Ruoshui Qiaochu

in a daze.

In the morning of the three days, she would first go to the yard to take care of the flowers and plants.The two impatiens have recently bloomed with numerous huge flowers.

Then, she began to pay attention to Chu Chu who had been neglected by her for a long time.She patiently watched it finish the cat food on the plate, and then patiently trimmed its claws.

Chu Chu is getting old, what is the meaning of life for a cat?

Does Chuchu have any troubles?In its life, it probably only needs a warm shelter from the wind and rain and three meals and enough food and clothing, right?

I heard that cats don’t catch mice anymore, so do they feel that their existence lacks functionality?

If she was really a cat in her past life and had a mistress who loved it very much, she should also be able to live a pure and happy life until she leaves this world without regrets.

But she is not a cat after all. In addition to love, she also has family affection in her life, and family affection has become an irreparable regret for the current Ruoshui.

She doesn't know what she can do for her mother and brother if time goes back?

If everything was predestined, then saving their lives would not be within her power, but at least, she could cherish the remaining time, right?

Or, even if time goes back, she can't make herself better at this moment?

Is life really just an unknown?If impermanence is really a normal state, how much mind and wisdom should she have to bear this normal state?

Sitting in the sunshine room with Chu Chu in his arms, basking in the morning sun, thinking about his life experience.When she regained consciousness, Qiao Chu was already sitting beside her, and she held her in her arms with one hand.

In the afternoon of the second day, she suddenly felt that she should make a cake, but when she moved out all the tools and looked at the unopened bag of flour, she still couldn't continue.

Qiao Chu kept an eye on her movements while working, and also found that she couldn't make a cake consistently. She knew that her heart still couldn't find a real refuge.

When Zhou Linshan came again, she brought a colossal creature——she appeared at the door in an exaggerated way holding a bear doll that was bigger than a person.

She walked up to Ruoshui, and copied the original words: "Xiong Doll hugs you on behalf of Wu Chongchong." Then, she stuffed the big toy into her arms.

Ruoshui really needs to open his arms to embrace it.

The bear doll was so big that it blocked Ruoshui's whole body, Zhou Linshan tilted her head and asked her, "Bear hug, is it warm?"

Ruoshui also had to tilt her head to see Zhou Linshan on the opposite side, she said, "It's very warm."

Zhou Linshan smiled, and said, "Only Wu Chongfeng would do such a naive thing. It really makes me difficult for me to brag and hug a bear."

Ruoshui smiled and said, "Thank you." She originally wanted to say "Thank you too", but she didn't say it after all.

Perhaps because of the affection and tacit understanding in the past, she naturally avoided these courtesies with Zhou Linshan.

Zhou Linshan went back to the car to get something. It was two fresh-keeping boxes. She said to Ruoshui: "I made dumplings, and they must be better than that day. This is enough for you for three days. Do you want to eat now?"

Ruoshui said, "I really want to."

"Do you want boiled or fried dumplings?"

Ruoshui said, "It's boiled."

When Zhou Linshan was busy in the kitchen, Qiao Chu came to her, and suddenly found that all ten of her fingernails were painted with bright purple nail polish, and there were exquisite patterns on it. Obviously she had done manicure, so she wowed A cry of admiration.

Zhou Linshan said enthusiastically: "My friend made it for me. It looks good, right? She also gave me several bottles of nail polish, which are very waterproof. Do you want them? I have them in different colors."

Qiao Chu said: "You know I never do these things, what kind of nail polish do I wear, I don't even keep my nails long."

Zhou Linshan suddenly smiled knowingly, "Forget it, I forgot that you have a girlfriend, so keep your hands as they were."

Qiao Chu pretended not to understand what she said.On the contrary, Zhou Linshan used her manicured hands to serve their meals in her kitchen, which moved her infinitely. She said: "I just discovered your virtuousness recently. At this moment, I really want to do one thing."

Zhou Linshan said jokingly: "You must not hug me at this time. I am sweating profusely. If I am hugged by you for the first time under such circumstances, I will be very sorry."

Qiao Chu whispered in her ear in a mischievous but earnest tone: "Don't get me wrong, I just want to call you mom."

Zhou Linshan immediately rolled her eyes, "Are you trying to take advantage of me, I'm not capable of giving birth to you yet."

