Like a fish in water

Lu Shui woke up, looked at the strange environment around him, and felt like he had a long dream. In the dream, he confessed to his parents about his relationship with Chen Yu, and then he couldn't find Chen Yu. After a long time, Chen Yu Come, tell him: I am leaving.

Lu's mother walked into the ward and saw that Lu Shui had woken up. She walked over, put the porridge on the cabinet next to her, and said with a gentle smile, "Lu Shui, you finally woke up. You have been sleeping for two days. You are scared to death." Mommy."

Lu Shui looked at his mother as usual and asked in a daze, "Mom, has Chen Yu been here?"

Mother Lu's smile froze immediately, and then she held Lu Shui's hand and said softly, "He came here before and left again."

Lu Shui felt uncomfortable. It turned out that those were not dreams, they were real. He really left. He felt pain in his eyes and wanted to cry, but he couldn't cry. He said, "Mom, I feel sad, really sad."

Lu Shui was discharged from the hospital and returned home. He stood at the door for a moment in a daze. This is his home, where he was born and raised. There are parents who love him, but there is no Chen Yu or his lover.

As soon as she got home, Mother Lu asked Lu Shui to go back to her room to rest.Lu Shui's fainting really frightened her. The doctor said that she fainted because of malnutrition, depression, and stimulation.Lu's mother decided to take care of his health first, and he will gradually get better after a long time.

Chen Chen went to his house as soon as he learned of Chen Yu's return. He followed Chen Yu to the living room and sat down. He looked haggard and calm when he saw him.Chen Chen asked cautiously, "Where's Lu Shui? Is he not at home?"

Chen Yu got up and poured him a glass of water before saying, "He probably won't be back for a while."

Chen Chen understood instantly when he heard it, and just as he was about to comfort him, he heard Chen Yu whispering: "Chen Chen, this time, we didn't break up, really, I told him that I was waiting for him at home, waiting for him to come back, I believe that he will definitely come back..."

Chen Chen felt very sad, his own feelings were not going well, he originally thought that Chen Yu and Lu Shui had been together for so many years, they could go on happily forever, but what happened?After so many years of being in love with each other, it seems that the happiness in the past has been denied.It really is unpredictable.

Chen Chen approached Chen Yu, put his hands on his shoulders and said with emotion: "The two of us really have a bumpy road to love... But, if you are willing to wait, if you are willing to believe, I am also willing to believe."

When Chen Yu went to work again, Liu Yang saw that although he behaved as usual, his complexion was not very good-looking, and he was often in a daze, as if he was worried.It has been like this for several days. When he got off work this day, he deliberately followed Chen Yu, "Anchor Chen, what's the matter with you recently? You always look preoccupied."

Chen Yu said lightly, "It's nothing, it will be fine."

Liu Yang worriedly followed him all the way to the subway, Chen Yu looked at him helplessly and smiled and said, "Liu Yang, what are you doing, don't follow me like this, I won't be overwhelmed."

Liu Yang pretended not to believe him and said, "I care about my idol, just in case."

Chen Yu really laughed now, it's not that exaggerated, "Liu Yang, don't worry, life is so beautiful, I don't have that plan, I really don't, and don't look at me worried all day long, if you are not a man Yes, I thought you liked me."

Liu Yang saw that Lu Shui laughed, and he knew how to make a joke. He felt relieved, and suddenly wanted to tease him. He looked at Chen Yu and said seriously: "Anchor Chen, I am indeed a man, and I do have a favorite." He is also a man, but it’s really not you. To me, you are the fans’ appreciation for idols. Don’t think too much.” After speaking, he looked at Chen Yu who was stunned and thought, he doesn’t seem to be thinking A closed person, why can't he really accept that a man likes another man.

Chen Yu looked at Liu Yang's serious expression, and couldn't tell whether what he said was true or not. Could it be that he was really the same as himself? He was suddenly a little excited to find a companion, "Is what you just said true? You Do you like men?"

Liu Yang looked at his complicated expression, as if he really hoped that what he said just now was true, so he mustered up the courage to say: "It is true."

After finishing speaking, he didn't dare to look at Chen Yu.

