rose with snow

If I know where the key is, should I go get it?

Hearing this question, Song Ying said without hesitation:

"of course."

From this sentence, it can be heard that Huai Xu has a knot in his heart.

Regardless of whether it is for Yigong or not, since it can be solved and the key can be obtained, why not unlock it?

I bypassed it this time, what about next time?

While evasion is useful, it is not a long-term solution.

"You wait."

Song Yingshi hurriedly said to Huai Xu, and she quickly walked to the camera to have a look.

In the past, whenever it was inconvenient, she would cover the camera with clothes and turn off the camera before going to bed.

This time to prevent the staff from hearing a few words from the monitoring room, Song Yingshi simply unplugged the power cord of the camera.

After dealing with the prying eye of the camera, Song Yingshi walked back to Huaixu's side.She took Huai Xu's hand and led her to sit down at the end of the bed.

Facing Huai Xu who was young in her eyes, Song Ying said with all her heart:

"If you want to talk, I can listen."

After she finished saying this, Huai Xu didn't speak.

It takes courage to open yourself to another person, Song Yingshi waited patiently, only then did she realize that Huaixu's hand was very hot.

It was beyond the warmth of just taking a shower, like a delicate and flexible thin layer of skin, and something was about to burst out.

Song Yingshi squeezed her hand, as if she could silently transmit strength to Huaixu.

Song Yingshi thought about it and said it herself.

"You are only 18 years old, and you have never been in a formal relationship. Not only that, but when you were 18 years old, you met Song Ming. He is not in love at all."

The emotion in the song "Insomnia" rated by Huai Xuchu is very young and hazy, which is the appearance of love that has not yet begun.

And "Halfway up the Mountain" is an affectionate and hopeless song. The two met, but failed to go to the end hand in hand.

On the way here, Song Yingshi repeatedly compared the two songs, and finally realized vaguely that Huaixu's knot should be related to her emotional experience.

Is it because Huai Xu has never experienced real, normal, and ordinary love, so she can't even find the key to release her love?

Song Yingshi has seen Huai Xu's life as the heroine, and she slowly narrated it in a soft voice from Huai Xu's perspective:

"Then, you met me."

Song Yingshi was immersed in her thoughts and didn't see that when she said this, Huai Xu's eyelashes trembled suddenly, and she looked straight at her.

"What did I do... I made you sign a contract."

Speaking of this, Song Yingshi's heart tightened.

But everything was indeed done by her, she tried her best to smile, trying not to make the atmosphere so heavy:

"Sorry, I gave you a bad experience too."

Although objectively speaking, her behavior has also brought certain benefits to Huai Xu.But some things can never be directly added and subtracted, and the good and the bad can be offset casually. It only depends on how people's hearts measure it.

Whenever Song Yingshi thought of this, she would be more tolerant towards Huai Xu.What's more, they are friends now, and everything has a new standard.

Huai Xu's voice was hoarse:

"now what?"

Song Yingshi was slightly startled:

"Now?"

Huai Xu leaned forward, her thin body had a sharp sense of oppression, and the aggressiveness that was usually hidden under the frost was released, but her eyes were blurred and affectionate:

"I don't care about the past. I just want to know, Song Yingshi, what do you think now?"

Song Yingshi was about to open her mouth, she raised her eyes to meet Shang Huaixu's loving eyes, when the words came to her lips, she lost her voice, and the alarm bells rang in her mind.

No, not right!

Song Yingshi's breathing suddenly became short of breath and became disordered.

Complicated thoughts swirled in her mind, and countless large and small rectangular pictures overlapped and flickered in her mind.

When she and Huai Xu met, there were countless rainy nights where stories happened, when the new lover was not up to the contract, Huai Xu "revenge" according to the contract one by one——

Since when did Huai Xu stop resisting her like when we first met?

Since when did Huai Xu even become active?

Take the initiative to respond to her touch, take the initiative to give her rewards, take the initiative to... reveal your thoughts to her.

The reason behind everything is really her self-righteousness, is the relationship changing to a friend?

Looking back again, more questions and details came one after another, but Huai Xu didn't give her more time.

