The third year after the death of the emperor

Tong Tong already knew what he wanted to do.

It is almost impossible to get rid of the dog emperor with external force and other people's assistance.Xiao Xuanqian is like a person blowing the wind in the cold winter, he keeps hugging, holding on, and refuses to let go, because Huaiyu is the last warm imprint in his heart, and he is not willing to part with another life.

But the Xiao Xuanqian in front of him is not the same as three years ago. He seems to have had enough of the pain of not having Xie Wen by his side, and he is so tortured that he is extremely afraid of losing the other party. But the only thing that can surpass the two words of life and separation is death... ...Fearing that Huaiyu will disappear completely is the weakness of a wolf clutching at his heart.

"...Do you want to try his sincerity?" Tongtong murmured in a low voice, "He is very unpredictable and fickle, how could he try it out?"

Although she said so, she also knew that it was because of Xiao Jiu's fickleness that she needed to cut open his flesh and pierce his flesh and blood to take a closer look at his heart.

Tongtong was speechless, and finally said only one sentence: "If you can't stand it, just hide." Then he stopped making a sound.

The beating candle flame was extinguished, and in the silent and dark surroundings, Xiao Xuanqian's fingers were gently carried by the other party, touching the button of his clothes.

He never expected that the other party would have such a move, Xiao Xuanqian has not reacted until the other party's hand with his knuckles, according to Xie Wen's pace and rhythm, he unbuttoned his shirt, and the outer robe slipped loosely.

He exposed his neck.Xiao Xuanqian's fingertips touched the slightly cold skin of the teacher, he immediately suppressed it as if he was scalded, but he did not withdraw his hand, but whispered: "Teacher."

Xie Wen said: "Come here."

Xiao Xuanqian still had the instinct to obey his orders, he walked around the table, put one hand on the back of the chair, and the other hand passed through the opponent's waist to the back.This action can easily hug Xie Wen, but he didn't continue, but hesitated: "You today..."

"Hold me to bed."

Xiao Xuanqian suspected that his ears were broken, otherwise how could he hear such words, he followed his words and gently hugged Xie Wen to the bed.Just when he was about to ask again, Xie Wen held his wrist and let him feel the bite mark on the back of his neck.

That trace once brought great comfort to Xiao Xuanqian at certain times, restraining his psychological defense line that was about to collapse completely, but at the moment when rubbing it, it seemed to be questioning his sin and his fault.

Xiao Xuanqian's throat rolled slowly, he didn't understand what the other party meant, his heart seemed to be burning with a fire that could hurt at the touch, he asked in a low voice, feeling the embarrassment of the outbreak of guilt in this situation: "Are you... still blaming me?"

Xie Wen leaned over, took the initiative to hug him, and leaned on the other's shoulder and said softly: "Is it your fault for being close to you?"

The tone was clearly very light, but Xiao Xuanqian was stunned suddenly. Like a person who was cold all day long and couldn't bear such intense light and heat for a while, he lost his mind for a moment in the night when the lights and candles were all extinguished, and then whispered: "Why are you ...to me hot and cold."

Xie Wen didn't answer.

But Xiao Xuanqian didn't want to ask further questions, whether it's hot or cold, a momentary relationship, even using him as a tool to relieve emotions...anything is fine, as long as Xie Huaiyu is willing to get close to him and accept him, that is The best thing in the world.

As he thought about it, his whole body seemed to wake up, his restraint collapsed instantly, he lowered his head to hold the other's cheek, and pressed his cool lips.

Still very gentle, he tried his best to make Xie Wen stop being afraid, exhausted all the gentle means in his mind, all the tricks to please him, but when his hand was unconsciously pressed against the back of the other's neck, he still heard a trace of Disordered breathing.

The psychological shadow rooted in the body began to attack.

Xie Wen closed his eyes and tried to overcome it with willpower for the first time. He suppressed the panic and even forced himself to kiss back. He tried his best to be normal and as if nothing had happened, but the fingers he held were still slightly Trembling, as if he had remembered a feeling of pain.

Xiao Xuanqian was immersed in this surprise, he didn't notice Xie Wen's hiding for a while, and really thought that the teacher was not so afraid anymore.

