Substitute thought

13

It took Fuyou three years to understand.

Qin Gou has a bad nature, and liking to him means ridiculing, belittling and playing tricks, and perhaps perfunctory and deceitful.

Fuyou, who was originally born in a bad family and had not received much preferential treatment from others, at first regarded him as the best person in the world for him, and regarded ridicule as a joke and playing tricks as a joke.

He sank in the day after day of ridicule and belittling, and in Qin Gou's hot and cold treatment, he absorbed rare love and thought he was lucky.

Finally, after Qin Gou treated not only himself, but also his closest brother badly, the dull Fuyou came to his senses.

It turned out that Qin Gou was not good at all.

Fuyou doesn't like him anymore, not at all.

Empress Dowager Liu, who was squatting beside him, touched his sleeves, but couldn't find a handkerchief, so she could only touch his head: "Don't cry, I don't know how to coax children."

Fuyou hugged the rice urn, crying out of breath, his cheeks flushed red: "I was wrong, I was wrong, I knew it was wrong, I already knew it was wrong..."

Empress Dowager Liu patted him on the back: "Okay, don't cry, don't cry, you are still young, and you will have decades to go before you leave the palace."

Fuyou wiped his tears, and spoke incoherently: "I can't go out, Qin Gou won't let me go, I've already written a note, but he won't let me go, he said I was making trouble, and he took me out of the house in the middle of the night. Pulled up on the bed and clamped my tongue. He said that if I wanted to leave again, he would pull out my tongue and break my legs...I can't get out..."

Empress Dowager Liu choked for a moment, and sighed: "Isn't he very kind to his subordinates, why is he doing this to you only?"

"I don't know, I provoked him first, but I already knew I was wrong, I already knew I was wrong...but he refused to let me go, even the people around me...I have been afraid to talk to others recently , Qin Gou will anger them, it is my fault that the Yan family was implicated... I tried my best to intercede, but Qin Gou lied to me, he reassured me, but..."

Empress Dowager Liu also heard about Yan Zhi's affairs, but she didn't know that it was related to Fuyou, let alone that Fuyou was too scared to talk to others.

For the past few days, all the anguish and troubles have been pent up in his heart, Fuyou finally found someone to talk to, but he cried a lot and spoke incoherently.

"I already knew I was wrong, I already knew I was wrong..."

Empress Dowager Liu sighed, stood up, walked into the kitchen, and made him a bowl of hot sugar water.

Fuyou squatted under the eaves, holding the bowl in both hands, drinking and crying.

After drinking a large bowl of sugar water, he slowly recovered.

Empress Dowager Liu sat beside him and pointed to the eaves opposite: "You should go back quickly, someone is here."

Fuyou rubbed the tip of his nose that was red from crying, and calmed down: "I see."

He returned the bowl to Empress Dowager Liu, stood up, and saluted her.

Empress Dowager Liu laughed angrily at him: "Are you stupid? I am no longer the Empress Dowager."

Fuyou lowered his eyes: "I'm used to it."

He turned to leave, but Empress Dowager Liu stopped him again: "Fuyou, wait a minute." She took out a jade pendant from her bosom: "Did you bring this when you were in the palace?"

Fuyou nodded: "Yes, but I ran away..."

Empress Dowager Liu smiled: "But who else in this palace would do such a stupid thing?"

Fuyou bowed his head.

"If someone else had brought something to the emperor to apologize, you can bring it back to me."

"It's just a jade pendant."

"Yes, it's just a piece of jade pendant. For me, it's the only keepsake left by my family. For the suspicious emperor, I don't know what it is." Empress Dowager Liu put the things away, "If you are fine, don't come here I won't bother you."

"I just walked here today." Fuyou pulled the corners of his mouth and smiled, "It doesn't matter, anyway, Qin Gou often angers the people around me."

Empress Dowager Liu was afraid that he would be implicated, and he might implicate Empress Dowager Liu too.

They are almost the same, anyway, they are both similar, there is nothing to be threatened.

When Fuyou came out from Empress Dowager Liu's palace, the sound of drums and horns in the distance had stopped.

