heartbeat out of control

When he woke up, it was already 10:30 in the morning, Yu Xuan was so dizzy after a hangover that he couldn't realize where he was for a while.

Until he touched the furry creature on his stomach, he was so frightened that he lost all sleepiness and sat up in panic.

Xiaobai was also frightened with a "meow" and jumped out of bed and ran out. Only then did Yu Xuan see the surrounding environment clearly, this was Xiao Le's house.

Xiao Le had already gone out, so he didn't wake him up, and didn't wait for him to go to the company together.Yu Xuan rubbed his temples while brushing his teeth, remembering the fragmented scene last night, only remembering that he seemed to be looking for something with Xiao Le...

I can't remember what happened after that, and I drank a piece of it...

He must have been drunk and confused, forgot that he and Xiao Le had broken up, and Xiao Le didn't even throw him out, and even fooled around with him...

what's on the neckIt was red, Yu Xuan leaned closer to the mirror and looked at it, guessing that it might be a mosquito bite, but didn't think much about it.

There were steamed buns, deep-fried dough sticks and soy milk on the dining table. Yu Xuan picked up a steamed bun and took a bite. Although they didn't have a good relationship, they didn't even eat what he bought.

Thinking of the embarrassment of forcing Xiao Le to drink after being drunk last night, Yu Xuan panicked again, this kind of shameless thing can only be done when drunk.

so embarrassing...

Yu Xuan was hesitating whether to pretend to be drunk and lose his memory and go to the company or go back to school, when a WeChat message came in suddenly on his phone.

【Grandpa Meow: I will pick you up at about 11:30 noon. 】

It's really strange that Master Miao took the initiative to send him a WeChat message, but it seems that these words were not meant for him.

Yu Xuan drank soy milk and typed a reply: 【Did you send it to the wrong person? 】

【Master Meow: Xiao Le】

Shore? !

Yu Xuan was almost choked to death by a mouthful of soy milk, and half-resisting his cough, he exited the chat interface with Master Miao, and confirmed that this was his own WeChat account [Salted fish doesn't want to turn over], not a trumpet [Canned fish].

Master Meow's profile picture is the same as Master Meow's on the trumpet, with the same name and circle of friends.

Yu Xuan stared at the word "Xiao Le" in shock, Master Meow is Xiao Le?How can this be……

BlueDay on the tree hole is fragile and sensitive, suffers from deep depression, and has thoughts of committing suicide...

Xiao Le looks cool and flamboyant, he is the proud son of heaven that everyone envies, what is there to be depressed about...

Yu Xuan's hand holding the phone couldn't help trembling slightly, his temples throbbed, and he remembered the scene when his mother was covered with a white cloth...

Thinking that Xiao Le might be like his mother, Yu Xuan completely panicked. In his heart, depression and death are linked together, it carries hysterical madness and the smell of formalin disinfectant...

He hated Xiao Le very much, scolded him and beat him, but he never wanted anything to happen to him. When there were rumors on the Internet that the movie poster designed by Xiao Le was plagiarized, he even applied for a trumpet to scold Heizi.

He wishes him well...

Yu Xuan rushed to the balcony to find the little white cat licking its paws, opened the chat history, and compared the videos and photos that Master Miao had sent him. They had the same blue eyes, the same snow-white fur, and even the brown spots on the paws.

This is the little white cat he touches, Master Miao is really Xiao Le.

He walked over to the little white cat in despair, gently hugged the little white cat, rubbed its furry head, and said in a crying voice, "Are you really little white?"

The fake Xiaobai "meowed" incomprehensibly, and licked Yu Xuan's palm gracefully.

[Do you have a younger brother? 】

【Have. 】

【What kind of person is he?cute? 】

【Um. 】

Xiao Le is the only son, where is his younger brother?Could the younger brother he was talking about be himself?

If we say that we hated Xiao Le in the past because Xiao Le blackmailed him and ignored him, now all these hatreds have turned into worries and heartaches in an instant...

His hatred was originally because he cared too much about this brother.

During the 11 years of their quarrel, all his knowledge of Xiao Le came from the Internet.Everyone praises him for being young and promising, successful in his career, and handsome. His shining points are as dazzling as the stars. Why does such an outstanding person suffer from depression?

Is it too much pressure?

Or because of feelings?

Yu Xuan licked the cat and sat on the ground, guessing chaotically and illogically, his mind was in a mess...

