Crush in pairs

In the last semester of junior year, Grandma’s condition relapsed, and the cancer cells had metastasized to the liver and brain. It was already at an advanced stage, and the doctor did not agree to treat the elderly, because surgery and chemotherapy would only increase the burden on the patient’s body and accelerate the exhaustion of the body. .The family members had no choice but to look for Chinese medicine practitioners, looking for various folk remedies, with the attitude of a dead horse as a living horse doctor.

Xin Jian was in great pain. Even though he spent two years mentally preparing for it, when the moment came, he still couldn't bear the fact.Especially Grandma's last days were so painful, she was in excruciating pain all day long, moaning endlessly, morphine and painkillers could only be used for a short while, Xin Jian looked completely helpless and in great pain.

During those days, Xin Jian was on winter vacation and stayed by Grandma's hospital bed all day long, taking care of Grandma, feeding her food, giving her medicine, washing her body, and calling for a doctor.At this time, Grandma's body organs are already exhausted, and she often has a high fever, and alcohol has to be used to physically cool her down.

When grandma was at peace, Xin Jian chatted with grandma, and grandpa and grandson recalled the stories of Xin Jian's childhood together. The distant memories would bring some indescribable warmth and joy to grandma and grandson.Many times, grandma often cried while laughing. Xin Jian thought that grandma was in pain again: "Grandma, does it hurt? I'll find a doctor for you."

Grandma's skinny face was still full of kindness, she shook her head: "It doesn't hurt, thank you for your hard work, dear grandson."

Xin Jian wiped away Grandma's tears with a tissue: "It's not hard, Grandma, that's how you took care of me when I was young."

Grandma said: "When people are old, they are annoying. They are always sick. I would rather go early and not cause you any trouble." There is no filial son in front of the long sick bed. Xin Yongtao has served his mother for two years, and he has lost The original patience.Not to mention Liu Meilun, because Grandma had already transferred all the house and property under her name to Xin Jian's name, and only gave Xin Fan and Xin Xin 5 yuan in cash each.Liu Meilun naturally felt that it was unfair. At first, she pretended to serve her for a few days, but when she heard that the house was not for her son, she never took a look at it again.Xin Yongtao hired a nurse to take care of him, but the nurse couldn't take care of his family well. As soon as Xin Jian came back, he took over the task of taking care of him.

When he heard Grandma say this, tears came out: "Grandma, don't say that, I am willing to take care of you for the rest of my life, don't think that way."

Grandma sighed: "Grandma also hates you, but sometimes it hurts, I really think it's better to go like this, suffer."

Xin Jian has never been so helpless and desperate in his life. Even if Tong Yi's parents forced them to separate, he never lost hope, because he believed that Tong Yi and himself, no external force could really take him away.But facing the grandma at this moment, facing the torment of illness and the threat of death, he was really powerless. He wished he could suffer for grandma, but he couldn't do anything.All I could do was wait for Grandma to fall asleep, and hide in a place where no one was around to wipe away tears secretly.He thought that after all these years of separation and suffering, he should have matured and become stronger, but he still couldn't accept the fact that Grandma was about to leave him.

This year was the most tormenting year for Xin Jian. Before the Chinese New Year, Grandma was taken home, so spending the Chinese New Year in the hospital was not always the same.Grandma finally survived the end of the year and entered the New Year.Xin Jian found that everyone seemed to be relieved. He vaguely heard someone say that Grandma is a person who accumulates blessings for her children and grandchildren, and she did not walk at the end of the year.Xin Jian didn't quite understand what was going on, but her heart felt like a knife was piercing her heart. Could it be that Grandma's days had entered the countdown?

Perhaps the joy of the Spring Festival infected Grandma, and perhaps Xin Jian's company strengthened Grandma's will to survive. During the Chinese New Year, Grandma's spirit seemed to improve a lot.When the weather was fine, Xin Jian carried grandma into the car, and drove grandma slowly out for a stroll, to see places grandma hadn’t visited for a long time. The grandfather and grandson looked at the ever-changing Shenzhen together and compared their memories Recalling the past, enjoying the warmth.Xin Jian knows that this kind of experience is one less time, and it may be the last time.