Xie Wen was pressed against his shoulder by his palm, which was obviously a comforting move, but to him, even the slightest force seemed to be covered with thorns, as if he would hurt himself in the next moment.He couldn't help thinking of running away, avoiding, and quickly rejecting him, but he bit the tip of his tongue, but he didn't say a word after all.

The red-gold imperial suit was thrown at the corner of the bed, and the young man's hot and warm body temperature leaked through the underwear.Xiao Xuanqian's breath was hot, and it sounded close to his ears: "I won't make trouble anymore, don't worry...it won't hurt."

When he said the word "pain", Xie Wen endured until his almost empty mind seemed to be stabbed hard. He turned his eyes back, obviously he couldn't see anything in the dark night, but he seemed to be able to After so many years, I can accurately recall some unbearable past events.

won't it hurt?

...Impossible, you hurt me the most.

When Xiao Xuanqian kissed him again, Xie Wen felt the fear of being clenched in his heart again. He couldn't breathe, his finger bones were stretched white, and he had reached the limit of his endurance, but he didn't have the strength to pull away until Xiao Xuanqian Lifting his chin with his fingers, he suddenly touched a bit of cold, moist liquid.

Xiao Xuanqian froze in place, after a while, he slowly wiped away the other party's tears.Xie Wen also discovered that he was so afraid that he shed tears... He is calm and rational, and rarely shows such a weak side.

"Huaiyu..." Xiao Xuanqian said in a hoarse voice, "I'll light the lamp, let me see you."

Xie Wen was silent for a moment, and squeezed out a sentence from her throat: "No."

This time, Xiao Xuanqian heard clearly the weak and weak words in his words, and felt the trembling and cold body of the other party. He suddenly remembered the same thing when the other party was terrified a few days ago... But why, why did he Force yourself to obey Me?

He blamed himself for being at a loss, and he didn't know how to make the other party better. For him, it was more unacceptable for Xie Wen to torture himself than to torture him.Xiao Xuanqian cut off his own desires, kept a relatively safe distance from the other party, and just held his hand tightly: "...don't be afraid, don't do this. Teacher, I will treat you well, you don't have to do this, I I will really treat you well..."

"Xiao Jiu." Xie Wen called him, "How are you going to treat me?"

Xiao Xuanqian subconsciously wanted to answer, but was immediately stunned.

Status and power, Xie Wen used to be an extremely personable minister, so it is not so rare, gold, silver and jewelry, he often has little interest in it, and beautiful wives and concubines are even more nonsense, not to mention that he will not give them.What he can give to the other party is really limited, and when you get to the bottom of it, there are only violations and threats to him, and to him...

But from the beginning, Xiao Xuanqian had nothing to give him. From the beginning to the end, Xie Huaiyu was a high-ranking giver. He could treat him with compassion and tenderness, and he was also qualified to leave without looking back.He could only do everything he could think of to get the teacher to look at him more.

After Xie Wen finished asking this sentence, the sense of chaos caused by fear eased a little. The distance between the two separated him, and he was much better. During the three years of separation, he thought that his sequelae had been cured, but when he really came in front of Xiao Jiu, He was still inevitably drawn into the vortex again and again.

"Do you want to continue?" Xie Wen's voice was slightly hoarse after crying, although he didn't even know when he cried. He didn't know whether it was because of the after-effects, or because of the time when he was close to the other party. , The pain of being pierced by regret and disappointment often appears in my heart.

"No..." Xiao Xuanqian paused, feeling the torment again in the silence, he continued in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

"I asked you to come here, so you don't need to apologize." Xie Wen said, "Then go to sleep."

After saying this, he leaned against the inner side of the bed and covered the quilt, and lay down with his back to Xiao Jiu, neither inviting nor expelling him.And Xiao Xuanqian sat where he was, even though the surroundings were in an infinite darkness, he seemed to be able to see the other party from a place without light.

Xiao Xuanqian didn't know if the other party was asleep, but hearing the sound of breathing, he should still be awake. He lowered his voice, and said softly: "Are you... still crying?"

