle of Coke opened with full expectation, but found Already ran out of breath.

He thought sourly, it turned out that Gu Jingyao was so nervous about him because he was the leading actor, he thought...

For what reason, Zhu Xiaoming didn't think about it, maybe because he thought that kind of speculation was outrageous.

While wiping his hair with a towel, Gu Jingyao looked back at the video just now. In the screen, Zhu Xiaoming seemed to be attracted by the pool water, and fell into the water in a daze.

It did startle him, but the effect was very good. Gu Jingyao didn't intend to retake the film, but there was a kind of panic in his heart like suddenly stepping into the air, reminding him that he could no longer let Zhu Xiaoming sink into the role.

Before deciding to appoint Zhu Xiaoming as the male lead, Gu Jingyao thought about many situations that would happen, maybe he would not be able to enter the play, and there would be many NGs, but he never thought that Zhu Xiaoming would get stuck in the role.

Probably because Zhu Xiaoming was not from a major in the first place, so he could only rely on empathy to enter the play. There is no psychological boundary between the character and himself, which brings danger.

Gu Jingyao has China Film's systematic learning, and it takes time to get in and out of the role, let alone Zhu Xiaoming.

The moment Zhu Xiaoming fell into the swimming pool, he was like a falling butterfly, and Gu Jingyao had no time to catch it. For a moment, he seemed to have returned to the day when Li Yan died. Powerlessness and regret trapped Gu Jingyao, and his chest was occupied by endless pursuit and hatred.

Fortunately, Zhu Xiaoming is different from Li Yan, this time he reached out and grabbed Zhu Xiaoming...

But this still made Gu Jingyao's face extremely dark, Zhu Xiaoming was ordered to go back to rest and dare not speak, shrugged his shoulders and obediently obeyed.

Fang Hui heard that Zhu Xiaoming almost had an accident in the swimming pool because of his involvement in the drama, and she felt sad and said: "Don't blame Gu Jingyao for stopping your drama, I have experienced this kind of situation before when you are too involved in the drama, Actors of our type are indeed more easily affected by emotions, and for a while I couldn’t distinguish between the character and myself, and I always felt that I was that person, and the drama I acted in was the life I experienced.”

Zhu Xiaoming's eyes lit up, and he asked curiously, "Then how did you do it?"

Fang Hui then said that it was the film in which she won Best Actress. At that time, she had only just taken on the third role. The first two times she was directed by Zeng Yu. Fang Hui had no worries about this, but this film was really hopeless. It was too confusing, and Fang Hui was proud and arrogant. She was not convinced by some people who said that she could only rely on Zeng Yu's lack of acting skills. She wanted to prove herself, so she immersed herself in the role every day, almost going crazy.

Although she won the Best Actress, many people don't know that after the filming of this film, Fang Hui shut herself at home for more than a month, thinking about the stories of the characters in her head. Everyone in the film is so real, real It seemed to cover everything she had experienced before.

Fortunately, her make-up artist at the time found out in time, pulled her to chat, and accompanied her to slowly walk out of the role. Since then, Fang Hui has grasped the scale when acting and did not fall into it again.

Zhu Xiaoming tilted his head and thought for a while, then said, "Then I also want to find someone to chat with, what did you guys talk about back then?"

Fang Hui giggled after hearing his question, and blinked at Zhu Xiaoming: "He is my boyfriend now, what do you think we talked about back then?"

Zhu Xiaoming blushed and rubbed his nose embarrassedly: "Ah, so..."

However, his eyes secretly turned to Gu Jingyao's direction, but it was a pity that Gu Jingyao turned his back to him, and Zhu Xiaoming couldn't see the expression on his face.

When the sun rose and Fang Hui stood up from the swimming pool, her role was over, and she was about to wrap up and leave the group.

Although he was finally able to send that annoying starling away, in Zhu Xiaoming's eyes, Fang Hui was also Xu Jie. Seeing "Xu Jie" leave, Zhu Xiaoming still had some heavy emotions in his heart that could not be dissipated. Come out completely.

Zhu Xiaoming had never tried the method Fang Hui said. He wanted to find someone to talk to, but his mind was full of stories about Xu Jie and Gao Yang. It landed on the familiar sketched head portrait.