"I don't know who will take advantage of whom." Qiao Chu counted the age difference between them, and said casually, "You can't give birth to me, but you can give birth to Ruoshui."

Zhou Linshan raised the ladle in her hand, pretended to be fierce, and tried to hit Qiao Chu's head hard.

"How's Ruoshui doing recently?"

Qiao Chu suddenly fell silent.

Zhou Linshan saw what was on her mind, and she said, "I will fly to Melbourne next month. If you can't leave, I can take Ruoshui to relax."

Qiao Chu said: "I don't think relaxing will help her much, it won't cure her real problem."

"Then what's your opinion? If Ruoshui needs psychological counseling, I have someone to recommend."

Qiao Chu said worriedly: "Actually, I have no claim, but I want to accompany her back to the town."

"Wouldn't it be more painful to go back to the small town?"

Qiao Chu only thought of Ruoshui's Little Master Meng.She just hoped that Ruoshui could get in touch with her master more.

She doesn't know exactly how the master can heal her, but she believes that only the master can do it...

Zhou Linshan suddenly said with emotion: "Qiao Chu, we are helpless in the face of death. It has nothing to do with how old you are or what experience you have had, but this is a problem we all have to face in the end."

Because of this, Qiao Chu made a greater determination. She wanted to help Ruoshui get better as soon as possible. At present, she just wanted to finish the work as soon as possible, and then accompany Ruoshui back to the town again.

However, a series of accidents ensued which threw her into confusion and delayed the matter.

Three days later, Qiao Chu went back to work as usual, and that night, Ruoshui's stomach pain broke out again.In the following time, stomachaches haunted her again and again.

There is always gastrointestinal medicine at home, just in case she gets sick at any time.However, Qiao Chu quickly confirmed one thing——

The relapse of Ruoshui's stomach pain is mainly due to psychological factors, which is a vicious circle where the psychology affects the physiology, and the physiology then affects the psychology.

She eats very little every day.Lost three kilograms in just three weeks.

Closely related to the stomach problem, she also had trouble sleeping—sleep became short and shallow.

It is very difficult for her to fall asleep every night. The biological clock wakes her up mercilessly at four o'clock in the morning, and then refuses to let her continue to sleep. Sometimes she has no choice but to get up and walk to the sun room to sit until At dawn, sometimes I would lie on the bed staring until dawn.

Ruoshui tried to tell Qiao Chu about her physical discomfort. She said that as soon as her stomach convulsed, an uncomfortable feeling of suffocation would immediately emerge from the depths of her body. At this time, she would want to cry uncontrollably. She felt very scared to be alone, and she kept saying that her heart couldn't be opened.

"Little Qiao, I can't be alone. When I'm alone, I feel like I'm about to collapse."

Qiao Chu searched the Internet for a lot of relevant information.If Ruoshui is a psychological and spiritual problem, she must receive psychological or psychiatric treatment.

But what she is more concerned about right now is her stomach problem.Ruoshui's mother died of stomach cancer, which made Qiao Chu more vigilant about her gastrointestinal problems.

She took her for a gastroscopy first, and the result was good.Then, took her to see several doctors at different times.

Doctors had varying accounts, at first saying she had just a general stomach inflammation, and later saying she had acid reflux.

She took her to see Western medicine and Chinese medicine, and finally almost settled on a more unified statement——

Gastrointestinal dysfunction and even the phenomenon of sluggish large intestine without peristalsis, which is called emotional disease in Chinese medicine.

Emotional illness, as the name suggests, can be traced back to the fact that Ruoshui lost her loved ones and was overly sad, which affected the health of her intestines, and then made her depressed and anxious.

The so-called seeing things and thinking about people, thinking for a long time makes the spirit sad.

Regardless of whether it is western medicine or traditional Chinese medicine, what you finally get home is drugs such as sedative and hypnotic effects.

Theoretically, improving sleep is equivalent to changing the mood. When the mood improves, the stomach and intestines can move again and the appetite can be improved.But this drug is a palliative, not a cure.Moreover, after a few days of eating, it is completely ineffective.

On a rainy night, Qiao Chu was suddenly awakened by the sound of thunder. Like so many nights, she found that Ruoshui was awake, and she didn't know how long she had been awake.

