beg for chivalry

Vaguely, he heard the sound of water dripping.

He vaguely thought: It might be rain, the raindrops falling between the fluttering willow sash and the golden sycamore leaves, dripping until dawn.When he was young, he used to sit by the green steps under the patio, watching the raindrops falling from the white sky, smashing on the bright red lanterns and peony-patterned window lattices, which was crisp and melodious.

But the sound may be the sound of blood dripping.He vaguely recalled that the master on the left had tied him in the execution room, and let him see how those wounded people who were hanging from the ceiling bleed to death.The distorted faces in the dying struggle were reflected in the pool of blood, and he looked at those faces blankly at that time, as if a piece of his heart had been dug out.

Finally, he felt warm water dripping on the back of his hand, and faintly heard faint sobs.

It turned out to be tears.There were tears beside him.

"Fifth Brother...why do you need to save me...?"

The man whimpered, holding his hand firmly and refused to let go.But she suddenly sobbed and said, "I don't want you to die...you only owe me half your life, why did you take the whole life..."

Someone pried open his teeth and poured bitter soup into him, and then moved his body around.His eyelids were as heavy as pressing on a rock, and his whole body was in pain and limp, so he naturally followed the man's manipulation.Until the sound of sobbing suddenly disappeared like filaments in the wind, his consciousness fell into a dead silence again.

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When Jin Wu woke up, his head was dazed, and he felt as if someone had punched his whole body several times, and his viscera were still burning as he breathed.

He blinked, realizing that he was still alive.At this moment, he was lying on the canopy bed. He had changed into a thin plain white pajamas at some point, and one wrist was tied to the post by an iron chain.

Jin Wu thought in a daze: Probably Zuo Buzheng has been here before, so not only did his preference for wearing white clothes not change, but he was also locked away so that he would not do any more self-harming things.

Suddenly, a surprise call was heard.Before Jin Wu could react, a tear-stained head suddenly approached him.Zuo Sanniang jumped up and hugged him, sobbing continuously.

"You're finally awake! I, I thought I'd never see you again in this life..." The girl wrinkled her nose into his arms with dim eyes.

Jin Wu blinked.Just when he was about to open his mouth, there was a sharp pain in his throat, which made him swallow back his words palely.

Only then did he realize that his mouth, throat, and internal organs were aching like fire, and his mouth was filled with a strong smell of iron rust.Under the severe pain, he felt unable to utter a single word.

Jin Wu paused for a while before slowly saying, "...like...chili water."

With tears in her eyes, Sanniang asked in a low voice, "Huh?"

Jin Wudao: "...your medicine... tastes... like chili water."

His voice was hoarse and rough, like wind and sand scraping on the rocks, it was unbearable to hear.Sanniang cried even more sadly when she heard the words, his throat was burned by the poisonous water, and at this moment he has lost his original clear and clear voice.

She wiped her tears, but the tears kept falling: "Fifth brother, I want you to be well from now on...don't despise your body anymore...I already owe you half of my life and a good voice, and I owe the rest to you." Great..."

But Jin Wu thought: It would be a good deal to exchange a voice for a life.

It seems that this act of threatening his own life saved Zuo Sanniang's life.After this move, Zuo Buzheng and Yan Jiubian seem to have no plans to touch Sanniang yet.But he couldn't help worrying in his heart: the relationship with Yan Jiubian has already been formed, and this action is tantamount to clearly telling Zuo Buzheng that Sanniang is his new weakness.

He was just—he no longer wanted to see people he knew die in front of his eyes.

Jin Wu suddenly felt a little cold again.He thought, what is he living for?

Why is it that the people around him are perishable, but he has escaped from death several times?This is not God's blessing to him, but punishment.God wants him to have no way to die, but wants him to experience all the pain in the world while alive.

"It's better if I'm dead." Jin Wu said with difficulty, his throat rolled, and the bloody smell in his mouth became stronger and stronger.He stared blankly at the curtain embroidered with flowers and phoenixes, and suddenly felt that life was extremely boring.

Sanniang cried: "What's the matter! I won't let you die, you have to go out of the mountain gate with me, and then go to Haijin to watch the Lantern Festival, go to the flower fair, eat wine soup and candy piles!"

Jin Wu felt extremely tired, he shook his head lightly: "Go find someone else."

"Fifth Brother, as long as you live... something good will happen to you one day." Sanniang sniffed.

"I can't wait...that day." Jin Wu said blankly, "For the past four years...every day I have thought about... how to die." His voice was hoarse, and every few words he said became violent. Cough.Sanniang wanted to stop him, but he waved his hand to signal no need.

"In the past at night... I would think... that it would be good to live half a day longer. In that half day...well, maybe there will be a turnaround." Jin Wu said sadly, "...but it never happened."

He never said what was in his heart, but now he spit it out.Sanniang was very disturbed, but she could only hold his hand and sit by the bed, watching his dark eyes open and close a few times and then close them weakly.

She suddenly thought of that rainy day, when Jin Wu sat under the green pine and looked at the red maples all over the mountain, with moist white mist in his eyes.The world is vast, but he is as lonely as a floating weed, and all the cold, rain and haze in the world seem to be wrapped around him.

Sanniang bit her lip and thought for a while, as if she suddenly thought of something, she said eagerly. "By the way, you can't die!"

Just as he was wondering about the meaning of this sentence, Jin Wu suddenly felt his fingertips go cold, and a jade pendant was stuffed into his hand.A white rabbit was carved on the jade pendant, holding half-opened begonias in its arms, which was given to him by the man in white who met in Haijin that day when he was parting.