Long gone.Xie Wen thought, how can a big man have so many tears.

"I didn't know you were still afraid, I thought you..." All the words in this world seem to be indescribable, he spoke vigorously and resolutely in the court, but at this moment, he can't even say a sincere and complete sentence that can make people happy Can't come out, "I should have noticed earlier." The other party still didn't respond.But this dead silence is actually calming.

"Every time you suppress and wrong yourself and show kindness to me, I feel as if I'm about to lose you... You are obviously locked by my side and stay by my pillow, but I seem to be separated from you by thousands of miles." Li Yuan, you just came down from the clouds, met me by chance, and treated me casually once."

The way he whispered was very similar to His Highness the Ninth Prince many years ago.

"...I want too much, don't I?" He asked a question that no one answered, and after a while he talked to himself again, "If I have been sunk in the dark, no one will light a candle for me , then for the rest of this life, I will not chase that light to the point of obsession."

"If only I hadn't met... No, it would be great if the teacher hadn't met me. Some of those people are stupid, some are ignorant, some are cowardly... But they all have mothers who love them, and they are all protected and accompanied. They will all do better than me.”

Xiao Xuanqian got up to leave, he closed the bed curtain, and did not light up the lamp in front of the tent until the end, but before he left, he still turned his head, knowing that Xie Wen should not be able to hear it, but couldn't help whispering: "Teacher, tomorrow..."

He didn't finish, because Xie Wen probably didn't want to see him tomorrow, so he just said it in his heart.

See you tomorrow.

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Although Xie Wen is reserved in the face of feelings, she is not weak.He confirmed in his heart that Xiao Jiu was different and there was indeed an element of love in it. He had no excuse and would not be annoyed by it, but he also confirmed another point - he could not be by this person's side.

In the next few days, Jian Fengzhi acted as a microphone to deliver a few messages to Xie Wen and Shen Yuexiao. The most recent time, Mr. Shen didn't even reply to the letter, but directly dictated the response, and let Jian Fengzhi personally convey it to Xie Wen.

"He said that he will help you, but the things will not be delivered until later." Jian Fengzhi honestly repeated these four words, and then collected the serious stories in the capital today, some Western playthings, rare treasures He took it out from his arms and piled it all beside Xie Wen's desk.

"I see." Xie Wen said, "I didn't hold out hope...Thank Shen Yuexiao for me."

"What are you guys discussing?" Jian Fengzhi was dizzy, "Just bullying me that I can't read well, I wrote letters at first, and then I wrote poems directly - what, you two make friends through literature?"

"No." Xie Wen explained, "It's just that you are illiterate, and others will always know, so it's inconvenient to talk about what we're talking about."

"That's right, people look through it every day when you enter and exit Ziwei Palace. If you two wrote something, I would have been caught by His Majesty long ago." Jian Fengzhi stared at him reading, dipped his hand into the ink marks on the edge of the inkstone, and was caught. He slapped his hand, then retracted abruptly, "What's the matter, why don't you tell me?"

"It's not that I don't want to tell you, but I'm afraid that you might accidentally say something wrong." Xie Wen said, "Ziwei's guards are also watching you very closely."

"That's true..." Jian Fengzhi gave up his investigation in a contented manner. He also knew that although his mouth was strict, his brain was not enough, and Master Xiao Shen would give up the whole truth with just a few words.

"By the way, Shen Yuexiao said he wanted to investigate the Zhou family's background. Did you find anything?" Xie Wen put down her pen and temporarily put it on the pen holder.Although he felt that these gadgets were childish toys, but because Jian Fengzhi was also kind, he wanted to show face and showed interest, and asked, "Did he tell you?"

It's good that Xie Wen didn't ask, but as soon as this matter was mentioned, Jian Fengzhi's expression became extremely complicated. He lowered his head and thought for a moment, then said: "He said it, but I still don't believe it."

"You still don't believe it?"

"Yes," Jian Fengzhi said, "I'm waiting for evidence."

"This is why you went to Shen's residence these few days?"