He was not willing to leave Grandma until school started, and he also didn't want to go back to school. He knew that if he left this time, it would be a farewell to Grandma.

Xin Jian asked the school for a week's leave to stay with grandma at home, until the school called to urge him to go back to class, and grandma and Xin Yongtao also urged him to go back to school, so he reluctantly returned to school.

Although there are calls every day, the situation is not optimistic. Grandma's body is getting weaker and weaker. On the eve of Ching Ming Festival, Grandma is already on her deathbed. Xin Jian received the call and immediately flew home.

This spring, there is a lot of rain, not only in Beijing, but also in Shenzhen, and the temperature is lower than that of the same period in previous years. When it comes to Qingming, you can still wear down jackets in Beijing, and jackets in Shenzhen.

When Xin Jian got off the plane, there was already a cousin waiting for him. When he met him, he said, "Hurry up, Ah Jian, maybe I can catch up with your grandma for the last time."

Xin Jian's eyes blurred, he threw down his luggage and ran, and the uncle called him from behind: "A Jian, don't panic, you child, you always have to carry your things. You have to go back by car, and you can't I'll be home in no time."

It was pouring rain outside, and the cold wind came and went in the dark night, just like Xin Jian's mood, wet and cold, he looked at the vast rain, wishing he could teleport to Grandma's side like a fairy.The uncle dragged Xin Jian's luggage over and said, "Ah Jian, the car is here." He successfully stopped Xin Jian from rushing out.

Xin Jian was sitting in the car, looking at the rain outside, without saying a word, the uncle said: "Your grandma always misses you, so she still refuses to leave."

Xin Jian's tears flowed out uncontrollably, Grandma must wait for him.

Because it was raining heavily and it was night, there were not many vehicles on the road, and the road conditions were very smooth. When Xin Jian arrived at the hospital, there was a roomful of people standing in the ward. Everyone stood by the bed with numb expressions on their faces. One person was wiping tears. After learning about Grandma’s illness, everyone had been waiting for this day to come, so when this day came, everyone accepted it calmly.

When Xin Jian entered the room, everyone involuntarily made way for him. Xin Yongtao said, "Grandma, Ah Jian is back."

Xin Jian walked to the hospital bed. Grandma was lying there with a breathing tube inserted in her nostrils. She was already unconscious, but refused to leave for a long time, as if she had a wish unfulfilled. Xin Jian walked to the bed, knelt down, Grabbing Grandma's hand, crying: "Grandma, I'm back, Ah Jian is back."

Grandma's eyelids trembled, and then slowly opened her eyes. Xin Jian looked at Grandma and cried, "Grandma, look at me, look at Ah Jian..."

But Grandma didn't move any more, her eyes didn't focus, and her eyeballs didn't move. A teardrop rolled down from the corner of her eye. Xin Jian felt that she grabbed Grandma's hand tightly, and then let go. Grandma slowly closed it. Close your eyes, the heartbeat monitor in the ward stretched out with a beep, and Grandma had already gone.Xin Jian realized that Grandma had gone, and threw herself on Grandma and cried bitterly.

Someone came over and wanted to pull Xin Jian away. Xin Jian held Grandma's hand and refused to let go. He couldn't let others take his grandma away. Grandma left without even having time to look at him. How could Mammy be willing to let him go?

Someone whispered in his ear: "Ah Jian, Grandma is no longer here, you have to mourn and let Grandma go with peace of mind. Come on, let go of Grandma's hand, we are going to see Grandma off."

Someone broke Xin Jian's fingers and let go of Grandma's hand, and finally someone was heard crying in the room.Xin Jian was in a daze, watching grandma being taken away and sent to the car of the funeral home.

For a long time, Xin Jian was immersed in grief, unwilling to accept the fact that Grandma had left him.

