days of waiting

It's raining.

When it rained, the number of customers unknowingly decreased.

Li Chen found an umbrella that had been forgotten for too long from under the counter and handed it to Cheng Youwei. He stood at the door of Bitter&Sweet and watched his friends leave. He saw off the last guests. It was almost possible to close early today.

Li Chen looked up at the lines reflected by the rainwater under the dim yellow light of the street lamp, somehow from a distance, he felt that even though it was pouring like this, they still seemed to be falling on the ground.

Unexpectedly, the dark night sky in the rain had the illusion that it was wider than the daytime. The rain embodied the depth of the space, and this time it seemed that there was no bottom when looking up.

In the distance, there is a figure.

The person approached quickly and calmly, but even though it was difficult to see clearly in the rain, Li Chen still felt the disorder and disorder of her steps when she approached, the kind of steps that were disintegrating almost every second...

Li Chen ran out of the store against the falling rain without thinking. When she reached out to support the girl, she felt that she was gently and softly clung to her neck, quietly being supported by others.

Xiaomi was drunk.

Pulling Mi Yining to walk under the torrential rain, she could only subconsciously attribute the distance and the beauty of this moment to alcohol.

Mi Yining almost leaned on Li Chen with all her strength. Li Chen exhausted all her strength as soon as she walked into Bitter&Sweet, and she didn't have time to pull up a chair to put the girl down as planned. Even Li Chen himself was defenseless. Just fell to the ground.

"Xiaomi... is there... is there anything?"

Li Chen shook off the hair that was wet and sticky in front of his eyes, rubbed his elbow that hurt from hitting the ground, and asked nervously.

"Annoying..."

Mi Yining said in a low voice, which sounded a bit like complaining, and the tone of his voice was very much like that of a child quarreling.When she fell down, she was still holding herself with both hands, so she landed on top of Li Chen, so there shouldn't be any pain from the fall, right?

Li Chen smelled the smell of alcohol, which was very heavy and strong.

Mi Yining was very close, and the water droplets from the wet bangs directly landed on Li Chen's neck.The girl's face was only five centimeters away from her, and at this moment, it seemed that if she accidentally leaned over, she would kiss her forehead.Li Chen hurriedly moved away the hand on her waist, only to find that Xiaomi was pulling his collar even tighter, hooking his elbow on his neck.

If it was Cheng Youwei, she would definitely tell herself in that conscientious tone, since the other party is drunk and the time and place are favorable, she should take the opportunity to take advantage of it.After all, good times don’t always come and go, opportunities can be met but not sought after, flowers can be broken and broken, don’t wait until there are no flowers and broken branches...

Indeed, Mi Yining was much slower than usual, obviously he didn't think there was anything wrong with the two of them falling to the ground or laying on Li Chen's body, even if Li Chen dragged his feet, he just stared at Li Chen with that silly expression. .

"Xiaomi, let's, let's get up first, shall we?" Li Chen shook Mi Yining's shoulders, in a suggested tone, "Don't lie on the ground, it's not good..."

"No…"

Reasoning with drunk people is actually unreasonable behavior.

"Okay, stand up first, just stand up, okay?" Li Chen said in a deceitful tone, "Let's get up first, I promise I won't have any other requests."

To be honest, based on her longing for the person in front of her, it is impossible to have no reverie at all.It's just that conscience is like a mosquito bite, of course it's quite easy to forget, but when you think of it, it itches like death, constantly reminding you of its existence.

"Millet…"

"'Request'! No other requirements?" As if the word touched her switch, Mi Yining became excited with a vague tone, "There are so many requests! Nothing is right, you have to choose everything, what do you want from me? ...?"

"Xiaomi...I...I didn't..." Li Chen said in a panic, almost subconsciously apologizing, only then did he suddenly realize that what Mi Yining said was not aimed at himself.

Of course she was looking at Li Chen and talking to Li Chen, but the object of her words was not Li Chen.

"Isn't it good to just live a simple life every day?" Mi Yining asked crying, grabbing Li Chen's neck, and couldn't pronounce the words clearly, "Is it difficult to live a happy life?"

"No...not..."

Li Chen didn't know why, she obviously didn't say it to herself, but she still answered it, as if it was her responsibility to accept the suppressed anger that Xiaomi unintentionally released.

In fact, Li Chen always felt that if when Mi Yining was drunk, she replaced someone who reversed a certain level of obsessive and entangled things in her heart, would it be like hypnosis when Xiaomi was awake? , but still make everything suddenly clear?

