waiting for dawn

Of course Qin Liming refused, he is not a good player at analyzing the heart.But couldn't bear Zhang Zhanming's begging and begging. He said that he had no plans to go to college anyway, but what if he delayed Gu Qingyu because of impulsiveness?

In fact, there is some reason, the two brothers of the Zhang family are not something to worry about.Seeing that he was a little loose, Zhang Zhanming began to push forward, "Brother, if you really can't do it, just say that you are the boyfriend I am dating now, and see how he reacts."

"No!" Qin Liming blurted out.

The past of playing Tu Ming's boyfriend is still vivid in his memory, it is simply a big routine, this kind of thing can't be repeated again and again.

"Look at how scared you are." Zhang Zhanming snorted lightly, "I just wanted to tease you because you looked out of your mind. What's wrong with you, my brother provoked you again?"

"How is it possible?" Qin Liming avoided the topic in a panic, and at the same time felt uneasy. Is it really so obvious? Zhang Zhanming made sure of it.

Zhang Zhanming laughed twice, "Brother, you have to help me have a good chat tomorrow. It must have been much easier for your sister-in-law to talk before."

Qin Liming was stunned for a long time before he could react. He wanted to get up and hit him twice, but found that he had already run away meanly.

However, the four words "sister-in-law talk" could not be erased from his mind no matter what, and he was still smacking repeatedly on the way to see Gu Qingyu the next day.

Why are sisters-in-law and not brother-in-law?This kid Zhang Zhanming is just deliberately laughing at him!But after thinking about it later, I found that there was another important premise that had been ignored. Neither he and Zhang Tuming, nor Gu Qingyu and Zhang Zhanming had ever really been together.

So even thinking about it is wishful thinking.

Gu Qingyu's agreed place is still a park, but it's a city wall park away from the water.

Gu Qingyu obviously still remembered him, but it was not difficult to see the disappointment in his eyes.

"Eh..." Qin Liming scratched the back of his head, and sat down on the stone bench in the park with some embarrassment, "Zhan Ming originally wanted to come over, but he, he..." Qin Liming said for a moment poor.

"He's just cowardly." Gu Qingyu answered.

"Yes." Qin Liming laughed dryly, "But he is also afraid of delaying your exam."

"Does he think that I won't be affected by this?" Gu Qingyu said softly: "I asked him out today to apologize to him. I really didn't mean to let my brother come over that day."

"He also wanted to apologize, and he was afraid that you would not accept it, so..."

"I think Zhang Zhanming is willing to tell you anything, so he should trust you very much, right?"

Qin Liming pondered for a while, "He is just a child in my eyes, probably because we have met before, so you may not be too repulsed by letting me come over."

"I can't reject it, after all, you helped me out and saved his life." Gu Qingyu, as his name suggests, always speaks softly, but his words are indeed unexpectedly direct, "Did you come here to set me up?" If so?"

"That's right, just chat."

"Then teacher, let me ask you a question, are you gay?"

Qin Liming was frightened by the abrupt question, "Why do you ask like this all of a sudden?"

"I guessed it. That day in the hospital, I thought you had an unusual relationship with our principal."

A top student is a top student, possessing some skills of perceptiveness, Qin Liming was anxious to speak, and Gu Qingyu said again: "Teacher, no matter whether my guess is right or not, I don't think you dare to admit it so quickly, do you?"

"This..." Qin Liming blushed, "There are always some concerns."

"Yeah, so I thought so too."

There was something in Gu Qingyu's words, and Qin Liming's heart also rang a stern bell, "How about we go to find a shop nearby, see what you want to eat and drink, and then talk slowly?"

"No need." Gu Qingyu shook her head, her slightly bluish dark circles looked particularly tired, "I'll finish it in one breath, I'm still in a hurry to go back and review my homework."

Gu Qingyu said: "I don't know if Zhang Zhanming has told you that my family is very poor. My father had an accident while working and died early in the morning. My mother was a farmer, but her health has never been good. I am I was brought up by my brother when I was a child, after I came to the city to study, my brother and my sister-in-law also came over, and they set up a stall selling cakes at the school gate, and many classmates didn't know that it was my brother."

"My brother is not a material for studying. He dropped out of school early in the morning. He saw that I was doing well in my studies, so he wanted me to be successful. He was very strict with me. Before I came here to study, I didn't even have a mobile phone. I've always been in the school in the village, and we don't have any gays there."

There was no emotional ups and downs in a short sentence, but it sounded inexplicably unpleasant. Qin Liming patted his knee, "So don't think so much, the most important thing is to take the exam well."

