I'm the only one in the world who thinks I'm a substitute

The start of breaking the balance

After talking on the phone with his brother, Xia Yinan looked through the chat records between himself and his brother, and was shocked to find that he had lost a lot of contact with Xia Qing recently.No wonder my brother called...

It is obviously a habit that has been persisted for many years, how could it be suddenly forgotten?

Xia Yinan suspected that he was too busy filming recently, thinking this way, he set an alarm clock for himself to remind himself to remember to contact his brother, so that Xia Qing would not worry about him in the future.He didn't want his brother to have any burden.

Xia Yinan was so engrossed in thinking about things that he didn't even notice that Yu Fei entered the kitchen.

Yu Fei said, "I'll cook for you."

As he spoke, he put on his apron in a serious manner.

Xia Yinan looked at the basically prepared food, tried to show a smile, and joked: "I'm done with this, brother, you are too cunning."

Yu Fei seldom enters the kitchen, he didn't come in to help with the cooking, but just wanted to talk to Xia Yinan.Now Xia Yinan pointed it out, she didn't feel embarrassed, but nodded calmly: "Yes."

Yu Fei put his arms around Xia Yinan's waist, wondering: "Did you lose weight again?"

I always feel that this person is always thinner than the last time I met.

In fact, the two are about the same size, but Xia Yinan always gives people the feeling of being thin.

When we first met, it seemed that it was not so obvious, Yu Fei frowned slightly.

"No way."

Xia Yinan didn't admit it, and seeing Yu Fei didn't seem very happy, he quickly added: "This isn't filming recently, maybe I'm a little tired. When I get back to rest, I'll take good care of myself."

"After the filming is over, take a break. I'll ask Sister Li to make you some tonic soup." Yu Fei put his arms around him with one hand, and said thoughtfully, "If your brother saw it, he would think I was bullying you." , Turn around and don’t eat me.”

Just like Xia Qing seldom mentioned Yu Fei, Yu Fei actually seldom mentioned Xia Qing.

Because Xia Qing had strongly opposed the two of them being together, in order to promote a harmonious relationship, the two of them always acted like the king didn't see the king.

Now that Yu Fei talked about Xia Qing, Xia Yinan subconsciously defended his brother, and retorted: "My brother won't, he's fine."

Yu Fei buried his forehead on Xia Yinan's shoulder, and said, "Yes, your brother is good, I'm not good..."

"no--"

Yu Fei said: "Then me or your brother, who is better for you?"

Frankly speaking, both of them are important in Xia Yinan's heart, but his brother is the only one who loves him, and Xia Yinan prefers his brother.

But now Yu Fei who asked the question, of course Xia Yinan couldn't speak directly.It's not the first time he's faced with such a dilemma, but for some reason, he can usually go through it with a laugh, but today he feels wrong no matter how he mobilizes his emotions.

Xia Yinan didn't want to lose control of his emotions, but the more he wanted to get better, the more uncomfortable he felt.

Xia Yinan suspected that chatting with his brother was too exhausting before, and he had to face Yu Fei again without a buffer, so he couldn't express so much happiness all at once.Xia Yinan was a little anxious, and reached out to hug Yu Fei, trying to tell a joke to coax the matter away.

But his mind went blank, as if he had nothing happy to say.

Xia Yinan suddenly couldn't hold back his emotions, and burst into tears. He uncontrollably began to apologize: "I'm sorry..."

He felt that he couldn't hold on anymore.

Originally, Yu Fei was just acting like a baby with Xia Yinan, wanting to listen to some love talk, and take the opportunity to hug her, but suddenly heard "I'm sorry", and felt the crying in the voice, and when she looked up, she saw Xia Yinan's red eyes.

It's not that Yu Fei has never seen Xia Yinan cry, but it was all about sex on the bed, and he can feel that he is not really sad.But now this look of trying to hold back tears... To be honest, Yu Fei was a little dazed, he stood up straight, and pulled Xia Yinan who was so flustered that he wanted to run away.

Did they just say something?I want to compare myself with Xia Qing, so Xia Yinan is so embarrassed?

Yu Fei reached out to wipe Xia Yinan's tears, but Xia Yinan couldn't hide.

"Xiao Xia, what's wrong?" Yu Fei felt scared for no reason.

Xia Yinan responded silently.

He didn't know what happened to him just now, why he burst into tears all of a sudden, and the moment the tears flowed, he was frightened.

Why, how could you cry in front of Brother Yu?

Yu Fei: "Xiao Xia, don't cry. I won't mention your brother in the future, your brother is important, it's nothing—"

Still silent, but Xia Yinan quickly sorted out his emotions, he interrupted Yu Fei, and said, "No, it was just when I cut the onion, it was so hot to the eyes..." Xia Yinan seemed to prove himself, pointing Scallions on the chopping board.

Then exaggerated: "Really, this thing is so good to cry, if I can take it to the crew, I won't need artificial tears when filming crying scenes!"

Xia Yinan wanted to change the subject, and didn't want to mention what happened just now.

Yu Fei: "Lie."