She wrapped her body in the quilt, her back was pressed against the head of the bed, her head was lowered, and her legs were wrapped around her legs, as if she really wanted to hypnotize herself and force herself to sleep, but she couldn't do it.

Qiao Chu leaned forward and hugged her.

She burst into tears and said with self-reproach: "Little Qiao, I also want to eat well and sleep well, but it seems that I can't help but control it. I don't seem to be myself. I can't control myself at all. I can’t be happy, my heart can’t seem to open, why can’t I open my heart?”

Qiao Chu said softly: "Don't blame yourself, and you can't blame yourself."

Anxiously, she repeated the words she had said many times: "My heart can't be opened..."

Qiao Chu turned on the bedside lamp, then held her face with both hands, and said in her usual firm tone: "Look at Ruoshui, your heart will definitely open, but not now, but one day, if you want to Be patient and don't put any pressure on yourself right now."

Ruoshui wept bitterly in her arms, as if the emotions that had been stored for a long time were pouring out once again.

Qiao Chu didn't want her to be depressed at all, and she didn't want to discourage her from stopping. Instead, she encouraged her and said, "My baby, cry when you want to cry, cry when you want to cry..."

So she cried earth-shatteringly, and then said: "Little Qiao, I really miss my brother and my mother. I can't let go of every minute and every second. I really want to know where they are now and whether they are okay. , I really can't go on like this, if I go on like this, I will go crazy sooner or later..."

Qiao Chu was stunned.Before she could control herself not to cry, she could only hug her more tightly, and then she only wanted to find an effective method for her.

No matter how difficult these methods are, she is willing to try.At this moment, all she can think of is the psychological counseling that Zhou Linshan said...

At dawn, she would call Zhou Linshan to discuss it.She can no longer watch Ruoshui go on like this day by day, depressed, thin, and even going crazy.

In the past, she always thought that as long as she was full of love, she could become the better, even the best person in Ruoshui's life. It turns out that in the face of impermanent life, she can give her so little.

If a heart disease still requires heart medicine, what kind of medicine is this heart medicine?

39. Section 3

—Shackles of the soul—

The unexpected death of her brother made Ruoshui's every breath painful, but the memories that made her want to delete them from her mind crazily clung to her all the time.

For some reason, she had a very strong feeling that her brother was experiencing unprecedented pain.

This pain did not end after his physical death, but entered another more cruel beginning——

In another space that she couldn't see or reach with naked eyes, her brother was suffering in pain and struggling to survive!

She began to have that terrible nightmare continuously-the factory explosion, the bloody storm, the loss of life, the neat and handsome navy blue striped shirt and black suit pants that her brother had before he died were no longer on him, and he was naked and bloody. Standing in front of her, weeping and told her that the place he is now is called the endless hell, he said that he suffered all kinds of ordeals there, every day he called the sky and the earth didn’t work, he also said that his day was like It is equal to her thousands of years in the world.

People don't just die once they die, this weird thought flashed over and over again in her dream.

More than once at dawn she had heard her brother calling for her help.He kept howling, saying, Ruoshui, help me, Ruoshui, save me!

Ruo Shui can strongly feel that the surrounding air is extremely cold, a kind of biting cold.She desperately stretched out her hand to her brother, trying to pull him out of the fire pit, or pull him out of danger, but his brother couldn't touch her hand at all, all he touched was a void.

He told her that what he received at the moment of the explosion was just a flower retribution, and the real retribution is here, and here is the endless hell.

Infernal hell!

Then, she could no longer hear her brother's voice, and he gradually disappeared into the cold air. He was wailing with a ferocious face, but he could no longer make any sound.

Ruoshui woke up suddenly, in addition to breaking out in a cold sweat, tears flowed down his face.

"Brother!" She yelled out at the top of her voice in a half-truth.

She felt a severe throbbing pain in her heart, and the acid in her stomach was bitter.

Then, she saw Qiao Chu beside her, holding her hand tightly while wiping the sweat and tears off her face with a towel.

At dawn at last, Qiao Chu contacted Zhou Linshan.

She used to worry about whether Ruoshui would resist receiving psychological treatment, but she didn't at all. She cooperated unexpectedly, which shows that she really wanted to face up to her heart, bravely uncovered the inner demons that had been lurking in her body for a long time, and did not escape at all. mentality.