"What are you doing sitting in the cat's nest?" Xiao Le stared condescendingly at the man who was about to bald the cat's fur on the ground, so engrossed in his thoughts that he didn't even notice that he opened the door and walked in.

Xiao Le's voice was not too loud, but Yu Xuan was startled, he stood up in a panic and looked at Xiao Le.

For a moment, Xiao Le wasn't sure if Yu Xuan's reaction was because of the kiss he had drunk last night, so he coughed twice and was about to explain: "Yesterday..."

But I heard the other side say: "Let's reconcile."

"..." Xiao Le didn't react for a while.

Yu Xuan pulled out a mild smile, and said in a soft voice, "Let's reconcile."

In the next few days, Xiao Le really felt Yu Xuan's sincerity for reconciliation, as if a ferocious beagle suddenly put away its fangs and claws, turned into a domestic puppy, and began to wag its tail intentionally or unintentionally. good.

Speaking softly, Xu Fangjing said that Yu Xuan had asked him about his food preferences, and would buy him meals on time every day.

Does he really want to reconcile or is he holding back some big revenge move?Xiao Le couldn't figure it out, he asked Yu Xuan side-by-side, Yu Xuan's reaction seemed that he didn't remember kissing him that night at all.

But to Xiao Le's surprise, Yu Xuan took the initiative to find Lu Huo to take over the shooting of a large-scale same-sex theme MV.

Yu Xuan's self-assertion made Xiao Le a little displeased, he never used others as a bargaining chip when talking about cooperation.

***

At the end of the May Day holiday, Yu Xuan went back to school. For the first time, he never skipped classes. He dyed his hair back to black, took off his earrings, and put on a simple white T and black sweatpants.

Yi Fanxing laughed at him: "Brother Xuan'er, what's the situation? Why do I feel that you are doing good for love? Who is so charming?"

"Get out, can you talk?" Yu Xuan kicked Yi Fanxing's calf jokingly while holding a cigarette.

In fact, his hair dyeing has nothing to do with Congliang, Lu Huo asked him to audition next Friday and asked him to dye his hair black.He took this MV for Xiao Le, but Xiao Le didn't seem to appreciate it.

Lu Huo sent over the script of the MV, and Yu Xuan didn't have much interest in watching it. He couldn't get up to do anything these days, and he only had one thought in his head—how should he help Xiao Le out of depression?

BlueDay hasn’t seen anything for a long time. He sent Xiao Le a WeChat message every day with a canned fish account, saying that he misses Xiaobai. Xiao Le replied with Zhang Xiaobai’s photo as usual.

It seems that Xiao Le should not know that the canned fish is him.

He didn't look for Xiao Le, and Xiao Le wouldn't look for him either.The two have been strangers for 11 years in the past, even if they suddenly want to treat him well, they don't know what attitude to use to face him.

I feel that Xiao Le lacks nothing and needs nothing.He wanted to help him, but couldn't do it.

On Thursday, Yu Xuan finally couldn't help but send Xu Fangjing a WeChat message: [Brother Xu, how is Mr. Xiao these days? 】

Xu Fangjing looked at this text message and figured out something. He thought they had a quarrel, and deliberately teased him: [It doesn’t look very good. He has no intention of working these days, can’t eat, and can’t sleep well. Thin. 】

After seeing this reply, Yu Xuan's heart was suddenly overwhelmed by the tide of worry. After thanking Xu Fangjing, he quit the chat interface and clicked on Xiao Le's WeChat.

It was evening at this time, and the clear sunset reflected half of the sky red, and the afterglow cast a wave of light on the center of the lake.

Yu Xuan sat on a bench by the lake, staring at Xiao Le's WeChat profile picture for ten minutes.There are red and white koi swimming in the lake. Yu Xuan used to bring fish food to feed them when he was free, but today he is not even in the mood to look at them.

It took me 5 minutes to think about calling him, calling him elder brother seemed too kind, calling Mr. Xiao too distant...

At this moment, his mobile phone received a reminder of Blue Day's update.

[BlueDay: I heard that hugging can make people feel better, so I want to hug. 】

Seeing this news, Yu Xuan suddenly became enlightened, like a lost child who suddenly had a direction, clicked on Miaoye's WeChat, and mustered up the courage to type: [Brother, are you still angry with me? 】

Since you want to reconcile, you can't see outsiders.