The strength that Xia Yinan had managed to accumulate disappeared in an instant, his body seemed to be held down, and there was no sound.

Yu Fei felt that they had nothing to say, so he asked Xia Yinan, "Why are you crying?"

Xia Yinan turned his head away from looking at Yu Fei, he struggled a bit: "Brother, I want to go to the bathroom, let me go."

Yu Fei didn't let go, he asked in a low voice: "If you are unhappy, you have to say it. If you don't like me comparing with your brother—"

"I'm really not unhappy, Brother Yu, I really want to go to the toilet." Xia Yinan wanted to escape, just like when he was facing 200 million debts, he thought he could escape by changing the phone card.His tone at this time could no longer hear sadness and sadness.

Yu Fei is not a character who breaks the casserole and asks the end, but he wants to know what Xia Yinan thinks, so he still insists on asking.

Xia Yinan was silent for a long time, then whispered, "What are you doing?"

Yu Fei: "I want to know what you think."

Xia Yinan: "I want to go to the toilet..."

Yu Fei: "..."

Yu Fei was patient, softened his voice to coax him, and held on to Xia Yinan.

But you can say anything else, when Xia Yinan was asked if he was unhappy, he said he needed to go to the toilet.

In the end, there was nothing he could do. He stopped asking and let go.

But Yu Fei still found it too strange.

Xia Yinan is usually a very emotional person, but he is always happy, he can laugh for a long time at a little thing, and make everyone around him happy.Emotional today is negative and negative.The unhappiness came and went quickly.If he didn't really see the tears, Yu Fei would think it was an illusion again...

again.

Yu Fei thought about it carefully, it seemed that Xia Yinan had shown it before, but it was very slight.

The most recent time, Xia Yinan fell ill and had a fever, and he actually noticed it vaguely.Xiao Xia lost control of her emotions, but at that time I thought he was sick, which made people feel emotionally fragile...

When Xia Yinan came out of the toilet, his face was full of smiles, without any flaws.

Only the moisture on the forehead will reveal that he may have washed his face more than once before he sorted out his emotions.

Yu Fei suddenly didn't dare to continue asking.

The two of them sat at the dining table, and Yu Fei listened to Xia Yinan telling him jokes, gossip, and funny stories about filming as usual.I don't know if it's because of a different mood, this time Yu Fei could clearly feel that Xia Yinan was forcing a smile.

Yu Fei didn't understand why Xia Yinan did this.

Yu Fei is not a fool, he can feel that Xia Yinan is trying to please him.

Yu Fei just didn't understand why Xia Yinan went against her will and pretended to be happy.

If you pretend to be happy today, what about before?Is it true that everything we were together before was just a fake?Yu Fei didn't dare to think deeply, he was suddenly frightened.If that assistant is telling the truth, Xia Yinan is with him for money and suffers every day, can he really tie people by his side regardless of everything?

With her poor acting skills, Xia Yinan left as if fleeing.

He was glad that today was the last day of the vacation, and he also booked a flight ticket to leave, so that he could take it for granted and not face Yu Fei's probing eyes.

Just now, following Yu Fei's wishes, he ate a whole bowl of pork ribs. As soon as he got in the car, he felt uncomfortable for a while. When he arrived at the airport, before he had time to change his boarding pass, he vomited up.

Xia Yinan saw her pale face in the mirror.

Xia Yinan suddenly remembered some old things.

When he first met Yu Fei, the two of them hadn't developed such a chaotic relationship like they are now.But Xia Yinan's heart couldn't help but move towards Yu Fei.

A person who is as humble as dust suddenly meets someone who saves him like a god, Xia Yinan is grateful with a hint of love.

These things were not quite out of his control.

just like men-

It was something Xia Yinan had never imagined, let alone being able to be with Yu Fei.

Xia Yinan saved some money and went to see a doctor secretly.However, Xia Yinan, who didn't understand anything, only met a psychiatrist who scammed money from a black clinic. He said to Xia Yinan, "It's wrong to have feelings for the same sex, and you need to receive treatment..."

In Xia Yinan's life, she doesn't have any elders to confide in, nor friends to confide in.

He believed the doctor's words, thinking that he was really sick, and quickly confessed his thoughts to the doctor.

I don't know if it is Xia Yinan's luck that the black clinic was closed down without receiving "treatment" for too long.But the experience of those few months was still like a nightmare, when Xia Yinan thought he was about to forget, he would come out to stimulate him.

Xia Yinan didn't see any other psychiatrists after that, nor did he tell anyone what happened back then.He just checked some information by himself. For Xia Qing's sake, he never believed that he had the right to be sick. With this strong belief, Xia Yinan didn't seem to have any problems over the years.

But today's mood was out of control, Xia Yinan clearly felt that because of Qi Ye's appearance, his mood was becoming uncontrollable.

Even if homosexuality is not a disease, losing control of my emotions is pushing myself towards an abyss.

Xia Yinan hates this feeling.

He desperately wanted to get better and get back to his previous form.

The author has something to say: Thank you little angel: I am happy to irrigate a bottle of nutrient solution.