Finally, they went to see the psychotherapist recommended by Zhou Linshan, a middle-aged man who graduated from Yale University in the United States.

When Zhou Linshan introduced him to them, she claimed that he was her friend, and she also told them that he was also her psychiatrist, which surprised Qiao Chu somewhat.

But they haven't had a chance to talk deeply about it yet.After all, what she cares most now is whether he can actually help Ruoshui.

In this way, Ruoshui will see the therapist once a week.Every time she came back from the doctor, Qiao Chu would secretly observe Ruoshui, looking forward to her changes. Once she felt that her mood had improved significantly, she would feel very relieved throughout the day.

A month has passed, and her mood seems to have stabilized a lot, and her appetite seems to be much better than before.

Although, her gastrointestinal spasm still occurs from time to time, once the spasm occurs, she will start to feel uncomfortable all over the body, and her emotions will become volatile, and she still needs to rely on drugs to relieve various discomforts in her body, but compared to before, Great progress has been made.

When the time came to the second month, when Qiao Chu was able to let go of the big stone weighing on his heart, Ruoshui decided not to continue the treatment.

That morning, she suddenly took the initiative to tell Qiao Chu that she was going to open a store for "Ruo Qiao".

It is certainly a good thing that Ruoshui can open a shop, but Qiao Chu still asked her with concern: "Aren't you going to the doctor today?"

Ruoshui was uncharacteristically calm: "Little Qiao, I won't go anymore. Peng Min has been asking me on the phone why I want to go back to "Ruoqiao". She said that she can't handle it alone, and I think it's time for me to go back."

"Ruo Qiao" has been handed over to Peng Min to take care of it, and Qiao Chu also knows that it is not easy for her to maintain it.

There are only two possibilities for Ruoshui to give up treatment:

First, her mood has gradually recovered, and she does not need to continue to receive treatment, which is definitely a good thing;

Second, psychotherapy has little effect on her, and going there will only waste time and money, so stop here.

Whether it's the former or the latter, Qiao Chu respects her and doesn't force her. She said: "If you don't need it, then don't go."

Qiao Chu didn't know at that time that it wasn't necessarily the psychotherapist who could stabilize Ruoshui's emotions, but a girl named Nagai Kanai.

One night, when they were watching TV news on the sofa, Ruoshui suddenly mentioned this girl to her, and she asked her: "Little Qiao, do you still remember the friend I told you about before who taught me to read people by their hands?" ?”

Qiao Chu said: "How can I not remember, I still think about what kind of hands I have. You said that she is a very magical girl you met when you were studying in Japan."

Ruoshui smiled and said, "The God girl is just what I said, her name is Nagai Kanna."

"So she is Japanese."

"Her father is Japanese and her mother is Singaporean. The work pressure in Japan is too great. They have been living in Singapore. Chanel was also born and raised in Singapore. Recently we got in touch with each other on FB and talked a lot."

Qiao Chu could see that she was happy to contact this girl named Nagai Kanai, and the joy that had disappeared for a long time reappeared on her face.

Of course she was very happy for her.But she knew that she must have something else to say to her, so she waited for her to continue.

Sure enough, Ruoshui said: "Xiao Qiao, I want to go to Japan with her."

Of course, Qiao Chu expressed her encouragement and support. She said, "It's good that you can go on a trip together."

Ruoshui said: "No, I'm not traveling, I don't want to travel at all."

Qiao Chu just stared at her, "If she didn't invite you to travel, what would she be doing?"

Ruoshui's expression became a little dignified, but her tone was firm: "Xiao Qiao, I want to leave home temporarily."

Qiao Chu became a little confused, "What does it mean to leave home temporarily? No matter where you go, you have to leave home temporarily."

"I mean, I'm not coming back for a while."

Qiao Chu was stunned.My mind suddenly became blank.She tried to calm herself down and consider what she said carefully.

After a while, she asked: "Then you left home, will you keep in touch with me?"

Ruoshui didn't say anything, but just hugged her, as if afraid that she would suddenly change her mind and strongly oppose her.

Qiao Chu was really speechless for a moment.Then, she heard Ruoshui's voice trembling, asking her almost pleadingly: "Little Qiao, you will support me, right?"

Qiao Chu was still in a daze.For a while, she couldn't figure out what Ruoshui's concept of "leaving home" was.

