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The person holding him was so thin that his hands were shaking, the shoulder blades protruded very clearly, but the bony hands were tightly tightened, and he knelt on the ward and buried his face into Wu Chu's shoulder.

"Give up."

"..."

The person holding him tightly trembled slightly, but still held him tightly without moving.

"I say the last time, it's time to let go."

Wu Chu, who was standing there with a wooden stake, cursed and said, "If you don't let go, believe it or not, I'll throw you out of the window?"

In the next second, warm tears flowed down Wu Chu's neck, soaking the small piece of clothing on his shoulder blade.

Chu E's difficult voice suddenly rang out in the ward: "Did Chu Xi tell you everything?"

Wu Chu's hand that wanted to tear off the person on his shoulder stopped in mid-air. He looked at the falling snow not far away, but didn't speak.

Chu E knelt on the ward, tightening his hands around the people in front of him more and more. His voice was calm but trembling: "You know that if I have another operation, it will be worse than death, brother."

Forgetting Wu Chu is more uncomfortable than asking him to die.

Wu Chu only stared at the foggy snow outside the glass window, feeling that the cloth on the shoulder blade was soaked more and more, and the hands holding him in his arms tightened more and more.

Chu Xi did tell him everything about Chu E.

In the phone call on the balcony, Chu Xi only talked half of everything, and the last sentence he said to Chu Xi was "I can't control this matter."

Because it all looked too much like a death-defying drama.

The Chu family has studied Chu E's disease for so many years, how could it be possible to only study this high-risk operation?How is it possible that there is no other safer solution besides this solution?

Maybe in the end, maybe he can persuade Chu E to come back, and then what?Could it be that once Chu E seeks death, he will abandon Yin Jin and try to persuade him non-stop?

Not to mention Yin Jin could bear this grievance, it was impossible for him to watch Yin Jin suffer this grievance.

It doesn't matter if he himself is forced, why should the people around him be forced?

What he said to Yin Jin was not only for Yin Jin, but also for himself.

Even though Wu Chu, who had said those words that night, dreamed about the past, he never wavered.

That night, he dreamed that Chu E was sitting quietly in a wheelchair when he was a teenager, and dreamed that Chu E was standing by the bedside of his high fever all night, trembling in panic for the first time, and his face was terrifyingly pale.

Those miscellaneous past events and current events are constantly intertwined and repeated, playing back and forth in Wu Chu's mind, tearing people's consciousness down continuously.

In his mind for a while, Chu E was with him in front of his mother's grave, and Chu E hugged him tremblingly from crying, whispering over and over again, "Brother, you still have me." In front of him, with red eyes, he kept pleading, "I was wrong, I was really wrong..."

Those intertwined and chaotic memories seemed to hit Wu Chu's head heavily like a sharp subway hammer, and then poured into his mind like a tide, making him wake up suddenly in the middle of the night.

Wu Chu woke up in the early morning of that night. He looked at Yin Jin who was sleeping next to him, but he got up very lightly and went to the living room. He didn't smoke or speak, but sat motionless on the sofa in the living room with the lights off. Stayed for half the night.

Until that time, Wu Chu was still gritted his teeth, telling himself over and over again that it was Chu E who forced himself to die.

Chu E is the most attacking person, he knows what Wu Chu cares most about, and what he can't stand the most in his heart, he has to hold on.

And one day after that day, Chu Xi knew that he would not answer his calls again, so he chose to send him a long, long text message, telling him everything about Chu E.

That is to say, from that text message, Wu Chu knew that his previous thoughts were correct.

During the more than ten years of studying Chu E's condition, the Chu family has developed a treatment plan with lower risk in the early years. Experiments and technical means are relatively mature.

But Chu E was unwilling to use this already researched solution. Even in the early stage of research and development, Chu E showed extreme resistance and disgust after knowing the treatment plan, and forcibly stopped the plan.

This treatment plan is similar to brain white matter cutting surgery, which will cause certain damage to the functional areas of brain tissue. In the existing clinical trials, all people who have complications and sequelae are memory function damage.

A large number of complication data show that this impairment of memory function is almost irreversible.

Chu E never took this treatment plan seriously.

In Chu E's view, the fear that this treatment plan brought to him was even more terrifying than his death on the operating table.

This reason made Wu Chu feel extremely absurd and unbelievable.

Life and memory, which one is more important can not be seen at a glance?

But such an absurd and unbelievable thing seems to be reasonable again when it is placed on Chu E.

After all, Chu E has been an abnormal person since he was a child, and he is extremely paranoid about him. In his opinion, the only thing that can completely separate him from Wu Chu in this world is death.

He did not allow anything other than death to separate him from Wu Chu.

After receiving that text message, Wu Chu went out to buy cigarettes for the first time when Yin Jin was not at home. He sat silently on the seat at the entrance of the supermarket, pinching the cigarette case in his hand until it was almost deformed.

Finally, after several days of insomnia, he finally sent Chu Xi a message, telling Chu Xi that he would go to the hospital.

