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Luo Xuesong knew that he was very strange.

Although Luo Xuesong didn't know exactly when it started, but he remembered that when he was in the third grade of elementary school, someone told Luo Xuesong that a boy sitting in the last row of the classroom was dating a girl from the next class.

What exactly is dating? This is a very difficult topic for a third-grade elementary school student. Luo Xuesong is just sensible, but it doesn't mean he is smart, so he doesn't understand.

However, Luo Xuesong, who didn't know what dating was, realized one thing at this time, he liked boys.

It's not the general liking of boys and boys playing football and cycling together, nor the kind of liking of girls talking with girls intimately. Luo Xuesong knows that he likes boys, but this seems to be different from the liking he knows.

When encountering things that he doesn’t understand, he should ask questions. Mother Luo taught him this way, but Luo Xuesong vaguely understood that this is not a question that can be asked.

Luo Xuesong was very scared.

Why are you so weird?Why should he be different from others?Why is he different?Why can't he ask questions?Why does he need to be afraid?

There are too many reasons hidden in this little boy's heart, and he is so afraid that he doesn't know how to solve them.

In the end, Luo Xuesong, who had been troubled by this inexplicable anxiety for a long time, made up his mind to seek answers from his mother, who he thought would help him.

However, he never saw his energetic mother again, because she died with his father.

The strong backing, the fortress of happiness, all the things that gave Luo Xuesong a sense of security disappeared at this moment, nothing.

How to do?

The gentle aunt hugged him and his sister and said, "I'll take care of you."

A shelter from the wind and rain, delicious food, a strict but kind elder——Luo Xuesong returned home, and he felt the warmth of home again.Therefore, he took his younger sister and lived there with peace of mind and gratitude. He loved his aunt, and also his aunt's husband, the uncle who loved him and his sister unconditionally.

Luo Xuesong thought that he was happy—until that day...

The icy heavy rain raided the crowd immersed in the happy atmosphere of the Spring Festival. Fortunately, the uncle who had not finished his work and Luo Xuesong who had homework in the cram school got home first, and the aunt and sister who were afraid of the cold also stayed safely at the grandmother's house. well.

In the evening, the rain still did not stop. Luo Xuesong, who planned to get up again tomorrow to do his homework, said good night to his uncle who was watching TV, and went to bed early.

Outside the window, the sound of crackling rain kept slipping into Luo Xuesong's ears, which aroused his concern so much that he never fell asleep.I don't know how long it took, Luo Xuesong, who was lying on the bed in a daze, heard the sound of the door opening, he thought, it was probably uncle, he might be worried that he would kick the quilt in such a cold day, so he fell asleep peacefully .

However, one hand reached into the bed, the other hand groped, and then... into Luo Xuesong's clothes.

What is this doing?

Luo Xuesong struggled slightly, opened his eyes, and wanted to say something.

"Aunt... um!"

With strange expressions and strange movements, the man in front of him no longer looked like someone Luo Xuesong knew.

He was panting, as if he wanted to show something on his face, but what Luo Xuesong saw was a disgusting face.

Waving his hands and kicking his feet, Luo Xuesong felt that he had to do something to escape the current situation.

However, he couldn't escape, his hands and feet were suppressed, and Luo Xuesong, who was still a child, could only watch helplessly as his uncle, who had always treated him and his sister tenderly, took off his clothes, took off his pants, and...

Uncle is no longer uncle.

The heart-piercing pain was transmitted from the lower body to the brain, Luo Xuesong, whose heart was occupied by unspeakable sadness, could only hear the sound of rain dripping non-stop by the window.

"Tick...tick..."

The whole world has disappeared, Luo Xuesong thinks so.

He was once again abandoned by the world in the cold rainy night when no one heard.

Why do I have to suffer this way?Before fainting, Luo Xuesong, with tears in his eyes, asked his mother who had abandoned him.

When I woke up, I was already lying on a hospital bed.

"Xedong, are you okay?" A frightening face appeared beside the bed.

Luo Xuesong got out of bed in fright and wanted to escape.

"What's the matter, Xuesong, the fever is too high, are you confused?"

do not come!don't come here!

"Good boy, I'm your uncle, I'm the one who provides for you and Xuemei to study and eat."

Xuemei?Yes, Xuemei!Where is Xuemei?Where is Xuemei!

"Don't worry, Xuemei is fine. Doesn't she live with your aunt at your grandmother's house? You see, it's rare for the old man to like your sister so much. Let's not disturb them. You...you have to work hard to recover before they come back."

recovery?Why am I here?Why do I need rehab?

"Be good, nothing will happen. I will make money, go to school for you and your sister, buy clothes for you, live in you, and eat for you. Don't worry, I have always loved you the most, and your aunt also confessed , let me take good care of you. So, you have to remember, you were hospitalized with a fever, and nothing happened last night, you know? If you are obedient, nothing will happen. You are fine, and Xuemei will be fine too. .”

……

Xuemei will be fine...

Xuemei will be fine only if I obey...

nothing happened last night...

I have a fever……

"Yes, you are so smart, Xuesong, you are really obedient. Come on, be obedient, lie down on the bed and recuperate. Uncle, go talk to the doctor now, you must be obedient."

After finishing speaking, the person left. In the empty ward, there was only a pale and emaciated little boy.

Mom and Dad are gone, they said, I am an older brother and I have to take good care of my younger sister.

I am brother, I am brother, I am brother...

A week later, the aunt took Xuemei home, and when she learned that Luo Xuesong was hospitalized, she was so angry that she scolded the uncle who had concealed it.

"Xue Song, Auntie is here, are you all right?"

Auntie had real worry and distress on her face, and Luo Xuesong understood that Auntie really loved him and his sister.

"Auntie," smiled weakly, "I'm fine, don't worry."

From then on, Luo Xuesong learned how to lie.

However, the pain and fear buried in the bottom of my heart can't be covered up no matter how I pretend.

He could no longer sleep peacefully in the rainy night, and the winter rain reminded him of the shuddering coldness.In order not to let anyone find out, he hid in the room, gritted his teeth, and hid everything in the dark.

Even so, he was still on guard, lying with a smile on his face while worrying and fearing, he wanted to protect Xuemei.

However, after being prepared for so long, in another winter, during his nap time, during the free time when his aunt took his younger sister to go out to visit good friends, and in the icy cold rain that fell unknowingly, The moment he opened his eyes, it was already an irreparable time...

Luo Xuesong can no longer get close to human beings. He uses all his sensibility, all expressions, and all that he can use to create a quiet fortress where no one comes close to him.

He is afraid of the world.