However, for her own good, as long as she can get better, hasn't she thought about it thousands of times in her heart——

No matter how difficult the method is, she is willing to let her try, and she must support her wholeheartedly.

Finally, she said: "No matter what you do, as long as you can be happy, I will support you."

Ruoshui was in tears, and she said, "Thank you, Xiao Qiao..."

Qiao Chu wiped away her tears and said, "Don't cry, honey, why are you crying just talking..."

Ruoshui said: "Little Qiao, I'm really in pain, do you know that?"

"I know, how could I not know." Qiao Chu patted her on the back, comforting her distressedly.

Ruoshui said: "I want to find an answer, I want to find myself back, although I don't know if I can do it, but I really want to give myself a chance..."

Qiao Chu just wanted her to rest assured, she said: "I will definitely support you, I will definitely support you."

If it wasn't for that psychotherapy, Ruoshui might not have a deeper understanding and awareness of herself.

She deeply realized one thing——except for herself, no one can really understand her pain, and no one can really help her, because the person everyone pays attention to is her——

Everyone tried to save her from her misery.But after all, they couldn't skip her to pay attention to her innocent brother who died tragically, and her mother who left her when she was caught off guard.

Although several months have passed since the accident happened, for Ruoshui, it will never be over.

Her life has been stuck in that day.How should she express this kind of pain that can no longer be expressed in words to the people around her?

If the deceased was in agony before and after death, then the living, like her, will be in pain every day of her life.

Her brother's death in vain and his whereabouts after death made her very confused and hesitant.Now she also wakes up, blood is thicker than water, she and her family are indistinguishable from each other.

Their death is equal to her death.Even if her body is immortal, half of her heart is already dead.

Her life has lost its spirituality.No matter how long it takes, she can't let it go.

The ignorance and ignorance of life have become the shackles of her soul, and she is eager to find the answer to life and death, so as to release herself from the shackles.

Since the day when she accepted that Ruoshui was about to leave home, Qiao Chu hardly dared to count down the days.

Her mood is very contradictory. On the one hand, she doesn't want to separate from her so soon, but on the other hand, she desperately hopes that her dead soul can be redeemed as soon as possible.

It was a weekend afternoon, Qiao Chu saw Ruoshui's long-lost tea set in the kitchen drawer.

On a whim, she took them out and put them on the table.On this day, she took the initiative to ask Ruoshui to make a pot of tea for her.

Looking back now, it turned out that she had only seen Ruo Shui make tea once, which was in Zhou Lin Shantao Paradise's apartment.

After that time, she drank the coffee made by Ruoshui countless times, but never drank her tea again.

They went to buy tea together.Besides choosing the yellow rose she drank for the first time, Qiao Chu also bought cinnamon tea.

Back home, Ruoshui took the tea set to the living room and put it on the coffee table.She arranged the tea set and boiled water with a small and delicate electric kettle.Strictly speaking, it was Qiao Chu's first experience with the whole process of making tea.

However, Ruoshui at this time is no longer the same as she was back then. She has lost a lot of weight, her face has lost her spirit, her eyes are full of thoughts, Qiao Chu only feels heartache when looking at her.

"Here." Ruoshui put the teacup in front of her.

Qiao Chu picked up the teacup, took a sip, and didn't speak. She put the teacup down and just looked at Ruoshui.

Ruoshui quickly went to take her teacup, and wanted to pour out her remaining tea and add new tea, but Qiao Chu stopped her and said, "Let me finish the tea first."

"The tea is cold," she said.

"Not cold. Not so fast." Qiao Chu said.

Ruoshui only made tea for Qiao Chu, but she didn't drink half of the tea herself.

The next day, Qiao Chu overheard a colleague saying that rose tea has the effect of calming the nerves and calming the mind, it is most suitable for patients with emotional distress, and this tea is very easy to brew.That day she went to buy tea as soon as she got off work.

The dried red roses bloomed beautiful petals in the teapot, and the blossoms were densely packed, very beautiful.

When Qiao Chu picked up the teapot, Ruoshui said, "Xiao Qiao, I didn't expect you to make tea for me."

Qiao Chu said: "Every day from now on, I want to make tea for you..."

She was very sad when she said this. It turned out that Ruoshui would leave her soon.