It should be the end of the sacrifice to heaven, and then Qin Gou will move to the Zichen Hall to accept the worship of the officials.In the evening, I will go to the Hall of Harmony and have a grand banquet for all the ministers.

It's rare that Qin Gou can't be free, so Fuyou has a whole day to wander around and doesn't have to stay with him.

Fuyou wandered around the palace, didn't even eat lunch, just didn't want to go back.

If the entire imperial palace is a huge cage, then Yangju Palace is a smaller cage.

Also staying in a cage, he would rather stay in a cage that is not so small.

In the evening, Fu You returned to the Yangju Hall through the side door of the back hall, but he still didn't return to his room, so he sat under the plum tree in the back hall and threw a stone into the tree hole.

He leaned against the tree trunk and unconsciously fell asleep.

Just a few walls away, the doors and windows of the Yangju Hall were wide open, and the cold wind that poured in from the doors and windows dissipated the warmth, and the gorgeous red silk fluttered with the wind, entangled together.

Qin Gou was still wearing a gown for worshiping heaven, sitting cross-legged in front of the desk, his face was so gloomy that he was about to drip.

It was clearly a big day to be celebrated by the whole world, and the servants did not dare to make a sound, and even breathed lightly, for fear of offending him.

And Qin Gou folded his hands and stared at the door.

He is waiting for Fuyou to come back.

After talking with Fuyou's secret guard, Fuyou finally came back from the side door.

Qin Gou squinted his eyes like a tiger, his eyes were full of signs of extreme danger.

He thought of the report from the secret guard just now: "Master Fu went to the altar first, and left after being stopped by the guards. Then he walked twice on the west palace road, passed by the Empress Dowager Liu's palace, drank a bowl of water, and went to Tibet again. The Sutra Building. After walking around the Sutra Building twice, we went to Jingming Lake, sat in the pavilion on the lake for half an hour, and then circled the palace road..."

Qin Gou figured it out, he just didn't want to come back, he would rather blow the wind outside, not even eat, he just refused to come back.

During the grand ceremony, even though it was far away, Qin Gou saw him.

But so what?It was impossible for him to interrupt what he was going to do just because Fuyou was there.

He slapped the family, and there will be something to kill them next.

Yes, he was a little selfish, because of an inexplicable jealousy, he changed the queen candidate from Yan Fuyun, who was easy to control, to Yan Zhi.

He knew that Fuyou didn't dare to talk to Yan Zhi, and he didn't dare to contact Yan Zhi, for fear that Yan Zhi would be angered.But the more he behaved like this, the angrier Qin Gou became.

After Fuyou knelt down for Yan Zhi, his anger intensified.

Qin Gou wanted Fuyou to see that no matter how much the person he respected and protected, he was still as weak as a puddle of mud and a waste in front of Qin Gou.

It's better for Fuyou to wake up quickly and return to his side.

Thinking of Fuyou's recent changes, Qin Gou felt powerless and irritable.Fuyou no longer smiles at him, is very afraid of him, subconsciously avoids him, and curls up into a ball when he falls asleep.

All these points to a fact that Qin Gou is absolutely unwilling to admit.

Qin Gou didn't understand at all, whether it was Yan Fuyun or Yan Zhi, they were all dead in his eyes, what was there to care about?

Obviously Fuyou himself said that he would always stand by his side and love him forever.

Therefore, no one else is important, as long as he, Qin Gou, is there.

He treated Fuyou well enough, he gave him food, drink and clothes that Fuyou could never get in his whole life.

He has already calculated the compensation for Fuyou, except for a few boxes of jewelry this morning, he has already arranged everything else.

But Fuyou regretted it, he ran out!

Qin Gou violently overturned the incense burner on the table, and the incense ash was scattered all over the floor, raising a large cloud of smoke and dust.

He came back to his senses, and asked sharply, "Where is Fuyou? Fuyou hasn't come back yet? Didn't you say you entered a side door? Where's the person?"

The secret guard quickly knelt down: "Your Majesty, this subordinate indeed saw Mr. Fu enter the side door with his own eyes."