Xiao Le was holding an international video conference in the office at this time, and he was stunned for a moment when he called his brother. The last time Yu Xuan soberly called his brother was 11 years ago, and he typed back: [No. 】

[Salted fish doesn't want to turn over: Then are you willing to make up with me? 】

What the hell is Yu Xuan doing?Xiao Le frowned and typed a reply: 【Yes. 】

He just put down the phone when the screen turned on again.

[Salted fish doesn't want to turn over: Then I'll come to you now, okay? 】

Xiao Le asked: [Where are you? 】

[Salted fish doesn't want to turn over: I'm at school. 】

Xiao Le typed: [wait for me at the school gate in one hour. 】

In the video, someone teased and asked him if he was chatting with his girlfriend and was not paying attention during the meeting. Xiao Le smiled and said "sorry" and put down his phone to continue the meeting.

Yu Xuan stood at the most conspicuous place on the side of the school gate and waited early. Twenty minutes later, a black domineering Guzi motorcycle stopped in front of him.

Xiao Le stepped on the curb with one foot, and slowly took off his helmet. The slightly slim black T-shirt and trousers outlined a perfect body line with his movements, and his figure was tall and straight like a model walking out of a magazine.

Yu Xuan forgot to look away, since he decided to forgive Xiao Le, Xiao Le has become pleasing to the eye everywhere.The man in front of him was handsome and handsome, he didn't look gay at all, he was a hot-blooded tough guy.

A hot-blooded tough guy with a sickly princess living in his heart.

Xiao Le looked at Yu Xuan with straight black and short hair calmly. He hadn't seen him for a few days, but the hair color of this little crying boy changed again, and he looked worried and guilty. It took a lot of trouble to show such an expression.

Xiao Le looked at him for a few seconds, then asked slowly, "What's wrong?"

Yu Xuan suddenly forgot why he called Xiao Le out, and was trying to search for the connection signal.

Xiao Le narrowed his eyes slightly: "Forgot?"

Yu Xuan remembered, but didn't know how to speak.

Xiao Le: "What's the matter? Just tell me if you have something to do, nothing can't be solved."

Yu Xuan's mind suddenly didn't know where to turn, and he said dryly: "It's okay, I just haven't seen you for a few days..." Fuck, what is he talking about, why does it feel like the next line of this line will say I want to is you.

Xiao Le stared at him for a while, but refused to say?Still don't trust him?

There were people coming and going around, and the school girls who recognized Xiao Le stood in the distance and watched, and they could hear excited words like "Senior Xiao is so handsome" from time to time.

Xiao Le glanced around, the school gate was indeed not a place to talk.

He handed the helmet to Yu Xuan, "Get in the car."

Yu Xuan took the helmet with both hands and asked blankly, "Where are you going?"

"Take you to dinner." Xiao Le tilted his head and motioned him to get in the car.

It was ten minutes to six, and it was dinner time. Yu Xuan seized the opportunity and sat on it with long legs.

"Put on the helmet," Xiao Le said.

Obviously there was only one helmet, and Yu Xuan gently put the helmet on Xiao Le's head from behind.

"I let you wear it, not for me." Xiao Le said and was about to reach out to take off the helmet.

Yu Xuan pressed his hand and said with a smile, "You stand in front, so I can't blow the wind."

"It's not to block the wind, it's..." For safety, Xiao Le suddenly froze his body because there were hands half-embracing him from behind.

Yu Xuan stretched his arms around Xiao Le's waist, and said in a low voice, "You can go, brother." His voice was a very gentle and lazy boyish voice, very pleasant to hear.

Xiao Le paused for a while, and finally turned on the accelerator and started the motorcycle. There must be something wrong with this kid, and his speech and behavior are abnormal, as if he was drunk.

"Have you been drinking?" Xiao Le asked him sideways.

"No." Yu Xuan replied.

Xiao Le reminded: "You don't have a helmet, hold on tight..."

"Okay." Yu Xuan hugged Xiao Le obediently, clasped his hands in front of his belly, and pressed his body against his back according to the posture, this could be considered a hug.

The slightly hot breath swept over Xiao Le's neck, and the car visibly shook.

Xiao Le: "..."

What medicine did he take wrongly...

The author says:

Xiaoyu: Hugging can make people happy. I want to make my brother happy. Don't stop me!