The emperor's loyal dog, oh, ran away?

Some things, in fact, I can always feel more clearly than outsiders.

The same is true for Li Rang.

For example, he has lost his memory, but he also knows that Mu Ya and Chaoyang can be trusted by him.

This feeling is deeply dependent on oneself and cannot be lost with memory.

This man is special to him.

He knew it from the first time he met him.

But he also understands that the memories between them will probably not be so pleasant.From Chaoyang and Mu Ya's attitude towards him, traces of the 'past' can be found in himself.

Li made him maybe a little slow, but he still slowly figured out something.

He didn't know what happened to them before, what "voluntary" choice he made, if the choice to lose his memory was made by himself.

He would respect his choice at that time, he gave up this man and chose Mu Ya.

He could probably guess that he was more grateful and touched by Mu Ya.

Mu Ya has been by his side for so long, he has felt gratitude to him, guilt, embarrassment... all kinds of emotions...

Every time he got close, Li Rang felt an unspeakable weirdness in his heart.

He endured again and again, he thought, it was because he lost his memory, that's why he lost the sense of intimacy with this former lover, and the intimacy with him was also inexplicably strange and inexplicable.

He doesn't hate Mu Ya, he doesn't hate him at all, but there seems to be a bottom line in his heart for being close to him.

Li Rang felt that line several times, but couldn't figure out what it was.

until……

Xiang Yaojue appeared.

He was terrified, he was afraid, and the old self in his heart shouted loudly: "Leave him, leave him, go farther, go farther..."

He did the same, but he didn't give the chance...

His leg was injured, was it because of this injury that he couldn't escape from this man.

If he had wandered around in the rivers and lakes in the past, then what is the identity of this man?

What was the reason for the conflict between him and himself, why did he call out his name in such unbearable pain in a coma, and why... gave him such a crippling injury.

There are many questions in his mind.

Why does Mu Ya and Chaoyang seem to dislike him, why is she so afraid every time she gets close to him...

Hearing his voice, I couldn't help but get goosebumps, being approached by him was like being bitten by the neck by a fierce beast... He tried to hold back, hold back the fear of this person.

So afraid of him, obviously so afraid...

why?

Why seeing him hurt, seeing his appearance, his heart can't help but ache.

Li Rang couldn't figure it out... He really couldn't really watch him die, but after thinking about it, no matter how curious they were, they could only stop here.

No matter what reason he has, whether he really loved him or not.

He made a choice.

He chose to leave him and go to Mu Ya's side.

Mu Ya treated him very well, because he took care of him for three months so unswervingly when he was sick and had nothing to rely on.

Those three months, if not for him and Chaoyang.

There is no Li Rang today.

He couldn't help but wondered in his heart, if... He meant if, it wasn't Mu Ya or Chaoyang who woke up in front of him, but him...

perhaps……

will be different.

But where did so many ifs come from?

He will come here, but he doesn't want him to die.

Li Rang's presence by the bed may have a miraculous effect on the emperor. The old man held Li Rang's hand so tightly that he couldn't even move when Lord Yan came.

He didn't know how to distinguish the person in a coma, but he didn't catch the old doctor who administered the needles and medicine for him, or the guard brother who wiped him clean.

It just happened to grab Li Rang who didn't even extend his hand.

Seeing this, the doctor asked Li Rang to stay here.

After one night, the man really survived, not only survived, but also grabbed Li Rang's hands black and blue.

After that, the man's five fingers were stiff, and his blood was blocked, and the doctor forcibly pried them open.

The peaceful person was out of breath again and kept talking in his dreams.

Li Rang saw that his condition was improving, so he told the doctor to leave, but the man vomited blood on the spot.

Li Rang and the doctor were so frightened that they froze on the spot.

I've never seen such a shameless and shameless patient. If it weren't for the fact that this person was seriously injured and dying, the doctor would have doubted whether he was playing with them on purpose.

But the current situation of this person does not allow them to guess more, the doctor can only take Li Rang's hand, and press it back to the side of a man who seems to be about to burp.

The man immediately grabbed Li Rang again, groped for a while, as if he had confirmed that it was the person he was looking for, and held Li Rang's hand again.

This time, just grabbing Li Rang's hand was no longer enough for him to feel at ease. He kept struggling and didn't know for a moment whether he wanted to pull Li Rang over or turn over by himself.

Li Rang saw that he was so uncomfortable, the doctor and Tiansi pushed him again, Li Rang sat beside him, looked at someone's pale face, hesitated for a moment, then stretched out the other hand that was not held tightly by him. hand, patted him.