Qin Gou got up abruptly and strode towards the side hall with strong winds as he walked.

He slammed the door open, took a closer look, then quickly walked to the bed, lifted the curtain, and said through gritted teeth, "What are you making a fuss about? Have you had enough?"

no one.

Fuyou hasn't come back yet.

Qin Gou was stunned, took half a step back, and put down the curtain.

When he turned his head, the hidden guard knelt on the ground, so anxious that he wished he could swear to the sky: "Master Fu has really returned."

Qin Gou's face was livid, he clenched his molars tightly, and squeezed out two hoarse words from his throat: "Go find it."

It was getting dark, but Qin Gou had no intention of going to the Hall of Yihe for the banquet.

It was only when Cui Zhi came to ask for instructions for the third time that Qin Gou said in a deep voice, "Just pass on the word of mouth, saying that I and the Queen are too late to meet each other, and let's talk about good things together, so it's not over."

Cui Zhi paused, but finally said nothing: "Yes."

Qin Gou released these words on purpose, he wanted someone to pass these words to Fuyou's ears, so that he could help you in a good way.

At this moment, the attendant hurried over: "I found it, Your Majesty, I found Mr. Fu."

Before he finished speaking, a gust of wind blew past him, and Qin Gou had already walked out the door.

He clenched his hands in his sleeves into fists and walked through the corridor. The sound of his footsteps was urgent and hurried, hitting people's hearts like drumbeats.

A group of attendants gathered under the plum tree in the apse.

"Master Fu, why are you sleeping here? Wake up quickly."

Qin Gou stepped forward quickly and pushed them away.

Fuyou was lying in the shade of the plum blossom tree, and the plum blossoms fell all over his body, almost covering his whole body.Coupled with the fact that the sky was dark and people were coming and going in the foster home, no one noticed him.

Seeing Qin Gou's expression, the attendants didn't dare to speak any more, and retreated silently.

Qin Gou was standing in front of him, and the candlelight in the corridor cast a shadow, all covering the sidewalk.

Qin Gou let go of his tightly clenched hands. He pushed Fuyou, but almost pushed him down again. His tone was still vicious: "Why are you sleeping here? Aren't you afraid of freezing yourself to death?"

Shaking off the plum blossoms on his shirt, Fuyou propped his hands on the ground, trying to stabilize his figure: "I..."

He was still staring in a daze, Qin Gou raised his head and told others, "Pull it down to wash and change clothes."

"Yes."

A group of attendants rushed forward, wanting to invite Fu You down.

Fuyou turned around and called out softly: "Qin Gou, let's talk..."

Qin Gou stood under the plum blossom tree with his hands behind his back, ignoring him.

Fuyou was forcibly dragged back by the attendants, the room decorated for the emperor's wedding was lively and joyful, the room was steaming, there were several large buckets of hot water, and there were still dresses that Fuyou had never seen before hanging on the side rails.

Fu You said to them more than once: "Please inform me, I want to see His Majesty, I want to talk to him."

The attendants pressed him back time and time again, coaxing him patiently: "Please help the young master to wait a little longer. After you finish grooming, you will be able to see your majesty."

After Fuyou finished his bath alone, the attendants came in to help him brush his hair and change his clothes.

The dress on the hem was originally prepared for him.

Fuyou was halfway through wearing it before realizing that something was wrong with this bright red dress.

Suddenly, he pushed away the attendants, escaped from the siege, and ran out of the room.

In the corridor, the attendants chased after Fu You with the clothes and headgear that Fu You hadn't put on yet: "Young Master Fu? Young Master Fu?"

With his arms around a red dress that he was not wearing very clearly, Fu You quickly ran across the corridor, the wind blowing, like stars flashing across the night sky.

He ran all the way to the main hall and pushed open the door of the main hall.

The main hall was also filled with festive red colors, dragon and phoenix flower candles, and wine with wine, all placed on the table in front of Qin Gou.

Qin Gou was still wearing the gown he wore when offering sacrifices to heaven, and sat in the middle with his hands resting on the table.With a sullen expression, it doesn't look like there is any happy event, but it seems that he is here to collect debts.