After the funeral, Qingming has passed.When Xin Jian returned home, looking at the familiar yet unfamiliar home, she always fantasized that grandma was still busy in the kitchen, and then she came out and said, "Ah Jian, grandma made your favorite shrimp", sitting on her own When I was in the room, I always fantasized about grandma pushing open the door and saying to him: "Ah Jian, grandma made sugar water for you", but all this can only be based on memories, the grandma who loves him the most Let's go, in this world, who else can love himself like grandma.

Xin Jian was lying on the bed, almost shed tears these days, her heart was empty, her eyes were also empty, a feeling of almost numbness.Who else can I rely on at this moment?Tong Yi, where is Tong Yi now?He scratched his heart and missed Tong Yi and that warm embrace, but when he raised his hand to touch his side, there was still air besides the air.

Xin Jian felt that she was the most miserable person in the whole world. Tong Yi left her because of her grandma, and now grandma also left her, and Tong Yi also left. Now there is only herself left, and there are people worse than him ?Xin Jian wanted to cry, but couldn't cry, he was completely depressed.

At this moment, Yuan Dian called him: "Xin Jian, are you still in Shenzhen?"

Xin Jian hummed weakly.

Yuan Dian said, "I'm also in Shenzhen, and I'm here to see you. Let's make an appointment to meet, or go to your house?"

Xin Jian said, "See you outside."

Yuan Dian said: "That's fine, you come to the hotel where I live." After speaking, he gave an address.

Xin Jian got up to tidy herself up, she was too sad these days, she was so decadent, she didn't even shaved her beard, her hair was like a bird's nest, not to mention her haggard and ugly face.He took a shower, tidied up, changed his clothes and went out. Without driving, he hailed a taxi and went straight to his destination.

When he arrived at the hotel, he thought Yuan Dian would be waiting for him in the lobby, but Yuan Dian told him to go upstairs and told him the room number.Xin Jian didn't think much, and went upstairs directly, opened the door, it was a luxury suite, with a living room and a bedroom, Yuan Dian got up from the sofa: "Here you go. Your complexion looks very bad, I have also heard about the family affairs, so my condolences will change."

Xin Jian nodded, walked to the sofa and sat down: "Sister, when did you arrive?"

Yuan Dian said, "I arrived last night. I haven't had breakfast yet. I'll ask someone to bring some food up. You haven't eaten breakfast, have you?"

Xin Jian couldn't remember how long he hadn't eaten normally, he lowered his head and didn't make a sound, Yuan Dian looked at him like this, as if his soul had been taken away, and patted him on the shoulder distressedly: "Sadness comes from sadness , you still have to take good care of your body, don't let those who love you and care about you worry. You sit down for a while, sister will come when she goes. "

Xin Jian nodded, and sat in the room, staring blankly at the window. The curtains were drawn, and the window was half-opened. Today was a rare sunny day, and the sunshine outside was very good. It bulged up, and then let it down after a while, like a naughty child playing with his mother's skirt.

The door was pushed open, but Xin Jian didn't look back, thinking it was Yuan Dian or the waiter coming, but when he approached, the other party walked very slowly and heavily, and didn't come to the coffee table for a long time, Xin Jian felt a little Strange, I turned my head to look, and then the action froze.He thought he was dazzled, so he blinked hard, but the more he blinked, the more he couldn't see clearly. He raised his hand and wiped his eyes vigorously, trying to open his eyes and look at the other person.

Holding the dinner plate, Tong Yi went to the tea table and knelt down, put the plate down, and stretched out his hands to Xin Jian: "Baby, I'm back." His voice was choked, obviously emotional.

Xin Jian hugged Tong Yi's neck violently, buried her head in his neck, and burst into tears: "Tong Yi, Tong Yi..."

Tong Yi hugged Xin Jian's back tightly: "I'm sorry, Bao, I'm sorry for letting you bear such a great sadness alone. I'm late."

Xin Jian shook his head violently: "No, no..." But he couldn't say more, how could it be too late, he never dreamed that he would come back, but he came back when he needed it most, what else is there Unsatisfied, he is already thankful.