Huai Xu approached with a dangerous breath, whispering like a lover:

"I wanted to ask you a long time ago, Song Yingshi, why didn't you touch me?"

Song Yingshi choked for breath.

In the face of unavoidable facts, the brain goes blank.

Why didn't Song Yingshi touch her?

From the very beginning, Huaixu was puzzled after several trials, and later, even with the resentment that Huaixu refused to admit, this question often lingered in Huaixu's mind.

At first, Huai Xu thought that Song Ying had taken care of her because she liked her face and wanted to have sex with her just like Song Ming.

But all the signs of Song Yingshi are weird, the most important thing is——

She doesn't touch her.

She hired the best teacher for her, a young lady went to the training camp with her, was on the show together, and even slept in the same room.

They were hardly separated.

Everyone thought that they were very close, but only Huai Xu knew that there was a clear distinction between them.

For a long time, Huai Xu never thought about the reasons behind it.

What does Song Yingshi think, what does it matter to her?She doesn't care.

But later...

Even later, Huai Xu still blocked everything she shouldn't think or do with reason, but Song Yingshi wanted to get close to her.

Her behavior was messed up, and she dreamed back in the middle of the night. She recalled every movement, every look, and every word of Song Ying in her mind.

Every sudden pause, every moment of sudden distraction.

She can't wait to dissect the picture of them getting along every second and look at it with a microscope.

These sleepless nights around Song Yingshi, she was alone, thinking about it from the day she first met Song Yingshi, thinking about today.

She tried to construct the logic of Song Yingshi's behavior, but because of her so many unexplainable behaviors, she kept overturning and starting over.

The only thing that is certain is that Song Yingshi does not love her.

Song Yingshi did not love her.

She probably just liked her, like a person walking on the road saw a beautiful cat and dog, so he said "want" to like her.

To Song Yingshi, that was probably the case at first.Song Yingshi has the ability to collect her, and this is not worth mentioning to Song Yingshi.

On the night when she finally confirmed this matter, Huai Xu didn't know how she fell asleep in the end, let alone how she could face Song Ying as usual the next day.

Looking back, it's like she finally figured it out and then immediately forgot.

When facing Song Ying, she was so cowardly that it made people laugh.

The relationship between the two has not been affected in any way. When Song Yingshi faced her, she still smiled sweetly and gently. Inadvertently, she was dragged into the vortex called Song Yingshi by Shen Shen, and she couldn't help herself.

It even made her forget from time to time that she was nothing but dispensable to Song Yingshi.

She doesn't have her in her heart, she knows better than anyone else.

Until today, until now.

Huai Xu raised Song Yingshi's jaw with her fingers, forcing her to look directly at herself:

"Song Yingshi, what exactly do you want to do?"

Song Ying asked her to look for the key, so she asked clearly.

The full emotion squeezed her heart to explode, and she was always hooked by Song Yingshi, but she never dared to let it pour out.

During the rehearsal, Song Yingshi was in the audience, so how dare she sing love songs.

Song Yingshi's voice was weak, lost confidence, and even a little dazed:

"Did you misunderstand? Huaixu, I don't like girls."

A simple sentence set off a hurricane in Huai Xu's ears.

For a moment, Huai Xu felt that her heart had stopped beating.

She thought about how Song Yingshi would answer this question many times, and imagined more than ten answers, but she never thought that Song Yingshi would say this.

Perhaps she had simulated too many conversations, Huaixu's soul was so numb that she looked at her body and asked her quickly as usual:

"Then why did you ask me to be your lover?"

"I... I have never been malicious to you. Maybe I have many actions that have caused you troubles, but I really regard you as a friend now! I want to see you getting better and better, to see your debut and to see your success—— "

Huai Xu smiled:

"Is it Missy's whim, precision poverty alleviation?"

Huai Xu herself didn't know how she could still make a joke under such circumstances.

Song Yingshi was also stunned, and she opened her mouth.

The invisible air flowed between the two of them, and the boiling blood in Huaixu cooled down little by little, making her shiver.

The burning emotions burned to the end, leaving only ashes on the ground.

Huai Xu laughed.

What are these?

Things turned out to be even more absurd than she could have imagined, the worst-case scenario.