Xiao Jian nodded, showing a trace of uneasiness, and said: "Shen Yuexiao said, Mr. Zhou... Zhou Mian's deployment, that is, the Zhou family's cronies have already taken care of all the soldiers, horses, manpower, and people in the world. , as a chess piece. He really has the intention of treason, but you just happened to appear, so he changed his strategy midway."

"Xiao Xuanqian controls the capital as a monolith, and he may not be able to succeed even if he tries his best." Xie Wen said suddenly.

"During the search of Zhou's mansion, a lot of evidence was obtained in the secret prison, but it was not yet clear, so they didn't tell me." Jian Fengzhi continued, "Master Shen means that they revealed the location of me and my father to the enemies. , As for the heavy snow rescue and gratitude, they are all tricks they used to, even the father-in-law Wen Cheng in the palace bought the hearts of the people according to this method, but Mr. Xiao Shen is His Majesty's confidant, so..."

Xie Wen was silent for a moment, then said: "So you don't believe it."

Jian Fengzhi also fell silent, he is still young, he still doesn't know how complicated and difficult to understand love and hatred, grievances and interests in the world.

Xie Wen flicked the twisting wooden seesaw behind the toy with her fingers, and the ugly mechanical frog jumped up and down on Jian Fengzhi's face with a snap. The boy hurriedly caught it and shouted : "Thank you, sir!"

"Ok?"

"You can't put it on me!" Xiao Jian accused.

"I didn't, it jumped over by itself." Xie Wen said without changing his face, and then picked up a mechanism bird that was also ugly and colorful, twisted the seesaw, and the bird flew to Jane. Fengzhi's chest lightly bumped against his chest.

Jian Fengzhi watched the bird fly over, and reprimanded loudly: "You see, you obviously—"

"Obviously they are the ones looking for you." Xie Wen interrupted him leisurely, a bit presumptuous, but after a pause, he saw that Jian Fengzhi had forgotten what happened just now, so he smiled and asked him, "Be happy." Yet?"

Jian Fengzhi was stunned for a moment, blinked, and after realizing it, he deliberately said: "No, you won't lie to others, right?"

Will do.Xie Wen smiled and said nothing, thinking in her heart that the little emperor can be easily coaxed, whether it is an umbrella, a flute, a grumpy kitten, or a few chess records that others don't like, just tell Xiao Jiu that it is He will be very happy with any gift you give him.

Jian Fengzhi put aside the gloom just now, looked around, and indeed saw Cui Sheng not far away. These two eunuchs often appeared outside the palace, but at such a distance, the waiters couldn't hear them. He heard what they said, but he still couldn't help lowering his voice, and said furtively: "I can't find Doctor Zhang, even if I say I'm worried about you and want to ask about your illness, I can't see him, Mr. Zhang But for His Majesty's imperial use..."

Xie Wen nodded lightly, which was actually expected, he was not disappointed, and asked again: "Is that Feng Qijun still handing out paperwork?"

"Oddly enough, he stopped playing all of a sudden."

"Well." Xie Wen said, "It seems that those letters have worked."

Among the letters passed on to Shen Yuexiao, in addition to some trivial words of exhortations, there were also many words of nostalgia for old friends and sad words about freedom being bound. These were written after his temptation. He was sure that Xiao Xuanqian would send someone to After reading these letters, even if he finishes writing them today, the content will be dictated to the imperial court by some secret guard official.

But he also believes that not only will Xiao Jiu not criticize Feng Qijun and others, but he will also approve the other party's memorial and give him a chance to meet... The little emperor has blamed himself too much recently. madly.

"Letter..." Jian Fengzhi couldn't figure it out.

Xie Wen had an obsessive-compulsive disorder attack, picked up the frogs and birds made by those institutions and placed them neatly, without explaining to him, just said casually: "Feng Qijun received the secret decree and got what he wanted, so naturally he will stop making trouble. Finally Three days later, tonight at the earliest, he will stand here and wipe his tears on me again... People say that after three days, I am impressed, but now that I have been away for three years, I wonder if there is any improvement?"

The author has something to say: writing abuse is too exhausting, so just write this one.Thank you for liking, don't read the comments before the end, it will be affected.Readers are free to discuss, Bobo.