That night Qiao Chu accompanied her to buy two suitcases and came back.When I arrived in Japan, it happened to be severe winter.

She also bought her winter clothes, thermals, gloves, socks and everything else she could think of, and she kept a jar of rose tea in her bag.

On the eve of Ruoshui's departure, Qiao Chu put some trivial toiletries in a waterproof bag and put them in a box.On this night, she accidentally found a document in the clothes room.

She finally understood that Ruoshui's "temporarily leaving home" originally meant "becoming a monk". It turned out that there is a way of practice in this world called "short-term becoming a monk".

Qiao Chu put the documents back in a daze, not daring to read more.

She still understands the concept of becoming a monk, but what is the concept of becoming a monk for a short period of time?

Ruoshui must not have the courage to tell her, she must be worried that once these two words are spoken, it will scare her.

Qiao Chu didn't dare to think deeply.She didn't give a chance to think for herself because she couldn't regret it, and couldn't change her mind.

Ruo Saishou was sitting on the huge soft bear toy that Wu Chongfeng gave her while holding his mobile phone.

Qiao Chu knew that she must be busy contacting Shangai Kanna who is in Singapore at the moment.They will fly to Japan tomorrow, and they must clearly state the meeting point.

Just as Ruoshui put down the phone, Qiao Chu took her from the toy bear's arms to his own as if to hug Beibi.How thin, how weak, how small she is now.

She was really afraid that she would never have the opportunity to hug her like this again.She couldn't imagine that Beibi, who stayed with her day and night, was going to leave her, that Beibi, who would laugh, cry, act like a baby, and refused to change the sheets, would now leave her and become a monk. went……

What is it like?What mood?

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel sore.The tears were obviously about to fall, but she didn't want her to see them.

In three years she never left her for more than three days!Now, she actually wants to leave her and their home without a return date!

Those days of being together day and night, recalling it now only makes her feel extremely reluctant.Thousands of thoughts are suppressed in the bottom of my heart, and I can't turn them into words at all.

She told herself that she had to face it more rationally and calmly than usual, even if there were a thousand or ten thousand resentments towards her in her heart, she couldn't express it.

Since she cannot be freed from her pain, she should be allowed to find her own relief.

Qiao Chu only blamed herself for being too incompetent.

40. Section 4

—Give it a go—

Qiao Chu couldn't sleep all night, and seemed to have to wait for the dawn.At dawn, I will say goodbye to Ruoshui.

For her, it was definitely a journey without knowing the way forward.

Nagai Kanna, who is she?Who is she?She knew nothing about this girl, so she boldly let Ruoshui go with her.

She is willing to believe what Ruoshui believes, just as Ruoshui has always been willing to believe in her, and this includes believing that she knows what kind of journey she is about to embark on.

She didn't even ask about the return date, because she didn't dare to ask, and she couldn't ask.She didn't want to add any more psychological pressure to her.

She has too much on her mind.She loves her, she just wants her bag to be filled with her love, and her trust and confidence in her.

That night, Qiao Chu couldn't sleep, and Ruoshui couldn't sleep either, both of them tossed and turned.

Qiao Chuan watched her quietly, hoping that she could fall asleep quickly.She knew she couldn't sleep, but she didn't dare to hug her. She was afraid that doing so would only make her more reluctant to leave in the end.

However, in the middle of the night, Ruoshui seemed to have stomach cramps again.She quickly went to find her hot water bottle and put it on her stomach.This thing was bought by her later, and it can relieve her discomfort to some extent.

Afterwards, in a daze, Qiao Chu felt as if his eyes had just been closed and the sky was dawning.

The sky outside the window had just turned pale, but the room was still dark under the cover of the curtains.

While she was half asleep and half awake, she heard the sound of Ruoshui washing in the bathroom. The sound of water flowing was very soft, but because the surroundings were quiet, she could hear it very clearly.

At the dawn of dawn, she was fully dressed, sitting in front of her box, tinkering and making the final arrangements.

The plane leaves at 10:30 and she has to be at the airport for check-in two hours before.

Qiao Chu also washed up quickly, changed her clothes and walked into the bedroom, and heard Ruoshui say to her: "Xiao Qiao, after I leave, you must live a good life..."