Xin Jian hugged Tong Yi and cried for a long time, thinking that the tear glands that had dried up were extremely developed at this moment, crying until Tong Yi's shoulders were soaked, Tong Yi kept kneeling on the ground, straightened her waist, hugged him, and let him Let go of your feelings.Finally, Xin Jian stopped crying and turned into sobbing. Tong Yi touched the back of his head: "Silly boy, Shenzhen will be flooded."

Xin Jian sniffed, raised her head a little embarrassedly, raised her hand to wipe her eyes, Tong Yi took a tissue and wiped away his tears, her eyes were full of distress and tenderness.Xin Jian looked at Tong Yi greedily, not seeing him for two years, did his Tong Yi change?

Still the same good-looking eyebrows and clean temperament, if there is any difference, the face is a bit tired, and there are more things in the eyes, it looks more mature and stable, this is a sign of a man's growth .

Tong Yi was also greedily looking at Xin Jian, rubbing his face with his fingers: "Have you worked too hard recently, the bags under your eyes are so heavy. Pay attention to take care of your body, your body is not only yours, but also mine, you can't casually Ruin, you know?"

Xin Jian nodded vigorously: "Yes."

Tong Yi got up from the ground: "I'm going to change clothes, you go to wash your face, and then come to eat, you haven't had breakfast yet?"

Xin Jian didn't move, just sat there watching Tong Yi's movements, Tong Yi turned around, stretched out his hand, and pulled Xin Jian up: "Come with me."

A smile finally appeared on Xin Jian's face. At this moment, he didn't want Tong Yi to leave his sight for even a second.

Tong Yi took his hand and entered the bedroom, then bent down and took out a shirt from the suitcase next to the bed, ready to change, Xin Jian came over and helped Tong Yi unbutton it.Tong Yi looked down at his hands, and then looked up at Xin Jian's lowered eyelids. His long eyelashes were still stained with tears, sticking together strand by strand. Tong Yi gently kissed his eyelids. Jane raised her eyes and looked at Tong Yi, who lowered her head slightly and kissed Xin Jian.

Xin Jian stopped the movement of her hands, wrapped her arms around Tong Yi's back, raised her head slightly, opened her teeth, and stretched out her tongue to invite Tong Yi.This kiss was not intense at all, but lingering and long, with endless tenderness and pity, the two soft tongues rubbed each other, telling the master's thoughts, kissing and kissing, both of their faces were wet, and the tears It dripped down involuntarily, it was grievance, affection, joy and happiness.

Tong Yi touched Xin Jian's wet face, feeling sore and full, feeling extremely uncomfortable.When they couldn't breathe, the two finally separated. Tong Yi gasped and kissed the tears on Xin Jian's face: "Bao, don't cry, don't cry, I'm always here, always by your side."

Xin Jian wiped away the moisture from Tong Yi's face. This was the first time he saw Tong Yi cry. He sucked his nose and finally asked what was in his heart: "Why are you back?"

Tong Yi let go of him and began to take off her clothes: "You haven't posted on Weibo for a few days. I asked my cousin and said that you came back to Shenzhen. I know something must have happened to Grandma."

Xin Jian burst into laughter, he had been paying attention to his movements all the time: "When did you get home? Did you sneak back?"

Tong Yi took off the shirt on his body, revealing his broad chest. Xin Jian found that Tong Yi had been strong for a long time, with chest muscles. Unlike before, there was only a faint outline, and there were faint abdominal muscles. He helped Tong Yi pick up the bed. another shirt, put it on and button him.

Tong Yi dragged him to sit by the bed: "I just arrived this morning. No one knew about it. I asked the school for a few days off."

Xin Jian said in a low voice, "Then you haven't rested yet?"

Tong Yi said: "Well, let's go to have breakfast, and sleep with me after dinner. When you wake up, take me to see grandma."

Mentioning Grandma, Xin Jian's heart ached again, but now he is fine, he is not alone, he nodded: "Okay."

Tong Yi kissed his forehead: "Baby, don't be sad anymore. Grandma is the one who wants you to live happily. She must like that you smile happily every day."

Xin Jian nodded obediently: "Yes."

