Her half-sugar coffee, my sugar-free romance.

"Is Yishu still not coming back?" Fang Yincen stared at the owl intently. In fact, she didn't know how to install this thing at all, but Yingxue kindly divided a pile of parts into stacks and told her what to put where. , her assembly journey was a little easier.

"Normally speaking, it's almost here." Yingxue hid her uneasiness, she stood at the desk with her back facing Fang Yincen and bit her index finger, then suddenly remembered something and turned around: "Fang Fang, Yi Shu asked if you want Change your name."

"Change name?" Fang Yincen wasn't sure if he heard it wrong: "Why? Did something happen that I had to abandon it?"

"It's not considered giving up, it's just hiding." After Yingxue finished speaking, she sat next to Fang Yincen: "Like me, you know my name is..." "Yingxue." Fang Yincen replied without doubt: "A pseudonym in a pseudonym, there is no doubt that people will know that it is a pseudonym of a pseudonym."

Seeing her seriously responding to her, Yingxue chuckled: "Although I'm used to being called by my name, I still find it funny to see you calling me so seriously."

"I'll answer seriously!" Fang Yincen held a screwdriver with his hands on his hips, and then returned to the topic: "So the reason for my name change is the same as yours? Will it... be too late?"

"As long as you are willing to change now, everything will be in time." Yingxue turned around gracefully and took a step. Fang Yincen watched her pinch the owl in her hand again. Only then did she realize that this owl would not stay no matter what. Surprisingly, he picked it up and slid his thumb on the iron surface.

"Think about it first, having a pseudonym is just a convenience for you. Now I know that the only people who have you around Yishu are the people here and those high-ranking personnel in Yiji, that is, her brothers and sisters including her parents."

"Yeah." Fang Yincen nodded with a smile, and then realized something was wrong: "Wait, Yingxue, you mean... everyone in Yishu's family knows me?"

"Not completely, but at least I know it is." Yingxue lowered her voice for some reason, and walked to Fang Yincen's side and whispered in her ear: "I can only say... the world today is not more dangerous than war. War is at least a little simpler, you know why you should fight and sacrifice, but now here——you never know what kind of war you are in now, and why you are fighting, maybe you didn’t realize that you were just a man before you died. A discarded pawn."

"... so scary." Fang Yincen snorted, she didn't know what expression she should show, she must have been terrified, right?But why does the voice sound a little... a little... sarcastic and flat?

"I'm sorry to scare you by saying this all of a sudden." Yingxue scratched Fang Yincen's hair and took a step back: "When you restore the owl, you can think about what to choose as an alias, try to be as real as possible and don't have anything to do with people you know." She said and glanced at Fang Yincen: "And we will call you by your pseudonym in the future, and you will get used to it after a long time and you won't feel embarrassed."

"It's not embarrassing..." Fang Yincen thought, anyway, let's do what Yingxue said?Is it Yishu's intention to ask her to have a pseudonym? "Sister Ying, may I know your real name?" Fang Yincen was suddenly curious about her name, Yingxue watched her move slowly but didn't speak.

That kind of staring at people makes people nervous, but she feels that she has gradually gotten used to it, and those attitudes are just the attitudes they have unconsciously cultivated, just like defense.

"Actually, I forgot, I might have to ask Yishu to find out."

Fang Yincen almost fell off the bed, this kind of words are super like a child who doesn't know where to put his things, he has to ask his mother to know.

"I'm already used to the name Yingxue." Yingxue didn't mind Fang Yincen's reaction, but was amused by her: "Maybe I'm born servile? Just like a small animal, I gave it a code name and got used to it. Forget the name your parents have engraved on your soul."

"Does Sister Ying have a family?" Fang Yincen's eyes lit up when she mentioned this point: "I have—but it's like I don't have any." She sighed: "After my parents divorced and didn't want me, I was raped among relatives. Pushing back and forth...and now, I don't know if the uncle who adopted me is related to me, I have been pushed far enough, I don't know where I am at all."

"Don't think too much, you are here." Yingxue looked at Fang Yincen's disappointed expression, held her cheeks with both hands, and gently touched her forehead: "You are right here, in front of my eyes, in front of me Under my hand, I can feel your body temperature, so you are right in front of my eyes, this can't be an illusion, right?"

"I know..." Fang Yincen gently pushed Yingxue away, sighed heavily, lifted up the owl and was unable to put it down: "But what I mean is... I don't know where I am, and the feeling of home is so ...floating."

"Fang Fang, don't think so much, you are right here." Ying Xuegai gave her a big hug and retreated with a smile: "I also have family members, but after a fire broke out, they all passed away except me. "

Yingxue put her index finger against Fang Yincen's lips when she was about to speak, and hissed.

