fall in love with ex-husband

Due to my absence from too many examinations and chemotherapy, no matter how much I persuaded Zhang Kaiji this time, Zhang Kaiji refused to listen. He insisted on asking the school for a long vacation, and came to accompany and take care of me throughout the whole process. He also packed his luggage and moved him to the hospital, just to accompany him in bed.

I was strongly against it at first.Naturally, I don't want to delay his work because I have to have an operation. Now that the teachers in colleges are so introverted, he was promoted in an exceptional way. Now that he is in a critical period of career advancement, let him take such a long vacation. What if the research group loses the right to speak?All men want to have a career, especially if he has such a strong self-esteem, how could he be willing to be unemployed like me and be a useless squatting at home.

Don't look at what I'm saying right now, as if I'm only thinking about Zhang Kaiji's work, but in fact, I know best in my heart what I'm worried about.

It has only been two hours since I went through the admission procedures in the morning. I have opened the short video software countless times and then closed it in boredom. It is difficult for me to calm down and watch any funny videos. The air is hot and uncomfortable.The doctor arranged an examination for me in the afternoon, and if there is no accident, I will probably be able to operate the day after tomorrow.

I was clearly mentally prepared and prepared for the worst, but when it came time to face it, I still inevitably felt nervous and scared.Is this a common problem of all patients, or is it because I am too cowardly to blame, and I have the idea of ​​​​running away in my heart.

Perhaps it was because both parents and Zhang Kaiji placed too much hope on this operation, for peace of mind, they found the best doctor in the city to perform the operation this time.But in fact, we all know that any operation has risks. No one can say with confidence that there will be no accidents and 100% no sequelae.If you have expectations, you will be disappointed. Instead of asking the doctor whether the success rate of the operation is really as high as he said, I hope they just treat this operation as an innocuous appendix operation. One in the stomach, the other in the head.Or maybe it's because I'm too negative, and I used to be like this. Whenever I encounter something with a probability, no matter how high the probability of success is, I subconsciously think that my bad luck will only become the one that doesn't win. The annual meeting is still a supermarket point redemption.

After Zhang Kaiji heard my fabricated worries, although his face was full of helplessness, he still couldn't say any words of reproach.

The examination in the afternoon required an empty stomach. They were afraid that I could only watch but not eat, and my eyes would be uncomfortable, so they consciously left the ward at meal time.

Unlike the last time that the hospital had no spare wards and had to live with other people, this time for the convenience of Zhang Kaiji to accompany the bed, he lived in a single ward.Although it is much more convenient, and I don't have to worry about being embarrassed during the doctor's examination, but I always feel that something is missing.It was fine when Zhang Kaiji and the others were there, even if I felt irritable, I wouldn't feel restless, but once they left, I couldn't stay for even a second looking at the empty room.

After changing my clothes, I slipped out of the hospital.

It's not that I want to get cold feet, but I plan to go to the big girl.She's been sick longer than I have, and she sure knows how to relax me preoperatively.I believe that as long as I meet her and be comforted by her natural optimism, I can regain my confidence.

However, I haven't contacted her for a while, and I can't guarantee that she won't be transferred halfway.After all, when she was discharged from the hospital last time, she told me that she didn't like to stay in the same place for too long. If I didn't see her when I went to find her, it meant that she went to another hospital and found a better doctor.

I was full of expectations and went to the inpatient department to apply for a visit, but got the news that the big girl had been discharged from the hospital.

The head nurse didn't know which hospital Da Niu went to, but just told me that Da Niu's parents came to pick her up on the day she was discharged from the hospital.

I didn't see the big girl, so I had to go back to the hospital.

My parents went back to the ward before me. They didn't see me, and thought I had sneaked away like last time, so when I went back, the old couple was in a hurry in the ward.Surprised and delighted to see me, I hurriedly wiped away my tears, greeted me pretending to be normal, and asked me where I had been.

I told them I was just out for a walk, and to reassure them I quickly changed back into my hospital gown.

They were the only ones in the ward, Zhang Kaiji was not there.

My parents told me that Zhang Kaiji had something to do and would come over later.

I'm not in the mood to find out where Zhang Kaiji went, because I'm thinking about other things.

I can't get in touch with the big girl.

I also sent her a message last month, asking her how she was doing, and although she was slow to reply, she would reply anyway.

I haven't been able to wait for her news this time.

I vaguely felt that something was wrong, and I had an answer ready to come out.

But I didn't think it was true, I rubbed my trembling hands twice, and called the big girl.

I think, if it's not convenient for her to send a message, it shouldn't matter if she answers the phone to tell her she's safe.

The phone didn't go through as I expected.

When I hung up the phone, my heart sank.

My parents were the first to notice something was wrong with me.But because my mind was in a mess and my emotions were out of control, I once again showed impatience towards them.

My parents said it was fake not to lose, but they still comforted each other and reminded me of new news.

Hearing this, I quickly took out my mobile phone and saw the familiar head portrait flickering, as if a cluster of flames symbolizing life were stirring, and my hanging heart finally let go.

It's big girl.

"I was busy just now. What's the matter?"

I was relieved to hear she was fine.

"It's nothing. I just went to see you, and the nurse said you were discharged."

Da Niu replied very slowly, like an elderly person who is not familiar with smart devices.

"Well. Discharged."

I hurriedly asked where she went.

The big girl still took a long time to get back to me this time, but instead of answering my question directly, she asked me how my condition was.

The big girl's question completely opened up my conversation box.The beeping of the phone's keys lingered in the ward.Only when I face her who is also suffering from the same disease and feel "equal" can I completely open my heart and say something that I can't say to my parents and Zhang Kaiji.

I told the big girl that I'm in the hospital again now, and I'm going to have surgery soon.But I was very afraid that the operation would fail, and I was also afraid of the sequelae after the operation.My language was unadorned, revealing my impatience and restlessness.But when I think that the person opposite is a big girl, and only she can understand me 100%, I don't think it matters.

I think, what I hope to hear is not the big girl's advice to me, but to hear her tell me in the tone of someone who has experienced it, that surgery is not scary at all, and it is over as soon as I close my eyes and open them.

She did exactly what I wanted and reassured me that the procedure was easy.

I have heard what she said no less than ten times from my parents, Zhang Kaiji, and the doctor. Every time they say it, I can’t really let me feel at ease, but when I heard Da Niu say this, the haze that enveloped my heart disappeared instantly. up.

When Zhang Kaiji came back, I had already finished talking with the big girl.

The big girl said that she is very busy recently and may not be able to reply to my messages in time, so I don't have to worry.

I said yes, and said that I would go to her after my operation was over.

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