Canary runs with the ball

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As early as a few years ago, Li Ruijing accepted the reality that his father might leave him at any time.

When he was a child, the family's meager savings were only enough to afford Li Xinrong's most traditional chemotherapy treatment. The hospital that admitted them at that time said that if the cancer cells metastasized, Li Xinrong might not survive the winter of that year.

But Li Xinrong's fate was tough, he survived the winter, and he also survived the spring, summer, autumn and winter of the coming year.

Li Ruijing worked around to raise money, supporting his father while supporting himself.He is like a tenacious weed, relying on a little rain from heaven, he grew up in such a muddle-headed way.

After Li Ruijing approached Chen Yi, he replaced Li Xinrong with targeted therapy.Although the prices of medicines are sky-high, Li Ruijing gritted his teeth and could still afford them.Of course, the most important thing is that my father no longer has to be tortured by chemotherapy and cry in pain.

For a while, Li Xinrong's condition seemed to have really improved.He was not at the advanced stage of liver cancer when he was discovered, and with the continuous development of treatment technology, the hospital also recommended Li Ruijing to use immunotherapy to help Li Xinrong eliminate the remaining cancer cells in his body.

However, Li Xinrong's condition kept recurring. He and the hospital tried everything, but his father inevitably became weak.

No matter how high-end medical methods are, they can't match the patient's desire to die.

In fact, Li Ruijing knew in his heart that Li Xinrong didn't want to live long ago.

His disease has developed to an advanced stage, and he has no quality of life to speak of.In many cases, he has to rely on catheters for his life/physics/needs/demands such as eating and urinating, and his private/parts/are exposed to the eyes of the nurses all the time, and he can't even control his excretion/excretion.

He can't look forward to the hope of life, but also has to bear the pain of life. Living is already a burden for him.

It was Li Ruijing who unilaterally didn't want to give up, and unilaterally forced his father to stay in the world.

In the final analysis, he was too selfish, afraid that he would be alone after his father left.

... So even when my father died, he didn't want to see him for the last time.

Li Ruijing stood up in a daze, and slowly covered the white cloth over Li Xinrong's head.

His eyes were red, but no tears welled up.Li Ruijing suddenly figured it out. When Li Xinrong said "go", he was actually tired of such a dark life and asked Li Ruijing to let him go.

But as a son, he still stubbornly left him behind, leaving his father to linger in boundless despair for several months.

——He was really cruel to his father.

Lu Hong asked worriedly, "Are you okay?"

"...It's okay." Li Ruijing rubbed his restless abdomen, and said with a pale face, "There are still many things to deal with, can you help me?"

Lu Hong was very afraid that he would fall down suddenly after being hit too hard, so he hurriedly said, "Our family has relatives who do funeral things. I will arrange the funeral here. You don't have to worry about it."

Li Ruijing shook his head, "There's no need to do it, let's keep everything simple."

After Li Xinrong became a medicine jar, Wang Meilan raised money from relatives around her several times for medical treatment. Later, those people did not expect their mother and son to pay back the money, but only said that they would not see each other again, so they alienated their family one after another.

A few years later, Li Ruijing was able to earn money, and wanted to pay back the money to his relatives, only to find that those people could no longer be contacted.

Li Xinrong's funeral could be held with great fanfare, but no matter how grand it was, not many people came to express their condolences.

People hate it when they are alive, and there is no need to support this scene after death.Li Ruijing would rather spend more money to buy him a feng shui treasure for burial.

Li Xinrong's funeral was done in such a hurry that he didn't even enter the hospital's mortuary. That night, Li Ruijing asked someone to process the death certificate, and took his father's body directly to the funeral parlor for cremation.

The mortician reapplied Li Xinrong's makeup, his sallow and gray face was covered by layers of thick powder, and he looked as if he had really fallen asleep.

Li Ruijing didn't close his eyes all night, he was busy with the funeral, he was busy choosing the coffin, choosing the urn, getting the cremation certificate, and then watched the emaciated body being pushed into the cremation furnace.

My father was 1.8 meters tall and weighed less than 100 catties when he walked.He died after seven or eight years of suffering, humiliation and torture.

His body went in and came out again, and it became a jar of ashes.

It wasn't until this moment that Li Ruijing suddenly realized that his father was really gone.

The responsibilities and burdens that were on his shoulders also left in an instant.

In the past, because of Li Xinrong's illness, he was full of thoughts about money, and dreamed about how to make money.

But now, the motivation to support him is gone.

It was like a marionette whose wires were suddenly cut off, and he had no idea which foot to take next.

He didn't even understand what he was living for.

During Li Ruijing's ups and downs growing up, no one ever taught him that one should not live for others in this life.

A piece of his heart was hollowed out, and he suddenly lost his way forward.

**

After Li Xinrong's funeral was settled, Li Ruijing slept for a full day and two nights without a single drop of water.

The late pregnancy was a time when nutrition was urgently needed, and when he woke up, he just opened his eyes and looked at the hollow ceiling without saying a word.

Lu Hong was worried about him, the millet porridge was hot again and again, but Li Ruijing was still lying quietly.

"Eat something, or your body won't be able to take it."

Lu Hong didn't know how many times he said this sentence, but Li Ruijing was as stiff as a corpse, motionless, only the fetus in his womb struggled weakly.