She has never been lucky, good luck never falls on her head.

And what a luxury it is to let the person you like like you too.

Such a bright, shining, and good Song Yingshi, it's normal not to like her.

So what does it matter who she likes.

It wouldn't be her anyway.

An elder once told Huai Xu that she is too smart and can think through many things quickly. This is not a bad thing, but it is too cold.Once a person understands everything, his emotions will fade away.

Pain and pleasure sometimes do not ebb and flow, but advance and retreat together.

Huai Xu thought of this passage at this moment, and was glad for a moment that her indifference could support her to stand up steadily from Song Yingshi's side, and walk past her.

A voice came from behind:

"Huaixu, you..."

Song Yingshi seemed to be hesitating, hesitating:

"Do you like girls? Do you...do you like me?"

Huai Xu was silent.

Song Yingshi looked at Huaixu's back and didn't dare to chase after her. She waited two or three steps anxiously for her answer.

Even at the awards ceremony where she was expected to win the Best Actress, she had never been so nervous!

When it came to this, she had to ask clearly.

Song Yingshi breathed lightly.

After a long time, I heard Huai Xu laughing in a low voice:

"Yeah, I like women."

A stone fell to Song Yingshi's heart.

Huai Xu's tone is almost arrogant:

"But Miss Song, I like you? Am I being mean?"

Huai Xu left the room.

Song Yingshi sat on the edge of the bed in a daze, and pulled the quilt over her body.

She wasn't cold, she just couldn't help but want to find something to feel safe.

Huai Xu likes women.

She is curved.

... A romance novel, the only heroine of a romance novel with three male protagonists, is crooked.

"Ahhhhhhh-"

Song Yingshi buried her head in the quilt and screamed.

What the hell is this!

"System! Why is the heroine crooked?"

"The heroine is an independent and complete individual, and her sexual orientation is of course free."

Even when the whole world is collapsing, the sound of the system is still a ruthless mechanical sound, which makes Song Yingshi feel a strange comfort... What a ghost!

Song Yingshi understood that she and Huaixu were the only two victims who collapsed.

What breaks her down is that she has been doing this and that to a Ji cub...

Looking back at those tasks now, Song Ying gritted her teeth and said in a serious tone:

"System, you shouldn't have known about it long ago? Those tasks of yours? Huh?"

"..."

The system is silent!

This is absolutely fucking tactical silence.

No matter how calm Song Yingshi was usually, she couldn't help but want to scold her when she was tricked by the system.

The system didn't dare to take a breath, it was as quiet as if it had been uninstalled.

Song Yingshi's thoughts turned to Huaixu again.

In the conversation just now, her mind had already left home, and she just came back now, so she can replay the conversation well and think about what's going on.

Why is Huai Xu's mentality broken?

Song Yingshi slowly recalled Huai Xu's first question, and after thinking about it, she couldn't help but remain silent.

Oh, is Huai Xu angry at her for not wanting her body?

Angry at her as the patron, her conduct is too noble?

She remembered Huai Xu's last words again.

Huai Xu likes women, but doesn't like her.

"..."

If Huai Xu really believed in it, Song Yingshi's last life could be regarded as living in the stomach of a dog.

If it wasn't for something, Huaixu's rehearsal today wouldn't have anything to do with her.

If it wasn't for something, today's Huai Xu would not be ashamed, nor... sad.

Although Huai Xu didn't say it, Song Ying could feel that she was sad.

The only thing Song Yingshi was not sure about was, what stage had Huai Xu's feelings for her reached?

There should be some good feelings, right?

To say that Huai Xu likes her very much, Song Yingshi thinks it is unrealistic and suspected of being too narcissistic.

She thought about it, and finally looked in the direction of the door.

There was no movement outside the door, no sound of Huai Xu's slow and regular footsteps, it was as quiet as if she was the only one left in the world.

Huai Xu left.

Thinking of this, Song Yingshi was a little unhappy for some reason.

Sitting dejectedly for a while, Song Yingshi couldn't stand the quiet bedroom alone, she slowly climbed onto the bed and closed her eyes.

At the end of the torment, it was herself who should sleep and calm down.