"I was very sad and hated that I didn't go with them. The fire drove me into despair when I was only six years old, but because of this, I was adopted by Yiji and got to know Yishu. When I was with Yishu, I often I would secretly compare her with my younger sister who was too late to grow up, wondering if she would be as willful as Yishu when she grows up, or even as smart, or like Yishu, she would talk back when I scolded her for doing something wrong, and finally pretended not to care I look like I've been secretly doing something to apologize to me..."

Fang Yincen looked at Yingxue's eyes and knew that she was recalling the past, just like someone spreading out a photo album, obviously just looking for a photo but unconsciously looking at it from beginning to end.

"I just want to say that you were not stable in the past, but now I believe you can relax. It is inevitable that you are not used to it at first, but some anxiety will also dissipate after a long time." Yingxue looked at Looking at the owl in Fang Yincen's hand: "Many times, we are much luckier than some people."

"Which people?"

But Fang Yincen didn't get a response. Yingxue kissed her lightly on the forehead and touched her cheek with one hand: "I can't tell you, I don't know those people, but their attitude towards life is far more important than ours." , Humans are wonderful creatures, I believe you can adapt no matter what.”

As Yingxue spoke, she lightly poked Fang Yincen's heart as before.

She looked at her, and Fang Yincen couldn't say a word... She felt that Yingxue was like Zhou Yu, always giving her peace when she needed it most, but Fang Yincen knew that he couldn't like Yingxue, because of this The tenderness made her feel scared, and she always felt that she would lose it in a second.

"What's the matter? I suddenly became stupid." Yingxue was puzzled, Fang Yincen said, "It's nothing."

"Anyway, don't think too much. If you feel that there is no place suitable for you, you can create a place yourself. This is how homes are built." She smiled and looked at the owl in Fang Yincen's hand, "It seems that you are suitable for this kind of place." Yes, it only took a while for the upper body to come out."

"It's...it's nothing, it's just like putting together a jigsaw puzzle, and it comes out...?" Fang Yincen smiled embarrassedly, watching the owl being picked up by Yingxue always felt a little embarrassed, thinking After thinking about it, I wanted to go back to the original topic: "Is Sister Sakura's name known only to Yishu?"

"I think it's 'may' know." Yingxue is not sure: "In fact, it is quite scary to use a pseudonym until you get used to it, and forget your real name... This is another way to change a fake into a real one. Maybe one day Yishu will ask me to do it again. You might even change your name."

"I suddenly remembered that I haven't been back to the dormitory for a long time..." Fang Yincen suddenly remembered this irrelevant topic, and quickly looked at Yingxue and asked: "Can I go back after class tomorrow? It's all...it feels normal but somehow weird."

"I slept with Yishu, so it's unlocked?"

"Huh—?" Fang Yincen blushed instantly, "It's nothing to do with it!"

"It means you don't want to be too intense once in a while." Yingxue closed her eyes and looked at her, and then she saw Fang Yincen covering her face with white smoke like a ripe tomato hugging a pillow.

"Quickly think about the names." Yingxue didn't continue to tease her, but bypassed the topic: "I remember your friends are called 'Zhang Yongwei', 'Jiang Shuxin' and 'Guo Minjie'?" "Uh, yes." Fang Yincen disagreed Then covered his face with a pillow: "What's wrong..."

"They might get into trouble, so Yishu wants me to ask you two things. The first is what pseudonym you want to take, and the second is whether you want to suspend school first? Go directly to the university entrance exam, or forget it, Yi Shu hopes that you can just leave, she thinks that education is nothing, and after you are by her side, people will only judge you based on what you have learned from Yi Shu, not academic qualifications.” Yingxue knew her She was dumbfounded, and deliberately pinched the other person's cheek to bring her back to her senses before continuing: "I have said many times that people are different, and the world is divided into good and evil. Not everyone I know is good or bad."

"But they're my friends, and they don't know I know Yishu—"

"I don't mean that they will use their brains." Yingxue put her index finger against Fang Yincen's mouth. Now her face is in confusion, which makes her worry. If it is Nai language, she may just say "oh" and then, and then everything solved.

"But if someone deliberately finds out about Yishu and finds out about your existence, that person knows that it is impossible to directly find out about Yishu, so they may use their brains to find friends who know you. Family members, Whether it’s classmates, as long as they come into contact with them, they may be found.”

"This is not... a horror and suspense film." She was dumbfounded, since when was this world so scary?

"But the birth of the world is a very suspenseful and terrifying thing." Yingxue left blank in her smile, and Fang Yincen asked first: "Actually, I'm really curious, why do you feel that black people are stronger than white people? The government feels like a puppet, and people’s desires are displayed naked in private, which makes me very uncomfortable.”

"No way, whoever says that human nature is too suppressed will only have the dark side to show." Yingxue thought: "I can't explain too much like Yishu, but when I came back to my senses, I found that I was used to this kind of life with two sides. It makes me feel a little more at ease, which always feels more relevant than hypocrisy."

"In my opinion, this kind of life is very disturbing." She sneered, "And no matter how powerful a businessman is, he can't win against the government, right?"

