Sang Yu Fei Wan

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After a long time, he heard Zhong Beichen ask, "Why?"

"What about you?" Yu Sang asked calmly, "Why are you?"

Maybe this is a difficult question, and Zhong Beichen didn't answer it for a long time.

Yu Sang didn't wait any longer.He wanted to close the door, but Zhong Beichen held on stubbornly.

Yu Sang just smiled, thinking so too.

He has no right to close Zhong Beichen's door.This is Zhong Beichen's home, the house that Zhong Beichen borrowed for himself.His only generous gift in these years does not really belong to him.

It will eventually be returned.

So Yu Sang said, "Zhong Beichen, I'd better move out."

Zhong Beichen withdrew his strength all at once, but Yu Sang didn't expect that he couldn't hold back the strength he wrestled with Zhong Beichen, and the door closed with a bang, making a loud noise.

Zhong Beichen knocked on the door anxiously, saying that I won't ask you anymore, and I won't force you anymore.

Yu Sang turned around, slid down slowly with her back against the door, and sat on the ground.

The door vibrated through his chest, hitting his heart and making him feel sore.

Yu Sang thought for a while and said:

"My father left when I was six years old, and my mother and I were left at home. Without a source of income, my mother went to work in the county."

"My mother is very strong and capable. She told me that studying is the most important thing, and don't think about anything else. I just study hard."

"I was the only one in the village who was admitted to college. When I was in college, I never thought about how to earn money. At that time, I thought, anyway, if I go to a big city, the salary will not be low no matter what. It's better than farming at home."

"I don't have much ambition either. I think it would be nice if I could earn a dead salary, do something I want to do, and wait for my life to die."

Zhong Beichen stopped knocking on the door and fell silent.He seemed to be listening carefully.

"Later my mother fell ill."

"As soon as she got sick, the sky collapsed. She was sent to the county hospital. She said she couldn't be cured, so she had to send her to the city. When she arrived in the city, she found that she didn't have enough money, so she asked her grandpa and grandma to borrow money. The village knew that I was a college student. If you can always afford it, you lend it to me, but it’s not enough.”

"It's not enough, the doctor's critical illness notice is swaying in front of your eyes. It's like a ghost, haunting you in your dreams. You know, the kind of suffering of not having money, watching your only relative not get it treat."

"If she really died like this, I even feel that I am the one who killed her."

"That's when I realized that my mother raised me too well and was too naive."

Yu Sang couldn't speak anymore.He thought he was quite peaceful at first, but at this moment, he felt really sad.He raised his head, closed his eyes gently, and poured tears into his heart before speaking again.

"But I have no right to be so naive."

"Zhong Beichen, when you ask me why, I don't think I have anything to answer. I'm a very ordinary person, forced by my livelihood. I haven't known happiness for a long time, and it's not suitable for me to taste it."

"You told me to get out of my comfort zone last time, so I could make a breakthrough. You asked me why I continued to go on blind dates and why I didn't change my job."

"It's not that I haven't tried it, and the result is not good. To put it bluntly, these are not my comfort zone at all. Over the years, the only place I can call comfort, the joy I feel, all come from you."

Yu Sang said slowly: "Beichen, my comfort zone is you."

Speaking of this, Yu Sang stopped continuing.

There is nothing more to say.

He even thought aimlessly that changing to a new house still needs to be put on the agenda.The rent here, whether the other party wants it or not, is a unnecessary expense for him.

It's not that I don't feel uncomfortable.

But discomfort is normal, mixed with all kinds of pain in life, it is neither distinguishable nor worth mentioning.

At this time, I heard Zhong Beichen's voice coming through the door:

"...If it was me, there is no need to leave."

"Why?" Yu Sang asked gently, like a patient teacher guiding students who don't understand the exercises.

"I..." Zhong Beichen hesitated to speak, not smoothly, but he still said, "I will...I can...help you."

"Why help me," Yu Sang asked, "Do you love me?"

"Do you love me forever?"

Zhong Beichen was silent.

After a while, he heard Zhong Beichen's rapid breathing, as if he wanted to give his own answer.But Yu Sang spoke first.

"No one's love should be so heavy and firm at the beginning. Maybe you see me... think my life is so new, so different from yours. So you want to understand, and even think it's love. But fall in love with me It's not going to be the same fun thing. You'll be tied to me: my job, my family, my long-held social norms, my ingrained value judgments, and... I can't always see the exit Life. These things will wrap around you like vines, and you don't know how to say let go... I know you are like that. Even I... can't accept loss. At that time, it will be neither you nor me would do any good."

"too difficult."

Yu Sang leaned against the door panel, with one leg curled up, her arms resting on her knees, and she stated calmly.

"A lot of things I do are hard, being with you makes other things easier. But you are the hardest thing."

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Two people who are very different, even if one is willing to give love and money, the other can't take it for granted

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