I am liked by the girls...

With an indescribable feeling, Song Yingshi slowly fell asleep.

Perhaps because of her evasive mentality, Song Yingshi fell asleep quickly, but her dream was not peaceful.

She dreamed of her own.

With her performance in the interview, she won the favor of the director from the actress who has someone behind her.

It's not a big production, but it's her first time as a heroine.

She played a female high school student with bright eyes and kind eyes. She was very popular with students and became a school belle as soon as she entered the school.

Song Yingshi in the dream entered the movie.

She was in physical education class, and she was so hot that she took off her school uniform jacket and was going to continue playing on the playground.

Someone behind her called her: "Song Yingshi."

Song Yingshi turned her head and saw Huaixu.

Huai Xu was wearing the same school uniform as hers, but somehow she looked spotless.It seems that the blue of the school uniform is more clean and clear for no reason on her body.

Unlike Song Yingshi, she was covered in stinky sweat, and a piece of dust from the railing was still rubbed on her cuffs.

Song Yingshi groaned, and before Huaixu could speak, she threw the coat she was about to put on the lawn at Huaixu.

Huai Xu frowned, looking like she wanted to hide, but finally stretched out her arms and caught it.

She stretched her arms, refusing to hold the clothes in her arms:

"The class teacher asked me to call you..."

"Wait until I finish this game! You take my clothes back first, do you know where I sit? Thanks!"

Huai Xu didn't look very happy, and stopped when he passed the big green trash can.

Song Yingshi was terrified from the perspective of God, thinking that Huai Xu was going to throw in her clothes in her dream, but luckily she didn't.

Holding the dirty coat, Huai Xu walked farther and farther on the red-brown floor tiles covered with fallen leaves, and his back disappeared into the teaching building.

"call……"

In the dream, Huai Xu had a pretty good temper.

Song Yingshi just felt relieved. On the third floor, Huai Xu entered the office. Within a minute, Song Yingshi's head teacher appeared in the corridor:

"Song Yingshi, come back and hear me!"

"?"

In the dream, this Huai Xu could make small reports!

The homeroom teacher in the script is a bel canto professional. He is full of anger and is known as the lion's roar in the Sixth Middle East. This cry broke Song Yingshi's dream and woke him up.

The room was darker than before she fell asleep.

Song Yingshi rubbed her face, got up and took a look, the rain outside had stopped and the sky was still cloudy.

Looking at the weather, it is estimated to be six or seven o'clock.

She slept for a long time.

Song Yingshi woke up with dry mouth and poured a whole glass of water to drink.

She glanced at the makeup mirror, only to realize that she hadn't removed her makeup yet.After removing the makeup and putting away the cosmetics, I plugged the camera back in and folded a quilt.

Finally, Song Yingshi looked around and couldn't find anything to do, so she slowly put on her shoes and went out to find Huaixu.

She is a 24-year-old adult, she is very mature, she must take responsibility, she must have courage, and she must actively communicate with Huaixu.

Find Huai Xu first.

When Song Ying went downstairs, she first went to find Lu Xue to hear them.

When Lu Xuewen saw her, she said:

"Xiao Shi, where's Huai Xu?"

Song Ying often hears this sentence, a common greeting in the past sounds inexplicably abrupt today.

Song Yingshi brushed her hair:

"I'm looking for her, isn't it with you?"

Tao Qin immediately said:

"Aren't you here, do you want us to help you find it?"

Song Yingshi smiled and said:

"You guys play, I'll go and see for myself."

Song Yingshi turned around and continued to look downstairs.

Because the White Tower has access control, the trainees are not allowed to go out at will, and Huai Xu is definitely still here.

But Song Yingshi just couldn't find her.

Not in the classroom, not in other dormitories, not on the benches outside.

There was nothing she could think of.

Song Yingshi was a little lost.She glanced at Mr. VJ who was following behind her, and had an impulse for a moment, and almost asked the question out of her mouth.

The program team must know where Huai Xu is.

But...does Huaixu want to be found by her?

Song Yingshi stood in front of the empty bench, momentarily uncertain.

She was hesitating when the window on the second floor above was pushed open, and Dan Silan's head poked out:

"Xiao Shi, I caught you! Come back and practice quickly!"