He shook his hand back, and then patted his chest lightly.

Only then did the man gradually calm down.

Li Rang is a little uncertain. Is it really possible that he... is so important to him?To such a point?

Even if he saw it with his own eyes, he still couldn't believe it.

But he still won, because he really couldn't move his feet like this.Can only be by his side.

This stay lasted for several days...

It's as if there is a mechanism on him, as long as Li Rang leaves from his side, he will be very excited.

Li Rang stayed with him for five days as much as possible.

His condition is much better and he is out of danger, the doctor told Li Rang.

Li Rang was still hesitating, but Mu Ya came at night...

Mu Ya didn't say much, he just brought him a cloak and stood quietly at the door looking at him.

Time to go back.

He is out of danger, and there is really no need for him to stay here.

Li Rang tried to let go of someone's hand, because Li Rang no longer struggled these days, and he didn't need to grab Li Rang too much, but Li Rang broke away unexpectedly.

By the time he reacted and wanted to catch Li Rang, it was already too late.

Li Rang had already stood up.

"Mu Ya..." He called out to him in a low voice.

He felt ashamed of Mu Ya, if he knew what he...had happened with this man before... and what he did this time, wouldn't it hurt his heart very much.

Their current relationship and their own behavior are too much no matter how you think about it.

But even so, he didn't accuse him of anything... Mu Ya is so kind and gentle to him, and he gave him enough time.

After the man's injury stabilized, he came to pick him up.

He has no reason not to go.

He felt ashamed, and he really wanted to ask him if he was angry, but he felt that this question was unnecessary.

He pursed his lips and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Mu Ya turned sideways slightly, and opened the paper umbrella in her hand: "It's raining again tonight, you're afraid of the cold, I'll pick you up."

Li Rang's fingertips warmed up, and the people behind him grabbed them again.

wrong……

He was already one step away from the bed, how could he catch himself at such a distance?He turned his head and saw someone propped his arm on the edge of the bed, trying to stretch out his hand, and then grabbed one of his fingers.

When Li Rang turned his head, he saw Xiang Yaojue slowly raising his head.

That man... Seeing how fragile he is, his face is still pale, only a faint redness can be seen inside his dry lips, and the outside is dry and white...

His hair is messed up on his head, such a good-looking man, a serious illness seems to have peeled off all his shells, at this moment his...

"you're awake."

"..." He took a breath and looked at Li Rang's eyes with a little water: "I will do it for you too."

"...You have a good rest, I'm leaving." Li Rang said so, but he couldn't shake his hand away.

He looked so fragile, and his movements were so dangerous, if he tried hard, he might fall out of bed.

"Li Rang...give me a chance, at least until I know...how should I treat you." His voice was so low that he couldn't hear what he was saying, but he still wanted to... ...At the moment when Li Rang is still soft-hearted towards him, he got his sideways eyes.

But he couldn't even make a sound, he couldn't support this posture, and fell down...

But he didn't fall to the cold ground, but was hugged by Li Rang who was in front of him.

he……

Li Rang hugged him.

Xiang Yaojue put his arms around Li Rang's neck, put his nose close to his face, and took several deep breaths.

He vaguely understood a few things.

The Li Rang who used to be, just stretched out a hand to him, and he could smile so sweetly... He lost that Li Rang.

He admitted that he has been enjoying it all the time, squandering his goodness and watching his stupidity.

He didn't think he needed such a stupid relationship in his life... He even laughed at him many times for being trapped by love and suffering from love.

At that time, he just needed himself... like this... like this, to catch him, to hold him.

So simple, yet so warm and safe.

He was wrong.

Wrong.

He is just a flower peacock who is unwilling to admit love and thinks he is lonely.

"I'm sorry... Li Rang... I'm sorry..."

In his entire life, no matter what his situation was, he had never apologized to anyone like this.

He has never apologized to anyone, everything is right and inevitable in his eyes, and he has never regretted it.

He thought he never would.

But now... he puts himself at his fingertips, and his most... the person he loves the most...

In his arms, he was still a familiar person, familiar smell, breath, familiar voice... It was his Li Rang, it was his Li Rang.

"You didn't apologize to me. It's good that you get well. You take good care of your illness. I should go." Li Rang helped him back to the bed.

And the man on the bed... let go this time.

He let go of Li Rang, and watched him walk towards the door, approaching the side of another man, Mu Ya put on a cloak for him, held an umbrella for him, and the two walked into the rainy night side by side.

He slowly exhaled, pressing his heart, the jealousy could not be calmed... It was so twisted that his internal organs were about to burst.

Hahahahahahaha... deserve it.