Gu Qingyu paused for a moment, and continued: "After I came here to go to school, I found that many things are different. Although there are some classmates who come from the countryside to go to school in the city like me, they are generally richer than me. Discussing some brands, or beautiful actresses, I don’t dare to intervene, and I can’t intervene.”

"Although my grades are not bad, I have always had low self-esteem and I don't have many friends. At this time, a handsome, popular man who is even the chairman's son came over and took the initiative to be my friend. How could I reject."

"Actually, I thought about it later. He didn't like to study, and he didn't have much in common with me. How could he take the initiative to approach me? It's just that I didn't dare to think about other aspects. I didn't know he was until he confessed to me. this means."

Qin Liming blurted out, "He fell in love with you at first sight."

"I don't know, he didn't tell me that either." Gu Qingyu said: "I don't know much about homosexuality. I used to think that I was asexual. I didn't like men or women. I only had to go to college. This task."

"But he just wanted to confess his love to me at that time." Gu Qingyu said and lowered his head, "He has nothing to do every day, even if he doesn't go to school, he can still be a rich second generation, he doesn't know the hard work of Han Chuang .”

Qin Liming couldn't bear it, "So you really affected the college entrance examination because of him?"

Gu Qingyu gave a wry smile, helplessness was written on the youthful and thin face of the young man, "He actually confessed to me at school that day, but I refused, and he chased me out of the school gate again, arguing My brother discovered it when he was talking, but he didn't know it was my brother."

"Actually, I didn't want to say so many unfeeling words at the time, and I didn't mean to tell my brother about it. He never knew about it."

So there was still a misunderstanding, Qin Liming completely entered the drama, "Then why didn't you tell him?"

"After he was rejected by me, he was so angry that he didn't show up at school for a few days. When I saw him later, I failed the college entrance examination, and I lost the mood to say these things."

"Teacher." Gu Qingyu asked suddenly, "Have you ever experienced this kind of time, that is, you know that person is unintentional, but he still disturbs your life invisible, and you want to hate him, but you can't hate him?" he."

Qin Liming couldn't understand, Gu Qingyu said: "Although he didn't confess his love to me in front of everyone, he often did it deliberately, and everyone is not a fool, how could he not see it?"

Qin Liming also felt sad, "Have you been bullied?"

"It can't be said that I was bullied, but there are rumors, discussions are always indispensable." Gu Qingyu kept scratching a small stone on the ground with her toes, "I am relatively thin-skinned, and sometimes I can't help it. on the head."

"He hasn't been to school in the past six months. He said that I don't want to see him, but he is just self-righteous." Gu Qingyu tried hard to control his emotions, but his eyes were still red involuntarily. reasons for rejecting him."

"What is it?" Qin Liming asked.

"He would give me expensive birthday presents every holiday or my birthday, but I would never accept them, and then he would get angry, but he didn't know, and that's what I was most afraid of. He has money, but I don't , he is careless, I am sensitive and inferior. I think even if it is really possible, I mean it is possible... It must be after I am admitted to a good university and I am sure that I have a good future. Otherwise, he will always be Xing Pengyue, I will always be in the mud, we have different paths, but we will never return together."

Qin Liming originally wanted to say a few good words for Zhang Zhanming, saying that it was not easy for him, he was simple and dedicated, and his family situation was not very good. His parents had just divorced, and he was alone at home all year round.

But in the face of Gu Qingyu's sincere monologue, he couldn't say a word, and he even felt a little sympathetic.

Of course he doesn't have Gu Qingyu's youthful arrogance and spirit, but his state of mind is somewhat the same.

Not everyone has the courage to admit love, and there is still some shyness between the opposite sex, let alone the same sex.

It's just that the two brothers of the Zhang family are more like love heroes. There may be no malicious words at all, but the troubles they bring are real.

"So you hate him?" Qin Liming asked knowingly.

But Gu Qingyu thought carefully for a while, "It seems that there is no..."

"What do you like?"

"It seems a little..."

He admitted it quite calmly, although he might be trying to hold on, Qin Liming clearly saw that his fair neck turned red instantly.

This is a child with self-respect, and he has never even talked about love. Qin Liming simply does not know how to comfort him. He can only try to recall the mental journey of getting along with Zhang Tuming. What a good example, but it is enough to change the subject, he said: "You, you don't have to think about it. You see, I am already so old, and I still have the same confusion as you. I seem to have a little bit of it, too. A little bit... fell in love with a man."

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Here we go, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow