I'm a god in the infinite game

"I'm very curious about this." Bai Liu tilted his head slightly, and asked with a smile, "Falling in love with a creature that doesn't respond, deceiving yourself? What kind of feeling does it feel to have love?"

"Will you be in pain when you watch Tavel reading a book alone in the church, and when he looks back at you?"

"You really mind that, don't you?"

"No one will fall in love with the same kind that makes you suffer, it's just that you don't have a choice."

"After all, since you were born, you have never received the love spontaneously generated by other human beings. All the love you have traded yourself and met various conditions, so? You can't tell them apart because of the external love you bestowed. do they respond to you, or do they respond to you because they are your kind?"

"Xieta is like this, Lu Yizhan is like this, your later teammates, Mu Ke, Mu Sicheng, Liu Jiayi, Tang Er? Fighting, everyone is like this."

"You have to live up to their expectations and give them what they want in order to keep them close to you."

"So? Did you actually get their affection for you? Or did you just buy them briefly? Get them by your side?"

"If there comes a day when you can't continue to give the items of the trade, will they? Forever? Abandon you and leave you?"

Bai Liu raised the corners of his mouth: "——like the Scheta who died once."

Bai Liu's breathing slowed down, he lowered his head, his forehead's shattered hair fell down to cover his face, his expression couldn't be seen clearly, his whole body gradually shrunk, and wearing hunting clothes became the large uniform uniform of the orphanage , the body became thin and thin, and finally turned into a 14-year-old Bai Liu.

The thin white willow is sitting motionless on the audience chair opposite the water-patterned wall, with water droplets falling into the universe.

[System warning: Player Bai Liu was attacked by the evil god Bai Liu, and his mental value has dropped, and it will drop below 60 soon, seeing hallucinations...]

Bai Liu smiled and looked at Bai Liu on the other side of the water pattern wall, or the 14-year-old Xiao Bai Liu:

"You are essentially the same as Tavel at the beginning. You gathered these people around you by giving them free gifts in advance, but? I have proved in countless experiments that such gifts in advance cannot In exchange for love, only in exchange for desire."

"Are you sure what you're trading from someone else is really emotion, and not some kind of desire that looks like emotion?"

Bai Liu lowered his eyes in pity: "You, like Tavel, are a lonely god."

"It's just that it doesn't have a soul, and it doesn't feel lonely and painful when it doesn't get response and love, but? You have?."

"Your soul will suffer endlessly because of lack of love."

[System warning: Player Bailiu's spirit value continues to drop, and will soon be below 40! 】

Water gradually seeped from Bai Liu's clothes, as if he had fallen into a pool that didn't exist, his hair and clothes began to float in the universe, his hands floated in front of him, and a door-like shape appeared spinning directly below him. The black hole in the sky is faintly shining with silver-blue light.

Bai Liu smiled at Bai Liu with those silver-blue eyes, and continued?:

"The pain born from the soul of a person will bind them and trap them in place. They cannot move forward, just like silk threads. They can only be manipulated by this pain, and then slowly become a puppet of pain."

A transparent silk thread flew out from the depths of the universe and wrapped around Bai Liu's wrist, lifting his thin wrist like a marionette.

"Tavier is a real monster, but you are a monster with a soul. You are not the same kind from the beginning."

Bai Liu said softly:

"And the human beings around you, whether they are good or bad, have been loved and loved others, and they have gained souls because of the pain caused by others. There are no human beings who really care about them."

"They don't come from the same place as you. Even if they stray by your side at this moment, they will never end up in the same place with you, because you are not of the same kind, and because they all have ?The place where they belong, and the people who welcome them back."

"You are just a god who took them in for a short time."

Bai Liu looked at the 14-year-old Bai Liu on the opposite side of the water pattern wall: "When they leave, you are still alone."

"No one will stop for you."

"No one in this world has expected your birth, no one has expected your growth, no one has expected you to become a good person, but as a derivative of evil gods, you try to control your desires and satisfy them The condition of turning myself into an ordinary good person, so as to turn myself into their kind, and gain their short-term affection."

"—It's like you, at the age of 14, turned yourself into a monster in order to let yourself have the same kind of monster as Tavel."

"It's been so many years and you've paid so much, but you still haven't found your kind, Bai Liu."

