happiness is sweet

【89】

In the blink of an eye, autumn has come, and the maple forest not far from the company is already covered with maple leaves.

In this golden country, feeling the cool autumn breeze, Su Junxian loves to rest on the stone chair by the lake.

As usual, Su Junxian walked slowly on the path in the forest.

Recently, the work pressure is a bit heavy, there are a lot of troubles, the announcements are full, and I can't rest much, I always work late, so I can only come here to steal some time when I have free time, breathing the fresh air, Su Junxian I feel a lot more relaxed.

Looking up, not far away, Cui Zhixuan was leaning on a tree trunk, looking towards the lake.

Su Junxian was slightly taken aback, hesitating whether to go up and say hello.

Just when he was hesitating, Cui Zhixuan also saw him.

Seeing him walking towards him, Su Junxian also walked towards him.

"Junxian..."

"Why are you here..." Su Junxian forced a smile.

"It's nothing... I just think it's beautiful here..." Cui Zhixuan leaned back against the tree trunk, lowering his head slightly.

"Hmm..." Su Junxian didn't know how to continue, so he could only stand aside in embarrassment.

The atmosphere was a little awkward, neither of them said much, they both understood that they were just waiting for the other to speak.

Su Junxian didn't know how much Cui Zhixuan knew, let alone what Cui Zhixuan was thinking, so he tried to speak.

"Zhixuan...we...are still friends..." Su Junxian didn't dare to look at him.

Cui Zhixuan was silent, and then opened his mouth: "Junxian...I have liked you for eight years...how can we be friends again..."

Su Junxian's heart sank, as if he couldn't breathe in pain...

At this moment, my heart was very complicated. His confession really made me happy, so should I give him a response... I don't want to be proud anymore... If he still likes me... let's try it... here each other a chance...

Su Junxian suddenly felt a little lack of oxygen in his brain, and raised his head as if making up his mind.

Just as he was about to speak, Cui Zhixuan interrupted him mercilessly.

"Junxian... let me take you back..." Cui Zhixuan stood up.

Su Junxian smiled self-deprecatingly, and drove himself away, so there are some words...whether I can't say them anymore...

"No need... I can go back by myself..."

"...That's okay..." This time, Cui Zhixuan didn't insist any longer, as if he was tired.

Su Junxian stood up and turned around to pass him by. At that moment, he couldn't hold it anymore, tears welled up in his eyes.

Cui Zhixuan's breathing became heavy, holding back his tears.

I don't know if it's because I was too tired from the announcements these days, didn't take a good rest, and experienced such emotional fluctuations, before I walked a few steps, Su Junxian suddenly felt a little dizzy, and then his eyes went dark, and he fell down uncontrollably down.

Cui Zhixuan's heart tightened suddenly, as if he felt something, he turned around abruptly.

"Junxian!"

Cui Zhixuan's heartbeat stopped suddenly, and he hurried over to hug him into his arms, his movements were so flustered that he didn't look like him anymore.

Without thinking too much, he directly carried Su Junxian into his car, and took him home.

Along the way, many images flashed in Cui Zhixuan's mind, which were nightmares that he would never get rid of.

Su Junxian was lying on a stretcher covered in blood. When the doctor said he was hopeless, the lights in the emergency room were always on...

This is the eternal pain in Cui Zhixuan's heart, he can't lose Su Junxian again!

I went home in a panic, took him to my room, and called a family doctor to examine him.

It was a false alarm, Su Junxian was just overtired, coupled with the urgency, he passed out, and he would be fine when he woke up after a while.

Cui Zhixuan sat on the edge of the bed with relief, held his hand tightly, and never let go...

My heart is full of regret and guilt, and I really am, why don't I care enough about him, I have to reflect on this!

So in Cui Zhixuan's self-reflection, Su Junxian slowly came to his senses.

It wasn't a big problem at first, Su Junxian wasn't that weak.

Seeing that he was awake, Cui Zhixuan showed a big smile, and asked him how he was still dizzy, whether he was hungry or not, and if he wanted to make something to eat.

But Su Junxian didn't agree with him, and kept struggling to get up.

Cui Zhixuan couldn't resist him, so he hugged him.

Seeing the ambiguous postures of the two, Su Junxian became angry and didn't speak clearly, so why hug!

Cui Zhixuan looked at his swollen little face innocently, what's wrong with him, are you angry again?

"What's wrong baby?"

Looking at Cui Zhixuan's awkward smile, and thinking about the previous grievances, Su Junxian didn't beat around the bush this time, and got straight to the point.

"You said, you always say you like me and love me, isn't it all fake, are you lying to me?"

Cui Zhixuan was slightly taken aback: "Why do you think so..."

"You like Zhenyu, right? You don't love me at all, just because you can't get Brother Zhenyu, I'm just a substitute!" This is a declarative sentence, and Su Junxian said it as if it was a fact.

Cui Zhixuan frowned: "You doubt my feelings so much? Don't believe me so much?"

"How do you want me to believe it! He will always be number one in your heart... May I not mind..." Su Junxian said more and more quietly, and finally lowered his head.

Cui Zhixuan sighed and hugged him into his arms.

"I'm sorry..." The person in his arms froze.

"It's my fault...it's all my fault that I didn't say it...you fool, how could you be a spare tire or a substitute? I love you from the bottom of my heart, I love you for real...I admit, I have a little bit towards Zhen Yu Selfishness, but that is entirely out of the desire to protect him between brothers, I think you will have the same idea as me, he is an angel, and everyone wants to protect and care for him... But, you are The person I love, this is naturally different. Before, I always used my own method to love you... Ignored your feelings... You never responded... I was always hit... Later... ...I still feel tired...I've been chasing you...But there seems to be no hope...I also thought about giving up...But it doesn't seem like you don't have feelings for me...So I'm confused...I don't know what to do Dealing with these complex emotions...that's why..."

Su Junxian bit his lip, his clothes were already wet with tears, this was the first time he heard Cui Zhixuan's innermost thoughts clearly, if he had asked earlier, there would not have been so many twists and turns...

"I'm sorry too..."

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