Seeing Fuyou's appearance, his original gloomy expression faded a little.

It looks better than what Qin Gou thought.

Fuyou has a white face, red lips, long black hair, and is wearing a red dress. Even if she doesn't know how to dress, she still looks good.

It's just that his tone was still cold, and he tapped his knuckles on the table, as if interrogating: "What's the matter? You're not dressed properly."

Fuyou stood at the threshold, and his attendants chased after him, saw Qin Gou, and knelt down on the ground again.

Qin Gou stood up, picked up the red silk and red hijab beside him, and walked to Fuyou step by step.

"I said I'll do it again for you. The dress is newly made for you. The bride price was given to you in the morning. Have you read it?"

It was still the original red hijab embroidered with egrets, Qin Gou shook it off and was about to cover it up for him.

Across a threshold, Fuyou took a step back, but asked: "Is this also counted in 'Reassuring me'?"

Qin Gou paused for a moment: "You can say whatever you want. If I don't go to Fengyi Palace at night, Yan Zhi is just a decoration. When the aristocratic family collapses, I will spare his life."

After he finished speaking, he put the red hijab on Fuyou's head, and handed the red silk to him.

Fuyou took half a step back, refusing to accept it.

Qin Gou raised his eyebrows. It was rare for him to be in a good temper, and he handed it forward, with an orderly tone: "Be obedient, hold me, and I will lead you in."

Fuyou shook his head, raised his hand to take off the red hijab on his head.He looked up at Qin Gou: "I don't like you anymore, I don't want to marry you."

Suddenly, there was no sound.

Qin Gou opened his mouth, Fuyou looked at him, and before he could make a move, he said, "I know, you're going to scold me again next time, I'm always so scolded that I can't speak clearly."

He threw the red hijab back to Qin Gou, and said word by word, "But I don't like you anymore."

Fuyou doesn't like Qin Gou anymore.

Qin Gou may have noticed it a long time ago, but he has been unwilling to think about it, let alone admit it.

From the beginning of winter this year, Fuyou didn't like to smile at him, didn't like to let him touch him, and was always afraid in front of him, and he seldom even said a word.

Qin Gou pinched the red silk tightly in his hand, wishing he could cut off Fuyou's neck.

Early this morning, after sacrificing to heaven and accepting the worship of hundreds of officials in Zichen Hall, he rushed back immediately. In order to fulfill the promise of "you can rest assured", he came back specially to hold this wedding with him.

As a result, he was not there, and the things he had prepared early in the morning were useless.

He just waited all day in the Yangju Temple.

After finally finding it, and after washing and changing, what did Fuyou tell him?

Don't like it?

Are you kidding me?

But the look in Fuyou's eyes was clear and clear, not like a fake.

Not throwing a tantrum, he was very serious.There were no little stars in his eyes.

Qin Gou held his face with both hands, and looked closer, but he couldn't see the little star that existed by default.

Fuyou raised his head, summoned up his courage for the first time, and looked at him with such firm eyes.

The attendant kneeled on the ground behind him, trembling and daring not to speak.

It seemed as if the world had quieted down, and there was no sound.

Qin Gou's eyes seemed to be on fire, and he gritted his back molars, his voice was hoarse and low: "Say it again."

Fuyou blinked his eyes, and said seriously: "I don't like you anymore, I don't want to marry you, I want to come up with Gong Caishi. If you want, we can sit down and talk, but don't scold me anymore, It's useless."

Qin Gou gritted his teeth, and once again let out the low growl of a beast threatening its prey.

He tried to calm the little squirrel with this voice, telling him to take back his words quickly, and then hug him like before, and say "like" to him.

He is giving Fu You a chance.

He could pretend he hadn't heard this sentence, he only gave Fuyou this chance.

But it was the first time that Fuyou was so stubborn in front of him, unwilling to give in and bow his head.

Qin Gou would never ask him a third time, let alone give him a third chance to speak.

The attendants lowered their heads, and in the dead silence, they heard Fuyou's scream and Qin Gou's roar.

"close the door!"