[System warning: Player Bailiu's spirit value continues to drop, and will soon be below 20!Please quickly restore the spirit? Value! 】

Two silk threads flew out and were tied to Bai Liu's left wrist and neck. He was pulled by the silk thread and slowly raised his head. Bai Liu walked out calmly from behind the water-patterned wall. Bai Liu raised his lower jaw in front of Bai Liu, with a pity-like sigh on his face.

"In this world, the only one who has been watching you and looking forward to you since you were born is me."

Bai Liu took off the glove of his right hand, and lightly supported Bai Liu's side face with his right hand with his lowered eyes, his tone was very soft:

"I know what you're thinking, I understand everything you're going to do, and I'll present the most interesting game in the world to you."

"—The birth of your soul surprised me and made me give up that old creation. Your growth and self-restraint made me feel that I saw the most valuable thing in this world."

"You showed me the possibility of a human being with a soul becoming a god, guarding the gate in endless pain and loneliness."

Bai Liu's warm palm caressed Bai Liu's side face, his thumb brushed against Bai Liu's eyes, and there was a pitiful smile on his face:

"I know that if it were you, even if all the abyss, darkness, hatred, lust, and other negative emotions poured on you on the other side of the door, you can still maintain your sanity and let your soul be in a certain place. Keeping the shape of a human being in a love that comes from nowhere, guarding this door forever in the vastness of the universe."

"—like guarding the kind you thought you were, even though they weren't."

"Among all the world lines you can recognize, I expect you to live forever? The person who can truly understand your thoughts is the closest to your kind. In fact, the only one is me who is hated by you. .”

Bai Liu squatted on one knee in front of Bai Liu. He stared at the 14-year-old Bai Liu sitting on the chair with his silver-blue to deep blue eyes, and stroked his soft hair, just like a gentle and friendly Senior citizens.

"Among the 658 world lines, you are the most malicious derivative I have suffered, so many pursuers who hate you, but? I can't give you any help, I can only watch you again and again? Among other people Struggling with the malice of giving."

"sorry."

Bai Liu suddenly leaned forward and hugged Xiao Bai Liu. He buried his head in Bai Liu's thin shoulders, and tightly embraced his thin shoulder blades, which were as thin as paper. His voice became very serious:

"sorry."

"In those 658 world line games, you exceeded my expectations. I did hurt a lot of people, but... only you. I didn't intend to play with you in this game."

"You are not the game NPC I set up, nor are you the creatures that evolved from the world line that was born in my palm."

"—You are just me who has no other kind but has a soul."

Bai Liu patted the motionless little Bai Liu on the back lightly, just like comforting a child:

"I've been thinking about—"

"——If at this time, instead of you twisting yourself into the shape of Scheta's embrace? To get that bloody and cold hug, but? Someone came to hug you proactively, what would you do?"

"What would you do if I came to hug you as your kind?"

"But? I can't touch you, but I want to." Bai Liu's tone became very?very?softly, "He is already a human being. He has a soul. He is loving others. One day, He'll wait for someone who comes and hugs him."

"So? I'll quietly? Observe beside you, wait with you, and wait for that person to appear."

"During the past ten years, you have had people who fought side by side with you, people who looked up to you and believed in you, people who stopped you from going astray, people who were responsible for you, obviously so many people surrounded you—"

"—But? Still no? Someone who came to hug you proactively."

"In the eyes of others, you have become an omnipotent god? And a monster who does all kinds of evil, but? Still no one regards you as a human being."

"Only? Me." Bai Liu whispered, "Only? I know that you are a human being with a soul, a good boy who always loves others."

"You were waiting for a hug."

"I thought that human beings are a mirror that reflects emotions, and you who have given you love have long? I."

Did Bai Liu look open? With eyes of any emotion, he looked at Tavel who looked like a cold sculpture behind the water-patterned wall. He saw in Tavel's eyes a 14-year-old curled up and sitting on a chair, covered by white Six hugged his shoulders.

Bai Liu opened her mouth to interfere, and said [Xieta] softly with her mouth.

Tavel opened his emotionless silver-blue eyes, didn't he? Respond to him.

Then a tear fell from Bai Liu's eyes very?slowly, very?slowly, and he heard Bai Liu say softly as if sighing:

"Be my heir, my child."

"This is your final destination."

[System warning: Player Bai Liu's spirit? value is about to be reset!warn!warn! ! 】