Wu Chu tore off the person lying on his shoulder and said nonchalantly, "No one can force you to make a choice."

"Do you think you can write off all the shit you did before?"

"I will coax you to live because of conscience?"

Chu E just stared at him blankly.

With a bit of disgust, Wu Chu took out several tissue papers to wipe the tear on his shoulder and said, "You think too well."

In front of him, Chu E seemed to be unable to control her chest, and a choked sob burst out in front of him.

Wu Chu immediately became vigilant and said, "You fucking cry again?"

"Believe it or not, I beat you up?"

In the next second, Chu E stared at him with red eyes, tears streaming down her face and said in a trembling voice, "You are here to persuade me to accept that treatment plan..."

"You just want me to forget you..."

He tried his best not to let out a sob, but because of the strong excitement, the breath in his chest was not enough, which made the sob sound extra loud.

In short, I cried even worse than before.

Wu Chu: "..."

damn it.

Can't understand people's words?

He gritted his teeth and said, "Use whichever you like, I don't care."

After coming this trip, he did what he could do within his ability, and since then he has a clear conscience.

Chu E listened to his words, his eyes were red, and he looked at Wu Chu for a long time, until Wu Chu turned around and left, he said: "I'm sorry."

He murmured: "Let you encounter those things."

Wu Chu paused after turning around, and heard the person behind him say to him, "I'm really sorry."

With some difficulty, Chu E stretched out her hand, grabbed the corner of Wu Chu's clothes in front of her and said in a hoarse voice, "Talk to me one last time."

Let's have one last word with this Chu E.

Wu Chu was quiet, then suddenly said: "I told you earlier that I regretted saving you."

"This sentence is false."

Just as they who had a close friendship more than ten years ago would not have expected their relationship to come to this point today, when Wu Chu rescued Chu E at the beginning, he did not think about regretting it.

During the most difficult period when he returned to Wu's house, it was Chu E who lived with him, and they couldn't tell each other clearly.

Chu E let go of her hand, and murmured with red eyes: "Okay..."

He looked at the back of Wu Chu walking towards the door of the ward without looking back, and said in a soft voice: "If I ask you one day, do I know you."

"Just say you don't know him."

He didn't want to bring surprise to his Wu Chu again.

Wu Chu put his hand on the doorknob, and said to the nonsensical conversation, "Okay."

He pushed open the door of the ward, raised his eyes and said lightly to the people outside the door: "Wait a while."

"I said I can go in and then go in."

Chu Xi's hurried footsteps stopped abruptly under Wu Chu's words, he swallowed the words in his mouth, and nodded towards Wu Chu.

A few minutes later, Wu Chu folded his arms and leaned against the door of the ward, guarding the people in the ward.

He didn't know if Chu E, who was crying like that, was ready to meet people, so he could only guard at the door of the ward for more than ten minutes.

When he felt that it was almost done, he stood up straight and said to Chu Xi, "Go in."

Wu Chu walked towards the corridor, Chu Xi quickly caught up with him and said, "I'll see you off..."

Before he finished speaking, Wu Chu took out the mask from his pocket, waved to him and said, "No need."

He tactfully said, "The one inside may need you more."

Cry like that.

After finishing speaking, Wu Chu took a big step and walked towards the elevator without looking back.

In the ward, Chu E struggled to get up and stood in front of the glass window, holding on to the edge of the glass window, as if he wanted to see someone, staring blankly at the exit of the hospital.

But he didn't see anyone in a black coat and a peaked cap.

Only the foggy snow fell more and more, as if he would never be able to wait for that person.

Chu E stood motionless in front of the glass window, and it wasn't until more than ten minutes later that he saw his familiar figure, with quick steps, that figure quickly disappeared into the white snow.

Chu E's fingertips slowly followed the familiar figure, as if wanting to remember that figure thoroughly and forcefully in his mind, he outlined that figure over and over again.

Death is not scary to him, he has dealt with the god of death since he was born, and it is common for him to go to the gate of hell that others can't go through a few times in this life.

In his world, what is more painful than death is to be completely separated from Wu Chu.

Chu E was not reconciled, more than anyone else.

Obviously he was the one who met Wu Chu, and he was more qualified than anyone else to stand by Wu Chu's side.

So because of those unwilling and pathological possessiveness, he did not pay the price, but made Wu Chu pay the price.

He couldn't control this almost pathological possessiveness, nor could he control the unwillingness that tormented him day and night.

But he can no longer make Wu Chu pay the price.

It doesn't matter if the price he pays is accepting something more painful than death.

This is the first time he has learned restraint and how to make the person in front of him nice.

It was also the last thing he could do for Wu Chu.

Chu E looked out the window. In the foggy and heavy snow, he saw a few snowflakes falling very close together, and falling further away with the cold wind.

Just like the butterfly fluttering its wings in Wu Chu's palm under the bright sun, it flew to a farther place with the wind.

Finally, Chu E looked at those snowflakes and thought, in fact, he is very easy to coax.

As long as Wu Chu came to hug him and coax him, he would do anything.