Who is the boss and who is the attacker

What Xia Zimo said casually was quickly absorbed and digested by Zimo's mother, she stopped chewing, and stared at her daughter with wide eyes, "Zimo, you won't also... …”

"Mom, did you understand so quickly? Well, actually, I..." Xia Zimo put down the bowl and chopsticks, lowered her head and wiped the tomato sauce on her hands. She squeezed a paper towel in her hands, It's long since lost its original appearance.

Seeing Zimo's "confession", the old man snorted, filled some dishes for Xia Zimo, held the bowl, looked at Zimo who had not spoken for a long time, and knew that she was conflicted, "Okay, okay , What a big deal. Hurry up and eat, mom won't force you, don't give birth if you don't give birth. Just think clearly, pick up the chopsticks obediently, and eat quickly. I worked hard to make this table, if you don't eat, you will have to Oh waste."

"Yeah." Xia Zimo nodded, picked up the chopsticks, picked up a mouthful of vegetables, chewed them in her mouth, and looked at her mother, who had a kind smile.

Xia Zimo didn't have a big appetite in the first place, coupled with the torment in her heart, she ate it within a few bites.The appetite of the elderly is not as good as before, and the lunch of the mother and daughter is over soon.Xia Zimo and her mother cleaned up the dining table separately, and her mother took the initiative to do the washing. Xia Zimo couldn't grab it, but her mother said she hated her for not washing it cleanly, so she insisted on doing it herself.Zimo took the dishes on the table and put them into the refrigerator plate by plate.Every step is heavy and powerful, as if her current mood is more tense every second than the last.Xia Zimo wanted to tell her mother about being with Lan Luyi, but she always lacked the courage, so she still had to tell her about it.The hairs on her back stood up for some reason, and there seemed to be a cold wind approaching near her calves. Xia Zimo's heart was full and swollen, and her whole body was plunged into a kind of cold, trembling.

"Mom, I have something to tell you." Xia Zimo spoke very slowly and in a very light tone, talking as if walking on eggshells.

The movements of Zimo's mother's hands were very nimble. The bowls and brushes were clean and bright. She controlled the water in the bowls and responded to Xia Zimo's words, "Say it, what are you talking about. Step aside, you are in front of the cupboard." .”

The more kind and friendly the mother was, the more uncomfortable Xia Zimo felt. Maybe it was because the blood was concentrated to supply oxygen to the brain, and the neglected appetite also rebelled.There is a voice in my heart, which has been looping singles, telling the truth, telling the truth, letting my mother know my heart, and letting my mother understand my life.

"Mom, I like women."

The words have been exported, and the water is hard to take back.Xia Zimo's head was heavy, and she was staring at her mother's every move, for fear of making mistakes. However, at the same time, her fisting heart seemed to be withdrawn from her body for a moment. Xia Zimo had no time to think, and could only accept what happened next. everything of.Yes, I want my mother to know my heart, yes, I want to be with Luyi, yes, yes, 1 must be firm in Xia Zimo's position.The mother didn't respond for a long time, which disturbed Xia Zimo's nerves. Xia Zimo didn't know if this was the calm before the storm.

"What did you just say, can you say it again?" Zimo's mother closed the door of the cupboard, looked at Xia Zimo, and remained motionless.Zimo said that she likes women, um, maybe I heard it wrong, as people get older, the functions of various organs are declining, Zimo's mother said this to herself, and asked Xia Zimo for a response.

"Mom, I said I like women." Xia Zimo repeated, looking at her mother without blinking her eyes, the pounding heartbeat shook her eardrums, and its heaving seemed to burst through her chest.

"Like women?" Zimo's mother wiped the water stains on her hands to confirm what she heard. She needs to further confirm this kind of "like". You must know that "like" has many meanings, and it is not that simple. "Are you gay?"

Mother's tone was calm and gentle, no mania, no growling, no crying, no laughing, yes, mother's mood was very calm, as quiet as water, as quiet as ice, so quiet that Xia Zimo didn't know how to express it , other than a serious and unequivocal answer, "Yes."

"Are you gay?" Mother stepped forward and repeated, today's air resistance is great, and the voice is very slow, yes, it must be like this.

"Yes, I am." Xia Zimo replied again. Xia Zimo couldn't read her mother's eyes. They were too clean and pure to see anything else. This was a question and answer, a question, a kind of uncertain.

Zimo's mother looked at Xia Zimo, and the closer she was, she still couldn't hear what Zimo said clearly, or maybe it was her inner choice that hindered her hearing. "Gay...sexual...?" Mother said every word, clearly and accurately pronounced.

"Yes, gay." Xia Zimo still answered, she didn't know how her mother would react, maybe the next second would be a loud slap on the face, maybe her mother would burst into tears and despair, maybe... ...Thousands of images were passed through her brain. Xia Zimo couldn't be sure which one was more likely to happen. She chose to accept it. Please don't be silent at this time.

Time passed quickly, and Zimo's mother's response was unexpected.

"Okay, don't think about it. Do you like women? Who is this woman? Xiao Ye? You are just good sisters, don't think too much. Zimo, it's not your mother who said you, you are also here to find a boyfriend It's time. Everyone has such a stage, and it will be fine slowly. Don't think about it." Mother continued to get busy, as if cleaning the house was a homework that could never be finished.

