God knows

I didn't mean to let her get too close, but it's not easy for people with compatible personalities.Just like voices with the same frequency must resonate, I can't resist the attraction of Beth to me, whether it is the kind of friendship or love.

"I'm very angry with SpiderGwen's story, but it doesn't make sense to say it, because the Spider-Man in the 616 world is Peter Parker, who is also being slandered and abused, so I think it is acceptable."

"Because Gwen Stacy is a woman, she is considered a relatively disadvantaged group." I twisted the can opener on the aluminum Coke can and played with it in my hand. "And Gwen seems to be a very sexy woman."

"It's because her last name is Stacy."

Beth laughed out loud, picked up my Coke and drank it, my eyes stopped, but after thinking about it carefully, there didn't seem to be anything extremely inappropriate, so she let her go.

"It's because the movie version is Emma Stone, a woman who is both intellectual and beautiful, really good."

Beth looked up at me.

"Gwen Stacy or Mary Jane?"

"I don't have to make this choice even if I'm not Peter Parker?"

"That's right." Beth laughed, seemingly determined to hear my answer.

"Well... MJ and Gwen have their own advantages, but it's just... I like blonde hair."

Beth said "Oh".

"What about you?" I asked back.

She pursed her lips and looked at me thoughtfully.

"If I choose..."

When he finally wanted to speak, he was interrupted.

The sound of the iron chair in the student cafeteria being dragged on the ground was very harsh. Derek didn't care much about it. After pulling it, he sat down on the oblique side of me—that is, right next to Beth, and didn't even say hello to me. Open your mouth and speak.

"Age of Ultron!"

I glanced at Beth in embarrassment, and she gave Derek a displeased look.

"I know about Age of Ultron, but the Avengers movie series is obviously a commercial operation," I said.

"Sasha said the same thing, but she promised to accompany me to see it."

"Of course she agrees." Because she loves you, she tolerates you, okay?

I sighed.

"Derek, I met Beth." I said, briefly introducing, "Beth, this is Derek, his girlfriend Sasha is a living bookcase, and the information including comics is quite complete." Rick's own words are blank slates.

"Hi." Beth was obviously upset about being interrupted, but I really can't understand the bitterness when I say it.Isn't it just a matter of choosing one of the two heroines?

"Hi." Derek glanced at Beth, nodded his head and turned his eyes back to me, "Sasha said that you were reading "Wonderful Detective" a while ago, and said that she is not following this series anymore , I can give you the book."

He said and put a bag on the table.

The bigger possibility is that Sasha's bookshelf space is not enough, and he needs to clear out some comic books he has read.

"Thank her for me."

Derek responded and pushed the chair away and left. The sound of the iron chair scratching the ground was disgusting and made people cringe.

"Did you watch The Good Guys?" Beth didn't comment much on Derek, but looked at the bag of books on the table and raised an eyebrow.

"Uh...uh...that's right."

In fact, the person who reads "The Wonderful Detective" is Phoenix. Now I don't need the things in this bag, but when I think about it carefully, I can keep these comic books for an unknown future. Maybe Tian Fei Nice will be back, then she can read as much as she likes in my room.

The reality is that holding such hopes is more of a self-comforting element, but at least there is something practical that I can hope for, which is better than looking forward to a mass of invisible nothingness.

"Derek isn't the most polite guy in the world, so forgive him," I said, snatching my Coke from Beth's hand and gulping it down.

"Um."

Beth responded lightly, stood up and picked up her backpack, her posture was really casual and handsome, she hummed Faceittiger softly, it should be the song sung by the band in the comic SpiderVerse story, the lead singer and drummer were MaryJane and GwenStacy.

When I read the manga and found out on YouTube that there is actually a band singing this song in reality, I was really surprised and happy beyond words.

I don't understand why Beth is so terribly to my liking, but even so, something is missing.

"I think you seem very popular."

Beth said as I walked down the corridor.

"For Derek, it's not a good relationship."

"Sam even walked across half the hallway to say hello to you."

"That's right, it's also because I've helped him a lot before."

I think of that ball, Sam's cheerful smile, Joyce's harmonious atmosphere around him, making people almost believe that true love is something that can be described.