After hearing this, Chen Yu calmed down. It is really not easy to meet someone like him. Now he looks at Liu Yang and feels a little kind.

After waiting for a while, Liu Yang didn't hear Chen Yu's words. He turned his head carefully to look at Chen Yu. He was looking at him with a smile, showing no repulsion or disgust at all. He was suddenly relieved.

When Liu Yang was about to get out of the subway, he heard Chen Yuyi say loudly: "Liu Yang, we are all the same."

Liu Yang stood there blankly, looking at the speeding cars and thinking: We are all the same, we all like men.

Lu Shui didn't go back to school after school started. An Qi called him and the phone was turned off. He found Chen Yu very worried. Chen Yu told her that Lu Shui would not be back in a short time, and now he didn't know his identity. In the end, he said: One day, he will come back.An Qi looked at Chen Yu in front of her with a slightly sad expression. She felt a little uncomfortable. They were so in love, why had to separate?

After Lu Shui finished class, he packed up his things and walked out of the school gate. He rode a bicycle, wearing earphones, went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables, and then walked towards home.When he got home, he greeted his mother first, and then said, "Mom, I've already bought the vegetables, and I'll make dinner."

It has been more than a month, and he has never mentioned Chen Yu again. He goes to work every day, gets off work, buys vegetables, cooks, cleans the house, behaves sensible and filial, and never acts like a baby in front of them again.But Lu's mother felt more uneasy seeing him like this. She wanted to talk to Lu Shui several times, but was stopped by Lu's father, who said: Give him time.

Lu Shui also felt that he was much better. In the first few days, he would cry every day while listening to Chen Yu's program. He couldn't sleep all night and cried inexplicably.He cut all the words that Chen Yu said to himself in the show, stored them in his mobile phone, and listened to them over and over again. Slowly, he could stop crying, and slowly, he could fall asleep, only occasionally When I washed my face, I noticed that my eyes were a little red.

He started to ride his bike to work as before, and then he did grocery shopping, cooking, cleaning the house, and ironing his own shirts.There are fewer and fewer animal-print clothes in his closet, and more and more shirts.He said to himself: Lu Shui, get better and be well, he is still waiting for you at home.

Slowly he would smile in front of his parents, and they began to mention the blind date cautiously. Lu Shui would go there every time, and then come back and say: We are not suitable.Then, she cried in the room thinking of Chen Yu.

Chen Yu didn't have to go to work on weekends, so Chen Chen came to accompany him, Chen Yu said disgustedly: "Don't keep running here, I'm fine now, I'm fine, what should you do?"

Chen Chen ignored him and said, "I don't have a girlfriend, where should I go? Go to the street and watch people show their affection." Afterwards, Chen Yu ignored him, and it would be nice to have someone to accompany him, and the room was quiet , especially when I came back at night, I felt terribly quiet.

Liu Yang called Chen Yu to have dinner together, and Chen Chen happened to be there, so they went together.

Liu Yang and Chen Chen had met before, and the three of them were eating and chatting like friends. Chen Yu asked, "Liu Yang, why did you think of inviting me to dinner today?"

Liu Yang took a sip of the soup and said, "Today is my birthday. It would be great if I could spend too much time with my idol. It would be even better if my idol could invite me to dinner again."

Chen Yu stopped his chopsticks and said, "It turns out that I want me to treat you to dinner. You should have said it earlier. However, I haven't prepared anything for your birthday. I'll treat you to this meal."

Chen Chen picked up the water glass in hand and said, "Liu Yang, happy birthday."

Liu Yang picked up the soup bowl in front of him and touched him, saying, "Thank you."

The three happily ate and chatted, and Liu Yang suddenly said, "Idol, you have to answer my last question today, right?"

Chen Chen looked at them blankly and asked, "What question? If he doesn't want to answer, you can ask me. I don't know anything about him."

Chen Yu said seriously: "Actually, I've already told you the answer, think about it yourself."

Liu Yang thought about it seriously, but he didn't think of anything. He said doubtfully, "You didn't tell me?"

"When you asked me, I asked you if you still remember Lu Shui." After Chen Yu finished speaking, he lowered his head and picked the fishbone in the bowl.