Qin Gou obviously didn't listen to Fuyou's words. Since Fuyou didn't want to cover his head or lead the red silk, he simply tied Fuyou's hands with red silk, and then just like the last time he quarreled, he directly tied Fuyou's hands. I picked it up.

What a joke, the little oriole is about to fly away, why not sit down and talk?

Talk about a fart, it is true to lock people up first.

The attendant at the front didn't dare to look any further, lowered his head, pulled the door tremblingly, and closed the door.

At this time, the sound of Fuyou slapping Qin Gou's shoulder and Fuyou's shout came from the palace.

With a "bang", Fuyou kicked over the dragon and phoenix flower candle on the case.

The fire was only lit for a moment, and the candle went out before shedding tears.

Qin Gou was furious, one arm tightly wrapped around him, and the other hand went to pour the wine.

A lot of wine spilled out, and when it was served in front of Fuyou, there was only half a glass left.

Fuyou struggled desperately, turning his head away to avoid the wine glass he handed over: "Qin Gou, don't... you are always like this, crazy, self-willed, self-centered, and can't even listen to what you say. I used to just like you , I am not raised by you..."

Qin Gou quickly grasped the point: "You really like me."

Fuyou struggled until his hair was messed up, when he heard him say that, he froze for a moment, looking at him in disbelief.

How could he understand it this way?Was he listening to anyone?

Qin Gou lowered his voice like never before: "Stop making trouble, be good, stop making trouble."

Qin Gou put down his wine glass and refilled two wine glasses.

He picked up two wine glasses in a row, then grabbed the red silk that bound Fuyou's hands, put one hand on the back of Fuyou's head, passed his fingers through his hair, and poured the Hejin wine into Fuyou's mouth.

Fengyi Palace, Qingluli.

The attendants that Yan Zhi brought into the palace ran back from the outside to report.

"Eldest Young Master, His Majesty will definitely not be here tonight, Eldest Young Master can rest assured, wash up and sleep."

Yan Zhi, the eldest son of the Yan family, is tall and straight, even if he is wearing a weird "empress" dress and knelt in the Qinglu for a day, he still has the demeanor of a nobleman.

Yan Zhi turned his head, and the calm demeanor around him taught his followers to calm down unconsciously.

"Speak clearly, what's going on?"

The entourage sighed: "There is a commotion at the Yangju Hall, it seems to be arguing." He lowered his voice: "It seems that there is still a fight, and I heard the chaotic noise inside."

Yan Zhi frowned: "Who is fighting with whom?"

"Who else can be a serious master who lives in the Yangju Palace? It's nothing more than His Majesty, and the one raised by His Majesty..."

Before he could finish speaking, Yan Zhi stood up and turned to go out.

The entourage couldn't stop him: "Eldest Young Master, according to the rules, you can't leave the Qinglu the first night. Isn't it best if His Majesty doesn't come? Eldest Young Master?"

Yan Zhi strode out of the Qinglu without any scruples. After thinking about it, he turned his head and ordered: "Go and get something to eat. I'll go to Yangju Hall to have a look."

"Son..."

Yan Zhi's tone was firm: "Why don't you go soon?"

In Yangju Hall, the gust of wind blew open the windows that were not tightly closed, and the window sash slammed on the wall with a "bang".

The wind blows in, darkens the sky full of star lights, stirs up the red silk in the palace, and entangles endlessly.

The curtains in front of the couch were half-draped, Fuyou was placed on the brocade quilt, and the unworn Zhenghong dress slipped down to the forearms and piled up on the waist, revealing only the snow-white tunic.

Qin Gou was kneeling in front of him, still dressed neatly and meticulously in his gown, with one hand resting on the back of his head, and the other covering his bound hands.

Qin Gou rarely kisses Fuyou.

According to Qin Gou, Fuyou had to be 20 years old to be considered an adult.

But he clearly suppressed Fuyou and made him do many things.

Kissing, or biting, what is it?

Qin Gou is a real carnivore. When he saw Fuyou's clean blood, his own dirty blood also started to roar.

Not long after, Fuyou struggled to lift his foot and kicked Qin Gou's chest.