Lu Hong touched his stomach, the little guy inside had never been hungry for so long, he punched and kicked to vent his grievance and dissatisfaction, and when he got to the back, his movements became weaker.

Knowing that the child couldn't delay any longer, he said angrily, "You don't want to eat, do you? If you don't want to eat, I have to let you eat."

Lu Hong completely lost his patience, he dragged him up to the head of the bed, pinched Li Ruijing's chin and poured porridge into it.

The hot porridge flowed in from his slightly parted lips, but soon after, Li Ruijing spat it out unconsciously, and he didn't swallow it at all.

Lu Hong was so angry that he threw the bowl, and the porcelain bowl fell to the ground and fell to pieces. The sound of the fragments exploding made Li Ruijing tremble consciously. Lu Hong cursed, "You want to die, don't you?!"

"..."

"If you want to die, spend the last two months, give birth to the child, and don't let it die with you!" He cursed, then put his arms around Li Ruijing's thin shoulders, and said with heartache, "Li Ruijing, you are not underage anymore. , you have to assume the responsibility of a father."

Li Ruijing finally had a reaction. In fact, the child had been moving all the time. It had never experienced any hardships. It only cut off water and food for a day, and it was so noisy.Holding his trembling abdomen, Li Ruijing suddenly burst into tears, "Lu Hong, can I be more selfish?..."

...I really want to take it with me.

He couldn't finish this sentence, and suddenly realized that he was too cruel to the child.

It was he who brought it into the world in a daze, and once used it as a bargaining chip, but now, it was he who wanted to give up everything and obliterate the existence of this little life.

But why should he make decisions for a life that is about to be born.

When Li Ruijing cried, he was silent. Lu Hong watched and watched, and a few tears burst out uncontrollably in the depth of his love.He hugged Li Ruijing into his arms, stroked that thin back, and choked up, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry...I just don't want to see you like this."

Li Ruijing finally agreed to eat something, Lu Hong got up and went to the kitchen, intending to make him a bowl of steamed eggs.

But before Ren could reach the door, the anti-theft door of the rental house was photographed loudly.

Lu Hong was taken aback. He quickly wiped away his tears, grabbed the baseball bat and walked slowly to the back of the door. He was hesitating whether to open the door, when Chen Yizhong's angry voice came from the other side.

"Li Ruijing, open the door for me!"

Chen Yi has a history of disturbing the people here, and Li Ruijing walked out of the house with his back propped up when he heard the commotion.

Lu Hong said urgently, "Go back to the house and lie down, I will send him away."

Li Ruijing shook his head and said hoarsely, "It's okay, let him in."

It's time to end the entanglement between him and Chen Yi. Although this is not a good time, it can't be delayed any longer.

Lu Hong hesitated, and finally opened the door at Li Ruijing's insistence.

Chen Yi opened the door and entered, and immediately saw Lu Hong who was holding a baseball bat as if he was facing an enemy, and then Li Ruijing who was standing in the corner leaning on the wall.

That angle was a bit against the light, and Chen Yi couldn't see Li Ruijing's state clearly.He pushed Lu Hong away in twos and walked straight towards Li Ruijing.

After all, I haven't seen you for two months. At first glance, I still feel that Li Ruijing has changed a lot.

He seemed to have just cried, his face was pale, only the corners of his eyes were red, and he looked weak and swollen.

Chen Yi had never seen Li Ruijing look so haggard. This kid always came to see him after tidying himself up and looking refreshed. He rarely had any embarrassing moments.

...Except for the time when she was crying in his arms in the hospital.

But even though Li Ruijing in front of him was in a bad state, his whole body was swollen, and he looked ugly, but Chen Yi didn't feel disgusted at all, instead he wanted to hug the child into his arms and rub it.

Fortunately, before doing so, he looked down.Then he saw Li Ruijing's swollen abdomen abruptly blocking in front of the two of them.

Chen Yi raised half of the hand that was about to hug his shoulder, then it fell in mid-air, and then carefully pressed it against Tuan Yuanlong.He thought it was soft, but it turned out to be very solid. With a little effort, he could touch a hard object, like the outline of a fetus.

It's been two months, and the child... has grown up a lot.

There was a faint kick under his palm. Li Ruijing held his wrist expressionlessly and slowly took his hand away.

Although Li Ruijing didn't use much effort, Chen Yi still noticed it. This was an extremely obvious signal of rejection.

He lowered his face and moved his hands away, suddenly remembering the purpose of this trip.

"A week ago, why didn't you come here?"

"..."

"I called you five times, and you/he/mother hung up on three!"

Li Ruijing looked up at him, sighed deeply, and said, "Sorry, I missed the appointment."

Such a fluffy apology obviously couldn't relieve Chen Yi's anger.But Li Ruijing's stomach was full. He didn't dare to touch others, and he didn't dare to beat them, so he felt aggrieved.

Lu Hong hesitated behind him, "He... his family—"

Li Ruijing cut off the conversation suddenly, stroked the fetus and said, "I'm very hungry now, I want to eat something first. If you have anything to say, we'll talk after eating."

Chen Yi looked at him, then at his stomach, and nodded.

I don't know when it started, but among them, Li Ruijing became the one who took the lead.