In the middle of the night, Zhu Xiaoming knocked on the door next door in a single shirt.

As soon as Gu Jingyao opened the door, he saw Zhu Xiaoming wearing a peaked cap, lowered his head, and said to him, "Can you accompany me for a walk?"

When he said this, Gu Jingyao noticed that Zhu Xiaoming touched his elbow subconsciously, which was a movement that Gao Yang would only do.

Gu Jingyao's eyes fell on Zhu Xiaoming's face, without asking any further questions, he took a coat and left with him.

In the early morning, the vicinity of the Shanhe film and television base was still brightly lit. I don’t know how many crews stayed up late to film.

Zhu Xiaoming took Gu Jingyao to the snack street across the street from the film and television base. In this place that is open day and night, the barbecue stalls are booming.

Zhu Xiaoming and Gu Jingyao were walking on the side of the road, the smell of barbecue came from the street, and the voice of the boss's grilled skewers was applauded. He was abroad when he was a child, and he had never eaten these things. Everyone wants to try it.

Zhu Xiaoming stopped in front of a barbecue stand and bought a bag of barbecue skewers familiarly. It was obvious that he was a regular customer. The boss even chatted with him for a while and asked him what movie he was filming recently.

Zhu Xiaoming pointed to Gu Jingyao beside him, and smiled at the boss: "I'm filming his scene, this is our director."

The boss stared, and when he sprinkled the chili noodles, he seemed to mutter: "Why is the director better-looking than the actor?"

Zhu Xiaoming tilted his head, took a peek at Gu Jingyao's profile, and expressed his agreement in his heart.

"I used to come to this store often, and the taste is not bad, but today's skewers are a bit spicy." Zhu Xiaoming tilted his head, and gave half of the skewers to Gu Jingyao.

I don't know if the boss was too surprised just now, he sprinkled too much seasoning on the skewers, Zhu Xiaoming ate a few mouthfuls, and didn't want to eat that much.

Originally, he didn't come out for supper, but he just thought that since he passed by the barbecue stand, he should buy some barbecue.

Gu Jingyao took the skewer that Zhu Xiaoming gave him and didn't eat it, and the expression on his face was light, and it was impossible to tell whether he liked it or not.

To be honest, Zhu Xiaoming couldn't imagine Gu Jingyao's skewering.

But he heard that Zeng Yu likes to have dinners very much. Director Zeng is from a certain ethnic minority on the grassland, and it is easy to drink and eat meat.

"Didn't Director Zeng bring you here to have a meal when you were filming Love of Mountains and Rivers?" Zhu Xiaoming asked him.

Gu Jingyao lowered his eyes, with a little smile at the end of his eyes: "He, he did it all by himself. He pulled a sheep to the crew to roast, and it was snatched up right after roasting, and he didn't eat it at all."

"That should be delicious!" Zhu Xiaoming blinked, took a bite of the skewers, felt a little cold, and rubbed his arms.

Gu Jingyao naturally put the coat he took when he went out on Zhu Xiaoming's shoulders, his face was still expressionless, making it impossible to see whether he took it on purpose or just did it casually.

Zhu Xiaoming lowered his head, tightened his clothes, and buried his face in Gu Jingyao's breath: "I kind of know Director Zeng, I think he is a very interesting person."

Gu Jingyao raised his eyebrows easily, and joked, "You want to eat his roasted whole lamb, right?"

Zhu Xiaoming wrinkled his nose and did not deny it.

"Fang Hui loves these foods very much. You and Fang Hui have similar tastes. Next time you tell your idol about these foods, she will probably like you even more."

Fang Hui has a good eye for Zhu Xiaoming. During the time in the group, she joked with Gu Jingyao several times, saying that she wanted to poach Zhu Xiaoming.

Gu Jingyao also knows why she likes Zhu Xiaoming. Every time Zhu Xiaoming sees Fang Hui acting, her eyes are shining, and she always asks her any questions. She also listens to Fang Hui's words very much. up.

The relationship between the male and female protagonists is good, and the director should be happy to see it succeed, but Gu Jingyao is inexplicably unhappy.

Zhu Xiaoming poked his head and tilted his head to look at Gu Jingyao.

Gu Jingyao noticed his gaze and turned his face sideways: "What's wrong?"