And tomorrow's performance.

Song Yingshi paused, agreed and walked to the classroom.

……

The good news is that after Song Yingshi practiced dancing for a while, Tao Qin came over and told her that Huai Xu was in the classroom of "Halfway".

She has come back.

Song Yingshi did not pass.

Both need training, their teammates need them, and now is not the time.

After she finished dancing, there was still sound in the classroom of "Halfway". Song Yingshi went back to the dormitory to wash up first.

Thinking that Huai Xu would always come back to sleep, she kept waiting after washing.

Song Yingshi has never felt so boring in a bedroom alone.

At the beginning, she jumped up and down twice to pass the time by doing the "surrender" action that she had memorized by heart.

Then he couldn't move, and fell on the bed, staring blankly at the direction of Huai Xu's bed, and suddenly remembered that night she secretly took off her clothes beside Huai Xu...

Song Yingshi was ashamed and embarrassed, and her toes began to shrink inward.

Can't recall.

Fortunately, Huai Xu didn't know anything.

Wait, she probably doesn't know...?

Song Yingshi suddenly became uncertain.

But then she thought about it, she is such a lively beauty, and what kind of relationship is she with Huai Xu, if Huai Xu knows that she is sleeping naked, can she not touch her?

It's fine if you don't touch her, there is no other reaction at all, is Huai Xu worthy of being a Ji cub?

Thinking differently, the world is very different, and Song Yingshi suddenly feels at ease.

It was impossible for Huai Xu to know.

Maybe she was thinking too much in a mess, and there was no one who could talk, and the bed was too comfortable, Song Yingshi closed her eyes at some point.

No matter how conscious she was, something seemed to fall on her body. Song Yingshi struggled to open her eyes, and in the dimness, she saw the back of Huai Xu leaving in front of her.

Song Yingshi woke up all of a sudden.

She propped herself up, looked at the tightly covered quilt, and then at Huai Xu, who was facing her back.

Song Yingshi said, "Huaixu, you're back."

Huai Xu hummed.

Although a bit indifferent, Song Yingshi was very contented to manage people anyway, and continued:

"Do you want to talk? If you're tired, we can talk tomorrow morning?"

"Talk about it?"

"I think there should be a conclusion to what happened this afternoon." Song Yingshi used her words carefully, "After all, you are my roommate and friend now, an artist of my company, and we will get along with each other in the future. A misunderstanding has already occurred, Now I want to minimize its impact."

"It won't affect anything."

"Ok?"

Song Yingshi was stunned, Huaixu turned to face her.

When she glanced at Song Ying indifferently, her expression was different from before, showing a little carelessness:

"If you're worried about that, you can rest easy. What was before is what is now."

"..."

Song Yingshi said "yes" dryly.

Faced with this sentence, she seemed unable to say anything other than "good".

Huai Xu directly gave her the result she wanted most.

Song Yingshi relaxed slightly, and said: "Then you go and wash up, there is still a meeting tomorrow. If you change your mind in the future, tell me anytime, and we can discuss it later, okay?"

Huai Xu looked at her.

Song Yingshi's heart tensed again:

"What's wrong? Or have you changed your mind now?"

Huai Xu snorted, and there was a graceful gesture in his eyes:

"I just looked at you, what are you afraid of?"

"..."

Song Yingshi felt that it was normal for her to be a little nervous when faced with such a pregnant woman.

"I was just thinking..."

When Huai Xu looked down at Song Ying from top to bottom, she seemed to want to see all the things hidden in her eyes from this angle, her voice was as cold as a winter spring, and with a touch of lingering spring water breaking the ice:

"Why can't you leave me?"

As soon as these words came out, Huai Xu clearly felt that Song Yingshi's breathing rhythm had changed.

Huai Xu smiled.

She knelt down in front of Song Yingshi, stretched out her arms, and buttoned the button on Song Yingshi's shirt that was about to be opened.

When she got up, she rubbed Song Yingshi's ear and said:

"be careful."

After a pause, Huai Xu said slowly:

"At least don't ask for my T-shirt and take it off on my bed like last time."