I almost couldn't help playing the song Itgetsbetter in my head. At that point in time, I hoped that people around me could love better and live a happier life. From this point on, I realized that I was not happy enough Enough to be considerate of others.

I think of the prom that night, of Lisa leaving behind my back, and that Phoenix is ​​still willing to comfort me with blurred eyes. This kind of Phoenix is ​​definitely not cold-blooded and heartless, but why is there still no explanation at this point in time?

"How about eating together after school?"

Beth suggested walking on without waiting for my answer, and leaving me at the door of the literature class.

I glared hard at Jeffrey who was smiling at me in the classroom, and turned my head and shouted at Beth.

"Wait, Beth!"

The way she turned her head made me think she was afraid of the answer.

Would Beth be afraid of human answers?Someone like her who needs to expect things from others?

"Well, where are we dating?"

When I got off the school bus, a pair of thick and plump hands patted my back, making me almost lose my balance and fall forward.

"Ann, won't you hang out with Xiaojie today?"

Russell's cheerful voice reminds me of a clear sky.

"I'm having dinner with Beth."

I said, pointing to Beth who usually doesn't take the school bus, she waved to Russell and waited patiently behind me.

"Russell, what a nice tie."

"Thank you, Fang Sihua, for helping me match." He said, with pride and shyness in his voice, "We are getting married next month. It sounds a bit rushed, but there never seems to be a moment more certain than this."

I laughed.

"At least the dance at the wedding is well prepared."

He laughed, "That's right!"

"You and Jeffrey are so fucked up."

After getting out of the car, Beth listened to my narration of Russell's story and concluded with a smile.

"I also think, what do you do to interfere with other people's love affairs..." He said but felt sentimental. This story was not just experienced by me and Jeffrey.There is no empty space, but only I understand what it means.

"Ann, is that person waving at you?" Beth asked in a low voice, pointing to the opposite side of the road.

I squinted.

"Yes, that's for me."

I raised my arm and waved it vigorously. The opposite Camille and Cynthia looked like they just got off work. The beautiful girls walked together, and the picture was very beautiful.

"Say you're popular, and it turns out it's not just in school."

I listened and laughed.

"At this point in time, it's most comfortable to have a slice of apple pie with hot coffee."

I add creamer to her coffee and stir it gently.

"It's kind of weirdly romantic to say the least, Ann."

"I'm afraid only you understand this sentiment."

"That's fine."

She seemed satisfied, concluded.

"I think I like you."

Beth lowered her head, her hair drooped slightly, even though it blocked her face, it couldn't stop her clear and decisive expression.It looks so exciting, but it doesn't make any sense to me.

She saw the expression on my face, and understood the meaning of that expression.

"It's a pity, Ann, I wish you could like me too."

"I like you too, Beth..."

I say.

"It's like tomato and mustard. I don't think there is such a perfect match in this world." I lowered my head and said, afraid of hurting her, "But I..."

I have someone else in my heart, and even though she may no longer exist, I still have her in my heart.

Regardless of true love or relationship or even fate, the fact of falling in love with Phoenix is ​​a real thing, and the feeling of loving God can make sense, so why can't human beings?

"...I wish I could love you as much as you love me."

As I spoke, I looked up, and saw a familiar figure in front of the counter, Jasmine was helping customers check out, and not far away was the figure of Johnny quietly reading a book.

so many memories.

If it weren't for enough experience, how could there be enough people to recall and feel it?

I will miss, will miss you.

Ann, you are special, as I said, you are special to me.

Her words are all lies, if I was special enough, she wouldn't treat me like this.

Phoenix, you are so cruel, you have brought love to so many people, but deprived me of the chance to love.

"I'm really sorry, Beth, I'm really... so sorry."

"Ann, wait..."

As I said that, I stood up and walked outside, ignoring Beth shouting behind me, only knowing that my mood at this moment was chaotic and uncontrollable.

As soon as I pushed open the glass door of the dining room, I felt a tingling pain in my left shoulder.

When he lowered his head, he saw a small blood stain on his shoulder slowly oozing.

I was afraid of blood and pain, and I didn't know what was going on, so I felt dizzy, and my legs gave way and I fell to the ground.

I still remember when I lost consciousness.

There was no way I could have misread the silver light on the left shoulder.

Cupid's arrow.

There is no way in my life I could be wrong.