But instead of kicking Qin Gou away, he turned himself over.

Both of them smelled of alcohol and blood in their mouths, and it was impossible to tell whose it was.

Fuyou fell on the couch, panting, his chest rising and falling, Qin Gou still knelt in front of him, his expression unchanged.

It doesn't look like a kiss, it looks like a fight.

Fuyou tried to get up, but Qin Gou grabbed his ankle.

Qin Gou dragged him back, held him down, wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with his thumb, and spread it on his lips.

It is more gorgeous than red silk.

As usual, Qin Gou pinched his chin and tried his best to maintain a calm tone: "Little Huangque, I will give you one last chance. If you say 'like me' now, you and I will get married tonight."

Fuyou was about to speak again, but Qin Gou stared at him closely, and said seriously, "Don't forget, I just married the queen today. If you don't like it, I wave casually, and other people will naturally like me. It doesn't have to be you either."

Fuyou looked at him: "As you like..."

Of course, Qin Gou refused to listen to him, so he hugged him.

Fuyou pushed him away, struggled to get off the bed, rolled to the ground, almost hitting the edge of the bed with his head.Qin Gou subconsciously stretched out his hand to help him cushion it, and in such a gap, Fuyou stood up and escaped.

Qin Gou went crazy.

Fuyou thought with the strong smell of blood in his mouth.

He has always been the only one who respects me. If someone dares to defy him, of course it will not end well.

But Fuyou didn't want to follow him anymore, since the palace, he has been following Qin Gou.

What's the use?

Qin Gou took his proposal of going out to the palace to collect poems as a joke.

Yan Zhi, his respected elder brother, was dragged into the palace by force and made a joke of the world and a target of the family.

All his emotions, all his resistance, were regarded by Qin Gou as a farce of the little squirrel bouncing around in his hands when it was full.

Qin Gou enjoyed the farce when he was happy, and let him be quiet when he was unhappy.

Qin Gou said he wanted to make up, so they made up.

Qin Gou asked him to beg him, so he knelt down and begged him.

Fuyou didn't like this kind of life at all, and he didn't like such people at all.

He used all his strength to open the main hall door and walked outside.

There wasn't a single attendant outside, and they didn't dare to stay here, for fear that they would be beheaded if they encountered something.

Fuyou stumbled and ran down the steps, turning his head to see if Qin Gou had caught up.

Qin Gou stood in front of the palace gate, with the flickering candles behind him, looking at him like that, as if he was sure that he would not be able to fly out of his palm.

Suddenly, when Fuyou stepped on the steps and was about to fall, someone supported him.

Qin Gou, who was standing in front of the palace gate, paused for a moment, then turned back and came out with a long knife.Yan Zhi, who was also wearing a Zhenghong dress, stood at the bottom of the steps, holding Fuyou's arm and helping him steady.

He looked down at Fuyou, and called out, "Fuyou?"

Fuyou raised his head in a daze, but when he saw him, he quickly lowered his head: "It's not Fuyou, it's not Fuyou."

Yan Zhi raised his face and saw the blood on his lips and the bruises on his chin.

He couldn't hide his anger, but he still tried his best to lower his voice: "Is this how you lived in the palace? Didn't you say..."

Fuyou shook his head: "It's not Fuyou..." As he spoke, he began to cry, "Brother...it's so embarrassing...how can I live in such a mess? Don't pay attention to me, don't look at me...I So stupid, I'm so stupid..."

He was crying, sobbing choked up.

Yan Zhi patted him on the back, and said warmly: "It's okay, it's okay, what does it matter in front of elder brother?"

Qin Gou held the knife with one hand, put his thumb on the handle, and pushed the blade half an inch out of the scabbard.

The blade glowed silver in the moonlight.

Qin Gou was so angry that the arrogance around him almost burned the entire Yangju Hall.

With a "bang", the long knife in Qin Gou's hand stood on the ground, shattering a whole tile.

In front of him, Yan Zhi hugs Fuyou.

Both Yan Zhi and Fu You were dressed in red, which was a gift from Qin Gou.