Sanniang crossed her waist, puffed her cheeks and said angrily: "You haven't returned this jade pendant to that person, how could you go away with the life-seeking ghost first!"

Jin Wu glanced at the jade pendant, frowned for a long time and said, "I never thought of returning it..."

Sanniang poked the tip of his nose and said angrily. "But you said you'd wait for him!"

"Can not wait."

"I see that you should have been straightforward at the time, but now you want to break the contract? Thanks to you who think you are a person who keeps your word, you are not afraid of jokes if you make such a light promise!" Sanniang said.

She found that as long as the man in white was mentioned, Jin Wu would show a rather disturbed expression.Sanniang felt that this look was much better than the previous depressed look, so she couldn't help laughing.

"I know. You saw that the man's martial arts were so strong, and you were far behind him, so you became jealous and wanted to take the jade pendant and deliberately refused to return it..."

Jin Wudao: "Nonsense."

Sanniang said: "Then tell me, can you learn that saber technique? Anyone with a discerning eye can see it. You could see a demon when you looked at that saber that day. If you were in the past, you would have dismissed it." , I thought that I could learn any martial arts at a glance, but that day it was uncharacteristically."

Jin Wu was a little impatient, "...can't learn."

Sanniang smiled and said: "That's right, you can't learn that sword technique, but why don't you have any aggressiveness? I thought that a man would not be dejected and discouraged because of such things, and then work hard. Strong. You see there are such outstanding martial arts figures in the world, but you have to be beaten to death by him even when you fight against the monk who broke the precepts, don't you feel ashamed in your heart?"

Jin Wuyin didn't want to speak with a sullen face.

Thinking about it carefully, he is indeed too frivolous, and he has never taken martial arts practice to heart.Because he can learn such kung fu with just a glance, it is a foolish thing for him to spend all his energy on practicing martial arts.

It wasn't until that day that he realized that there were people in the world that he couldn't see through at first glance, and it was the same with second and third eyes!His martial arts and that person's martial arts are simply the difference between cloud and mud.The opponent's saber technique has been tempered and perfected, and his half-level level really can't catch up.

At this time, Sanniang smiled and posted up and said. "How about it, thinking that there are such powerful people in the world, and you still owe him a jade pendant. Don't you want to die?"

Jin Wu turned his head and pursed his lips, unwilling to answer.

"Ah, ah, why is my fifth brother such a wimp?" Sanniang deliberately dragged out her tone, "I heard that you warriors love to compete, and the best thing in life is to meet a match-worthy master. Bai Yuhe. I see that fifth brother, you are sluggish. Not only can you not beat your sister, but you are not worthy to carry the shoes of an unknown junior who drinks and drinks with you. Look at the list of Jianghu, besides the monk who broke the precepts, who else can you beat? Can you do it? If you bump into the number one in the world... the jade that came out of the Tianshan Gate, wouldn't you be beaten to pieces, and you will be ashamed?"

She deliberately scolded: "You are jealous of other people's good martial arts, you are not convinced, and you say that you can't wait for that person... In fact, you feel ashamed and don't want to meet him? You are a three-legged cat, no wonder you want to die every day... …every day I shrink into the turtle shell, saying that I will die tomorrow, but I still live happily every day, and I don’t feel ashamed…”

Jin Wu suddenly got up from the bed: "...nonsense!"

Seeing that this man finally pulled himself together, Sanniang couldn't help but be delighted at the success of her aggressive strategy.

She turned to hold his hand and said softly: "Fifth brother, do you think this jade pendant is your bondage? Whenever you are unhappy and don't want to live, just look at it. Waiting for someone, there is also someone waiting for you. Martial arts... fifth brother, you are talented, what can you learn at once? But you never put your heart into it, if you put your heart into it, even the best in the world can't do anything to you. "

"From now on, I won't hurt people with poisonous weeds, so Fifth Brother," Sanniang said with uneasy eyes, "You also promise me... to live well, will this work?"

Jin Wu looked at her expressionlessly, and grabbed the jade pendant.He stared at the piece of jade in the shape of a jade rabbit for a long time, and suddenly felt a little dazed.

It's a joke to ask him to take this jade pendant as a thought.

But when he looked at the jade pendant, he suddenly remembered the figure in white clothes fluttering above the Haijin Restaurant that day, with a radiant look and a shocking strike.Seeing that saber technique at the first glance, he was indeed agitated and uneasy for a long time.

If we meet again one day... At that time, can I also reach this level, and be equal to that person?Jin Wu didn't know the answer to this question, but he secretly made up his mind to find the answer.

Zuo Sanniang was slightly taken aback, because she clearly saw a faint smile appearing on Jin Wu's pale face.Raksha's smile was always vicious and sharp, but at this moment in the dim and dancing candlelight, his sharpness was suddenly restrained, like ice and snow melted by the spring breeze.

She couldn't help being curious, and leaned over to ask him. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." He chuckled lightly and put the jade pendant into his arms. "I just thought... one day, maybe I will see that person again."

Sanniang stuck out her tongue: "Just now you were listless and said 'can't wait', now you can look forward to it! I remember you said a month ago: If there is a day that will never come, then It's 'someday'. Don't you believe in that word?"

The world is so big, and there are so many living beings, no one dares to say that he can have more than one sided relationship with others.But Jin Wu felt that he and that person had an unfinished fate, and they would meet again in the end.

"Just believe it this time."

Raksha in black fell down on the bed, closed his eyes and smiled faintly. "In this life... I only believe this once."

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Memories are over~

Back to daily life in the next chapter (although it may also be a bit of a stomachache...

The title is adapted from the self-interpretation of Yin Su's "Song of Counting Pearls": "However, the delusion of counting and numbness will become a demon after a long time."