Chen Chen glanced at him worriedly.Liu Yang suddenly realized: "Oh, I see, I saw him waiting for you at the door before, why didn't I think of it?" Then, he said excitedly: "Anchor Chen, why don't you ask him to come with you? It's okay now, it's really hard for people like us to be together."

Chen Yu stopped what he was doing, lowered his head, and said with some melancholy: "Yeah, it's really not easy for people like us to be together."

Chen Chen looked at Liu Yang in disbelief and said, "You too?"

Liu Yang thought of Chen Yu's depression for a while, so he understood. He smiled and said enviously: "Anchor Chen, you are already very good, at least you have been together. Let me tell you, I haven't even confessed my love yet." He came in a hurry, and that person left, and it has been more than three years now, and there is no news at all." After finishing speaking, he couldn't hide the disappointment on his face.

With Chen Chen and the others like this, the atmosphere was too depressing. He said, "What are you doing? Today you are going to expose your love history. Are you comparing who is worse? Don't tell me that, none of you can beat me."

Chen Yu adjusted his mood and looked at them and said, "I am not in the same situation as you. Our Lu Shui may come back suddenly one day." Yes, he has been waiting, he has always believed, that person will come back After one day, he can wait one day less, and after one month, he can wait one month less... It has been almost three months, and the time for his return is much closer.

Spring, summer, autumn and winter, the four seasons change endlessly, the time is endless, and a year has passed.

This year, Chen Yu didn't spend time with his colleagues on his birthday. He took a day off and walked along the way Lu Shui used to work to the school where he used to teach. The gate was locked and the inside was empty.He stood at the door for a while, then went to the restaurant they frequented, ordered Lu Shui's favorite dishes, and watched a movie.Then, it was dark before heading home.

He felt very happy today, he could think about Lushui without depression, as if that person was by his side.When he got downstairs, he habitually looked up. It was pitch black, and he walked into the corridor with a wry smile.After opening the door and turning on the light, he smiled and said loudly, "Honey, I'm back." But it's been a long time since the man came out of the house, and the house was so quiet that it made people feel flustered.

He sat on the bed and wrote: Wife, today is my birthday. You are not here, and I have not been with my colleagues. Thinking about you all day.You must be well, I never make a wish on my birthday, because I don't believe in those, but now I want to make up all the wishes of 27 years, I hope you can come back soon.I love you.

He opened the cabinet, took out Lu Shui's small box, and put the piece of paper in it.He lay on the bed, looked at the empty pillow next to him and said: Good night, wife.

Just as Lu Shui was about to ride out, he heard someone shouting, "Mr. Lu, wait for me."

Lu Shui saw the math teacher in their class approaching, a very quiet girl, she blushed and said, "Ms. Lu, can you give me a ride?"

Lu Shui said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I don't take anyone else." After he finished speaking, he saw the girl's eyes turn red, so he put on his earphones and rode out.Lu Shui only carried one person on his bicycle, and that person was Chen Yu. At that time, they were just friends. That day when he saw a boy carrying a girl, the girl naturally reached out and hugged the waist of the person in front of him. Lu Shui suddenly turned to Chen Yu. Said: I will carry you.He drove Chen Yu out of the car and said: You hold me, or you will fall down in a while.After a while, he felt Chen Yu's hand carefully tugging at his clothes, and he can still clearly remember the temperature of that person's hand and his own heartbeat at that time.Later, they got together.

On Chen Yu's birthday, he stayed by the computer early, but his voice didn't appear after waiting for a long time. That day, Lu Shui didn't fall asleep all night.

On Lu Shui's birthday, Lu's mother said that he would celebrate it for him, but he said no, don't bother, Lu's mother had prepared a table of dishes early that day, and when Lu Shui came back, it was already night. They watched Lu Shui come in with a bouquet of white roses in his arms, and smiled faintly and said to them, "I bought it myself."

That night Lu Shui heard Chen Yu say at the end of the show: Today is the birthday of someone who is very special to me. Whether he can hear it or not, I want to say to him here: Happy birthday, there is someone who is still alive waiting for you.Give him the song "Be Happy"...

Time slips away from people's lives day by day without knowing it. Busy people can't feel its passage at all. When they stop occasionally, they realize that another year has passed.

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