When Tong Yi came back, Xin Jian always had a feeling of wandering, not so real, but so wonderful.He was led by Tong Yi to wash his face, and then led back to the sofa. Tong Yi put a shrimp dumpling in Xin Jian's mouth, and he put another one in his mouth. While chewing, he mumbled, "Our breakfast is still delicious. Son."

Xin Jian chewed mechanically, his eyes were full of Tong Yi, his face was full of happiness, he never dreamed that he would sit with Tong Yi for breakfast today.This is the happiest day he has been in more than two years.

When Tong Yi went to bed and lay down, he hugged Xin Jian in his arms, pressed his head on his chest, and muttered, "You haven't rested well, sleep with me."

Xin Jian slept in Tong Yi's arms, listening to the steady and powerful heartbeat, sniffing the familiar breath, his chest was full, every cell was filled with excitement and happiness, as if he was about to rush out, he was reluctant to fall asleep , fearing that Tong Yi would disappear as soon as she fell asleep.He stretched out his arm and put the bracelet around Tong Yi's waist. He didn't want to reach out and touch the air, he wanted a real Tong Yi.

After all, she was still too tired, and the tightest string in her heart was relaxed, so Xin Jian still fell asleep.The long-lost sweet dream finally visited Xin Jian, and he slept like never before.

When he woke up, it was already afternoon, and Xin Jian woke up from hunger. He opened his eyes, and felt a hand gently caressing himself, from the hair to the pinna, and then to the neck. With [-]% love and pity, Xin Jian rubbed against Tong Yi's body comfortably like a cat.

Tong Yi clamped Xin Jian's feet between his own legs, hugged his waist tightly with one hand, and brought the whole person into his arms, as if he wanted to embed Xin Jian on his body. Whispering: "Baby, are you awake?"

Xin Jian hummed, and didn't want to move at all. He wanted to hold Tong Yi like this until the end of time, without ever having to separate.

Tong Yi began to talk to him: "Tell me about you, the situation in the past two years."

Xin Jian closed her eyes and said, "It's all on Weibo."

Tong Yi said: "Your microblogs always report good news but not bad news, don't I know you well?"

Xin Jian said: "Except for Grandma, there is no worry. As long as you are still in my heart and I am in your heart, nothing is worrying."

Tong Yi hugged him tightly and rubbed his chin on the top of his head. How could he express his love and gratitude to this boy: "Baby, thank you, thank you!"

Xin Jian said, "What about you? I don't know about your situation. Are you doing well?"

Tong Yi kissed the top of his hair: "Without you by my side, how can it be considered good. The greatest comfort is to see your Weibo every day, but unfortunately I can't do this for you."

Xin Jian said: "It doesn't matter, I know, you are working hard for the two of us in places I don't know. I understand everything. Tell me about your situation in the past two years."

Tong Yi slowly told him that he majored in two majors, mathematics and economics, and was very busy and fulfilled every day.Xin Jian felt that it was too hard for him to do this: "Universities in the United States have heavy courses, and it is not easy to graduate. It is too hard for you to pursue a double degree. Don't damage your body."

Tong Yi smiled helplessly: "I can't help it. I miss you every time I am free. It hurts my heart. I turn all my thoughts about you into strength and strive to reunite with you as soon as possible."

Xin Jian's nose was sour: "Are you tired?"

Tong Yi breathed out: "Seeing you, I don't feel tired at all. Don't worry, I have exercised well, and I go to the swimming pool for at least half an hour every day. Do you think I am in great shape now?"

Xin Jian stretched out her hand and touched Tong Yi's body: "It seems that I have all the abdominal muscles."

Tong Yi chuckled: "The mermaid lines are all out. Every time I go to the swimming pool, I will fascinate a group of men and women."

"Besides me, don't seduce anyone else!" Xin Jian opened her mouth and bit Tong Yi's chest. Tong Yi breathed hard, and was about to attack Xin Jian, when suddenly there was a long "goo—" , Xin Jian smiled awkwardly, and Tong Yi stopped what he was doing: "Bao is hungry, get up and eat, and then go visit grandma's grave."

Xin Jian nodded: "OK."