"Why..." Xiaomi asked, tugging at her collar, as if she couldn't figure out what she was asking, "Why are things so complicated? If you are unhappy together, why...?"

The torrential rain is very similar to the music without rhythm. When you close your eyes and listen to it when you are in a state of turmoil, it is actually similar to the chaotic tonality of the Smashing Core singing.

I don't know if it was caused by the random noise outside or Mi Yining's heartbroken and out-of-control voice. In short, something hit Li Chen, making her feel as if her whole body had been hollowed out and poisoned. I can feel a feeling of freezing when I am close to falling.

Heartache.

Did she love so deeply?

Li Chen didn't know whether to be relieved or sad.

She thought that a person like Mi Yining who likes to be lively and is good at casual conversation might be underestimating his feelings. Li Chen also speculated in his heart, because Xiaomi's conditions are good, so he naturally has a lot of choices. If he is with someone, it must be a choice. It's an excellent choice...

It's just that everything is much deeper than Li Chen's initial speculation.

Xiaomi loves very seriously.

"I know...I know I can't do it anymore...I know it all." Mi Yining's tone dropped suddenly, like a murmur, "Why don't you just work hard?"

"Millet…?"

This is not something that Xiaomi can say, at least not the words that the Xiaomi that Li Chen knows can say casually.

Is that what happens when you tell the truth after drinking?

Li Chen stared blankly at Mi Yining's expression towards him, and suddenly realized that her face was not just rainwater, those "ticks" that fell were also mixed with a bit of salt...

"...Why don't you work hard? Even if you don't love me now..."

Mi Yining's words are so serious!Li Chen felt like he was going through a wet and cold nightmare, listening to the girl's most sincere confession of feelings in his heart, just like all the truths, cruelly making people unbearable, making people broken in an instant and unable to Parry.

"Even if you don't love now... we used to love, didn't we?"

don't tell me...

...I don't want to hear it at all!

"Isn't it? Answer me!" Mi Yining asked forcefully, shaking Li Chen's collar, his voice was almost broken. At this moment, tears were dripping down, and the scalding heat hitting Li Chen's wrist could no longer follow The rain got mixed up.

"...Why didn't you answer me?" Xiaomi's voice began to amplify, "Are we really...really so hopeless?"

Li Chen let go of his clenched fist, and tried to pull away Xiaomi's arm that was tightly wrapped around him.But the girl who is usually easy-going is actually so stubborn at this moment, the more Li Chen struggles, the tighter and closer Xiaomi is.

"no."

Li Chen gritted his teeth and said ruthlessly.

"Not hopeless."

Mi Yining's eyes seemed to be confused, but at the same time, she became energetic as if she had been injected with a certain dose. She was quiet for a while and then continued to chatter and ask questions, but now she was no longer hysterical and crazy.

"…Really?"

almost innocent tone.

"Yes." Li Chen stretched out his hand to wipe away the tears on Mi Yining's face, feeling the cold trembling in his chest, but it wasn't because the cold and drenched clothes all over his body were clinging to his skin.

The throbbing heartbeat, bitter breathing, and suffocating tone are all the feelings of killing oneself.

"Everything is going to be better and better."

"Really...?" she asked persistently.

Li Chen nodded, as if he was willing to let his fate trample on him.

"You...you will be happier, and I will be happier too!" Xiaomi said optimistically, sweeping away the gloom.

Continuing to nod his head, Li Chen couldn't say any more echoing words, and looked up at Xiaomi's bright and innocent smile under the influence of alcohol with heartache.

Hope it's all worth it.

"You used to say you loved me..." Mi Yining asked.

Li Chen closed his eyes, and felt that the liquid soaked in the clothes was not rainwater, but something as strong and painful as hydrochloric acid, which was penetrating into her skin and bone marrow, and was about to disintegrate her bit by bit. do.

"I love you…"

Finally on this night, Li Chen could play himself for the first time.

"...I have always loved you."

Mi Yining nodded, closed his eyes with that smile, and hugged Li Chen tightly.

But even in this longing hug, Li Chen was still shivering wetly.

It rained continuously at night.

Li Chen thought, after all this dreamlike night passed, how long can Xiaomi's happiness last after waking up?

She only knew that for herself, this nightmare would not go away with dawn.

Writer's words:

woo woo woo...