"Sister Fang Hui is not my idol, she is a predecessor worth learning from."

Gu Jingyao was stunned: "Is there any difference between idols and seniors?"

Zhu Xiaoming nodded, and said seriously: "Yes, the senior is a person worthy of respect, and the idol is the person who I want to follow in his footsteps and walk to his side."

When Zhu Xiaoming said this, his eyes looked at Gu Jingyao without blinking, as if reflecting the stars in the sky.

Gu Jingyao's chest jumped suddenly, as if being hit by a cat.

On the way back to the hotel, Zhu Xiaoming stepped on Gu Jingyao's shadow, walking step by step, and the lights in the film and television base in the distance were row upon row.

In fact, Zhu Xiaoming still has a lot to say, but he doesn't know where to start. His life is too simple, and his troubles in the past are nothing major except for some family unhappiness.

However, the story that Gu Jingyao wove with the lens dragged him into a dark world, like a beast with its fangs, directly crashing into the barriers of Zhu Xiaoming's inner world.

Why did Gu Jingyao write such a story?

If Xu Jie is Li Yan and Gao Yang is Gu Jingyao, has Gu Jingyao's heart always been so painful?

Zhu Xiaoming can feel the heavy emotions suppressed in his chest, running around in his body. He has already reached the limit of his mental load just by playing the role of Gao Yang. Gu Jingyao, who wrote this story with these pains, his inner world is How is it?

Whenever Zhu Xiaoming thinks about it, he feels sad...

Zhu Xiaoming looked at Gu Jingyao who was walking in front of him, and thought that this person didn't often smile when he was relaxing. It seemed that only when Zhu Xiaoming was still a pig could he see Gu Jingyao happy.

Zhu Xiaoming stretched out his hand involuntarily, hooking Gu Jingyao's clothes like a pig.

Gu Jingyao's clothes were pulled, and he heard Zhu Xiaoming's nasal voice, which seemed to be coming from his chest, and he was unhappy.

"Before making this movie, I didn't think about death. I always felt that these were far away from me..."

Gu Jingyao stopped, looked at the shadows of trees drifting under the street lamp, and listened quietly to Zhu Xiaoming's words.

"I don't think death is an escape. They have fought for so long. If they choose to end their lives, we should be blamed, not them."

Gu Jingyao was dazed for a moment, thinking of the day when Li Yan died in his mind, he saw Li Yan's body lying in the morgue in a cold, wearing a beautiful red dress, swallowing sleeping pills and sinking into the bathtub to die, let her see Woke up as if asleep.

At a loss, Gu Jingyao kept asking himself, how could Li Yan die?

How could that sister who always smiled and led him with dreams commit suicide?

In the long pain, he searched for the truth of Li Yan's death, but the closer he got to the truth, the more disgusting he was. This kind of nausea was not only for Sheng Hao, but also for himself.

Obviously he was the closest person to Li Yan, but he didn't notice anything. Could it be that because Li Yan was always smiling, did he think she was really happy?

The day Li Yan appeared, taught Gu Jingyao how to love herself, and on the day Li Yan passed away, Gu Jingyao learned how to hate herself. This seems to be God's cruelest trick.

But these are his affairs, and Zhu Xiaoming should not be involved. Gu Jingyao did not expect that Zhu Xiaoming's empathy ability is so strong that he can even understand his heart.

He didn't want to throw these negative things to Zhu Xiaoming to digest, Gu Jingyao's lips moved tightly: "It's not your fault, you don't have to blame yourself."

Zhu Xiaoming bit his lip, and blurted out some suppressed words: "You told me not to blame myself, so what about you, why did you throw yourself at the bottom of the pool?"

Gu Jingyao's straight back froze for a moment, exuding a kind of loneliness that Zhu Xiaoming couldn't describe, as if a door had suddenly closed to keep him out.

Zhu Xiaoming heard Gu Jingyao's blunt tone and said, "This has nothing to do with you."

He grabbed his coat tightly, looked at the back of Gu Jingyao leaving, and lowered his arms in frustration.

I muttered in my heart, I am your cat, of course it has something to do with me...

However, Gu Jingyao couldn't hear this sentence.

Zhu Xiaoming: People with stinky faces and fierce faces don’t like Gu Jingyao anymore