"No, no!" Xia Zimo quickly retorted, how could that person be Chen Xiaoye, no, Xia Zimo emphasized, "It's not Xiaoye."

"Isn't it Xiaoye? Who is that? It's alright, don't talk about it, just help me sweep the floor. Let's see how messy this room is."

"Mom, I..." Xia Zimo took the broom in her mother's hand, and swept the ground carelessly. In her empty mind, there were some thoughts, the main thoughts.Although the mother's reaction was unexpected, it was not very negative. Although this feedback was not the best news, it also added some weight to Xia Zimo's lack of foundation.

Zimo's mother watched Xia Zimo sweeping the floor, and many scenes of Zimo's childhood emerged in her mind.When Zimo was less than one year old, she had a fever of more than 39 degrees, and her red face was as hot as a piece of potato. She was taken to the hospital. The doctor put a needle on her small forehead and dripped it with medicine. The liquid flows slowly down the infusion tube.From that day on, Zimo's mother was thinking that in the future, Zimo must find someone who loves her so that she can rely on her life; three-year-old Zimo climbed up a high place on a bench, and accidentally fell from the She fell off the stool and fell all over the place. At that time, Zimo's mother was thinking that Zimo must find someone who can discipline her in the future so that her life will not be too bad; Writing and drawing with pen and paper, in order to write a beautiful "Xia" character, I wrote it over and over again dozens of times, but without success, and finally cried into a little cat. At that time, Zimo's mother was thinking, in the future, Zimo Momo must find someone who can guide her, so that her life will not lose its direction... A little bit of memory outlines the appearance of a prospective son-in-law, "ta" is sunny, knowledgeable, kind, and cultivated , "ta" likes Zimo, appreciates Zimo, tolerates Zimo, loves Zimo deeply, until she dies.But no matter how much he thought about it, he never thought that it would be a woman.What happened to the children now, one Chen Xiaoye and another Xia Zimo, they were good and well-behaved since they were young, their behaviors are similar, why do they have to be exactly the same when it comes to choosing a spouse?Women, Zimo likes women...

The kitchen table was wiped four or five times by Zimo's mother, and it was as good as new. "Momo, after cleaning up, you and I can go sit on the balcony." After the mother finished speaking, she took a bowl of fruit she liked and walked towards the balcony.Xia Zimo also packed up the tools in her hands, washed her hands, and followed.

"Zimo, do you really like women? Are you sure?"

"Well, I'm sure." For this confirmation, Xia Zimo was like a poached egg. He didn't know how many times he had put it in the oil pan and fried it. His heart was churning, and his heartbeat also accelerated.

Seeing Zi Mo's nervous application, the mother picked up an apple, held the handle of the knife, and peeled the fruit little by little, to ease the atmosphere and relax Zi Mo's nerves.

"Zimo, have you ever thought that even if I agree, other people will object. For example, your aunt, do you think they will agree after hearing it? Have you ever thought about it?"

"I don't care, their opinions, I really don't care. They didn't give birth to me, raised me, and never cared about me since I was a child. If they didn't, why should they blame my life? They have no right to judge my life. I don't care What do they say, what do you think, I only care about what you and Dad think. You are my closest people." Xia Zimo's emotions were obviously much agitated.Xia's mother's method really worked, Xia Zimo was no longer nervous, and her mood also returned to a normal level.

"Does your father know about this? Have you considered his feelings?"

"I......"

When mentioning his father, Xia Zimo raised his head, but lowered it again.Yes, the father objected, and even wanted to sever the father-daughter relationship with Xia Zimo for this reason.Thinking of this, Xia Zimo felt uncomfortable, without grievances, outright uncomfortable, heartbroken, sad. "Mom, I don't know. But I want to ask your thoughts first. I don't know how to go the next way. But I'm sure about my feelings. I'm in love. I'm deeply trapped in it. I can't extricate myself. I don't Regret, even if the world leaves me, I will never turn back. Maybe you will say, this is stupid. But mother, how much youth can be wasted in life. I like women, not because Xiao Ye also likes women. The point is not comparable, it’s just a coincidence. As for liking women, I...scientifically speaking, there will be genetic components and acquired formation. I don’t know that in my life, the ratio of genes and acquired is different. How much. But I want to hold on for a while, I want to hold on. I think I have found the person in my life, and I want to share the rest of my life with her. At the same time, I want to be with her To serve you and my father together, to be filial piety. But, I don't know if you can give me such an opportunity. I don't know if you can accept it...I know it will hurt you, but I firmly believe that If you get the news from someone else, it will turn the hurt into a disaster. I don't want that. Honestly, I wanted to tell you the news a long time ago. I wanted to share it with you, but I don't know if it's okay Can you accept it as an ordinary relationship? You participated in Xiao Ye's affairs, but it was from the perspective of a bystander. Now you, as my mother, a lesbian mother, I know that you are also under pressure and need to think. But I I still decided to tell you my thoughts and choices. I will not give up my persistence, and I don't want to lose the only family in this world."

Zimo and her mother fell into a new round of silence, staring at each other speechlessly.