"Maybe." Yingxue didn't deny, "But businessmen can make them feel scared, and it often happens that they are even tempted to become puppets. After all, businessmen always need an image to maintain their long-term path, so they have to catch many fools as puppet Cover——I asked Yishu before, and she told me."

"Fool, it is indeed a word that guy can say." Fang Yincen rubbed his eyes: "Why hasn't that fool come back now...it's already one o'clock in the morning..."

"It's quite rare." Only then did Yingxue notice the time. Yi Shu wouldn't stay outside for too long when she had no purpose, and she knew that the other party was going to a family meeting today, so she should come back directly after the meeting. Could it be that what happened to her father?

When I think about it, I get a headache, and I often have to say goodbye, but I just don't listen.

"What's wrong? You are frowning." Fang Yincen saw her expression in his eyes, but Yingxue didn't seem to want to say it.

"Hurry up and be mentally prepared." Yingxue threw away irrelevant words, and looked at Fang Yincen with a serious expression: "Afterwards, you must cooperate with us. I can only say sorry first. After all, my biggest duty is to protect Yishu, and Yishu's biggest weakness right now is you."

"I...Is it possible for me to go back to the past?" Fang Yincen suddenly felt weak. She thought of those helpless days before, but also remembered the first time she met Zhou Yu...Zhou Yu...it felt like a storm The tranquility before her, her smile and the aroma of coffee, a caring woman who always comforts herself gently and thinks of her...

In an instant, she felt as if her heart was being pinched hard, and it was broken in the scene of Zhou Yu closing her eyes.

"Impossible."

Yingxue shook her head: "From the moment Yi Shu saw you—it was impossible."

Fang Yincen watched Yingxue get up, Yingxue put on the earphones she had put away and turned to look at her: "I'll help you find Yishu, she really disappeared for too long." Then she turned and walked to the other side of the room to meet with her The subject on the other end of the headset talks softly.

Fang Yincen gripped the quilt tightly and turned over on the bed. She forgot about the owl and sighed. She touched her back that was stinging from the parts and then fell silent.

She misses Zhou Yu very much.

In the past few days, I have been restraining myself not to think about Zhou Yu. When I think about it, I feel like turning the faucet that cannot be turned on and off. The more she thinks about it, the feeling that her heart is being torn apart, she wants to scream, Zhou Yu is like the sun in the cold winter, Zhou Yu is like a cup of warm and sweet coffee, Zhou Yu is also a scarf that brings her a sense of security - don't think about it anymore , she wanted to pull her hair to stop herself from thinking.

She had to look ahead and keep going.

Fang Yincen held her collar by the chest, she couldn't cry for Zhou Yu forever, she could only live on her own if she was left behind, and...the reason why she got close to Yishu was also for a purpose, she could give Yishu anything Soothing but the purpose is not the same as the heart that loves Zhou Yu.

sorry……

Twisting his lips and uttering these silent words, Fang Yincen grasped his chest and begged Zhou Yu's forgiveness in his heart.

Even at that time, Zhou Yu might blame her and not feel happy.But Fang Yincen thought it was worth it, so what if he lost his body and everything for her?The safe haven that was finally found was suddenly destroyed, and the ship that stopped with great difficulty began to look for the next port that was willing to accept itself. Who would be happy.

The more she thought about it, the angrier she became, but she was also helpless, and the stability in her heart that finally stopped was destroyed along with the destruction—even if it was a short and short relationship, it was unnecessary and unnecessary to be attached to in the eyes of outsiders. For her, it is both the beginning and the end. In her current life, she only has the longest memory of this short relationship.

Fang Yincen tried his best to calm down his emotions, at least not so obvious.

"Yishu said she won't be back tonight." Yingxue finally found Yishu and asked her a question. She took off the earphones and turned around to see Fang Yincen continued to repair the owl again. She only hummed in response to herself.

"It's not too late then." Yingxue looked at the time, and Fang Yincen managed to attract her attention by saying ah.

"Sister Ying, sleep with me." Fang Yincen's smile was a little stiff: "Is this... okay? Because Yi Shu said there might be something... but I don't know what it is and I don't want to think about it..."

"Pfft, it's fine." Yingxue smiled helplessly: "You don't have to be afraid of anything."

"But people often say that random thinking is easy to attract those things." Fang Yincen grunted a few times and quickly put the owl away. Yingxue helped her put it away on the cabinet and turned on the small light before turning off the light.She originally thought that when Yingxue said to sleep with her, she would sleep on the bed, but Yingxue pulled a chair and lay beside the bed.

"Sister Sakura..."

"For this bed, I'm only used to sleeping in this way to be comfortable. You don't mind." She stretched with a gentle smile: "Okay, go to sleep, you have to get up early tomorrow and have a lot of things to do."

"That's right." Fang Yincen whispered.

"Good night Sakura-san."

"Good night, Xiao Fangfang."