Qiao Chu walked up to her, stared at her who was getting more and more depressed, and said sadly and distressedly: "I will, and you too, you have to live a better life than me."

Ruoshui nodded and said, "I will."

She wanted to push two trolley suitcases to the door, and Qiao Chu stepped forward to help her push one.

Ruoshui suddenly whispered to her behind her: "Xiao Qiao, you don't have to take me to the airport later, I just call a car and go there by myself."

How is this possible, unless she was completely knocked out, and she said: "I must personally see you off, so that I can rest assured."

Ruoshui didn't say anything, she put the box in place, turned around silently, only to find that Qiao Chu was still standing behind her, when looking at her, Qiao Chu still couldn't help reaching out to hug her.Ruoshui leaned against her lightly, and the two of them didn't speak for a long time.

Then, Qiao Chu heard Ruoshui's voice choked up, and she said: "I love you, Xiao Qiao..."

Qiao Chu was a little excited, and held her hand tightly, her eyes were red, but fortunately Ruoshui was lying on her body at this moment, so she couldn't see.

"I don't want you to send me off, I don't want each other to be sad..."

Qiao Chu understood.

Ruoshui said again: "I used to think that love is something that makes people absolutely happy, but it turns out that it is the root of pain. If it wasn't for love, I wouldn't have such deep attachment today. If it wasn't for With attachment, I wouldn't be in such pain.

Now I am more afraid of losing my only love than ever before, even if I hold it in my hand, I am afraid and restless all day long, I can no longer be happy, but I can't overcome myself..."

Qiao Chu understood, she really could understand, but she couldn't speak because she was about to cry uncontrollably.

Parting is always sad.Ruoshui pressed his face to hers, but on the cold skin were hot tears, which wet each other's faces.

Then, Ruoshui still buried her face on her shoulder as in the past, and she asked her: "Little Qiao, do you still remember that time, you asked me what kind of life I want to live, and how did I answer you?"

Qiao Chu said: "Remember. You said, as long as you have me in your life."

"I also said that in my world, as long as you are alone is enough. However, I was wrong. Perhaps, because of this, God severely punished me and made me suffer today..."

Qiao Chu didn't want her to continue to blame herself, but before she could say anything, Ruoshui wept and said, "Xiao Qiao, I'm sorry..."

To be honest, these words were like a biting cold wind, making Qiao Chu shiver uncontrollably.

Why say sorry?Even if she values ​​family affection more than love, she is not wrong, so there is no need to say sorry.Besides, there is no comparison between the two, is there?

How much Qiao Chu wanted to encourage her with a cheerful voice, saying: You go, dear, you go, you can rest assured to find what you are looking for.

But she couldn't say it.She was afraid that she would not be able to hide it and accidentally let her see her fluctuating emotions. What she was even more afraid of was that she would impulsively keep her and never let her go...

Therefore, it is better not to say anything.

Her original intention is to want her well, isn't it?How sad it is to let everything pass.

As long as she can open her heart, what kind of life she wants, even if she wants to leave her in the end, she is willing to let go, isn't it?

If her liberation is only in exchange for her fulfillment, can she fulfill her?

Can she do it?What would happen to her if she never came home again?

There were so many questions in her mind that she couldn't think deeply.

Perhaps, she should stick to her belief that the best way to give a person confidence or show trust in a person is to give it a go.

Give it a go.

She doesn't know if there is anyone in this world who is so stupid as to send the person she loves to an unknown road with his own hands. What is the harvest at the end of the road?Nobody knows.

They found a restaurant at the airport for breakfast.About half an hour later, at the departure hall of the international flight, Qiao Chu put a stack of Japanese yen banknotes exchanged two days ago in an envelope and handed it to Ruoshui.

In addition to the envelope containing the money, there are also several medicines from Ruoshui.She found the medicine on the dining table this morning, knowing that Ruoshui didn't bring it on purpose, but she still put them all in a transparent bag and brought them secretly for her.

Ruoshui said: "Xiao Qiao, I don't have much chance to use the money..."

"I haven't heard of anyone who has no chance to use the money after leaving home..." She put the envelope and medicine bag into her backpack.

Every day we get along, Qiao Chu worries about her every day: worrying about her hunger, worrying about her cold, worrying about her illness, worrying about her having no money, worrying about her being unhappy, worrying about this and that, worrying until the end.